Masquerade

I'm so happy, I'm so at peace, I'm so independant, I'm so unaffected yadda yadda yadda...enough of that, take off your mask now...take a good look at yourself in the mirror. Are you all that you claim to be? Are you the identical twin of your mask or were you fooling yourself and everyone else right along? What do you look like? Nowhere close to what you think you are right? I know it my friend.

How many of us pretend to be what we are really not? How many of us wear masks to fool our loved-ones when inside we are really someone else?I understand some people wear masks just to be happy for the sake of their family and friends. My friend wore a pretty mask months before he committed suicide. He was happy as anything and we didn't see any hint of suicidal thoughts. That's a tragic situation and I forgive him anyways. Another person I know 'acts' like she has never been wrong in her life when actually that's her biggest mistake. That's an egoistic situation and I still forgive her too. I know that all of us have atleast a tad bit of pretence in us...otherwise we can't be human. But what bothers me are people who wear masks to suit the situation, to fool the world. People who go around as if nothing affects them, as if they live in a perfect world, as if nothing can go wrong for them, as if everyone else is wrong and as if people who are genuinely emotional are idiots - only because they don't want to show how scared they are to admit the truth. How deceitful and weak is that?

I bet it is hard to find an everlasting mask and that's why such people never fail to fail at the end of it all. All masks fall off at some stage and along with it dies your little fairy-tale world. But you know what, it doesnt really affect me...it is your soul that dwells upon masks that will be lost one day. Don't come back crying for I don't have a shoulder that can stand your fake tears anymore. I have run out of praise for your lies...I have forgotten your features...I have no smiles for the painted faces...I don't want to waste my emotions on watercolors and plastic...I'm tired of visiting your sand castles...I'm too real to welcome your camouflage.

I know you take your mask off every night and sit in a corner crying your lungs out. Only because you are too afraid of what you have become. Too afraid that your real self won't be able to match your mask. Too disappointed by the mirage that you are. Too much of a pretence that you don't seem to want to know the pathway to reality...because it's too long a path, and embedded with rejection, tears, humiliation and smirks. Not that you aren't getting any right now (smirk!). But that path is what will lead you to your real self...that is the path that will set you free...that is the path where no masks need to be worn. Through fear and rejection and what-not, you will never be fooling yourself again...you will never have to hide again and there will be no confusions about what part to play and when. For you will remain who you are, you wont wear out like the masks. That way when you lose, you will lose gracefully. And if you win, you will win truthfully. So take it off, welcome to the ugly world and 'face' your fears and challenges. Don't hide behind a mask, for faking anything is the worst crime ever.