Tuesday, February 19

A Tragic Heart

DISCLAIMER: This post is about friends...not about partners..

Today my heart got ripped out and now I'm holding it in my hands...it's pounding hard and fast...it's looking lost and feeling like no one understands it anymore. It can't find love anymore...it sees no reason anymore. It does not know true friends anymore. I'd walk through fire if Love is what I'd find...but my heart is in my hands right now. It's very frightened and feels like it got cheated for all the love it gave to it's friends...it feels like it lost trust in everything and everyone. All it ever came across is fake bonds, pathetic lies, masked friends and empty rooms. It got beaten enough to realise it never really knew anyone. Do friends here really care or am I just a 'virtual' mate for you that you disconnect when you switch your PC off? Or does this 'connection' continue even when you're not online? Am I the only one who's in this for real? Something happened that made me question my presence here in Blogville. Am I just a fool being taken for a ride? It feels like I'm going to cry. I wanna bury my heart and never see it's face again...my heart is a totally screwed up loser that seems to get stamped on all the time. I want it dead. I think I'm broken.


Current Music: Heaven Help My Heart by Tina Arena

127 Cranium Signets:

BUMBLE!!! said...

Sometimes, you have to look and look and look and just be patient and don't give up (I'm living proof on patience and impatience, so...).

One of the reasons that I extended benefits to Ol Match Dot Com Girl was that she was so willing and open to just do nice things for me and it made me want to do nice things for her.

It also made me stop thinking there was some make believe something out there (which it would be nice if it is, but having someone who wants to make you happy is enough).

that said, 13.5 years ago, I was completely impatient and gave up on myself and while it still has consequences, i'd like to think it's behind me, but yeah...

While dating sites kind of take it out of the whole, love and friendship and happiness often come when we aren't looking. That you're sad - I hope that things go the other way too, but be patient Keshi Girl - your time will come.

Fingers crossed.

maverick said...

hmm...gorgeous..if tht was the case..wud ve i

1) wished u morning/afternoon or just replied to the post..
2) asked u wasup??
3) most importantly.provided u with another medium..??

:)

Menchie said...

Hey Keshi! Just getting back into the swing of things. I was having a blah domestic situation hence the long absence from blogging.

Whoever it is that's causing you trouble right now is not worth it. Hope things work out.

BTW...loved your V Day post. :D

Indiana said...

I think the answer is yes and no...connections made online are real, but they are also the easiest set aside when the "real" world comes intruding on our time.

I think the best way tothink about it is as you would offline friends, you don't hear from them everyday, nor do you see them everyday...maybe keeping that in mind would ease the frustration...that or remembering that nor all friendships stand the test of time, and maybe online ones burn brighter and therefore fade faster.

Globescoper said...

Hi Keshi

I have always said that all of us are characters in an elaborate play where unseen forces direct our every move. But in this world of fairytales and make-believe there are loyal bonds.

In cyberspace the same applies. To some extent it seems unreal, but true bonds can be found. Personally, I don’t know you, but somehow I think of you as a close friend. When I first read your blog, I did something that I rarely do; I commented. If I remember correctly, my comment did not relay the message it should have, but with somewhat of a red face, I apologized, and now it’s history.

What made me leave a comment, I do not know. I likely never will. As I mentioned, I rarely comment on other blogs.

At the time I first commented on your blog, I was working on a story about blogging and the Net.

Hugs

Bev

Globescoper said...

Hi Keshi

I forgot to say that I love the song.

Cheer up girl!!!

Bev

desperado said...

Well between me and you...the answer is a NO!!!!
yes in the beginning...online relations survive only till the PC is switched off....but when you get to know a person long enough they become a part of your life..like you are..

You are one of the better persons I have found in this "virtual" world..so much better than some real world people..and you are the first person whom i see in the morning (through your blog)..so for me dear you are much more than just a "virtual" mate

and yeah if you are broken...i am here to lend a hand to mend this beautiful heart...stay as your dear..cause you are the best

HUGGGGS

BUMBLE!!! said...

Yeah - that's why I had love and friendship and happiness.

No matter which one we look for, we seem to settle into slots and get connected to people and sometimes when we open up too easily, we get people we otherwise wouldn't let in.

A friend or a romantic love (and a romantic love is a friend first and foremost) is willing to do and be there for us and would never hurt us. That's what I was alluding to with ol' girl. I was so caught up in having similar interests in surface level things that I didn't realize that we could just be great for one another in that friendship kind of do stuff and be together kind of way.

with reference to the other situation, it came out of a friendship that i was so desperately looking for and when it came, i was willing to do anything to keep it because i missed having a person like that in my life.

sometimes, i learned, i just have to be more patient - something like that.

When it comes to this virtual world we both inhabit, it's kind of hard to figure some of it out from time to time.

The same is true with our day to day lives. THey're so transient and fleeting and people come and go and have their own agendas and interests and it often leaves us out in the cold.

That said, when the good people come, they tend to stay for a while and they're never who we think that they are.

Be patient and be strong in these difficult days and the good times will come.

Mayur said...

Hey Keshi,

Guess you are down after weekend is over. Surprisingly, I'm bit depressed at this moment over my relations. I know this feeling catches me quite often and subsides with time.
This world of blogsville and Internet might be virtual but I have made quite a few good friends out of it and guess you are one of them for the intelligence you have, for the thoughts you express and for the comments you reply personally.
Sometimes I feel to give up this virtual world and go to a jungle(Jungle Boogie) but it has become a vital part of life.
While chasing the virtual freedom, I guess we have lost the real one.
My dad says he couldn't express his joy when he used to get one shirt a year during diwali. I can never imagine the amount of joy he got for the reason that I'm a frequent shopper.
This is the life and this is going to be harder by time. You have to accept the things as they are.

Your,

Mayur.

radiohead said...

hey honey ..howz u? ..sry i wasnt arnd .. went home.

this is no time to b sad ..cheerup .. actually I hardly shut dwn my laptop ..so ur hardly cut off .. hehe :P ..
n ur nt d internet gal ..ur keshi :)

take care n cheer up

radiohead said...

HUGGZZ !!

Jay said...

People will disappoint us both IRL and online. It's easier online to just walk away, I guess. Just like it's easy for people online to pretend to be tough or whatever.

But people are people sweetie. You never really know them and sometimes they turn out be sucky people. All you can do is focus on the one's that don't do those bad things to you.

Unknown said...

**my heart is a totally screwed up loser that seems to get stamped on all the time. I want it dead.

haha... the earlier u realize, the better it is... anyways... its better late than never...

TC...

Margie said...

I'll always be connected to you!
I care very much about what happens to you, and sometimes in my day I'll think to myself, "I wonder what Keshi is doing right now...I hope she is happy."

I'm so sorry you are feeling so sad, Keshi!
What happened to make you feel this way?

I'd give you a BIG HUG for real if I could!
Virtual hug will have to do.

HUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGZ

Margie

Globescoper said...

Hi Keshi

LOL

My flooded brain screwed up the song title.

LOL

On a lighter note: After a weekend of rain, it's turning very cold. Time to get out the skates.

HUGS!!
Bev

Nora said...

For some, there is a certain connection that remains when the laptop shuts down. Unfortunately, some people tend to hide behind their computers and say/do things they wouldn't in a one-on-one situation. It's difficult to comment without knowing what happened. Whatever it was, I hope you are well and that you rise above it. x

Nora

Sneha P said...

hey keshi...
I'm sorry for whatever happened to make u question ur presence here..
but I'm not surprised..i've done that ever since I've come here and still continue to actually.
the answer is like indiana said 'yes' and 'no'.
Yes because any kind of connection with another human being over any medium is definitely real as in it cannot be negated.Over cyberspace due to the virtual nature of the medium makes it more difficult to sustain this bond.
No because we still dont LIVE online. It is easy to put people 'out of sight out of mind'.

The importance and intensity of connection u share with a person is something only you can judge.
But you have friends all around you be it in the real or virtual world..
so cheer up..
Take care..

Hugs!!

Globescoper said...

Hi Keshi

Here's a good song for this post:


"Only Make Believe"

People see us everywhere
They think you really care
But myself I can't deceive
I know it's only make believe.

My one and only prayer is that some day you'll care,
My hopes, my dreams come true, my one and only you.
No one will ever know how much I love you so
My only prayer will be someday you'll care for me
But it's only make believe.

My hopes, my dreams come true, my life I'd give for you,
My heart, a wedding ring, my all, my everything.
My heart I can't control, you rule my very soul,
My only prayer will be someday you'll care for me
But it's only make believe.

My one and only prayer, is that some day you'll care,
My hopes, my dreams come true, my one and only you
No one will ever know how much I love you so
My prayer, my hope, and my schemes, you are my every dream
But it's only make believe

LOL
Bev

fingers said...

I was just saying the same thing to the gentleman from NetAlert who knocked on my door last night...

anits said...

hi darling... its not that no one understand you...GOD understand you and always be with you! Trust in GOD, Seek God.. pray and peace wil be your best fren... tcare gal...love u gal!muuuahhhh

Solitaire said...

Why break your own heart? Break his or hers!

Do not put yourself down for what someone else did.

Blogosphere or not. Mean people everywhere. Nice people everywhere.

willheim said...

another super post.

bloggin, well, i work in one room alone and don't like going out.

so i meet neat people online and have little romances with them, and some of them fall by the wayside, and some have hurt me and some have helped me.

people can be mean out here, empowered by their anonymous status.

and nice.

it is a wonderful diversion.

i certainly am a richer person having met you, and my blog, however personal and dark, is a wonderful anonymous place for me to vent.

huh. here's an internet kiss:

.

Priya said...

Thru' u come across good and bad people. Its always your intution and trust to go further Keshi. U may know 20-30 ppl thru' net, but only 1/2 can trustworthy coz sometimes this world just waits to gossip all over.

Jeevan said...

The system that communicates us can be a virtual, but how can we think like that you dear. Every heart not feels same, if it was a man made it can only express the same as its creator. In my recent meeting with friends also I was talking about you, so how could I be forget you soon leaving a comment here. The first place that pleases me is keshi’s viva forever, I have feel to tell anyone ask me who is ur girl friend or like whom u need, it courage me to tell your name Keshi. Hugsss dear...

Tys on Ice said...

you are real. You are thought about. Your posts sometimes makes one happy, sometimes sad, sometime thoughtful, so we must be interacting. You bare urself to us and most of us will not take advantage of that.

That, my dear, is being a friend...

AVIANA said...

Hey there..

wow..what happened chica.....

i honestly don't know what to say...

friendship i've realized has become such a cheap thing...it is extremely difficult to find a friendship that is genuine whether online or in the real world....

i think the online world can make friendship much deeper and more genuine but also the opposite.....

with the limited views of our real selves people can feel free to be who they really are whether it is good or bad...

i'm here for you chica....i may not always give long deep thought comments but i am here for ya...

did you get my email with my number?

contact me whenever...

Kalpana said...

hey, what happened? even when I shut my PC, I think of my blog friends......how are they, will move along with their emotions....and it just goes on.........we all can strengthen our emotional bond.......don't lose heart.......make yourself come out of this negative emotions. everything will be fine....... while blogging, there will be all sorts of visitors, it's we who need to realize who are what........Ok, take care......In the next post, I need to c u smiling.......

Sukanya said...

u've writtn sumthng i've thot of myself. sumtimes i feel very real in ths virtual world. everybody else seems real too..
i do have a few netpals whom i simply adore.. hope they do too.

don't b too sad abt it.. virtual frnds or real frnds.. if they really care about you, they will manage to stay connected.

cheer up :)

Alex said...

well, i guess there are both kinds of people-who connect even while they are offline and others who dont.

It depends on what kind of person each one is and what he/she wants from blogging.

A said...

hey Keshi...what happened?

such a sad post...

how u doing now?

we all are there, why are u feeling so low?

Sam said...

now put your hreat right back inside.. its too beautiful to be let out in the sun like that.. you get that??
now, for the post, well.. you have the ups and teh downs and one has gotta deal with it, i wish i could listen to in person,a dn I'd have been effective there.. over the net and with only words... nowadays i feel handicapped!! dunno why... am no longer able to express myself... so I'll have to trust you in understanding what i wanna say...

ToOothlEss WOndeR! said...

faith can heal and faith can kill.
i let people be.

ToOothlEss WOndeR! said...

P.S: i almost know youre a wonderful person. give that heart a pat and put it right back. you gonna be fine. :)

FH said...

You take EVERYTHING sooo seriously my dear girl!!! We all come alone and go alone. Meanwhile, we meet people.
If you need others to make you happy, you will NEVER be happy. It's a lesson I learnt by going thru' hard times. STOP LOOKING!!! LOVE yourself, only you can make yourself happy, nobody else! Hugs to you!:)
Have you thought taking up few Yoga classes, it really helps you to focus inwards.

KP said...

keshi.....common...u r more than virtual friend....I love you(as a friend)....:) u r our oz babe....

Take care......:)

Jim Dean said...

Silly black haired blonde

nothing lasts forever
not love
not romance
not friends
not lovers


and not marriages too
they all come with an expiry date

but u take the cake!
internet friends and internet lovers are the most fickle

u may start as an internet friend
but if u dont meet soon
that love or friendship will soon die

I made many friends on the net
but only one net friend met up with me

and we connected in real too
now she is gone back

but the bonding happened
and we continue netting

but then again if we dont meet up again soon
this friendship too will fade and die sooner or later

, ,
Viva forever?
, ,

Preeti Shenoy said...

Hey--I had a very similar experience too--which made me write this
Today I do not waste time over anyone who thinks that Virtual friends can be switched off with your PC.They aren't worth it Keshi.
Cheer up--and bother about those who care.

Whitesnake said...

Come here girl..........Hugs are free!

Nishant Chandgotia said...

Hyea,
Sorry if something ever hurt you from my side.
"fake bonds, pathetic lies, masked friends and empty rooms" exist everywhere, online and real...though they are more prominent here(considering the "the you cannot do anything about it"fact... However I can assure you that everyone isn't wrapping things around in colourful glossy paper.. The trick is to cut them out completly from your grey cells(i don't claim that it is easy) and carry on as if nothing happened...

just mad said...

Cheers ! :)

Gledwood said...

i once wrote this mellodramatic (and unfinished) dreadful novel... in the biggest scene the heroine leaves the antihero: he experiences such agony that he experiences his heart literally tearing in two... i will never forget that scene. overblown and tragic as it was haha!

cm chap said...

Hey Keshi... I guess u hv gone thru somethign really bad.

All I wish to say is... Just one culprit doesnt mean the whole gang is culprit.

La vida Loca said...

oh dear!
huggzz Keshi. i dont know what to say :(

Unknown said...

Is it ur photo in the previous post??.....Oh! God!...u look dangerous!....seriously!...dont scare the world!..hah!
Nitish.

krystyna said...

Hi Keshi!
You're not right, you are not only one here in Blogville who is for real. I think obout my blogger friends all time, (of course about you too - every day), when I'm walking, when I'm cooking, cleaning, etc.. I'm "speaking" with you and with others too.

Love and hugss!

Keshi said...

hey Bumble tnxx!

**which it would be nice if it is, but having someone who wants to make you happy is enough).


true...very true.


Keshi.

Keshi said...

aww Mav tnxx HUGGGGGGZ! :)

Keshi.

Keshi said...

WB Menchie I've been missin ya..


**Whoever it is that's causing you trouble right now is not worth it

o nos..this person MEANS alot to me...a great friend of mine. That's why I cudnt avoid writing a post abt this.

But we've talked abt it and now we r ok. She's an angel.


ty n HUGGGGGGGGZ!

Keshi.

Keshi said...

heyya Indiana!

**they are also the easiest set aside when the "real" world comes intruding on our time.

so true...


**and maybe online ones burn brighter and therefore fade faster.

very well-said!!


Keshi.

Keshi said...

heyya Bev HUGS!

**To some extent it seems unreal, but true bonds can be found.

yes I agree. Its just like the real word.


**If I remember correctly, my comment did not relay the message it should have, but with somewhat of a red face, I apologized, and now it’s history.

awww really? :)


** As I mentioned, I rarely comment on other blogs.

yes I hvnt seen u in other blogs.


ty so much sweetz MWAH! Good to know I hv some very true friends here.


Keshi.

Keshi said...

Bev u mean Tina Arena's song?

Keshi.

Keshi said...

aww Dhruv ur comment is a tear-jerker..in a good way that is. HUGGGGGGGGGGZ n ty!

I think Im fixed now :)

Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty Bumble u make good sense.


**That said, when the good people come, they tend to stay for a while and they're never who we think that they are.

so true! they r not the ones that u expect.


Keshi.

Keshi said...

hey Mayur chin up..Im here na :)

**Sometimes I feel to give up this virtual world and go to a jungle(Jungle Boogie) but it has become a vital part of life.

LOL ur funny.



**My dad says he couldn't express his joy when he used to get one shirt a year during diwali.

awww...


Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty for assuring me that Anuj!


** actually I hardly shut dwn my laptop ..so ur hardly cut off ..

HUGGGGGGGGGGZ! :)

I know u truly care..

Keshi.

Keshi said...

hey Jay tnxx!

**People will disappoint us both IRL and online. It's easier online to just walk away

so true. I always believed in that too. you are you no matter where you are.


Keshi.

Keshi said...

heyya Iceman tnxx!

Keshi.

Keshi said...

Margie tnxx hun MWAH!

**"I wonder what Keshi is doing right now...I hope she is happy."

awww wut a sweet thought..just like u.


Im ok today girl...it's alrite. ty so much for being here for me. U always take me 'home'. HUGGGGGGGGGGGZ!


Keshi.

Keshi said...

haha Bev put ur brain in the m/w...I do that sometimes to warm it up.


;-)

Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty Nora!

**Whatever it was, I hope you are well and that you rise above it

MWAH! I kept those words in my head and today Im feeling alot better. TY!

Keshi.

Keshi said...

hey Vitruvian tnxx hun!

**No because we still dont LIVE online. It is easy to put people 'out of sight out of mind'.


true...but I cant easily put any of u out of mind even when Im not online :)


::HUGS::


Keshi.

Keshi said...

lolz Bev thats a cute song...so very apt yes. :)

ty!


Keshi.

Keshi said...

:) Fingers...

Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty Anits!

God...sometimes I cant even find him.


HUGGGGGGGGGZ!

Keshi.

Keshi said...

Solitaire tnxx hun!

**Why break your own heart? Break his or hers!

I think my heart is bigger than my body :)

This friend is a very dear one...


HUGGGGGGGGZ!


Keshi.

Keshi said...

Willz tnxx mate!

yes there r all sorts of ppl everywhere...not only online.


MWAH! ;-)


Keshi.

Keshi said...

tnxx Priya thats so true..

Keshi.

Keshi said...

heyy Jeevan I know u truly care..ur a VERY dear friend to me. I hv no doubt abt that.


** I have feel to tell anyone ask me who is ur girl friend or like whom u need, it courage me to tell your name Keshi.

aww HUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGZ! And can I give u kiss too? :) MWAH!


Keshi.

Keshi said...

heyy Tys!

**That, my dear, is being a friend...

aww how true. HUGGGGGGGGGZ I LUV YA my friend!


Keshi.

Keshi said...

heyy Lisa HUGGGGGGGGZ!

**with the limited views of our real selves people can feel free to be who they really are whether it is good or bad...

true...


I didnt get ur email :( Plz send it again hun.


tnxx n I know u truly care..u've got a heart of Gold. HUGGGGGGGGGZ!

Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty so much Kalpz!

yes there r all sorts of ppl both on n offline.


HUGGGGGGGGZ I know ur a true friend Kalpz!

Keshi.

Keshi said...

hey Knatch tnxx!


**virtual frnds or real frnds.. if they really care about you, they will manage to stay connected.

very well-said my dear!


Keshi.

Keshi said...

true Alex..it depends on the Individual.

tnxx!

Keshi.

Keshi said...

Anjuli tnxx hun!

Im alrite now..HUGS!

Keshi.

Keshi said...

hey Sam! awwwww HUGGGGGGGGGGZ! ty for that..made me feel so loved.


wuts wrong? Why frozen?


Keshi.

Keshi said...

heyy Toothey hows u?

**faith can heal and faith can kill.i let people be.

true..


Keshi.

Trée said...

So sorry to hear of your troubles. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

Keshi said...

Hi again Toothey :)

awww ty n HUGGGGGGGGGZ!


Keshi.

Keshi said...

hey Asha tnxx!

I didnt take it too seriously..it was very serious anyways :) Wut happened 2 days ago shook me up. It was between a very good friend and me. I cant tell the whole story in my blog. That wont be nice.


**If you need others to make you happy, you will NEVER be happy

very true.


tnxx hun I know u truly care abt me Asha. HUGGGGGGGGGZ!


Keshi.

Keshi said...

hehehe KP tnxx I know u care...HUGS!

Keshi.

Keshi said...

hey Jim Dean tnxx!


**but then again if we dont meet up again soon
this friendship too will fade and die sooner or later


nah I dun believe in that. Friendship is medium-independent. That means, friendship dun require ppl to meet in real etc. It's a language spoken between 2 hearts and it can happen w.o. anyone meeting in real. And look at some friends we hv in real life...they r not as real as some friends I've just met online!


Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty PS I rem that post of ur's.


**Today I do not waste time over anyone who thinks that Virtual friends can be switched off with your PC

true..it's upto each individual to hv their own opinion abt net friends. We just believe in wut we believe and move on.

HUGGGGGGGGGGZ!


Keshi.

Keshi said...

Stevo HUGGGGGGGGGGGZ! :)


Keshi.

Keshi said...

heyy Nishant tnxx mate!

** However I can assure you that everyone isn't wrapping things around in colourful glossy paper.

so true!


Keshi.

Keshi said...

Cheers JM! :)

Keshi.

Keshi said...

hey Gledz!

**he experiences such agony that he experiences his heart literally tearing in two... i will never forget that scene

:) yeah something close to that.


Keshi.

Keshi said...

hey Chap tnxx!


yes it was a very heartbreaking event that took place yday...but its all ok now.


**Just one culprit doesnt mean the whole gang is culprit.


true. :) tnxx n HUGGGGGGGZ!


Keshi.

Keshi said...

Its ok LaVida...tnxx n HUGGGGGGZ!

Keshi.

Keshi said...

heyyy Nitish yes thats me :)

**u look dangerous!....seriously!...dont scare the world

why? hehehehe...


Keshi.

Keshi said...

hey Krys!

***when I'm walking, when I'm cooking, cleaning, etc.. I'm "speaking" with you and with others too.

aww HUGGGGGGGGGGGGZ! thats so very sweet...I do that too btw. It's like u guys r ALWAYS on my mind.


Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty Tre MWAH I missed ya!

Keshi.

Sig said...

Heya darling - I emailed you. But I also wanted to say here - you are more than just a online friend for me - i know that if I ever needed you - you'd be there and you have proved that to me time and time again. Plus it's always good to know if I ever dropped by Sydney we could catch up for a coffee and chocolate cake...mmm...cake :P

Please don't worry k??

HUGS :)

Jim said...

***when I'm walking, when I'm cooking, cleaning, etc.. I'm "speaking" with you and with others too.




sounds nice
but it dont work that way

out of sight is out of mind
if not today
tommorrow

Jim said...

one more thing Keshi
dont spread your self so thin



blog visit is the first step
u get more intimate when u mail each other by email


it gets even more intimate on snail mail

that means u know where he/she lives

and the next step is to meet each other

and kiss and hugg for real
a kiss lets u taste her

a hugg presses her boobs to your chest

and u get to smell her scent
and then u say Hi buddy, good to see u

all the five senses are now satisfied

and then if u guys really love each other

you ........

Brian in Oxford said...

oooh...I don't wanna see you writing like that. I mean, I'm not going to get cheesy like "turn that frown...upside down", but still, I hope things rebound for you pretty quickly. We all like our happy Keshi!! :)
--bri

Jim said...

obviously u cant do this with 100 guys

pick and choose Keshi





am I among the chosen few?

SaffronSaris said...

What happened? Hugzzz okay, you're alwiz in my mind. Cheer up, the weekend is coming, mabbe you cld go to the beachor drool over some hunks :p

Keshi said...

aww Silvara I know u care. I luv ya too hun!

**Plus it's always good to know if I ever dropped by Sydney we could catch up for a coffee and chocolate cake

that wud be awesome :) I'd take u to my fav cafe...that's where that Model guy makes my coffee every morning ;-)


MWAH! I'll check my email soon. tnxx!


Keshi.

Keshi said...

Jim heyy!

**out of sight is out of mind

not for me..

for me it's like this:

out of charcater, out of mind.


Keshi.

Keshi said...

Jim...

**a hugg presses her boobs to your chest

WTF r ya talking abt?

Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty Brian HUGGGGGGGGGZ!

I know u care :)

Keshi.

Keshi said...

Jim if u hv nothing 'intelligent' to say abt this post just keep quiet.

Keshi.

Keshi said...

Saffy I should do that ha? :) tnxx for the tip hun HUGGGGGGGGGZ!

Keshi.

Jim said...

if u hv nothing 'intelligent' to say

WTF


take a tip from dogs and other animals Keshi

they are not intelligent
but they bond well

Keshi said...

Jim, dogs n other animals r very INTELLIGENT...much more intelligent than some sex-obsessed humanbeings!

Keshi.

Jim said...

why do u shy away from XES Keshi?

its the logical outcome of love
its the union of 2 bodies

when 2 become 1
XES is beautiful
XES is holy
sigghhh


we are programmed to procreate Keshi
it is Gods will


the gates of heaven will be closed to u Keshi

if u dont

Jim said...

this Keshi reminds me of Janice ....

At 3:31 PM, saby said...
janice is DUMB ..

ask her 4 a date...
she gives u one....

packed in cellophane...


At 3:33 PM, saby said...
janice is ........


dis xmas...she mailed me....

she wanted the address of Santa Claus...


At 3:34 PM, saby said...
janice dont no......



where babies come from .....

Jim said...

I am not sure who is dumber
Keshi or
this girl

Keshi said...

Jim...

**why do u shy away from XES Keshi?

This post aint abt SEX!

Keshi.

Keshi said...

Leave Jan alone plz. She's dead now.

Keshi.

Jim said...

DUMMY

Janice lives
I can see her now
and she is saying

dis Keshi must be a BLONDE


i DONT BELIEVE death of the body is the end

it is the beginning of a new life
if u dont believe me
ask

Mel

Anonymous said...

forget him / her and move on. u can do it n u wud do it!!!!

now smile;)))

Lena said...

there is no difference between REAL and ONLINE friendship i believe. They all bring out emotions and feelings and they all can hurt a great deal.
Believe me for most of people here in Bloggerville you are more real than anyone else and they keep thinking about you and wondering if you are fine and happy :) :)

Ignore the rest, maybe it was just not meant to be. No matter if real or online people eventually will hurt you, just in online world it is much more easier.

Take care, Keshi :)
Hugsssssss

Mayur said...

Hi Keshi,

Thanks for being there yaar!

Mayur said...

Hi Keshi,

Thanks for being there yaar!

Keshi said...

Jim I know Jan must be happy somewhere, whether she really died or not.

But u didnt even try to find out abt her from her folks..why?

Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty Ashu!

I hv forgotten the person I hv to..and the person I need to keep in my life is right here with me, and I'm happy abt that :)


HUGS!

Keshi.

Keshi said...

aww ty Lena!

**They all bring out emotions and feelings and they all can hurt a great deal.

so true! I always said the same thing.

HUGS!

Keshi.

Keshi said...

u too Mayur!

Keshi.

tsduff said...

Keshi - I find myself thinking about folks I know from the blogging world - sometimes during the day when something pops up and reminds me - of folks in another country, or even my sisters who have their own blogs. Blog relationships are what you make of them - casual or serious, but they are all real people in my life. You've been in mine a long time (by virtual standards - LOL) always lending your smile and good thoughts. Thanks Keshi.

Keshi said...

aww thats so good to know Terry MWAHHHHHHHHHHH! :)

Keshi.

Mayur said...

Hi Keshi,

May I have your email ID? I may not be get in touch with you through blogs often. My email id is mayur.sontakke@gmail.com. aiting for your mail.

Mayur.

Keshi said...

Sorry Mayur I missed this comment.

ok will send u my email soon. tnxx!

Keshi.

Judge Arse said...

I'm sorry you're feeling low. :-(
I do care. I've been feeling kind of flat and depressed lately myself, but that's just one of those things.
I hate checkng the email, finding no-one has written, checking it again, again...get too obsessed sometimes. I know we're supposed to learn how to be happy with ourselves, but sometimes it's awfully hard. We just want someone we can reach out to.
I think you're a very likeable person. But there are many fair weather friends, those who only like you when you're happy. The real ones will like you when you're sad too. There are fewer of those, but they're worth more.

EKENYERENGOZI Michael Chima said...

There are those who love to make so much drama out of the little foxes of life.

Just live for the love of life and your life will be filled with joy.
We are best when we live on our own terms of reference and not swayed by the transient thoughts of others in transit.
People come and go, and life still goes on

The winds will still blow
The seas will still flow
The fireflies will still glow
The plants will still grow.

No matter what we have said or done
No matter those who have come and gone
Life goes on.
As long as you are still breathing
It is enough for thanksgiving.

Love is all that matters to life.
And love starts from facing the truth in the mirror.
The mirror of your heart.

Cheers and God bless.

Keshi said...

aww Judge I KNOW U CARE. HUGGGGGGGGGGZ!

Keshi.

Keshi said...

Ori that was truly encouraging and so very beautiful, ty so much HUGS!

Keshi.