Wednesday, October 18

Fool On Duty

You can have everything else in life but if you don't have love, respect, understanding and appreciation from your near and the dear ones, then you have nothing. If they can't and won't take few minutes to really listen to what you have to say, if they don't seem to understand how you feel, if they don't respect your feelings, if their love is just verbal only and if they demonstrate that your existence in their life is not appreciated, then why do you still hang around wanting to be heard and loved.

Guys I feel really sad today. I feel I was living a lie all this time. You know when you go on pretending for a long time like everything is ok but suddenly it hits ya and you realise it's high time that you accept it than keep pretending it's all rosy. It's one of those days that I feel like I was a fool for far too long. It's like I was a ghost of someone else that I had to be and I just realised that. I wanted to be wanted but it seems like it never was and it never will be. Sometimes I really think I would be better off dead.

Anyways, take care. I shall be ok. Till next time enjoy my 'Casual-ties' post below.

Current Music: Everybody's Fool by Evanescence
Current Music Update: Send Me An Angel by Scorpions

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Anonymous said...

Heh!

Lienumberone said...

Ah! At last the bud is beginning to flower. Realise that you have nothing in life. And stay with that! Btw, a few pulls on a toke ciggy does wonders in observing people.

Anonymous said...

Sometimes you'll find yourself in a place where you are not appreciated enough for what you are, but its okay...things will be different one day.

take care...I hope wat ever that it troubling u goes away...and I kow how it feels wen your near and dear ones dont 'understand' u...but sometimes u can't change things..let them be.hugs!

Jewel Rays said...

Keshi,

You are special. And nobody can take that away from you.
i don't really know what happened but i hope to see a smile on ya face soon. And You are loved..

*hugs * Special one..

Aditi said...

I think u would necessarily have all of that. You are such an incredible person that it would be hard not to care about u, respect u and listen when u talk...
**hugs**
feel better

~*. D E E P A .* ~ said...

On the revenge post :
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Maybe there are some crimes in which the criminal can be forgiven , but not all

Remember the 1992 mumbai blasts case ? Only we know how humiliated / hurt and broken we were .. and for the past 14 yrs , we were living w/ the injustice. And now that the death sentence has been given, a lot of people will sleep easier.

2 months back too , the blasts rocked mumbai. it was done by the same agency. it could have been avoided if the punishment was meted out earlier.

the death penalty makes people think twice before they take an antisocial step.

In 1999, a minister's son was acquitted for rape. Today , he is facing death / life penalty ... This sentence puts the murdered girl's family at peace.
In the rape case , life imprisonment is enough ....

There is no point in dealing with compassion when it comes to hard core criminals... IT makes no effect on them. They just utilize it to go free , and recommit there henious crimes

~*. D E E P A .* ~ said...

Ont the casual sex post
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maybe , it is the animal lust in them

EKENYERENGOZI Michael Chima said...

My Dear Keshi,
Well my loving muse, you are not a fool.

God knows you, heart, soul and spirit, that you not a fool.
And nobody can fool you even if they think so.
Fools are those who think they are fooling others.

When you talk like this, you get me really worried. And it is 9.22 am in Nigeria and I have not even seen any of my messages and we are preparing to go to the village for the funeral of the mother of my brother in-law. I have to help my sister to comfort her bereaved husband and his family. So, we are not so merry now. And reading your post has only made me more worried.

I truly really care and love you. Because as I said earlier deep calleth after deep. I am attracted to you, heart, soul and spirit. Because of the inspiration of the breath of your spirit as made manifest in most of your awesome posts. And nobody can take your genius away from you.

What God has already ordained will forever remain ordained.

Come what may
No matter what they say
No matter what they do or where they go
No matter their false ego.
Your spirit will hold sway
And you shall triumph all the way.
For as long as you truly believe in God
You will overcome all the challenges in the world.

Donald Trump said, keep on doing what you enjoy most for your benefit and the benefit of humanity and you will surely succeed.

If only you know me, you would know that as long as I love you, then nobody can bluff or rebuff you.
No human or demon would dare.

And if God loves you more than I do and 1,000,000 times than anyone can ever love you, then who can bluff or rebuff you?
No Jack or Jupiter can fool you my darling.

If you need a safe haven, you would be welcomed like a princess in our house on Bonny Island and in our villages in Eastern Nigeria as long as they know you are with me. And we have enough homes and lands for your comfort 24/7.

Please, my sweet Keshi.
You are bigger, greater and mightier than any evil.

Just continue to inhale the breath of the Holy Spirit of the Almighty God who has given you the greatest gift of all. Love. For God is love. And His love surpasses all knowledge.

I love you.

Cheers and God bless you 24/7.

Yours truly,
Michael Chima
"Orikinla Osinachi"

~*. D E E P A .* ~ said...

On the current post
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Oh oh ! whatz making u feel so bad ?
u sound totally depressed :((((

SaffronSaris said...

Poppy doll-pearl, huggzzzzzzz
What happened? Be strong and think positive, okay? And Saby will say nice things on this post.

Cazzie!!! said...

Keshi, you are heard and we do love you. Why else would you create interest in the things you say through your blog? Forget all the shitty things people say in the comments section, you have control over it by being the author and being able to delete it.
As I said, there has to be someone there for you, you just don't know it yet. You were asked to dance with a few guys last time you went out weren't you? I tell ya... guys won't ask ya to dance if they cannot see that you are good natured.

Akshay V said...

Hey Keshi.. dont feel sad. I can understand how you are feeling right now. I have also been there. The best lesson I learnt from that was.. if someone does not want you, cant respect you then it is that persons loss and not mine. I usually think of it that way. I dont know if it helps you anyway. But take care.

Unknown said...

If u feel sad.. then "feel" sad! Dont fight it... Cry, yell, break things, throw things... but just feel that off nad well... cry out...
u'll feel much better....

different ppl have different ways of dealing with it....

I feel the exact way u r feelin now... many times.... sometimes I wonder why on earth am I alive! that feeling of not being wanted, that can storm u up! And its tough 2 be calm.. its just too restless! But.. well... I know u will b just fine!

Get back soon!

PerfumesReviewer said...

I just wanna say
Bas Ek Pal(Just One Moment)
can change ur life!

delhidreams said...

take care keshi.
when the night is over you'll see all your tears turned into dew...
and you'll wonder what made you cry.
:@)
luv

Keshi said...

Southy heyy!

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TT I like what u said.

**Realise that you have nothing in life. And stay with that.

ty for that!

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Ektaran ty so much!

**btw do you celebrate Diwali??

yes! It's on this Sat the 21st.

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Yash heyy tnxx!

**Sometimes you'll find yourself in a place where you are not appreciated enough for what you are...

thats so true. It's like God puts u with the most different ppl in life (I mean different in personalities) so that it becomes a hell for u but somehow u wanna survive. And u learn from the experience that in life u will have ppl trashing u to nothing but even then u can still raise ur head.


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Amy u always lift my sprits up. ty n hugggggggggggggz! God bless ya my dear!

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Aditi hey tnxxx!

**I think u would necessarily have all of that

U'd be surprised I dun have all of that.

Huggggggggz TC.

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Deepa tnxx for all ur great comments. U always make good sense.

**Oh oh ! whatz making u feel so bad ? u sound totally depressed

Deepz Im just a floating petal...I hope I land somewhere safe. Depressed as hell yeah..but I wont let it get me down. ty so much! HUGGGGGZ!

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Ori u r one sweet man. ty so much! I had tears in my eyes as I read ur comment. U r truly very loving and caring, and Im so gladI found ppl like u thru blogs.

**You are bigger, greater and mightier than any evil.

that opened my eyes. I should not let hard-hearted ppl ruin me. I should continue. ty so much HUGGGGGGGGGZ!

ty for all the lovely words, gestures and feelings expressed in that very sweet and loving comment. I could feel ur love across the miles. God bless ya mate!

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Saffy hey ty sweety n huggggggz!

**What happened? Be strong and think positive, okay?

Alot of things have been happening but I just buried them all and went ahead as if nothing was wrong. Sometimes ppl u love hurt u the most Saffy, isnt that so.

This has nothing to do with blog-mates. It's a very personal issue that I cant reveal here. Anyways I love all of u and I can sense all the love coming from all of u. That will keep me alive.

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Cazzie u r so sweet! HUGGGGGGGGZ n ty for all the kind words abt me. I appreciate that.

Caz it's not abt blog-mates. Its a personal issue here at home. Well I will be ok. With all the love I get here, how can I not. ty n MWAHHHHH!

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Akshay ty sooo much for trying to help me feel better. That was such a sweet gesture!

**if someone does not want you, cant respect you then it is that persons loss and not mine.

yes I always resolve to that. After all the arguments and hurt, I just resolve to that. It's their loss cos they dunno how to respect another's feelings...and thats a weakness in them. Atleast I value their feelings and know how to respond to them.

ty so much Akshay HUGGGGGGGZ!

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Kautilya heyy ur absolutely right. I was so sad today and guess what I did. I cried on the train a bit...secret tears. I got out 3 stations before my home-stop and walked home. It's about a 45mins walk. But it felt so good. Crisp clear breeze and sunshine as I walked on the long roads to nowhere...I mean I felt good for a while not realising where I was. Walking down that road was like I was somewhere else cos I never walked through those suburbs before. It was like I was lost and it felt totally good. For a while I wanted to go somewhere without knowing where I was going. That feeling felt awesome.

but yeah in the end I was home 1hour later. Mum was worried but I was so refreshed by the walk and I was not crying anymore.

**sometimes I wonder why on earth am I alive!

I feel that way too. Sometimes and today for sure. Sometimes I feel my purpose on Earth is to get shit from others and I should just end it. I really feel that way. Sorry to scare u.

tnxxx for everything Kautilya HUGGGGGGGGZ!



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Punjabi heyy!

**Bas Ek Pal

thats so true. One moment can change ur life forever! And also it takes only one minute to end it all. I felt like that today.

ty so much for caring!


Keshi.

Grey Shades said...

Things that arent meant to be jus dont happen lady! Hope you feel better soon... {{{hugs}}}

Michelle said...

awww keshi...don worry...life can b cruel sometimes...everything will b ok...be positive...thats one thing ive learnt wen m down...

Keshi said...

Adi how sweet! ty.

**when the night is over you'll see all your tears turned into dew...

yeah I hope that will happen too. HUGGGGGGGZ!

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Grey_Shades HUGGGGGGGGGGGGZ!

**Things that arent meant to be jus dont happen lady!

I know. I just realised that today. I mean I realised it many times b4 too but I kept on pretending like it's all ok. But it hit me real hard today after a small incident. And then I just had to ACCEPT it that it'll never be the way I wanted it...the way it's supposed to be...the way everyone else seem to be. Anyways forget it.

ty so much for ur love n concern.


Keshi.

Keshi said...

mah Michy mwahhhhhhh ty!

Keshi.

SamY said...

** why do you still hang around wanting to be heard and loved.

for better or worse humans r gifted (or cursed) with what we term as hope ... ppl say terms like spirit of NY, spirit of bombay etc. bollocks. its spirit of a human. maybe its just animal instinct - the will to survive, to persist ... a subconscious choice overruling our rational to give up :-?

** I wanted to be wanted but it seems like it never was and it never will be.

u'v proly just lived 25%-30% of ur life ... dun u think thats an overstatement :) ... nutty will have her day

** Sometimes I really think I would be better off dead.

almost everyone @ somepoint does keshi

take a breather n b back, ur fans r waiting for u

Anonymous said...

hmmm.. just think about all the people who are waiting to discover Keshi... I am sure u have more wisdom like this to offer... who else can experience and present them like this?? :)

Cheers mayt!
(hope all that sounded like a compliment/nice thing to say ;)
Take care!

Suman Pant said...

KAP... i love you.... muaaah!

***I feel I was living a lie all this time. You know when you go on pretending for a long time like everything is ok but suddenly it hits ya and you realise it's high time that you accept it than keep pretending it's all rosy.

Yes we do live few moments of lies sometimes... but you certainly didnot live the lie coz you know what you wanted that moment... u knew what your heart craved for... so i guess you didnot LIVE A LIE. infact you lived the dreams which (maybe ) didnot come true!!

Cheer up KAP...

***It's one of those days that I feel like I was a fool for far too long.
Common' show your kick ass qualities and give all thsoe "low" feelings a push from yoru life... enjoy babes!!!
Huggggzzzz

Anonymous said...

aww what happened Kesh?? been busy these days coz of many works at home and school(rina) so i missed 2 of ur post and felt sorry for readin' this post...oh so ur upset on something?? ;(;(

... dun feel sad na, everything will be ok ... thats for sure!
trust HIM!! do pray....

lemme hug u na... good person like dun deserve loneliness in this world! smileee....

luv ya,
-kathy-

Harish said...

hey gal...its one part of life and I know that u know that...
Havent we all been thru this phase?
Sometimes life does play stupid games with us....:-(

Anonymous said...

Keshi, we can pick our friends and we can pick our nose, but we can't pick our friend's nose. :-D

Such is family. God bless'em but you would think they all had seven tongues and one ear.

Meet me on the bridge. I'll give you something to smile about. :-)

think said...

Keshi:

People always take it for granted and know what, as long as we help them and be kind and say yes to their stories they will love us. If we say no and take actions, it goes back negative.

I think we shoudn't bother at all. We live for ourselves first and then for others who really care. If we don't care about us, who will right. Ther are always people who like to hide and seek and get the benefits. Such people should be recognized even before you share your personal/ emotional feelings with them. They may even gossip/chitchat what they know about us to others. They won't care coz all they need is money.

We shud never be super sensitive when we are neglected/ compared with others. Whatever is told cannot be written coz we know about us and we stand for our rights.

Jim said...

You can have everything else in life but if you don't have love, respect, understanding and appreciation from your near and the dear ones, then you have nothing

SHIT
another absurd KESHI-ism

u gotta love yourself first
then only u can love another
and love will be reciprocated

u gotta give LOVE
to get LOVE

Anonymous said...

you don't sound like your usual self- is all OK? just remember, this too shall pass, and tomorrow is another day. In the meanwhile, I suggest a dollop of your favourite ice cream and long conversations with your best friend

Jim said...

I wanted to be wanted but it seems like it never was and it never will be. Sometimes I really think I would be better off dead.


dis is heavy


u dim witted fool
read my current post

Anonymous said...

awwww.. i know exactly what ur talking about.. if its someone who has let you down, trust me hun.. no one is worth it.. if its somethg that is working u up.. u will deftly find a workaround.. i always look at you as an unbreakable spirit.. coz thts wht u are.. so no one or nothing is worthy of keeping u down..
are you spiritual? sometimes,you just look to yourself for answers to the questions your mind is forming and surprisingly, you find them as well.
well, i really hope you feel better and snap out of this mood.
love the scorpions song! :)
many many hugs!

P.

Anonymous said...

Hang in there, it will be ok. Take care of yourself and see you when you get back.

Anonymous said...

Hey Keshi! I think its just another day when you are feeling low... dont think too much...do whatever you like doing the most to avoid thinking too much. Cheer up!

LERA said...

Kehi dear,you've powerful sentiments expressed.sometimes for some reason, many of us have a very hard time feeling good about ourselves,at such times we all need to feel that there is a purpose to our lives .gradually you find your focus shift to a better understanding of why so many people are unhappy . until then,do take care of yourself.
cheers& hugzzzzzz ......:)

Sudarshan said...

What you said is totally agreeable. Whatever laurels we win,however successful we get..we don't derive real pleasure unless someone near and dear expresses his/her satisfaction at our success.That is a characteristic of all human beings.

What's troubling you Keshi? Seeing you troubled is indeed a rare event, I'm sure..Hope you get back to normal mode soon :-)

Happy Diwali!

Sudarshan said...

What you said is totally agreeable. Whatever laurels we win,however successful we get..we don't derive real pleasure unless someone near and dear expresses his/her satisfaction at our success.That is a characteristic of all human beings.

What's troubling you Keshi? Seeing you troubled is indeed a rare event, I'm sure..Hope you get back to normal mode soon :-)

Happy Diwali!

Sudarshan said...

What you said is totally agreeable. Whatever laurels we win,however successful we get..we don't derive real pleasure unless someone near and dear expresses his/her satisfaction at our success.That is a characteristic of all human beings.

What's troubling you Keshi? Seeing you troubled is indeed a rare event, I'm sure..Hope you get back to normal mode soon :-)

Happy Diwali!

Shionge said...

Keshi...we do have our bad hair day ya? I do sometimes and I can always be 'myself' at times when I'm with someone and I don't like that at all. That sucks!

But being optimistic and counting all my blessing, I wish you well and that very soon, you'll 'jump' out of your current sadness soon.

{{HUGGGGSSS always!}}}

Jeevan said...

I have feeled the same much time in my life. We can be foolish but we should not fool any one, i wish to be like this. Take care dear:)

Forget every thing and enjoy the Diwali. HAPPY DIWALI Keshi!!

Anonymous said...

Keshi

Whatever will be, will be.

Don't sell yourself short. Look at your true friends. A friend is like a parachute. If he/she is not there for you the first time, chances are you won't need him/her again.

Your late night post scares me. Never think you will be better off dead because some idiots do not like you. You have some very stupid readers on this post, who are out to voice their hate. (Some seem to be racist.)To most of your readers you are a friend.

Everyone has to search their souls if they want to move forward. If you don't like what you find, only you can fix it.

It is not wrong to go into fantasy land when something is seriously wrong, and you can't do anything about it at the time. But when the time comes, you must accept who and what you are, and work with what you have, not what you think you have.

Whoever or whatever, let it go. If it returns then everything is good, but if it does not, it never was.

If someone in your life hurts you, remember they are hurting themselves. Even if it hurts you at the time, you have to let them go.

Something or someone better will come your way.

So chin up my dear; all's not lost.


Keep smiling :)

Bev

"Somestimes when I hurt, the honesty's too much"

Expression ! said...

Hey Dear Keshi.Take life as it comes.And dont you ever get hurt by these things.Don't give any one so much power to hurt your sentiments to this extent.Cheer up.

Twisted DNA said...

Keshi, sweetie, what is going on? I can't imagine you in low spirits. You are the epitome of ebullience and happiness.

As you said, some times there seems to be nothing we can do and the strongest of us are depressed. I hope things will get better.

Don't forget that there is a host of people who love you here and who wish your well.

Take care!

Kavi said...

We need the rough patches to treasure the clear stretches !!

You take care ! You are lovely person and bring so much of meaning to life !

Wishing you a happy Deepawali !

Autumn Storm said...

Sweetie, chin up again real soon, x

We all feel this way sometimes, and it's hard, it hurts. Others are seldom going to be everything we would like them to be, but you should be able to expect at least a measure of understanding, or if not that then respect for the way you feel. All you can do is talk things through - and try not to let disappointments get you down. Not for long anyway.

Take care, love and hugs, x

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Anonymous said...

Keshi girl, your words touched me. What you have said is how I have felt...and that scares me and comforts me too. To know that someone else feels these things makes me feel somewhat comforted, because I know that neither one of us wishes that but that its because of lifes circumstances and what crosses we have to carry that make us who we are. Just remember, as I must - "that which does not kills us, can only make us stonger" and my mother used to say "this too shall pass...."

your in my thoughts.......

Anthony Arojojoye said...

Bless a thing and it will bless you. Curse it and it will curse you...If you bless a situation, it has no power to hurt you, and even if it is troublesome for a time, it will gradually fade out, if you sincerely bless it - Emmet Fox.

FH said...

OH NOO!!! The other Keshi is back again!!I hate her!!Gooo awaaayyy!!Bring my sweet smart Keshi baaackk!!Hello!!!!
I love you , keshi!!!Wait!!!!I mean it!!I really really do!! No, you don't need that Caruso now!!!Sleep it off!!! Don't listen to that twistedtruth here, it is twisted!! Go home to your mama and give her big hug and cry!!GO NOW!!!

mathew said...

Its always for the better if u live without having to convince yourselves..the moment u do that..u begin to lie to your conscience..cheer up lady!!

i mean really cheer up..

starry said...

Keshi.. dont be sad. Sometimes life is not all that it appears to be. Just hold on to that fun spirit that is inside you. Be strong and you have to live for yourself. Dont look on the outside because that is only temporary. Take care of yourself Keshi, you are a honest, good and kind person. I believe that good things will happen to good people.

tsduff said...

Sorry you are having a bad day - because that is all it is. Take a deep breath, gather yourself together, and know that you will feel differently tomorrow. You are no lie - just a great gal full of life, opinions of all sorts, and have a beautiful smile, inside and out.

Margie said...

Keshi
Oh this post is so sad!
I wish I was there to give you
the biggest hug ever!

I sent you an email!

It will get better... I promise!

I luv you sweetie!
You are so dear and special to me!

Margie

Schrodingers cat said...

Try witnessing your sadness without any kind of attachment...like from a third person point of view. That should make things better. Atleast, it works for me.

Cheers

M.

Margie said...

TWO SIDES OF THE SAME WORLD

While
I
stand
Within
The
Sunlight...

You
Stand
Within
The
Night!

So it is with life...
while some have laughter
others have tears

Today
I would gladly
exchange my laughter
for your tears

If only I could!

Many HUGGGGGGGGZ Keshi

Margie

Jim said...

u have many friends keshi
quantity not quality

u gotta select one (at a time)
and go intimate

u r keeping too many guys hanging around with hopes

u gotta dash a few hopes
and get intimate with one

perhaps Michael Ori
but if i were u
i wud go for Margie

her huggs feel good
she sure is immensely huggable

Jim said...

there is nothing dat soo turns me on as seeing 2 beautiful woomen hugging each other




boobs crushed on to boobs

Cazzie!!! said...

Glad to hear you will be ok Keshi, you deserve happyness.
I have something you can do, it is easy, it will help you to zone out
Get a flower, a rose preferably..sit in a quiet location and just study the rose, be of no mind but concentrate on every bit of the rose, begin at the centre and work your way out...this will help your mind be reset and you will be happy :)

Dalicia said...

ohh whatever it is..i hope you're able to come in peace with yourself. take care! and happy diwali to you

Jim said...

have u seen a lamb playing in the field ?
it is so touching

he wudnt laff and play if he only knew dat tomorrow is bakri id


God in his infinite mercy dont tell us when the day will come

He wants us to enjoy every minute of our life while we have it

Dont be sad
emotional pain isnt half as bad as physical pain

the pangs of hunger of a man who hasnt eaten for days

and he still dont no when he will eat again if at all

God gives him hope
when u loose hope u despair

Lissen to michael Ori
He has witnessed the love of God

Jim said...

What God has already ordained will forever remain ordained.



No matter what they tell us
No matter what they do
No matter what they teach us
What we believe is true

No matter what they call us
However they attack
No matter where they take us
We'll find our own way back

I can't deny what I believe
I can't be what I'm not
I know our love forever
I know, no matter what

If only tears were laughter (ooh)
If only night was day (ooh)
If only prayers were answered (hear my prayers)
Then we would hear God say (say)

No matter what they tell you (ooh)
No matter what they do (ooh)
No matter what they teach you
What we believe is true

And I will keep you safe and strong
And shelter from the storm
No matter where it's barren
A dream is being born

(Ooh)

No matter who they follow
No matter where they lead
No matter how they judge us
I'll be everyone you need

No matter if the sun don't shine (sun don't shine)
Or if the skies are blue (skies are blue)
No matter what the end is
My life began with you

I can't deny what I believe (what I believe, yeah)
I can't be what I'm not
(I know, I know) I know this love's forever
That's all that matters now
No matter what

No matter what (no, no matter, no)

No, no matter
That's all that matters to me


somewhere in dis world
somebody pines for u

but right now
the only person who has said it aloud is Ori

if u dont count me
dat is

but i said dis to Margie too
i live life dangerously

Margie has a very possesive husband

Jim said...

i agree with foodie
TT is a cynic i tink

Jim said...

"this too shall pass...."
i love Meg too

Anonymous said...

How r we doing today?

Neer said...

Kesh!! Hows you now, Baby?? Hope you are feeling better! Remember all of us are here!

Margie said...

WISH

We have all kinds of
feelings in our life.

We gain from all our
joys and suffreings.

Contentment gives us
health and beauty...

And courage is the gift
that sorrow
brings.

Margie

Margie said...

BRAVE HEARTS

Trust in life when
sorrow comes
For life is like a
current strong...
That swiftly flows
past little woes
And carries all
brave hearts
along.

Margie

starbender said...

awww keshi, your not alone in this.
I have one of those families! All they care about is themselves! They don't even really know my kids, even their own gradma doesn't know them---and they don't live far from me at all. U'r certainly not better off dead! Whatever is going on, just know--it's their loss, not yours. Stay in there fighting!
:)

Jim said...

how can u resist a girl like margie?
walk into her arms and let your boobs do the talking

Jim said...

Oh Shit
dats a new insight to your post from Karen

is your family hounding u to get married and get the hell out of dis house???

do u have brothers?
sisters?

married bros and sisters?

Jim said...

if dis is wat i tink it is
u shud move out Keshi

get your own appartment or rent
absence will make the heart grow fonder

familiarity beeds contempt

Rebelzz said...

So, how s the mood now???

Margie said...

LITTLE TRIUMPHS

Although your troubles
seem as black and big
at times
as night...

The little triumphs
that you have
Can make your
whole world
bright!

Margie

P.S Remember this one dear Keshi...
it's so true

:P fuzzbox said...

Take care. Luv ya. Sometimes we all get the blues. I hope your's clears up soon.

Anonymous said...

Hey Keshi!! Cheer up girl.. i am sure everthin will be fine.. dunt u worry... jus try to be calm n relaxed... take a break to the beachside n listen to some good music.. am sure u will feel better... take care dear.. v r all here wid u.. always :)

and yeah... i read ur prev post on casual sex.. seems very cheap n disgusting.. as u said.. its like a total disrecpect to the body n to the person's character... n of course, the sexually transmitted diseases.. OMG.. seems so pathetic... hope things can change..

i also read ur post on vengence.. was really moving.. nice post keshi..

so.. take care dear.. drop me an email if u want to get cheered up!!! i will try my best!! hugggzzzz!! :D

Anonymous said...

All this makes you more stronger then you are now. So take it in your stride, go get you haircut, shop till you drop and relax in a spa forgetting all that bothers you, you deserve it!

The Phosgene Kid said...

My fish doesn't even respect me.

Anonymous said...

Good that u r back now!
I take a walk down the river bank most times when I feel repudiated. Then walk all the busy city streets, so that I get diverted. Try and get my self lost in the crowd.

The best act is the vanishing act I keep doin, vanish without a trace to some fantastic getaways, stay unplugged for a while, get back with a bang! Infact I am nutoriously known for doin that!

But its very important to feel the sadness off, so that u can get it out of ur system, and get ahead!

One very small thing I wanna say is, no one can make u feel bad about some thing unless u allow them 2 do so! I mean no one! Its totally under ur control & is upto you. Getting sad, getting happy, is all under ur control. So stay in charge, stay in control. And when u allow ur self to feel sad, just feel it, do not fight it or shy away from feelin it!

Oops.. I forgot something very important!....
tonnsa HUGGGGGGZZZZZZZZZZZ 2 u....!

take care gorgeous....

Anonymous said...

hey.. i hope its a passing moment and may time heal you!!

here's a warm hug for you!!

take care!!

;-))

kumarldh said...

Hi Keshi,
You look sad. I will tell you one thing again. Read Geeta. Its the best book I have ever read. It solves many problems. I am an aethiest but I will say the book teaches you religion. Now regarding me, I am trying to set up my office and everyday I face new issues. So just trying to settle down.
Keep smiling even if you are sad, coz more sad than a sad smile is not to know how to smile.
Ch33rs

Anonymous said...

totally clueless as to what prompted dis post kesh? and sumtimes i feel its a lil stupid to come and tell u all's ok etc etc...wen i don know the background of all this??? obviously sumthin/sumone hurt u but what? who? why? how? ... widout knowing that i can't sit here and tell u all will be ok tho i know one thing...a bad phase doesn't last forever...and the keshi i know doesn't stay this way for long...

tk care sweetie...now is not the time to brood and let negativity get to u...it's a nice auspicious time...festival time to spend with luvd ones...to embrace joy and learn to forgive and forget..! learn from the hurt and then move ahead sayin to urself...now i know better! and get back to ur usual self ok!...not impossible at all...try it...

*hugggs* :)

Anonymous said...

Its alright lady! Take it one day at a time and you'll be fine... And stop listening to Evanescence and Scorpions, they are all gloom-inducing music (though they are really good) :)

Jim said...

no prog is too beeg for a solution

u must do a root cause analysis after disaster management


FACT:i am feeling blue now
why?

i got a kick in my pants
DISASTER MANAGEMENT
get Margie to massage your buttocks to feel good again

but dis is not enuff
u must take corrective action to prevent recurrence
u cant run to margie every time

for CA u must identify the ROOT CAUSE not just the cause

OK
so why did i get a kick in the pants?

i told TT to go take a hike

why did i tell TT dat?
he needed it and i will do it again

no headway here

lets try another course
why did i hurt?
coz my ass is tender

wat do i do to tuffen up?
get a man's ass

expensive proposition
u need a man to donate his ass for transplant

how about providing a protective armour?

YESSS
dats it
wear a chastity belt of steel

the next time TT kicks your butt
he gets hurt not u


TT wont kick u no more
END of problem
no recurrence
_________________________

Jim said...

shades of grey is right
dont keep company with gloomy ppl
gloomy poetry
gloomy music

u need positive poetry of Margie
sigghhhhh

i love Margie

~*. D E E P A .* ~ said...

You take care , and ,

and have a fun Deepavali ( if it is celebrated there, that is !! )

Maybe ur spirits will be revived after the festival ., right ?

Jim said...

Now all u need is a beeg bang dis diwali

Margie cant help u here

Jim said...

hehehehe

Anonymous said...

Yes, it happens... We will be totally lost in some situations, and sometimes even without a strong reason. You will be okay. Be happy... Diwali is here!

Anonymous said...

Come on now ... give yourself a break ...
wanting and being wanted ... things all ways happen for the good.

It just takes couple of seconds and the life take a completely new and expected turn ....

So next take care whenever u turn coz zomeone some where may be waiting for U.

Who knows?

Things happen when least expected.

suku said...

I have been blogging for an year.On a lucky day I get max 5 comments,that is if I add some anonymous spams or comment myself.
How do you get so many? Is there is a scientific way of going about it?
Great blog.

Anonymous said...

Worry not.... ever person has a destiny...you'll surely get your's.

B Happy!!!! :)

Kay Vee said...

hey take care!
and dont worry, ur not the only one who feels this way!
:)

dumbdodi said...

Hope you feel better......afterall you can share your joy but sorrow only you can feel...no one will ever be able to feel the pain you would feel in totality...we can only relate

Sig said...

Heya Keshi....what's wrong sweetheart? I know life can be tough but please don't ever say that life is not worth living - you HAVE to know you're worth a lot to the peope around you. Take a look at everyone commttning and the friends you have made here in this anonymous world of blogging for example - people CARE. You're not a fool - let alone anyone's fool. Be true to who you are - be strong and smile. Tomorrow is a new day.

Has to be me said...

I feel that way 2 many times Keshi...but I think its just part of life....u feel that way...cry abt it or do whatever u want to feel better & once u do feel better, just move on & I guess u'll be just fine!

Cheer up & hugzzzzzzzz :)

Love said...

Come Keshi cheer up, life's life and you ought to live it, sometimes it's happy and sometimes sad. That's latin in my blog...

xxxx

Anonymous said...

how fits another story

B.R.L said...

Thank you for coming to my post. I have just met you so I will not give advise. You seem to be an intelligent and caring person.

der Bergwind said...

they never send the angels but!

therez alwayz the hard ways of life but preserve the tearz- they are precious..
the mask falls apart.. the goods are hurt but then feel liberated. easy to say hard to follow..
death aint a solution coz lifez a puzzle n it ends in a solution.. face it n get the pieces together :)
aint no advice.. have felt the fool-on-the-rockx but then... trust the goodness inside lady!!

everything in life ends in happiness.. n if it has not, then it has not yet ended... will be in sum other form.. sum other way.. walk along!! all the best:)

der Bergwind said...

they never send the angels but!

therez alwayz the hard ways of life but preserve the tearz- they are precious..
the mask falls apart.. the goods are hurt but then feel liberated. easy to say hard to follow..
death aint a solution coz lifez a puzzle n it ends in a solution.. face it n get the pieces together :)
aint no advice.. have felt the fool-on-the-rockx but then... trust the goodness inside lady!!

everything in life ends in happiness.. n if it has not, then it has not yet ended... will be in sum other form.. sum other way.. walk along!! all the best:)

Margie said...

How are you doing today Keshi?
I am hoping so much things are a
little rosier for you!
You know deep inside of you ...
you have it all...

inner beauty..joy...strength...
and faith


Remember that Keshi!

Sending love and huggggz!

Margie
P.S And...be like a tree...
trees bend in a storm...
but, they don't usually break
you can be like that tree!

Masood Ahmed said...

In the moment of clear insight you come to know yourself. When you find yourslef all alone and when expectations come to ground it is the time when you truly know your strength and then you really don't NEED any support because you know you can carry yourself on and whatever comes in your way will never make you feel down again.

Anonymous said...

Lighten up for the festival of lights :) Happy Diwali Keshi!! Have a blast !! :)

Anonymous said...

You're a kindred one...take care...smile often!

Vivhyd said...

Take it easy Keshi.. Happy Diwali.. hope ur bad mood goes off soon..

Cheer up gal.

Keshi said...

So much love n support, ty guys MWAHHHHHH! I'll get back to the comments too.

Keshi.

trinitystar said...

Keshi
You know have to look at the amount of posts you have received and you suddenly realise ... you are not alone ... you have never been alone ... for the Divine is always with you. And know that you are unfolding your beauty.
hugs for you. :o)
This just a learning period.

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Jim said...

Heyyyyy Margie
cut the crap
she dont need u no more


let'sfuck is here now

Keshi said...

Samy heyyy!

**u'v proly just lived 25%-30% of ur life ... dun u think thats an overstatement :)

mebbe it is. but say I have only lived 30yrs of my life so far and if in that 30yrs I have not been understood at all, never been loved the way I love them, never been asked how I feel, d u think it's a great life?


**almost everyone @ somepoint does keshi

na I never ever thought death was a solution for anything. But the fact that I do now scares me.


**take a breather n b back, ur fans r waiting for u

I hope they r not just my fans Samy! I hope they r my friends. Im not a celebrity, Im just a girl.

tnxxx n TC.

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Sojourner heyyy!

**who else can experience and present them like this?? :)

well there r alot of ppl like me out there Soj :) trust me. U only found me but there r more ppl out there who can feel and write like me...and one such person is u!

tnxxx n hugggggz maiiite ;-)

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awww KAP I love u too HUGGGGGGGGZ! so sweet!


**but you certainly didnot live the lie coz you know what you wanted that moment... u knew what your heart craved for... so i guess you didnot LIVE A LIE.

u really made things clear for me KAP, ty! I feel much better now.


**infact you lived the dreams which (maybe ) didnot come true!!

so true. I lived the person I wanted to be. And just cos that didnt give me back love that doesnt mean I was defeated. I tried my best.

ty so much! U always bring alot of love n light into my life MWAHHH babez!

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Kath heyyy hows u?


**trust HIM!! do pray....

u got me thinking...I'll trust Him and I really wanna know and see Him better. I'll try Kath. HUGGGGGGGZ!

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Harish hey WC n tnxx!

**Sometimes life does play stupid games with us....:-(

yeah...I guess I must move on...ty so much!

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Trée huggggggggx!


**Keshi, we can pick our friends and we can pick our nose, but we can't pick our friend's nose. :-D

lol thats true :):) ty!


**Such is family. God bless'em but you would think they all had seven tongues and one ear.

hehe sooo damn true!


**Meet me on the bridge. I'll give you something to smile about. :-)

awwwwww what a treat it will be. TY Im blowing kisses all the way to Tennessee....MWAHHHHHH!

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Priya heyyy!


**People always take it for granted and know what, as long as we help them and be kind and say yes to their stories they will love us. If we say no and take actions, it goes back negative.

so true. Granted is the word!


**Ther are always people who like to hide and seek and get the benefits.

omg this is so relevant to what Im talking abt. thats so true. I guess they do that cos of selfishness.

ty so much I really like wut u said. HUGGGGGGZ priya!

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Saby heyy!

**u gotta love yourself first
then only u can love another
and love will be reciprocated

yeah Saby I have done all that...but everytime I do that it laughs back at me...and Im a fool a million times. It doesnt feel that good to be in that situation.


**u gotta give LOVE
to get LOVE

It doesnt always work that way. U may give love and receive scorn. But give love anyways. That works.

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Sensorcaine heyyy!


**just remember, this too shall pass, and tomorrow is another day.

thats so true cos Im feeling much better today :)


**In the meanwhile, I suggest a dollop of your favourite ice cream and long conversations with your best friend

hehe ty so much! I love doing that anyways. HUGGGGGGGZ!

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Saby hi again!

D u live in my blog 24/7? LOL!


**u dim witted fool
read my current post

yes Im a fool :) but I guess it's better than fooling someone else. better to be a fool than a cheat.


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s0ul hello!


**i always look at you as an unbreakable spirit..

heavy responsibilty on my behalf then damnnnnnnnn! :)


**are you spiritual? sometimes,you just look to yourself for answers to the questions your mind is forming and surprisingly, you find them as well.

thats true. Read my latest post for the ans to ur qn 'r u spiritual?' :)


**love the scorpions song! :)
many many hugs!

yeah they r a great band! and ty so much HUGGGGGGGGGGGGZ!

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Sanjay hiyyya dude hows u?


**Hang in there, it will be ok. Take care of yourself and see you when you get back.

awww ty and see Im already better.

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hello jello KK!


ur right...I should stop thinking too much.

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G'day Lera!

tnxx for ur very wise words. Love it. HUGGGGGGGGGGZ!

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hello Sudarshan!

**Whatever laurels we win,however successful we get..we don't derive real pleasure unless someone near and dear expresses his/her satisfaction at our success.

yes. And I only felt good abt my achievements when my used to be alive. He really appreciated my work and my life.


**What's troubling you Keshi?

I think the trouble is with me. Being the sensitive person that I am it's very difficult to tell ppl off and move on. I guess I did that 2 days ago to someone I really care. And now i feel a load off my shoulders. Anyways I dun think it's gonna get better from the other side, but I will still carry on...no one can kill my positive spirits.

tnxxxx for ur encouragement!

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Shionge hello!


**But being optimistic and counting all my blessing, I wish you well and that very soon, you'll 'jump' out of your current sadness soon.

ty so much HUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGZ sweety!

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Jeevan matey hows u?


**We can be foolish but we should not fool any one, i wish to be like this.

thats such a profound statement Jeevan, TY!

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hiyya Bev!


**Whatever will be, will be.

Ditto!


**A friend is like a parachute. If he/she is not there for you the first time, chances are you won't need him/her again.

thats so true!


**To most of your readers you are a friend.

I know that Bev and Im lucky to have u all here. I mean how many ppl have so many blog-mates..its very rare. I really should be counting my blessings. TY so much! But na I dun easily get discouraged by abuse comments here.


**If you don't like what you find, only you can fix it.

yep and I decided to fix myself yday and I did :)


**But when the time comes, you must accept who and what you are, and work with what you have, not what you think you have.

so true!


**Whoever or whatever, let it go. If it returns then everything is good, but if it does not, it never was.

I know..this never was and never will be. Im sure of it. So now Im just gonna live just like that. No more of TRYING to be what's really not.


**If someone in your life hurts you, remember they are hurting themselves. Even if it hurts you at the time, you have to let them go.

yes I thought abt it after reading ur comment...they r doing it cos they r hurting too. So until they find their meaning on their own, I will be silent.. I will be my real self no matter what.


**"Somestimes when I hurt, the honesty's too much"

isnt that that beautiful song? WOW ty Bev HUGGGGGGGGGGGZ!

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Niki heyy!


**we want u to live a long life and become a cute grandma someday.

LOL @cute granma! And Niki I dun even know how to knit, so I'll be a useless granma in halter-neck tops, thats all :):)

MWAHHHHH I'll be right sweety ty!

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Sharda hiiii!


**Don't give any one so much power to hurt your sentiments to this extent.

So true. Never let things get to ya. ty so much HUGGGGGGGZ Sharda!

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hiyyya Twisted_DNA!


**Keshi, sweetie, what is going on?

u called me 'sweetie' and Im on the top ff the world now :):)
well nuttin really happened...it has been happening for a long time and it just hit me that I must stop being treated that way.


**I can't imagine you in low spirits. You are the epitome of ebullience and happiness.

WHOAA really? omg I feel like the goddess of glee now :):) TY!


**As you said, some times there seems to be nothing we can do and the strongest of us are depressed.

yeah mate its one of those days...even the strongest ppl have saddest days.

HUGGGGGGGGGGGZ n tnxxx alot!

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Heyyyy Kavi!


**We need the rough patches to treasure the clear stretches !!

so true!

ty so much Kavi n hugggggggggggggz!

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Autumn hello babez!


**Others are seldom going to be everything we would like them to be, but you should be able to expect at least a measure of understanding, or if not that then respect for the way you feel.

true. a lil bit will do.


**All you can do is talk things through - and try not to let disappointments get you down. Not for long anyway.

I wish my words r heard...maybe they r heard but there's a difference between hearing and listening. o well Autumn, Im not lucky enough to be taken seriously.

ty so much n MWAHHHHHHHHHZZZ!

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heyyy Mommyof2!


**actually after marriage.. before it was different:-( My hubby is just too saint type..

really? awww...cant u talk to him abt it?

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Megz mwahhhhhhhhhh!

Im so sorry u felt the same way Meg! No one should feel that low. No one!

**"that which does not kills us, can only make us stonger" and my mother used to say "this too shall pass...."

so damn true. ty n huggggggggggggz!

your in my thoughts too MWAH!

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Anthony heyyy!


**If you bless a situation, it has no power to hurt you, and even if it is troublesome for a time, it will gradually fade out,

thats a great thought. ty for sharing it with me!

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G'day Foodie!


**Go home to your mama and give her big hug and cry!!GO NOW!!!

awww so sorry to scare u girl. Im ok now and yes I went home and hugged my momma...she's all I have. ty n hugggggggz to u too!

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Matt hello!


**Its always for the better if u live without having to convince yourselves..the moment u do that..u begin to lie to your conscience..

thats so true! Im gonna try not to convince myself next time. ty so much for that Matty!



Keshi.

Keshi said...

Starry starry nights hows u? :)

**Dont look on the outside because that is only temporary.

thats such a profound statement for u Starry WOW!


**I believe that good things will happen to good people.

I used to believe in that. Not anymore Starry and Im not being negative...Im saying that from my life experiences. My dad was a great man and Im not saying just cos he's my dad...he really honestly helped many ppl...the poor, the destitute, the helpless etc. And even tho he was a Police guy, he had a real soft heart...he even once told me 'help everyone Keshi even if they dun love u back...it will do u alot of good'..I have tears in my eyes as I say that now. But what happened to him...unexpectedly died at 44 just like that. I know it happens to so many other good ppl too. WHY?

anyways tnxxx so much Starry I LOVE U!

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Terry heyyy!


**You are no lie - just a great gal full of life, opinions of all sorts, and have a beautiful smile, inside and out.


ty so much! Im smiling already :)

HUGGGGGGGGGGGGZ!

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Margieeeeeeeeeeeee MWAHHHHHHHHHH!


I got all ur lovely msgs and ur 3 beautiful emails. They really made me think. And ur TREE example was just purely beautiful! ty so much, Im richer for knowing ya. I ws bent 2 days ago and now from the sunshine that is Margie, Im standing straight n tall. HUGGGGGGGGGZ angel!

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Schrodingers_cat heyyy!


**Try witnessing your sadness without any kind of attachment...like from a third person point of view.

yeah...I did that and I felt I must move on...ty so much!

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Jim heyyy!


**u have many friends keshi
quantity not quality

ok so u J?


**u r keeping too many guys hanging around with hopes

who said Im looking for intimacy here?

Saby sometimes u say the stupidest, most unrelated things ever!

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Cazzie heyyy!


**Get a flower, a rose preferably..sit in a quiet location and just study the rose, be of no mind but concentrate on every bit of the rose, begin at the centre and work your way out...

that sounded lovely! Therapy for sure. ty so much HUGGGGGGGGGGGZ!

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heyyy Dalicia!

tnxx babes hugggggggggz!

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G'day Hiren!


**Relationships are like Emotional bank accounts- you can take out only what you put in.

so true. everyone's keeping scores. theres no way one can get out of that.


**"Kabhi alvida na Kehna".

yeah I saw that movie. Its true but sometimes u give everything to ur family n friends and all u get back is scorn. But I still choose to give cos I cant be anything else.

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Deeewana aka Saby heyy!


**u will find him too
just hang on in there

yeah ok. lets wait n see.

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Southy Im good ta n urself?

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Neers hello sweety!

ty so much Im musch better todai.

:)

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Starbender hello tnxx for dropping by and tnxx for being the wonderful u! U always make me laugh with ur funny blog posts I feel so blessed to know ya HUGGGGGGGGGZ!


**and they don't live far from me at all.

thats terrible! I cant u'stand why and how family can be so cruel to one another. really!

HUGGGGGGGGZ n tnxxx a bunch!

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Saby hi again!!


**get your own appartment or rent
absence will make the heart grow fonder

yeah mebbe. Thats what I wanted to die. btw theres no way I can live by myself. Mum wont like it and I cant leave her unhappy.


**familiarity beeds contempt

sure does! Well-said.

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R.E.B.E.L tnxx darl Im much better :)

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Fuzzbox hey tnxxx!

**Take care. Luv ya.

twas so touching! HUGGGGGGGGZ!

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Prithz heyyy!


**jus try to be calm n relaxed... take a break to the beachside n listen to some good music..

did that and I feel great now :) ty bubbz!


**on casual sex.. seems very cheap n disgusting.. as u said.. its like a total disrecpect to the body n to the person's character

so true.


**i also read ur post on vengence.. was really moving.. nice post keshi..

ty! :)


**so.. take care dear.. drop me an email if u want to get cheered up!!! i will try my best!!

so sweeeeeeet HUGGGGGGGGGGGGZ Prithz!

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Shankari hello!


**All this makes you more stronger then you are now.

that is 100% true. Cos Im really feeling stronger now and I know next time I can handle this w.o. falling apart.


**So take it in your stride, go get you haircut, shop till you drop and relax in a spa forgetting all that bothers you, you deserve it!

ty sweety :) Im getting haircut on Thu. So yeah I'll feel great and it's the weekend tomorrow so I'll be shopping like crazy. Retail therapy sure does work ;-)

HUGGGGGGGGGGGGZ!


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Phos heyy!

**My fish doesn't even respect me.

lol cmon!

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Kautilya heyyy how u?


**...stay unplugged for a while, get back with a bang!

thats what I mean...it really works ha.


**no one can make u feel bad about some thing unless u allow them 2 do so! I mean no one!

thats so true. At first ppl can upset u and then later on u realise that u should not let it get to u for too long.


**tonnsa HUGGGGGGZZZZZZZZZZZ 2 u....!

awww how sweet! ty n HUGGGGGGGGGGGZ to u too! :)

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Deepsat awww ty HUGGGGGGGGGGGGGZ to u too!

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Kumar heyyy!


**I am an aethiest but I will say the book teaches you religion.

yeah I have the Geeta with me...I read it slowly and yeah it's a great spiritual book.


**Now regarding me, I am trying to set up my office and everyday I face new issues. So just trying to settle down.

All the best ok! :)

***SMILEZ***
ty and huggggggggggz Kumar!

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Ishi heyy ty so much n HUGGGGGGGGGZ!

I know u cant advise me properly w.o. knowing the real issue. Well just u being here for me will do. I LOVE YA and tnxx for dropping by amidst ur very busy schedule. HUGGGGGGGGGGZ n MWAHHHHHHHHHHZ n WUT NOTZZ! :)

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Grey_Shades heyyy!

**And stop listening to Evanescence and Scorpions, they are all gloom-inducing music

hehehe sweet. Its ok I can handle em ;-)

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Saby heyy for the millionth time! LOL!


**no prog is too beeg for a solution

if there's a solution that is.


**FACT:i am feeling blue now
why?

cos some ppl can affect u.


**wat do i do to tuffen up?
get a man's ass

I wont and cant exchange my cute ass to an ugly man's gory ass LOL!


**u need positive poetry of Margie
sigghhhhh

yeah but when Im sad I cant be dancing to Macarena can I saby? duhhhhhhhhh give real advice or just keeping quiet wud be better.


**i love Margie

Margie is running away LOL! r u done with this comment Saby? thank God!

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Deepa heyy!


**and have a fun Deepavali ( if it is celebrated there, that is !! )

tnxx Deepz yes it is celebrated here too. :)


**Maybe ur spirits will be revived after the festival ., right ?

it sure will ty n hugggggggggz!

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Sreejith_Kumar heyyy!

ty and u have a wonderful Diwali too :)

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Tarun heyyy!


**So next take care whenever u turn coz zomeone some where may be waiting for U.
Who knows?

yeah who knows, ty Tarun :)


**Things happen when least expected.

true!

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WC lostandfound!


**How do you get so many? Is there is a scientific way of going about it?

ty! Its no Science. Im just being me and writing my mind here. thats all :)

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Sunil hello!

**Worry not.... ever person has a destiny...you'll surely get your's.

ty Sunil!

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heyyy Shitrint!

ty so much HUGGGGGGGGZ!

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WC Princess Aish!

ty n same to ya Sweety!

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Heyy dumbdodi!


**afterall you can share your joy but sorrow only you can feel...no one will ever be able to feel the pain you would feel in totality...we can only relate

thats so true! Im so glad someone knows what I mean. HUGGGGGGGGGGGGGZ!

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heyyy Silvara!

I was just down in the dumps but Im ok now sweety HUGGGGGGGGGZ!


**I know life can be tough but please don't ever say that life is not worth living -

sometimes it really really feels that way Silvara...I cant help feeling that way.


**people CARE.

I know...ppl like u really care and that helps. ty so much n HUGGGGGGGGGGGZ!


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Has_to_be_me heyyy!


**cry abt it or do whatever u want to feel better...

yeah that really helps. ty so much MWAHHHHHHHHHHH!


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heyy Let's!

if u dun mind can u give me a name that I can address u with other than ur blog Id :) tnxx!

tnxxx alot for ur sweet advice!

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Anonimply heyy!

**how fits another story

huh??????

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Betty WC n tnxxx!


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WC der_Bergwind!


**they never send the angels but!

yeah it seems like that :):) but trust me, sometimes they do.


**the mask falls apart.. the goods are hurt but then feel liberated.

thats so true!


**n if it has not, then it has not yet ended...

thats so profound! tnxx mate.

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heyyy Masd!


**it is the time when you truly know your strength and then you really don't NEED any support because you know you can carry yourself on and whatever comes in your way will never make you feel down again.

thats so true! ty n hugggggggggz Masd!

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KK hello!


**Lighten up for the festival of lights :) Happy Diwali Keshi!! Have a blast !! :)

ty awww!

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Kuan_Gung heyyy!


**You're a kindred one...take care...smile often!

tnxxx n huggggggggz! :)

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Viv it sure is, ty n hugggggggggz!


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Trinitystar WC n tnxxxx!


**for the Divine is always with you. And know that you are unfolding your beauty.
hugs for you. :

ty so much n huggggggggggggz!

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Anthony heyy will check it out soon, ty :)



Keshi.

Anonymous said...

oh sweetie..i was soo worried about u..stupid blogger did not let me post comments..but on he next post i see u getting better..oh goody!! happy diwali to u
hugs

Keshi said...

ty Vida! I couldnt see ur blog for 3 whole days :(

Anyways happy diwali to u too HUGGGGGGGGZ!

Keshi.

Dawn said...

Dear...all I want to do is ...give you a big tight hugggggggggggzzzzz

am glad I read this post after the first one :)
Cheers dear

Keshi said...

awww tnxxx Niki huggggggggz!


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hugggggggggggz Dawny ty!



:)
Keshi.

Sugababee said...

Hey Kesh...

Not sure what happened but all I know is don't bring yourself down for others who can't even appreciate who you are. You your hardest as you beleive your ties are close... but you can only try so much. It's their loss in the end... they've let go of an amazing person... cheer up kesh... put that big shmile back on... u got loads of people around you who love you... doesn't that count for anything?

Keshi said...

hey Suga mwahhhhhh!

ty so much for all that encouragement, I really really needed it. HUGGGGGGGGGZ!


**It's their loss in the end... they've let go of an amazing person... cheer up kesh... put that big shmile back on... u got loads of people around you who love you... doesn't that count for anything?

omg u really made me think. I know that I have alot of friend here who truly love me but until u put it in a sentence like that I didn't realise howlucky I am. ty so much and hell yeah u guys r my family. I really cant live w.o. all of u, seriously!

I hope u have a great day Suga, TC, ty n luv ya babez!


Keshi.