The Shallow Depth

How about a woman who speaks openly about her desires, one who is not afraid to say how she really feels? I have always been someone who is not afraid to speak her mind. I don't care who I'm dealing with, I tell how I honestly feel. I'm someone who loves to express. Don't get me wrong, I try to be very polite while doing it. And when I write blog-posts I'm very honest with my feelings...be it about an experience in the mountains or a handsome man I came across. It doesn't bother me what people would think about me, I write how I exactly felt at that moment. Why should I write it any differently? Who am I trying to score points from? Life is about being who you are. It's not about trying so hard to stick to a bunch of 'social' rules just to get a good name from everyone. I don't want just a good name. I just want to be me.

Why am I saying all this? Cos I have a message for those who don't have an ability to think beyond labelling a woman a 'whore' just cos she wears a boob-tube or speaks her mind better than them. While being jealous is quite normal, it really shouldn't make you put the other person down or make them feel like they are shallow just cos they've got some beauty or talent or brains or simply because they are different from you. The point is no one has to be just like you. We are all different and we all value different things in life. Be jealous if you feel it, but don't let it stoop you to levels so low that you become blinded by it. Sometimes my posts can be quite raw...be it a HNT or my feelings about a guy I met or some other experience. But does that make me shallow? I guess not. People are so quick to judge based on just one or two lines they read or based on a pic. Just cos my posts are raw that doesn't mean I go sleeping around. Neither am I out to date every guy I meet. Neither am I desperately in NEED of a man. There are people I meet, admire and write about. There are also a million people I DON'T write about. Just cos I write about my interesting experiences that doesn't mean I am easy and that I live in a fantasy world. If I was so easy and in need of a man, I should be with some guy by now - just any guy. But I don't fall in love that easily. Lust is natural to anyone btw unless ofcourse you have hormonal issues. Well I'm just enjoying being me and expressing my true feelings. And if you don't like that or if it makes you think I badly need a shag, then there's something that you need to sort within yourself. You are probably unhappy with yourself so you want to give someone else a cheap label. It's quite sad actually. Blogs don't have a tool to show the tone of the posts...that's the down-side to blogs...cos even the fun posts can be taken the wrong way. But you know what...I really don't give a damn about that either. So I like men, I like them around me, I'm attracted to them, I'm in need of some loving, I'm such a brag, I'm this, I'm that. So what's wrong with being me? And how about yourself? I bet you're just jealous ha and you probably don't know how to enjoy life. So it's really not my fault is it?

The depth of a person lies in his/her character and abilities. That's what I believe. Maybe it's in their ability to make friends...to make someone else smile...to help...to be courteous...to respect...to do well in any task that comes their way...to be real..to admit to their thoughts words and deeds...to be genuinely happy for others...to be able to say something nice to a person when they deserve it. I love to make people laugh and I enjoy seeing all of you being happy reading my posts. I hope my raw posts don't offend anyone. If it did/does, I can't do anything about it (but maybe you can stop reading me) and nah I won't change for you - cos this is me. But if it's just making you jealous to an extent you want to say something nasty to me, then that's what being 'shallow' really is. So my message to you would be to control your jealousy, don't let it consume you, be smart, be happy for others and heyyy set yourself free!

And the pics btw show off my new haircut. (sorry about the greenness of em - took em with less light around. Maybe the green suits the topic of the post, hmm?). A much shorter fringe than before and bit of a trim at the back - not too much though. Don't forget that a bloke did the cutting and looks like he loves The Beatles, cos mannn now I look like Ringo Starr, HELP me if you can, I'm feeling ummm fine ;-).


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