The Birthday Present

H A P P Y B I R T H D A Y T A N V I !!

I know it's on the 18th of January but I wanted to cheat and be the first to wish Tanvi, one of the very few genuine people on the net. She is my little sis that I never had. She was my friend when everyone drifted away from me. She tried to understand me...took time and effort to get to know me...did not just diss me just cos others did. She went through alot herself but was never too late to come wipe my tears...she was always there, somewhere on the net in bits and bytes, pouring her love and care for me. So Tanvi, on your birthday I want to wish you a beautiful day with alot of love and care from all your loved-ones and may that love and care last for many more years to come...MUAHHHHHHH!

On my birthday I get very emotional hehe...it's like I just want everyone to know I exist, lol! I seek attention and want to be wished well etc...yes I'm vain but don't forget I'm only human. I love cakes, candles, presents, chamapgne and celebrations...I want people, music, dancing, chatter, food and laughter. But thinking of all that, now I wonder if that's what birthdays are really about?? It's a celebration of life...yes..but leaving the party out, lets think a bit more deep. On a birthday, maybe one should think about what he/she has been to others so far in his/her life...what are his/her achievements in terms of being a human being...what have you been to others. Cos that's what really matters in the end. Not your money, clothes, shoes, cars, houses, parties or degrees. It's what sort of person you have turned out to be and realising what your mission in this life is. I know I was born to try...to try even if all hope is lost...try in my darkest hour even if I don't see any light at the time. The purpose I'm here is still not very clear but as long as I keep trying I will get closer to the mission. This year on my birthday, I'm going to take a quiet walk along the beach and think back on what I have been to myself and to others...whether I have been what I should really be. Whether I deserve the best birthday present ever - the realisation of myself. Look at the radiant candles on my cake and think of how many people's lives I may have enlightened - or how much more I have to work on it. With Tanvi, I know she is just being herself and doing her bit the right way...she's an adorable little darling who has a heart of gold...Tanvi you have lived every minute of your life to the fullest, never hurting anyone and I admire you for that. Your positive and selfless spirit just rocks! I dedicate 'Disappear' by Hoobastank especially for you..I remember you told me once that you love this song :) So tell me guys, what does a Birthday really mean to you and how do you usually spend your birthday? What do you intend to do this year on your birthday?