Six Months' Notice

~~RIP Keshi~~
Born to yak...died yakking too.

Ghee tagged me today (I know I have 75 other tags to do before this one, but I just had to do this first cos I like the depth of the question and I have certain very close associations with this question). And the question she asked me was:

***What would be the 5 major things you would do if you were told by your physician that your life would only last another six months??

Interesting and profound question right? And this is not just a tag question, it's a real question that many people out there have to find answers for. Disease and death happens quite often now than it used to happen before. I have seen people who are close to me just fading away right infront of my eyes...I have woken up one morning to find my dad lying dead next to me...I have held the hand of someone about to cross over...I have heard one of my closest friends heart-breaking account of dealing with Cancer at a tender age...I have seen the anguish in the eyes of 50 Cancer patients waiting to die at a Hospice, both young and old...I have spoken to them and gotten to know their last wishes...I have felt their anxiety and pain of having to prepare for something that no one wants to even imagine about...and that is Death that booked an appointment with them without their consent. I myself have seen death staring me in the face. Hence I can answer this question quite confidently and genuinely. So here are my 5 major things-to-do if I only had 6 more months to live:

1. First of all, I'd resign from work...not cos I don't wanna work but cos I wanna spend more time with my mum and sis. Every single second would count then right? I'd go places with them, eat as much as I like (all the high-calorie food), dance till I pass out and enjoy every moment to the fullest. Basically I'd have a 6-month long Going-away party hehe. I'd make my last days the happiest 'for them'. Also, I'd prepare them for it and make them realise that life isn't forever anyways.

2. I'd choose my favorite memories/photos from childhood to now (which would be like a million btw LOL!) and make a video out of them for my mum...cos she wouldn't know how to do it, so I'd have to do it myself for her hehe. I'd also add some recorded messages in it, for her to see only after I'm gone. It would tell her why I'd never have known what Love is if not for her.

3. Sell my car? Maybe not :). If I can, I'd love to take my car with me to heaven (wonder if heaven has a street directory), but since it's not possible hehe, I'd give away my car to someone who doesn't have one...I'd give it free ofcourse. I'd give it to my uncle in NZ who's having a real tough time right now. I want him to be happy and not be dependent on his relatives anymore. How about my Music collection? OMG I don't think I can find anyone safe to leave it behind with :(...that'd be my biggest dilemma btw. ok I'd give it away to a work-mate I know who loves the same kind of music and would cherish it.

4. Write my Will. I'm not a rich person and I don't have much assets that I'd leave behind. But the little bit I have, I'd like to give to my sister. I'm sure she doesn't need my money, but it would help her to buy her first home...I know that's her biggest dream, to buy her own house. So it would make me happy if I could help her to achieve that dream, even if I wont be around to see it. And I know she'd look after my mum pretty well...no doubt about that. And I'd also donate a big part to Cancer Kids charity. In my Will, I'd also mention that my ashes be thrown into the sea cos that's where I often escape to.

5. I'd write a 'Hello From Heaven' post to my favorite bunch in this whole wide world and that is YOU - kind souls who stood by me through thick and thin. (I'd also write a letter each, to my close friends who are overseas right now). I'd give my password to a friend here and ask him to publish that post after I'm gone, and I'd like this current song to be played as my last song here as a message from me to you. Then you can read the post, listen to the song and comment as if I'm still around - no guarantees in comment-replies though ;-). I might be busy hunk-watching over there too, considering the fact that both John F. Kennedy Junior and Kurt Cobain are dead. Besides I have my dad, granma, Janice and Dan to catch up with woohoo! Although I'd miss you all like crazy....would God allow me to blog?

So there you go Ghee, and the 6 months would just fly ha. Thanks for giving me this great opportunity to think deeply and take stock of life. It made me realise what's really important in life...good times, memories, charity, being happy for and helping others reach their goals and not forgetting those who stuck around in my lowest moments...and that's YOU guys. HUGGGGGGGGGGZ! We can't take anything with us when we die...but we can leave behind alot...and if that's good memories, alot of love and support to others, then we have lived a great life no matter how short it may be. So would you know my name, if I saw you in heaven?

Current Music: Tears In Heaven by Eric Clapton