No Stinging Strings Attached!

Nah I wasn't attached to a G-string...neither was I doting on my Hamstring :). Now you may think I'm being string-ent here, but hey just keep on reading my string of thoughts below, you'll get there soon ok.


Some strings limit you...
As humans, we are all bound and tied up by strings...strings of emotions. We are somehow attached to them, no matter what, however much you may deny. As a pathetic human myself, I was tied up to some strings that limited my movement...the free movement of my spirit. Last few days, I let those strings of expectations, reasoning, doubt, pain, disgust, anger, ego and humiliation tie me up and make me dance to their tunes. They played the music, I danced. Look at this pic...see how my emotions were playing the music for me...they never gave up! They haunted me day and night, made me depend on them and be a slave to them...

So I danced and danced...the way they asked me to...the way they expected me to. I tried to stand up when my knees were hurting...I bled, I nearly gave up but I kept on getting up, smiling and continuing to dance. And then my spirit got tired...cos I was letting those tight strings rule me and control my mood. They limited my free and happy spirit. I got exhausted, sweaty, uncomfy, short of breath and blood tears were starting to roll down my cheeks...I collapsed and I started to cry. That's when I realised I was letting them use me...that I was letting my own emotions abuse my spirit. I somehow had to help myself...cos no one else could...


Though I know, that these same strings will come around again and tie me up on another day, on a different experience, I just had to cut them off right now...I had to save my spirit. I somehow had to get rid of those strings and stop being their puppet. So I did. I took out the sharp scissors of my fighting spirit...and I snip snip snipped those strings and set myself free! All I know right now is that I'm free of those strings that hurt me. Right now I'm detached, Im on ground and I'm resting. I know that this may be just for a short while, before I hit another tiring spot in this cycle of strings of emotions and attachment...but I wanna enjoy this fresh feeling while it lasts. So I said Goodbye to those strings that had my spirit all bound and gagged for a couple of days. C'est la vie!


Some strings set you free...
While some strings of emotions like the above, limit us, some other strings of emotions set us free. Amidst chaos and confusion, hurt and anger, I was also holding onto the strings of hope, trust, courage and understanding. I was tied to these strings too and believed in them somehow. I was attached to them, yet they didn't limit me. Instead they set me free like how a kite can fly high when it's tied to a string. These strings didn't make me dance to their tune til my spirit got tired...instead they just let my spirit soar high up in the sky, making me believe that somehow I will be in one piece after the storm...these strings gave me hope that somehow those who know me, shall know me...and those who didn't know me from the beginning, won't know me anyways. And yeah, I won't get rid of these strings, cos they are the ones who kept my spirit alive and moving ahead...they are the ones who gave me the strength to cut the strings that limited me. C'est la vie!

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Thanks all for your time, efforts and interest in taking part in my last post! All of you did pretty well, had some clever logic behind whatever answers you gave (right or wrong) and all I can say is I have some very smart people in my blog and I'm proud of it. So well-done ALL of you! Now, to the winners. There were more than one who chose #6 as the right answer, so well-done all of you, but I only choose 6 winners (to go with #6), based on how very close your given reasons were to my thoughts. So, congratttz Donn, Parul, Solitaire, Mirage, Deepti and Outdoorsy_girl! woohoo! you just won the Most Amazing Psychologist Award from Keshi! cos you all read my mind pretty well and understood it too, without much evidence given. You did very well! btw I don't have pics of all the 6 winners, so these pics are of Donn, Parul, Solitaire and Outdoorsy in that order.


Donn said: I'm going with 'Strings' because it is something constructive and tangible that you have control over that will change your life in a positive way...
(this is very similar to my thoughts in this post)

Parul said: Strings..thats because may be u realized that hanging on to ur past does nothing but hurts u...
(exactly what I realised in the last few days)

Solitaire said: Strings...easy to get rid of a bunch of strings rather than the whole yarn...
(this is exactly what I'm trying to say in the first half of this post)

Mirage said: A bunch of strings u were attached to, so that u got a peace of mind & a sense of freedom now...
(this is how I truly felt after cutting them off...)

Deepti said: Strings...cause its better to cut off certain strings that tug so hard and cause nothing but pain...
(spot on about the revelation of it all!)

Outdoorsy_girl said: Strings...because cutting some strings to unhealthy things in your life sounds just like something a smart girl would do...
(I felt good after cutting them yes, it's just a better and quicker way to deal with them)



btw this song is for the way I feel right now...we can try and delete people from our lives, blogrolls, phones, emails etc etc...but we can't really delete those people from our minds, can we? Once we know someone, we can never un-know them. Hence, I just choose to cut the strings that sting (not the people, but my emotions that rule my spirit), and move on. But if you cut me off from your life, then knowing me, knowing you is the best I can do...I don't tread on unwelcome territory.


Once again, thanks ALL and have a great day guys!


Current Music: Knowing Me Knowing You by ABBA