God's Equipment

Right now my family is going through a very tough time. My mum's youngest brother is facing a real difficlut situation in NZ and awaiting a decision that will change his life significantly. We are all praying for him and hoping so much that things will turn out good for him. He's the youngest in my mum's family of 7 brothers and sisters. He's quite handsome, always wants to look good and owns a golden heart. He helped alot of his sisters and brothers when he could - that was when he was well-off few years ago. His 42yr old wife suddenly died of Cancer 2yrs ago, leaving him and his 3 young daughters behind in total disbelief and pain. He used to hold a great job in the Middle-East but he left all that and came to NZ looking for a better future for his family. But things didn't work out all that well for him in NZ. His many brothers and sisters did help him whenever they could but each time I went to NZ for a break, I sensed that he was being cornered and laughed at by some of the family members. He wasn't that respected, neither was he loved all that much. Maybe cos right now he's not so well-off as the others? Maybe cos he was a man who had his life totally screwed up for no fault of his own? Maybe cos he's not as rich as everyone else in this family is? Maybe cos he's not holding an executive position like the others? Maybe cos he didn't own a fancy house or a flashy car or a fat bank balance? Maybe cos he wasn't someone 'useful' to hang around with? Maybe cos he is too kind to tell people off? Maybe cos...ok I'm crying now.

I didn't want to write this post at all. I don't wanna hurt anyone's feelings in case my relatives read this post some day. But people who didn't treat him nice know who they are. And deep down my heart I know that I love my uncle V with all my heart and I have always did the best I could do for him. Whenever I went to NZ, I always visited his place and met up with him, I even cooked him lunch last time, I always gave him money when I didn't have that much to give ( I don't equate money to love but he needed it badly), I went with him to buy a car for him and helped him out to choose it etc, I invited him for a party I held at my cousin's place when some people didn't want him there (yes it's true)...he sensed that and while I still wanted him to come, he didn't turn up. It's so hard for me to say all this cos it cuts like a knife when I realise how insensitive some people can be. I'm not saying that family should back him up all the time but what wrong has he done to deserve so much contempt from others? I think his only fault here is that he's not so well-off compared to the rest of his family and he became a bit of a burden and a shame to some people. It's really not his fault but that's how others saw him. But I always saw him as my darling Uncle V who bought me my first talking doll Helen. Yeah he was a man who always GAVE...never TOOK anything in return. But times changed and now it's our turn to give. I guess alot of people didn't see it that way.

The trouble he is in right now need alot of money to be sorted out. Some very rich aunts in my family bluntly refused to contribute even a cent. Trust me one of my aunts is pretty loaded and she's the one who was the first to refuse to HELP. It's ok cos I have me to help him. My mum, sis, myself and one other dear aunt finally funded it. We had to ask everyone if they wanted to help cos it was not a small amount that he needed and I believe team spirit goes along way. But no one called back except for 2 of my dearest cousins who always help people. The rest didn't even reply to my email...shows how busy some people are with their own lives that they can't think beyond themselves. I agree everyone has problems, bills, rent, fees, mortgages etc etc but when someone who's worse off than you are is in trouble we need to stop on our tracks and help that person. It's not the money at all, but where's the love and compassion? If I compare my wealth to some of my family members' wealth, I'd be somewhere at the very bottom. But hey I believe I have a wealthy heart and I'm richer for that. Cos if I didn't have that kind of heart, I'd really be nothing. Lusting and acquiring money that can never be used on a good cause will only corrode one's heart beyond repair.

I'm not trying to get sweet comments from everyone about the help I do. All I'm trying to say is that there's nothing more divine than helping someone in need. When I help someone I never expect anything in return and I don't remind that person that I have helped them etc etc. Cos this is how I see it. I see myself as a tool in God's toolkit. He's using me to do His job. Do tools ever say to you 'I helped you therefore you should be grateful for the rest of your life'? Do tools ever expect anything in return for the service they do to you? Do tools leave you when you don't have nothing? Do tools calculate and keep scores? Never. We are all God's equipment when it comes to helping one another. So don't ever praise yourself for any help you do and don't ever mention it to the person you help. Just be glad you have a wealthy heart in this very very troubled world. Do you have it?

Tonight is going to be a very tough night. I'm wishing my uncle V all the very best and I hope God's looking his way. I need your prayers and good vibes tonight guys. This post was a very hard one to do, so please bear with me if you can't make much sense out of it.

Who's gonna pick you up,

When You fall?

Who's gonna hang it up,

When you call?

Who's gonna pay attention,

To your dreams?

And who's gonna plug their ears,

When you scream?

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