Killers' Paradise

Last night I was watching TV for a change and happened to catch this spine-chilling documentary about grotesque accounts of recent rapes and murders in Guatemala City. Apparently 573 women have been raped and killed between 2005 and 2006, it's on the rise in this particular area and there's nothing being done about it by the local Police or the government - how ridiculous is that? It was so sad to see the dead bodies of young women, some decapitated and some butchered to bits and left in the dumps to rot. No it didn't happen only to girls who go out at night or to girls who didn't have much of an education or to ones who didn't come from a secure family. They also killed Claudina who was a Uni student and one who came from an affluent family. She was at the wrong place at the wrong time and only 19yrs old. I switched the TV on half way through the documentary so I was not prepared to see such shocking scenes at all but yeah they showed it all. And this time I didn't get up and leave cos I wanted to hear the stories the families of these victims had to say and let me tell you it was very heart-breaking. I wanted to be a part of their grief and feel what they must feel right now. Some of the bodies were in coffins reading 'Name:XX' as they couldn't be identified and were buried with no family, not even a prayer. How sad is that...I just can't imagine that and when I saw such body bags being put into the graves, I murmured a little prayer in my heart - may her soul rest in peace..may her pain end now and be in the arms of the loving lord away from this cruel world. My mum and I watched with tears in our eyes.

It was horrific to even imagine that someone could really do that kind of thing to another human being. No one has the right to take another's will to live life. It's atrocious and it's beyond forgiveness. Some of the gangsters are in prison now and some are still walking scot-free. How fair is that for the victims and the families? Many victims' families were crying their hearts out saying none of the cases were followed up and investigated at all. That to me is sickening. Why are the governments and the Police of some countries not really doing their work, especially when the crime rate is this high and the nature of the crimes is this disgusting and going on for so long? I feel that alot of people in the relevant authorities have no value for human lives or are interested in really doing their jobs right..they just want the pay-slip and that's about it. These stories reminded me of the Priyadharshini murder case that Ishita and Southpaw have been voicing about and making an effort to make people realise that it's WE who have to bring justice to these innocent victims. We are alive and we can do something cant we? It may have been our friend, family member or colleague and how would that affect us then? I can't even go there. My dad was a Police Officer and was involved in investigating many murders and other serious crimes. I remember one night he had to go investigate the murder of a beauty queen in Sri Lanka. He came home that morning and told us that he can never forget the look on her face as she lay dead on the concrete floor...it cried out for only one thing...JUSTICE. Do we live in a world where killers have all the rights and victims have none? Where is the justice today? Stupid morons who sit on their ass doing nothing about these cases should be fired and human rights' activists should get together and implement their opinions to prevent such hideous crimes and to protect the communities. I know nothing can bring the dead back but atleast it will serve some justice to those who died unfairly at the hands of violence and to the families who will never really recover anyways. BTW this documentary struck a chord with me big time...life is too short to whinge or to be selfish - you never know when it'll be snatched from you or your loved-ones. After someone is gone, no point trying to say what you had to say before. So be happy always, do good, make others around you feel and know they are loved, and dance your cares away. Godspeed!

Current Music: No Promises by Shayne Ward

Midnight Caresses

Didn't I warn you of more scary pics from me, haha so here they come! Anyways guys I had another weekend full of fun. Sat morning we all went out for Yum Cha (my fav Chinese outing). The word ‘Yum Cha’ means to drink tea. The traditional custom originated in Southern China, where people would go to a ‘Tea House’ to drink tea. The custom has changed over time to become a ritual where friends meet at a restaurant for Yum Cha, usually in the morning/lunchtime and eat a variety of yummy Chinese dishes with green tea. At Yum Cha, dim-sim ladies present dishes on the trolleys. Customers then select their preferred dishes from the trolleys. Hope you've had Yum Cha too. My cousins' sweet kids came along too and they couldn't keep away from me as usual...'Keshi Aunty can we do this?', 'Keshi Aunty can we do that?', 'Keshi Aunty can we go shopping?', 'Keshi Aunty can we watch Futurama together?' etc etc etc. And there was no stopping on chatting continuously, sometimes without even breathing, sitting on my lap and pulling my cheeks etc etc etc hehehe. They were so sweet and addcitive! Anyways I managed to click some pics of them too from my phone - just attached 2 of em cos I cant attach all (will attach the rest in another post). This is 2 of my fav chatterboxes (you could say like Aunty like Niece/Nephew lol!). There's another very very cute 5yr old chatterbox-niece that I will intro to you guys in another post. She's a handful and calls me Sexy Girl. And there's another 3yr old rockstar nephew who goes 'Whyyyy...?' for every word you say and leave you at a dead-end for explanations.

So what did we do on Sat night? You're gonna kill me - yep we went Dancing again at the Docks :) - a popular nightclub at the Darling Harbour. Well this time there was a special reason why we went there. One of our friends (Kyle) is leaving to Hong Kong this weekend on a long-term work contract (and to earn big bucks) . Ekta and Anand, I was thinking how lucky Kyle is, cos he's going to be where you guys are. So a group of close friends and most of my cousins, decided to go out for drinks and dancing - as a farewell party for him. We had MEGA FUN alright. The music was sizzling and the crowd was even more sizzling! Ladies, there were some real hot guys dancing real good - I was watching them with so much admiration ahemmm. And guys, there were some real hot ladies that you'd pass out watching em dancing lol! Just go to that site and check out the pics - you will know what I'm saying. Anyways, we danced, strolled in the harbour a bit and then came home around 2:30am. I was so hungry when I came home so I had chicken and bread at 3am and I hit the bed straight away - now how unhealthy is that? Anyways woke up at 11am the next day - felt like an out-of-control teenager after a long time lol! I never did that sort of thing when I was a teenager (my dad would have shot me and then made a tombstone reading 'she died wanting to go to a nighclub'). But it all seems pretty good stuff to do once in a while. You wouldn't believe it even now when we friends go out, my mum makes sure some cousin brother or a well-known guy-friend is going along too duhhhh! oh mum Im a grown woman now - I know how to kick a guy if he suffers from sudden cranium loss - you know that (Keshi roll her eyes...).

Well when I came home that night, it was sooo quiet and while every soul in my town was fast asleep, I felt this unbelievable peace. Like I never felt that in a long while. Like that's just what I wanted but couldn't feel in a very long time. I was sitting on the living-room sofa, total silence around me, not a single whisper or even music that I cant live without. It was just me and the Midnight loving each other's company without even saying a word. It was pure bliss. I thought to myself am I a creature of the night? And then I realise hell I am! Cos I was born at 12:20am and I'm someone who can't sleep till very late (but hopeless in the mornings). And also, I love the moon, stars and the midnight skies - all that romantic night gear of the skies. The spell-binding magic of the silence of the deepest darkest nights. Daytime is full of clutter and my deepest senses are sleeping. But in the night, the awakening takes place. That's when my deepest senses caress me with their silken touch. That's when my soul really starts to wake up and wake me up too...that's when I can finally really have a long and uninterrupted conversation with myself. What time of the day do you feel one with your spirit?

Today's music is one of my favs ever. I can never ever get tired of this song, especially of the guitar sounds. This is the LIVE performance but the original is way better. I would have listened to it a zillion x zillion. Enjoy! btw I'm so busy at work but I promise you I'll be visiting your blogs soon ok? Thanks for putting up with my absence MWAHHH!

Current Music: Sultans Of Swing by Dire Straits

Sunshine Street

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARGIE! Keshi does her special moon-walk just for Margie, all dressed in black ;-) Have a blast babez!

Last night I met up with a friend who's now back in Sydney after 3yrs of being in Taiwan. I first met her at Uni and now she's a great friend of mine. I missed her tonz cos she and I used to hang out alot either catching a movie, gymming or having Jap dinner (we both love Japanese cuisine - yes Niki I thought about you too last night) and chatting about the men in our lives and laughing like crazy ofcourse. We planned to meet at 5:15pm infront of this popular shopping center in the city - so after work I went straight to the spot and there was no sweet Rita there. I rang her mobile and she said she's right in front of the building and we both turned to see each other holding our mobiles and talking to each other within 2 steps away...lol! Soon we hugged - aww it was such a warm hug from a dear old friend and it was so nice to see her back in town. Such a warm feeling...a feeling of finding one more missing piece of my life in the past 3yrs. She went to Taiwan at a time I was breaking up with my Ex and now she's back and guess what she said: Keshi you look absolutely happy and now you're glowing like a woman. haha I don't know about the woman part but I'm happy alright. This makes me wonder if I should abandon the man-hunt cos it may make me un-glowing again. Anyways we went and had yummy Jap dinner, updated each other with what has been happening in our lives in the 3yrs we were apart - giggling and all, and also went and watched the movie The Lake House.

What do I think about the movie? Well I was confused from the beginning to the end. And even today I'm mega confused. To begin with it's not a normal story...it's about a man and a woman communicating with each other (through letters) from two different times. Man(Keanu) lives in the year 2004 and the woman(Sandra) in 2006. Basically it's a time-travel love story that honors the spiritual practice of waiting - waiting even years for that right one. I don't wanna say anything more incase you're waiting to watch it. So go watch it for yourself and tell me what you think. All I can say is I'm blockbuster confused not cos of the time-travel, but cos of few things that I think the director of the movie forgot about. Well anyways both Sandra and Keanu look much older than they were in previous movies but they still look good and did a great job. So when I was heading home after the movie, I was waiting for some guy from 2004 (even 1004 for that matter) to txt me but nothing happened...guess these things happen only in the movies, right?

Man-Hunt Update: Status:Abandoned. Why? I don't think that's really me. I don't hunt for anything in my life except CDs, clothes, shoes and jewellery. So I want to be my old self, the one who's carefree and independent of being alert. The one who's always unguarded even among a thousand hunks on the train or wherever...the one who's Keshidelic. The one who never wants to disturb her destiny. The one who walks the road given to her no matter how many No-Right-Turn signs it has damnn it. The one who will see it when it's ought to be seen. So I'm back from the hunt that never was in the first place. With that and with Rita back, I feel I'm walking down Sunshine Street again. Have a good one folks!

Current Music: Self Control by Laura Branigan

The EX Factor

What do you really think about your ex-bf/gf(s)? Do you miss them when you think back or do you simply mutter 'f##k you swt hrt'. Well I don't think the same about all of them but I sometimes have thoughts like 'who the f##k cares what you do anymore', 'hope you're in pure bliss with Miss.Small Boobs', 'whoever is gonna end up with you would carry the surname Bimbo', 'What? Im even thinking about you? Time for a cranium-refill', 'Im glad we broke up or else I wouldnt even have a blog', 'Your new GF is beautiful, perhaps only in the land of no women?', 'wow your GF is lucky to have less to play with'. LOL ok some of them I just made up for this post, I admit, but the rest I really mumble when I think about this particular ex-bf. Others were really sweet and I don't think anything bad about them. But na I don't wish any harm upon this particular ex either - just that what he was could be easily nominated for the Jerk Of The Millenium Award, that's all. hmmm lets call him Dick Cranium. Whatever happened happened for the best and I'm so glad I'm not with Dick anymore cos if I was, I would not have met any of you - I could even be experiencing rebirth somewhere else...he was that possessive.

Apart from feeling like a loser and needing anti-stupidity pills (btw these pills exist now) for dating some of these EXs, do you feel jealous if/when you see an ex with a new partner? I have seen Dick with his new partner. Well I never felt jealous 1.cos he's not worth it and 2.cos she's not Salma Hayek either. LOL ok I'm acting like a real teenager now and I know I shouldnt. The truth is Dick likes alot of attention and he only likes things going his way. He's so self-righteous and as long as he gets what he wants, he doesnt care what happens to others. Well I wouldnt say he's all mean and no good at all. Yes Dick has a good side too. He's cute. duhhhh so! Yeah that's what I mean when I say looks is not everything. You have to bite the apple to know whether it's sweet or not (I know most apples are sweet and that was a poor example - stop staring at me like that now). Anyways, I wish Dick and his girlfriend (lets call her Rhonda) well.

Have you had a fatal attraction ever? lol I know Southy did. I haven't so far but I have a friend who's ex haunts him to date - lets call my friend Michael and his ex Glen. Glen can't get over him even though he's told her many times before to consider him dead. She regularly calls him up, txts him, emails him and even sends him letters saying she can't forget him and that she might die soon if he rejects her totally (actually it's Michael who walks around like a dead body these days). I haven't met Glen but from what I have seen, she looks vampish and a little bit like Mrs.Dracula on an all-expenses-paid holiday. She has long black hair and red lips like she sucked on some blood before taking the photo. I always tease Michael saying that she's gonna cook his dog in a big broth someday and leave it in his apartment stove (have you seen the movie Fatal Attraction?). Well there's something to learn from that...don't date for the sake of it and also choose carefully who you go out with. btw Michael is in the process of changing countries.

I must say my first boyfriend was so innocent and so sweet. Let's call him Brandon. He didn't even know how to kiss but I really liked him. Why, cos even I didn't know how to kiss back then hehehe. I remember that he always waited for me to come back from school and steal a few moments to chat with me in some hidden place. I was so afraid that someone might find out and tell my dad. I was only 14 for goddsakes and he was 16. Anyways we chatted but I don't think we really said anything to each other - we just stared at each other the whole time, lol! I wonder where Brandon is these days...wherever he is I hope he's happily settled and doing well. I miss that guy.

So do you remember those good(or fatal) old days? Tell me about your EXs...love em for life or loathe em to the grave?

Current Music:Grease Mega Mix by John Travolta and Olivia Newton John

Feel

Hi Guys how are we? Hope you all had a great weekend. Now guess what, I'm going to obtain Residency in Portugal. Why? Cos I just don't know what on Earth I'm doing in this beefy Aus - I felt like that when I saw the pic on the left. Any girl wanna join me in Portugal? I can see so many hands raised. Siggghhhh..Keshi is so shocked that she didn't even think about Portugal all this time! Well anyways my new address will be somewhere in Lisbon. Eu te amo Portugal! Ok so did you all have a great weekend? Well I can say I had a fantastic weekend...it was one of my cousins' bday again :) so off we went to this big party and yes, we danced alot. No dance-floor dramas this time but one married guy removed his ring and gave it to me...lol I didn't take it ofcourse. Anyways, we had loads of fun and it was good for me too. Cos remember I was not feeling all that great last week. Well thanks to all of you and a nice weekend, I'm feeling much better. Here are 2 of the many glamor shots my current husband Mr.Nokia took of me on Sat. More will follow later on. Let me see what you have to say.

Newsflash - I'm thinking of really making an effort to find my man...cos alot of my friends think I'm too comfy with my life right now and that I'm not even noticing the hundreds of men who are looking my way and saying 'Keshi would you just f##kin look at me?'. It could be true cos Im such a zombie when it comes to checking out potential hunnies. I go to work in a rush, come back in a rush, weekends I just roam around with friends, partying, shopping, even if we go out I just eat, dance, laugh and then go back home and sleep duhhh! That's really not the way to fish is it? I guess after my last major breakup I have given up on men and perhaps that has stopped me from looking around, even without my knowledge. Well now I just wanna feel real love. I want some human contact apart from my current men Nokia and Blogger. I just wanna wanna feel some love. I feel that all the love I have is going to waste right now. You know how you feel that you're not making use of all that love inside you? Well that's how I feel right now. Gotta give it to a man who deserves it - no more playing-hard-to-get and no more of those lonely nights. I'm tired of being this single Keshi. I don't know how successful I will be but atleast I can try. So yeah, I'll be taking my binoculars with me from now on and really 'looking' this time around..wish me luck hehe. Should I have a bumper sticker saying 'Single but looking eh gorgeous' lol! So guys get ready, here I come ;-)

Current Music: Feel by Robbie Williams

An Engraved Trail

A tear falls down a lonely cheek...kissing it and embracing it for all the lonely times it spent. The tear runs along that cheek and draws a path of it's own leaving a trail for another tear to follow. These cheeks have not known anyone warmer than those tears. Those tears have been it's friend or else the pent-up sorrow would have made it give up. If tears were a river, then these cheeks are it's banks. And if these cheeks were the sands then those tears are the ocean. The rivers and the oceans never sleep. Likewise these tears never stop falling. The banks and the sands never battle with the waters. Likewise the cheeks never stop the tears from falling. They welcome them with glee and let them flow with vigour and freedom. It's not weak to cry...it's not silly to express pain and sorrow...it's not bad to let tears free. If tears are the only ones who really understand your pain, why not let them help you out. Let them flow and let them kiss your cheeks cos atleast they ease your pain and never leave you all alone. You call them and they are with you. These lonesome cheeks have always known a trail of a good friend named tears. Life can't be without that friend anymore cos only these cheeks have the engraved path it travels.

Current Music: Behind Blue Eyes by Limp Bizkit

A Brief Analysis

WARNING:Hazardous Material! Not for the faint-hearted and the weak-bottomed.

Yep you're right it's not about software or hardware, it's about underwear(briefs). Why was I thinking of writing on briefs? Well, cos someone in my last post mentioned thongs and G-strings, and it sparked underwearish thoughts in my head. So I thought about putting various types of underwear under the Keshi miscroscope and see what they are really like. I can hear ya giggling already. So here comes my rather deep analysis starting ofcourse with THE super Thong:

Thongs: Why do people wear thongs? Basically to prevent VPL (fear not sisters it's not some horrible disease - it stands for 'Visible Panty Line' hehe). G-Strings/Tanga/T-Back/Rio undies belong to this category. Thongs have been most popular in the past with exotic dancers only. Later on, once everyone caught on to the trend, singer Sisqo released a song entitled the 'Thong Song' and suddenly everyone was thong-th-thong-thong-thonging!

Worn by - Sexy mommas ;-) btw I didnt mean granmas..

Advantage - Can look super sexy in these and are ideal for very special occasions ahemmm! With these on, you can seduce even the most unseducible guy on the planet (that's only if you want to seduce a nerd).

Disadvantage - Do you wanna have a civil war with your bumcrack? Then these are great! Also if you don't shave/wax and wear these, then you might be the reason for someone's sudden death, beware!

Hipster/Boy Shorts: My favorite. Absolutely comfortable and trendy, looking hot at the same time.The difference between hipsters and boy shorts is that boyshorts tend to have a bit of a leg in them while hipsters are cut off the thigh. I think Bonds provides the best designs of hipsters. It's good for sports, comfortable and almost great for anything else - if you know what I mean.

Worn by - Fashionable, sporty and fun-loving women

Advantage - Sensible to wear and comfortable for sports too

Disadvantage - Can't be really thong-th-thong-thong thonging in these

Bikini: Apparently Bikini's are the choice of many a girl. Bikinis are inspired from the swim wear, which was originally re-created in Cannes, France. What makes a string bikini different is that instead of full material sides, there is a string,or in more modern cases, an elastic string which allows for added comfort.

Worn by - Traditional women, almost everyone
Advantage - Comfy in every way or should I say every angle?

Disadvantage - None to my knowledge except that they are a bit boring

High Rise Brief: These without a doubt are the most made-fun-of underwear in the market. High rise briefs are also known as 'Granny panties' - the kind Bridget Jones once wore. Typically this type of underwear come up to the belly button or higher (huh?), have a full seat and hits the thigh. Apparently these are the most conservative and are also the most comfortable to wear.

Worn by - Women who prefer comfort than fashion

Advantage - Comfort more than anything else and no bumcrack hospitalisations, also good to wear when you want to to take revenge from your man

Disadvantage - Imagine going on a date (with the man of your dreams) with this kind of underwear on? I'd dig a hole and disappear for life. Also these might take alot of space in your wachine machine. And you might need a separate clothes-line altogether just for one of these undies to dry.

So there you go girls. Let me know if you know more types of underwear and advantages/disadvantages of those and the ones I have already mentioned. Boys, mmm well I don't know much about men's underwear except that boxers are cute and I so hope that none of you guys here wear thongs haha! Don't want a David-Hasslehoff in my life. So guys do you wanna add to this post? Please feel free and thanks in advance ;-) Keshi awaits the spicy comments...lol! thong-th-thong-thong thong... ... ...

And a very HAPPY BIRTHDAY to Jeevan for the 31st of July!

Current Music: Call Me by Blondie

Dance-Floor Etiquette

Ok guys I had to attend another party in the weekend, lucky me ha? And I have 2 more bday parties coming up in the next 2 weekends (Keshi roll her eyes..). Well actually the point of this post is not to brag abut my parties, but to realise that even on the dance floor we need to behave. Why am I saying this? Cos last Sat my cousin had a party. And if I'm invited to a party there's got to be dancing or else I wont attend it - yep just like that. Anyways alot of us were shaking our booties for about 5hrs. Well that's ok..the usual. But something different happened on the dance floor this time around. Something that got me uncomfortable and that actually got me running away from the party lol! Well it's really not a joke. Let me tell you what happened. First the girls were on the floor dancing merrily and enjoying to the fullest. While all that was happening, the guys were having drinks outside in the balcony...we asked them to join us but they were yet not in the mood to hit the floor. Finally the guys took over the floor after about 2hrs of us dancing...and guess what?Some of the guys were totally stoned and they looked a bit scary when they danced hehe. I was ok with that cos most of them were my cousin brothers (trust me I have ALOT of cousin brothers!).

It was all ok until one of our friends (say M) started grabbing me and asking me to dance with him. I thought that it's ok cos he's a good friend and everyone knew he was a great guy too. I maybe a manic dancer but when it comes to partner dancing I'm very choosy about the guy and his manners on the floor. I do dirty-dancing with girls for fun lol, but I'm a bit wary of doing it with guys, especially if the guy is drunk. But cos I knew M well, I turned to him and danced but then he wouldn't leave me alone...he was pulling me closer and trying to grab me from some of those censored body-parts hehe. And that's when I asked him politely to stop doing that and to just dance normal, but he just wouldn't. Then he chased me all over the floor (btw I didn't forget to dance while running). My cousin brothers tried to relax M but hell na he wasnt anywhere near relaxing. He continued to do that to me until the party finished - though it wasn't too scary cos I knew him well and somehow managed to keep his hands off me, it would be really bad if it was some guy I didn't know! I knew M well but never did I expect him to behave in this manner, never. Does he have feelings for me that he acted this way when he was totally drunk? OK secret out - he was interested in me a while back but I wasn't interested in him in that way - it's a long story so don't ask me about it puuuhlzzz! Or was is that M was losing his cranium cos of the alcohol? But all the other guys who were drunk didn't do any of that to anyone else. So what was going on in M's mind? Do you guys behave this way with your female friends sometimes when you're drunk? It's just weird.

Well he rang me up the next morning and apologised for whatever happened at the party and told me that he can't remember anything lol! I said it's fine but I might sue him for the violation of dance-floor-rights hehe. Anyways jokes apart, I guess girls (even boys) should be prepared to handle such unexpected events on the dance floor. I have never faced such a situation in my life before but I think I handled him well - I didn't yell at him or snob him (partly cos I knew him well). I just told him to behave, avoided his crazy moves somehow (very cleverly, smiling all the time ofcourse) and kept on dancing:) If it happens to you, don't lose your temper...just calm down and say NO politely to the person or go and sit somewhere saying you need a break. Just don't get into a fight cos that would be ugly and spoil everyone's mood. Also it will keep you away from further trouble. So has it happened to ya?

Current Music: Pump It by Black Eyed Peas

Smells Like Down Under...

Brutally tagged by ME so here I am folks :). It's a rather long tag so if you're bored just say 'Phuck Orf Keshi' and move on to the 2nd part of the post ok and answer the Qn there please! And alot of kisses coming your way from the land Down Under...mwahhhhhhh!


BEST:
1. Male friend: Anthony - Best at being the worst
2. Female friend: Sharon - Worst at being the Best
3. Vacation: Port Moresby 2000

WORST:
1. Time of day: Any time of the day that I have to listen to someone's bullsh#t
2. Day of the week: Any day of the week that Im subjected to more than 1 bullsh#tter
3. Color crayon: What kind of question is this and how did it creep in here??

LAST:
1. Person you talked to that goes to your school: Goes? Some 14yr old wrote this tag right?

2. Talked to on the phone: Shash, my cousin
3. Text: Samantha, why?? This is getting freaky mannn!
4. Person who Instant Messaged: Ok that's enough.

TODAY:
1. What are you doing now: Locating the 'A' key in the keyboard to start typing 'Anwsering this tag' which by this time turned out to be the 'L' key
2. Wearing: Black lacy top with black tight sweater, midnight-blue denims and sneakers. And oh black underwear that was made in Iceland lol!

TOMORROW:
1. Is: Far away
2. Got any plans: Vodafone - No Plans
3. Goal: To live every minute
4. Dislikes about tomorrow: Nothing to dislike cos Tomorrow never comes

FAVORITE:
1. Number: Does having a fav number help anyone in any way? If so please tell me how?
2. Song: Too many but currently 'Crazy' by Knarles Barkley and 'Down Under' by Men At Work at all times!
3. Color: Dusty pink, Apple green, Turquoise blue

CURRENTLY:
1. Missing Someone: Yes - my dad, Dan, Gran and Aunty V
2. Mood: Moody
3. Wanting: A new mood

TRUE/FALSE:
I am a cuddler: True except that I don't have a cuddlee right now
I am a morning person: False to the core!
I am a perfectionist: True to an embarassing extent :(
I am an only child: False
I am currently in my pajamas: False
I am currently pregnant: True and the father is Blogger
I am currently suffering from a broken heart: True but when was it ever unbroken?
I am left handed: False
I am addicted to Blogging: The only truth that there ever was!
I am online 24/7: False
I am very shy around the opposite gender: False unless I'm majorly attracted to the dude
I can be paranoid at times: True and that's mainly of roaches and other creepy-crawlies
I currently have a crush on someone: True and I'm thinking of crushing that crush
I currently regret something that I have done: True
I enjoy country music: True if Rock never existed
I enjoy smoothies: True
I enjoy talking on the phone: Depends on who I'm talking to and what it's about
I have a hard time paying attention at school/work: False
I have a hidden talent: If it's hidden how would I know of it?
I have a lot to learn: No one ever stops learning
I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal: True I have many secrets but I'm not ashamed about them - just that they shall remain as juicy secrets ;-)

ANGER:
1. Are you currently mad at someone?
Yes and right now his head looks alot like a cute punching bag
2. Which of your friends has the worst temper?
Me
3. Have you ever thrown something at anyone?
Nope but I see myself doing that in the very near future
4. Ever had something thrown at you?
Nope except bullsh#t, and if anything heavier gets thrown at me then I'll be attending a funeral the next day and I can assure you it won't be mine.
5. When you are mad do you prefer to stare angrily or yell and scream?
Don't worry mate, I'm pretty vocal lol!

EXCITEMENT:
1. Has anyone ever thrown you a surprise party for you?
Thrown? Nope cos I can't remember 'catching' one.
2. Are you easily excited?
I can be like that
3. What are you most excited about?
Men, just kidding...not.
4. If you won a million dollars what would be your first thought?
'wow I won'? what else could the first thought be?
5. If you could have anything right now what would it be?
My dad coming back to life

SELF-DISCOVERY:
1. Name: Keshi - wow what a self-discovery, Im Keshi!
2. Where were you born? Sri Lanka
3. What is your main goal in life? Answering tags
4. How do you want to die? While answering this tag...cos I did die a few times. On a serious note, If anyone could choose how they'd die then we are talking about Suicide - so yeah, gun shot to my head - quickest and easiest way to die

OPINIONS:
1. Sex before marriage?
If it can be done after marriage, why not before? Should a piece of paper be allowed to rule one's life?
2. Gay Marriage?
Im not gay yet so when I become gay I'll answer this
3. Lower the Drinking age?
This doesnt apply to me school kid, good luck to you lol!
4. Recycling?
The fact that you made 'Recycling' a question worries me alot. I wouldnt ever wanna flat with you.

DREAMS:
1. What was your latest dream?
Latest? is Dreaming a fashion now?
2. Have any of your dreams come true?
yes
3. What was the weirdest dream you've ever had?
The question for me should be 'what was the most sane dream you've ever had?'.

1. Straight, Gay, Bi?
Straight. What's next, Tri?
2. Do you have a bf/gf?
Too many!
3. Do you have a crush?
This is a repeat Qn. Guess you need a break

Q: How many beds did you lay in yesterday?
huh what do you think, I work for a bedding company?
Q: What color shirt are you wearing?
Repeat Alert!
Q: Name one thing that you do everyday?
Listen to music
Q: What color are your walls?
And the point of this question is?
Q: How much cash do you have on you right now?
I feel like Im being mugged right now
Q: I can't wait till?
Actually I can wait
Q: When was the last time you saw your dad?
The night before he died, many years ago. That day still haunts me to death
Q: What did you have for dinner last night?
Rice, chicken and salad
Q: What's the last piece of clothing you borrowed from someone?
I don't borrow clothes from anyone ok??
Q: What website(s) do you visit the most during the day?
Blogger sites, Hotmail and VideoCure
Q: Does anything hurt on your body right now?
Yes my brains

HAVE YOU EVER:
1. Have you ever failed a class?
No never!
2. Have you ever sung in front of a crowd?
Yes many times
3. Have you ever not taken a shower for 3 days?
YUIKKKKZ what are you??
4. Have you ever slept with a night light?
Yes when I had dead people wanting to have tea with me
5. Have you ever danced in the rain?
Nope cos if I did my neighbors will shoot me
6. Have you ever lied?
No and that's a lie
7. Have you ever had contacts?
I have many contacts - through email, blogs and phone etc so??
8. Have you ever tripped over something stupid?
Yes tripped over this tag

PICK ONE:
1. Samosa, Pakora, Kebab:
Kebab and non-veg please, or if it helps I can make kebab outta you
2. Bollywood, Lollywood, Hollywood:
LOLLYWOOD cos it has 'LOL' in it
3. Love marriage, Arranged marriage:
Can you arrange a love marriage for me please?
4. Honeymoon, no moon:
I like just mooning lol!
5. How many kids would u like 1,2, 3+ :
If there was a button like that, I'd have pressed #4
6. Kulfi, Ice cream :
Kulfi
7. Shah ruk khan, Orlando Bloom :
SRK
8. Meenar-e-Pakistan, Eiffel Tower :
I havent been to these places yet but I know about the Eiffel Tower so yeah it's the Tower
9. Lahore, Khi, Islmabad :
huh? what's Khi anyways?

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2nd part of the post:
Today's song is one of my favorites ever - Down Under by Men At Work. I would have listened to this song a zillion times. If you didn't know it's a very popular Aussie song and it always makes me wanna get up and dance and I do :) I love the flute music in it...it's too good to describe in simple words. I will ask questions on Aus later on so watch this song's video here ok ;-) It's funny, informative and very Australian. Here's the first question for you already...What's the first thing that comes to your head when you hear the word Australia? Lyrics given below (Indians note that Bombay too is mentioned in this song woohoo!):

Traveling in a fried-out combie
On a hippie trail, head full of zombie
I met a strange lady, she made me nervous
She took me in and gave me breakfast
And she said,
"Do you come from a land down under?
Where women glow and men plunder?
Can't you hear, can't you hear the thunder?
You better run, you better take cover."
Buying bread from a man in Brussels
He was six foot four and full of muscles
I said, "Do you speak-a my language?"
He just smiled and gave me a vegemite sandwich
And he said,
"I come from a land down under
Where beer does flow and men chunder
Can't you hear, can't you hear the thunder?
You better run, you better take cover."
Lying in a den in Bombay
With a slack jaw, and not much to say
I said to the man, "Are you trying to tempt me
Because I come from the land of plenty?"
And he said,
"Oh! Do you come from a land down under? (oh yeah yeah)
Where women glow and men plunder?
Can't you hear, can't you hear the thunder?
You better run, you better take cover."

Have a great weekend my yummy Vegemaaites!
... ... can't you hear, can't you hear the thunder...you better run, you better take cover... ... ...

Current Music: Down Under by Men At Work

Of Tiaras And Tinsel

Watched Miss Universe 2006 last night. Apart from being shocked at seeing rib-protruding bodies of some of the final 20 contestants, I must say that this time around most of the girls were not all that gorgeous. I know that Miss Universe is not only about external beauty but to be in the pageant I believe you've got to look exceptional to start with - extraordinarily beautiful than the average woman. Anyways there were few really good-looking babes that didn't make it to the final 20 - maybe cos they had a little bit more flesh than those who were chosen?? sighhhh who knows!

Miss Australia (pic at the top) is pretty alright but I don't know how she even got into the contest with her reckless past. The Gold Coast beauty was once a nude model and then came on Aus TV crying and begging people to let her compete in Miss Universe. That I think is pathetic and degrading to the contest itself. I believe Miss Universe is not only about beauty, it's also about responsibility and character. So she went ahead and who knows what happened duhhhh! Moving on to my origins, Miss Sri Lanka (pic on the right) is a true beauty and apparently trumped Mr.Donald Trump to no ends hehehe. She didn't get a place in the final 20 but she stood well for the country and did Sri Lanka proud. Miss India (pic on the left) went on to be in the final 20 and I must say she's quite beautiful - she wasn't quite the Priyanka Chopra and Lara Dutta category, but she is truly beautiful. Now to the top girl...Miss Puerthhho Rikkko! Whoaaaa she is HOT I must say and she is only 18! A baby beauty queen and she really carried herself well. I really love her smile - it's gorgeous and at the same time very cute - seems to come from the bottom of her heart (pic below) and her 'skin's the color mocha!' as Puerto Rican Ricky Martin sings ;-). The glamorous beauty paved her way to success not only cos she was drop-dead gorgeous but also cos she answered the questions pretty intelligently. My favorite part of the contest is when they ask those final questions from the final 5 contestants. Because the questions are random and the contestants have to answer within 30 secs, I must say it's a hard thing to do and one requires great and quick thinking power for it. I think all the girls did well with those questions this time and Miss Puerto Rico being just 18, was still the best at that!Good luck to this brandnew beauty queen and hope she does her country and the world proud! Current music is from another Puerto Rican beauty, enjoy!

So lets have some Miss Universe kinda fun ha ;-). Let me ask you the same questions from the contest and you try to answer real quickly and honestly. Keep it short ok (30 seconds span for each question). Good luck contestants!

1.If you could change anything about humanity, what would it be and why?
2.What is Success to you?
3.What would you teach your children?
4.What is your biggest fear and why?
5.What is your one true flaw?

Current Music: Waiting For Tonight by Jennifer Lopez

Destination:Hollywood

Forgetting the fact that my entire Osteo system is still suffering from a hangover from Sat (cos of a party that went on for 14hrs), I just don't wanna let my blog-life suffer too. So here I am trying to blog as usual (sooo wanting the blog-doc to run out of business), making funny faces at you ;p from over here, sipping my coffee and giving you a chance to be a movie star...nah Keshi hasnt gone coconuts - yes you heard that right, movie star it is. I thought of this on Sat as one of my friends told me 'Keshi you should be an actress...' when I finished doing a stupid emotional movie-scene as part of that Passing-the-pillow game. Everyone was cracking up watching me act lol! Well I think we all are many different movie-star characters in many different ways. Some of you girls may be like the girl Salma Hayek plays in Fools Rush In. Another girl's character maybe like Julia Roberts role in Runaway Bride. Some of you guys may be like Hugh Grant's personality in 2 Weeks' Notice or Richard Gere's character in The Unfaithful. It could be any character and any star. So which movie-star character are you, from which movie and why? Here's mine:

I'm Lucy Eleanor Moderatz (Sandra Bullock) from the movie While You Were Sleeping. Overall a nice girl but she's a tad unlucky in love. I could relate to Lucy cos it's been 4yrs since I broke up with my ex (and you guessed it right, it's been 4x365 days since I last kissed duhhh!). Though she's interesting, she finds herself working a 9-5 job, often bored and lonely. Her life passes by just like the people who pass her by as she sits at the park sipping coffee or having a hotdog. And when Christmas gets closer, she feels even more lonely as that's the season of love, when lovers hold their hands and kiss under the mistletoe...and when old aunts ask 'why are you still single?'. She daydreams about a guy who would do more than just a nod and a smile. Someone who would take that extra effort to get to know her and love her for her. Someone who would take her as his girlfriend for life. Someone who would spend all Christmases with her. Then she meets Peter Callaghan (Peter Gallagher) while trying to save him from a terrible accident where he goes into a long and deep coma (this part is yet to happen in my life cos my Peter seems to be on an eternal coma even without an accident). And then she meets Peter's brother Jack Callaghan (Bill Pullman) and eventually finds her true love in him (that too yet to happen to me, so anyone here with brothers? lol!). So there you go, that's my movie-star character. And yet another lonely Christmas awaits for this Lucy...

Now which movie-star character are you? (it can be Holly/Bollywood or even TV)

And a Very Happy Birthday to Pradeep for the 24th of July!

Current Music: I Will Always Love You by Whitney Houston

Like A Pearl

Hey dudes and dudettes, know what? Apparently 'Keshi' is the name given to some rare and unique pearls from the Tahitian seas :) I just found out by reading a newspaper article in Aus about them and was jaw-dropped when I read the name 'Keshi' in it. I was like WHOAAA now I'm a pearl?? And so I set out on a mission of acquiring more knowledge about Keshi pearls that lead me to this net article. I haven't been a huge fan of pearls so far but suddenly I have developed this curiosity to buy some pearly jewellery, although I'm not sure it will suit me. Let's take a risk ha ;-).

Pearls are created inside an oyster somewhere deep beneath the seas...how fascinating. Isn't it just like all of us? We are all created inside our mothers' wombs, hidden away from the world. But when we are born, do we continue to shine just like the pearls do? Do we maintain our pureness and values no matter in who's hands that we have to deal? Pearls are not humans but they retain their beauty and value forever, whereas a human who's gifted with so much thinking power sometimes find it hard to maintain the beauty of the soul. Why, cos we are incessantly seeking for more and more in life hence we get disappointed at the end of the day. Can we just stop for a while, stop and stand still while the whole world may pass us by? Be still like the beautiful pearl..be what you are...continue to shine no matter what happens around you. Be like the pearl that grew in a mucky place, that even left it's ocean-home and came out to make people's lives brighter and beautiful. Just like how the Sandalwood continues to emit a magical scent even as it is being felled. Be a bright beautiful pearl in the lives of the people you know. Can we atleast try? I'm not being preachy or something, but these thoughts came to my mind when I set my eyes on the pearls. Suddenly I wanted to be like those pearls who never lose it's beauty and value no matter what. I think I'll try from today.

Now to some other WHOAA news - I bought a brandnew mobile phone! I'm stoked to bits cos it looks sleek and sexy and has many many many functionalities that I haven't even explored yet. I only bought it last night and was too excited to even read the guide cos I was busy just staring at it. hehe seems like Im beginning to fall in love with electronics since most of the real men are either taken or seem to have gone on a permanent holiday when it comes to Keshi - well you never know, I might even have a wedding invitation being sent your way reading 'Keshi marries Nokia' hehe. Another great thing that happened was that Avik, one of my long-term blogger pals, is about to become a dad and has decided to name the baby 'Keshi' (if it's a girl ofcourse). Now isnt that so sweet and I was really touched by his genuine friendship and appreciation of me. I hope that baby girl turns out to be non-Nokia-loving sane girl some day ;-). Good luck with daddyhood Avik! Yes to another WHOAA event now - it's my sister's bday tomorrow and we are having a party...she hates parties unlike me but she couldnt get away with that with a being called Keshi living in the same house lol. So yes we are having a party and I got her Guess sunnies and a gorgeous black and white embroidered skirt shhhhhhh don't tell her yet! She's gonna faint I know - I just hope she'll wake up before the guests arrive so that she can lay the table while I dance non-stop. And today's music is from our very own Aussie singer Shannon Noll, enjoy and have a good one guys!

Current Music: Shine by Shannon Noll

Devil In Disguise

Had a glance of the devil today. Have you noticed how some people discriminate, without a single thought about what they are really saying? I read a comment by some person in one of my friends' blogs that said something like 'stop using pkblogs when it's of Pakistani origin 'cos it disgraces India'! How prejudiced, racist and discrminative is that statement? Can all Indians here please tell me that whoever who said that was one rare racist with a severe cranium-deficiency ofcourse and that you don't feel that way about Pakistani sites etc? Yes I know that there are problems between India and Pakistan that has been dwelling for years but do we have to go to a level so low to draw borders between lands and it's people just cos we can't see beoynd plain hatred? pkblogs is a simple means of communication for godssakes, it sees no color, creed or race - it's not promoting any hatred or violence either! So why make Indians who use pkblogs feel guilty for nothing? It's people like that commentor who draw borders in people's hearts and build walls between psyches. It's people like that commentor who divide nations and spread racism. It's not about whether it's Pakistani or Indian or Chinese or Aussie, it's about the matter in hand. If it's something that gets people together, then seek no differences. If it's something that discriminates, then reject it straight away. pkblogs I believe gets people together so use it, reach out to others and stop stagnating in racist brain damage. Learn to see the good in your enemy too, if it takes you to peace and freedom. It's this never-ending Us and Them attitude that has buried us all in war forever. All I can say is such racists haven't met their embryonic needs and are the true seeds of evil. As they say, everything starts with a thought, so beware of your thoughts for they can grow into an unconquerable jungle of mass destruction - that has already made evil to be a constant in human society.

Current Music: Sympathy For The Devil by The Rolling Stones

My Special Spot

There's a special spot in my life that's not easy to be described in simple words. I wander off to this spot everyday for great many reasons: To engrave my thoughts in the solid walls of that spot so that my deepest emotions have a voice and remain etched there to remind me of how I change over time. To talk to many others who are sitting at my spot waiting for me, and to know that I'm being heard and appreciated for who I am. To share knowledge among some very voracious and smart acquaintances that feed me with their deepest intellect that I can't even buy in real life. To reach out to someone who may be waiting at my spot at a time of need and for some comfort from me. To bring out the best of creativity and pent-up emotions for which this spot becomes an open door. To believe in humanity when all hope is lost. To realise that I don't have to pack my bags and board a plane to experience true friendship. To vent out my anger, frustrations and dilemmas of daily life in a healthy manner. To be able to communicate in a way that makes me a better-informed citizen of the world who learns to appreciate great many cultures and personalities. To realise that information is the key to knowledge and that knowledge is the power in all of us. To build a network of special spots connecting from my spot that has now become the lobby of sheer knowledge and growth in my life. This spot may mean nothing to you but it's the whole world to me because it contains my most precious thoughts and it is the only pathway to many other special spots around the globe. And that spot is BlogSpot and it's my virtual home. You can't put me out of my home...you can't take away my keys and lock it for good...you can't steal my right to live in my own home...you can't destroy my right to freedom, knowledge and growth. Let me in, I want my home and my rights back. And this time it's you who's breaking the law.

My dear fellow-Indian bloggers, you are free to continue this Spot-post in your blogs with adding more great 'reasons' for wanting back that special spot in your life. Let's do it until we are heard and our own right to knowledge is granted back to us. Ishi you may use this post for anything that requires it to get back your right. Good luck folks!

Current Music: Breaking The Law by Judas Priest

Fetishes Of You

Yep you guessed it right, Keshi is on a Fetish-tracking mission today, so get ready my fellow-earthlings. Sexual fetishism was first described by Alfred Binet as though the concept and the activity is quite ancient, is a form of paraphilia (sexual arousal) where the object of affection is a specific inanimate object or part of a person's body. The term arose from fetishism, the general concept of an object having supernatural powers, or an object created by humans that has power over other humans. Sigmund Freud hypothesized that human sexuality may similarly be tied to conditioning (learning), and this may explain the phenomenon of sexual fetishism. Common fetishes include fetishes focused on shoes, boots, hair and haircuts, gloves, wigs, body piercing, underclothing, diapers, or other garments made out of specific materials such as rubber, fur, spandex, leather, or nylon - did I hear diapers?

The term 'fetish' first came to my ears when one of my friends stated that her boyfriend has a foot-fetish. I was thinking maybe he was a Podiatrist or something like that, but I was tragically wrong. It meant that he has a strong connection with women's feet and gets aroused by them. Imagine a dried, stinky pair of feet walking past him...wonder what will happen to his foot-fetish then. Anyways, that's when I found out that people really get sexually aroused by specific body parts/objetcs/smells/substances etc etc.


It's not a crime or a problem to feel that way and it aint something to be ashamed of - apparently it's natural brain stimuli linked with certain experiences even. However fetishistic arousal is generally considered to be a problem only when it interferes with normal sexual or social functioning (imagine my friend's boyfriend falling down on his knees and licking his female colleague's feet -now that's trouble). Sometimes the term 'fetishism' is used only for those cases where non-fetishist sexual arousal is impossible. So there you go...it's very much connected to some external stimulus.

The question: Do you have any fetishes, if so what are they? In simple words, what uniquely turns you on? Let me know and I will explain it a little bit further for you but only if it's listed in the Fetish article I read (Saby's fetishes I won't be able to find on this Earth but I'll try, ok Saby?). I will list mine at the end ;-).

Now to some very disappointing news...the Indian govt has managed to persuade some ISPs in India to block Blogger altogether. Because of this, some of my Indian blogger friends are not able to view any blogs at all. Isn't this the height of stupidity demonstrated by the Indian govt? I hope all Indian bloggers will fight and win back their well-deserved right to information. Till then, I'll be missing you my dear Indian blogmates!

Current Music: Push It by Salt N' Pepa

It Feels So Good....

Guys I'm sitting at home today bummer! Yeah on a Saturday that's really not me. But it's raining kangaroos, bloody cold, gloomy beyond pathetic and mega miserable weather over here in Sydney...I hate driving around in the rain and I'm missing my weekend stroll in the mall or sniffing up some 'caffein' with a friend ;-) But I still feel really good - why? Cos here I am blogging and seeing all of you beauties and connecting to major cities in the world within a mouse-click. How about that for a rare weekend treat ha? Yeah your love it feels so good baby! This is one of my favourite songs ever, and it's dedicated to each one of you who's love I feel across the miles everyday, so enjoy! It Feels So Good by Sonique. Keshi waves at you all the way from Sydney ;-)

Sonique Lyrics

Sonique Music Video Codes

Lyrics:

You always make me smile
When I'm feeling down
You give me such a vibe
It's totally bonafide
It's not the way you walk
And it ain't the way you talk
It ain't the job you got
That keeps me satisfied

Your love, it feels so good
And that's what takes me high
Higher than before
Your love, it keeps me alive
Thought I should let you know
That your touching means so much
When I'm alone at night
It's you I'm always thinkin' of
Oh, oh baby Oh,

To understand
How I feel, deep inside
Oh oh, you make me feel
All I need to feel
Yes, in my heart

Your love, it feels so good
And that's what takes me high
Higher than before
Your love, it keeps me alive
Thought I should let you know
That your touching means so much
When I'm alone at night
It's you I'm always thinkin' of
Oh, oh baby...

The Desolate 'Tomorrow'

NOTE:This post was written ages ago but I didnt feel like publishing it for some strange reason. I did publish it once and then quickly deleted it. I think today is the appropriate day to publish it - don't ask me why. So here it goes.

Yes we all know that...Tomorrow is only a term we use for the Today we thought of Yesterday. So, Tomorrow never really comes. Then what happens Today? We think so much about Tomorrow and waste the Tomorrow we thought of Yesterday, which is Today.

Ok enough of me mucking around with your sanity :) What if Tomorrow I stop blogging altogether and cut all connections with the net for good? No emails and no nothing. For some it may mean nothing...just the end of a net Id called Keshi. But the few who loved me for who I am, would surely miss me, I know that. This kind of goodbye sounds harsh, but you never know, it can happen, be it through my own will or not. But please understand that if it happens, that it's not cos I want to hurt you all intentionally or not cos I don't consider you all to be good friends...but it could be cos I just wanted to end all net activities, just like that. Maybe cos I wanted to be free of too many heartbreaks. Maybe I just wanted some peace of a different kind. Or maybe I just died. No matter what, Janice has always been on my mind. Everyone is unique and no one else can fill the emptiness left after Janice, that lurks around for so long. Unfortunately no one could help me with finding her since my last post about her. I even contacted the Mulund area personnel, but even they couldnt help me. So either Janice was not using her real name on the net or she is just untraceable. How has that affected me? Well, can anyone undo a bond once it's formed? I can't. Once you get to know someone and once that someone has touched your heart in a very special way, you just can't undo the bond, can you? The bond may have a set number of days of life, but the emotions and memories it leaves you with will never expire. Sometimes I feel scared for her...sometimes I feel what if she's alive and didn't want to contact us anymore? Is that fair on us or is that something wrong to do? But I don't blame her...if she's alive, she may be having her own reasons that need not be explained to some net girl called Keshi that she met long time ago. Well the point is do I even have the right to know - maybe not. Agree guys? Well I'm trying hard to make up my mind about Janice. Sometimes I wish I was not this ultra-sensitive...it's really irritating you know. I wish I could just go on with life like most people do...you know, have a heart of rock-solid matter.

So if I'm not here Tomorrow with no trace whatsoever, please don't feel angry at me. Please don't feel scared for me. Please don't ask for an explanation. Please don't try to find me. Live and enjoy Today, and be glad you did so Yesterday. Please don't worry about the Tomorrow that never comes anyways! It's like reading a book...it has a set number of pages...once all pages are read, there's none new left to read...you only have the pages that you read before. Life and every other phase in life (be it blogging, acquaintances, good health, happy times etc) is like that too. Nothing is forever so don't long for foreverness. Every bond in this world has a set number of days...and Yesterday's memories and Today are all we've ever got to share with one another, so cherish now. Be happy with what was Yesterday and what's here Today, so don't push me away...don't discard the time I have with you now...don't mock the friendship I have for you...don't cry about what I couldn't deliver...don't forget the Yesterday I had with you and don't throw away the Today you have with me...don't long for perfection of bonds either but live in the moment, for Tomorrow I/you/we may not be here at all.

~~Yesterday,

All my troubles seemed so far away...

Now it looks as though they're here to stay,

Oh, I believe in yesterday.

-Yesterday by Beatles

Current Music: Show Me The Meaning Of Being Lonely by Backstreet Boys

Peace For Peace

I want all my friends in Mumbai to confirm their SAFETY. Please leave a comment here saying you're OK. Uttsy I rang you but it went to your voicemail. I really hope all of you are ok!

I felt so much fear and anguish as I read the news about the Mumbai blasts cos I have many friends there. I couldn't think straight for a minute 'cos I can never understand the motive behind inflicting pain upon another in this very violent manner. Tuesday's Mumbai Blasts only proved even more that terrorism is just a waste of energy, time and lives. This is the exact thing that has been happening in Sri Lanka for the past 20+ years bewteen the LTTE (Liberation Tigers of Tamil Eelam) and the SL Govt - a raging war between the Tamils and the Sinhalese that killed thousands over the years including few who were very close to my heart. The LTTE uses women and children in their suicide squads. Some suicide warriors of the world believe they get frikkin virgins in Heaven when they die this way (how can you even get to know a virgin with a heavily blasted p#nis)?? How utterly dumb is that! 20+ years and no peace yet for SL but we see only more and more senseless deaths. This only proves that from terror we can never achieve security. From violence we can never achieve peace. From foolishness we can never achieve wisdom. So what are these terrorists really trying to do? How cranium-deprived are these terrorists to really think that all those who died last night (and many other innocents in history) can bring them peace? Do they know what peace really is? If they knew it would they be using terror to achieve it? Why can't people who want freedom/peace so much, think like Gandhi or Mandela and act peacefully for peace? Corrupt governmets may be frustrating but terror IS CERTAINLY NOT THE WAY!

Those who are dead will never come back to see if their untimely deaths served any purpose at all. Those who use terror as a means for achieveing peace will never get it either. Peace is the only way to Peace and until we realise that, no one is going to have real peace. What is Peace to you?

Current Music: Wake Me Up When September Ends by Green Day

Lethal Crush

Ishita this is dedicated especially to you and to all the girls here! I'm playing taggy cos I was tagged by Burfsters ages ago and couldn't really do it cos of Blogger's sudden PMS tantrums. Somehow Blogger is behaving well with images today, so I could attach many of them - hence the T-Tag straight away mate! The tag goes like this - post 5 pics along with some explanations for them. So here comes THE eye-candy:


Beckham in play mode:


Beckham in serious mode:


Beckham in killer mode:


Beckham in dream mode:




Kitten from Down Under heavily smitten and cruelly bitten by the Beckham bug and hoping never to be cured, uh oh!

Current Music: Smooth Operator by Sade

Passion Unlimited

Weekend is still on my mind, especially cos I spotted this hunk at the mall and couldn't get my eyes off him for quite a while. A few minutes of a drooling-session was happening when my tongue suddenly became one of longer-than-usual-human-tongues that reached him in a hurry across the barriers as he looked at me too - I so hope that no one noticed my facial expressions then cos I just froze right there and felt like I was in Antarctica ( I was expecting to be melted cos he was HOT but instead I froze - don't ask me why). Yeah maybe I was just being silly - after all he was just passing by and he didn't look like daddy-material to my would-be kids anyways. Cos he was 'playboyish' - yes that's the word. What was I thinking of, buying a Playgirl franchise with him someday or something, silly Keshi! But that got me thinking about X-rated movies..lol yes, I don't know why but he just got me thinking about those movies too. In other words he was a big session of lethal naughty on legs ;-) Oh enough of the description now, sorry guys Im going around in circles here! I already feel like I came out of an X-rated movie, holding his hand btw.

Usually you feel passionate towards someone you've known for a long time and towards someone you've dated/married to ofcourse. But can 2mins of just looking at someone (without even knowing him/her or touching) make one feel so much passion for the lookee? I hardly feel that way about people but when I do feel it, it's divine and it's hard to explain it in simple words. No it's not just lust, but it's much more than that - at a deeper lever of emotions as well and from both sides. If it's just lust, then hell it happens all the time and you don't feel that instant connection with the other person - just physical attraction only and it dies pretty soon. This is something more than that...like you know this person well and that there's some really strange, deep and beautiful connection of the body and the soul with the other person's body and soul. Like you know what she/he's trying to say and she/he knows what you're trying to say. He was good-looking but not drop-dead gorgous either...though he was hot he also had that innocence about him that got me totally floored. And he wouldn't stop giving me that 'I so know what you mean baby' look hehe...it was some very strange but very familiar feeling. I don't know what it is and I don't know how else to explain it but all I can say right now is that I need a mighty fireplace to melt me back to my original self. Yeah his look got me frozen for atleast another 6months. Have you felt this way at all towards a stranger without knowing them at all? Tell me about it...has instant passion ever left you spellbound?

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