2005 more tears

As 2005 has only 11 more days of her life, I want to be thankful for what she gave me and what she didnt. She gave me, but she also took. I guess I still have reasons to smile 'cos what's meant to be will be...

A stormy yet soothing year it was...spent in the moment...never thought too far 'cos I wanted to be just thankful for the day...for the moment...for now. I got closer to God and I realised that life isn't all about having what you want...even what you need...but we have to smile and keep moving...'cos we just might as well. When this year is gone by she will never return...never will she give you another chance to re-do what's already done...to re-write history. They say life is like drawing a picture without an eraser...I say that the heart is like a mirror, once broken it never can be mended to be the way it was before - 'cos even if you super-glue the pieces back together, the scars remain forever. But was my heart unbroken to begin with?

Somethings have been missing from my life for a very long time and even forever...and tears have been a part of my life for a very long time now that I can't even remember when it was last tear-free. Folks I'm not seeking sympathy but this is the true state of my life and somethings are too personal to put up in a blog. I just take one moment at a time and guess what...it really is a great way to chase the blues away - a fantastic way to feel that 5min happiness of having an unbroken heart. And I still remember the fun times, the good tidings, the blessings, my ever-dancing spirit, the people in my life, you beautiful souls...yes I'm thankful for the beauty of life in spite of it's darkness. And this year has been a great guru to me about life's hidden meanings and it came through you too - all of you who gave me so much knowledge and made me realise how diverse and beautiful people can be in their thoughts.

So it's Christmas and the season of peace, joy, love and laughter...Santa and carols...angels and presents...parties and merry times! I've done most of my shopping, posting greeting cards, wrapping gifts and placing them under the tree, stealing my sis' Xmas cakes before Christmas just 'cos I love them lol, and few more clothes and shoe shopping to do. I have to attend few Xmas parties along with 2 bday parties this weekend, a BBQ lunch, a brief getaway with a friend who's here from NZ and we have few people coming over to our place for lunch/dinner over next week. So from this weekend I will be off till the 3rd of January next year...since I have so many people to visit during the holidays, I might not be able to log in from home as much as I do now. Therefore I might not be blogging/visiting your blogs till I return - so please bear with me. And I'm not entirely sure if my blog life is going to last long next year - I will give you my reasons in due time. I'm sure most of you will be away too. So guys have loads of Xmas fun, be merry, eat and drink and dance the worries away...'cos it's not worth spending time thinking about what you don't have...enjoy what you have - get those dancing shoes out of the closet, put em on and strutt your stuff babies ;-) Sleigh bells ring...are you listening....or should it be My hump, my hump, my hump, my lovely little lumps...:):)

Also I wanna wish my dearest friend Uttara a safe and blissful trip, I will miss u loads my wishing-mermaid! Here's hoping the new year will bring me 2006 less tears. Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to all! Will miss you heaps when I eat Chritsmas cake and slip-slop-slurrrrp (kiss) under the mistletoe...awwww lol! Stay safe guys, buh byeee, HUGGGGGGZ and MUAHHHHHHZ from Keshi!