Are You Blessed?

I was thinking to myself...

Everyone can 'look' beautiful, but not everyone can 'be' beautiful.

Also...

Everyone can 'move on' but not everyone can 'let go'.

Do you have anything to say about the above thoughts, or any such thoughts to share with me? Fill in these blanks then.

Everyone can ______, but not everyone can ______.

Think carefully, use your imagination, personal experiences and knowledge, and fill in the blanks. Let's learn from one another.

Have a good weekend guys!

PS: My sincere apologies for not being to your blogs lately, cos I was extremely busy at work and at home too...too many engagements, both work-wise and personal. At work I have been running around to clients' offices, and at home, I have been flat out with family and friends. Will visit you all as soon as I get some 'quality' time to blog ok. Take care and thanks for all the love here, even in my absence. It means alot to me.

Everyone can make you cry, but not everyone can make you laugh.

Everyone can leave, but not everyone can last.

Everyone can breathe, but not everyone can live.

Everyone can frown, but not everyone can smile.

Current Music: Always Look On The Bright Side Of Life (from Monty Python)

A Midsummer Night's Tears...

I never dreamed you'd leave in Summer

I thought you would go then come back home

I thought the cold would leave by Summer

But my quiet nights will be spent alone...

You said there would be warm love in Springtime

That is when you started to be cold

I never dreamed you'd leave in Summer

But now I find myself all alone...

You said then you'd be the life in Autumn

Said you'd be the one to see the way

You know I never dreamed you'd leave in Summer

But now I find my love has gone away

Why didn't you stay?

Woke up to my alarm at 2:30am last night, sat infront of the TV for the next 3hrs watching the most touching memorial my spirit has ever known. I just choked up with tears at this particular song by Stevie Wonder - Never Dreamed You'd Leave in Summer...the song has an amazing touch that grips your soul and leaves you feeling every emotion in it. I was just bawling my eyes out til dawn. Paris Jackson you spoke very little my dear, but you spoke volumes for the world to know what a wonderful man your dad was.

For someone to touch so many hearts in every corner of the world and across all cultures , to break all barriers, to create such a massive emotional outburst, to stop the world and leave it feeling so very empty, to create such a hype, a man has to be very very special. Amen.

I never dreamed you'd leave in Summer... ... ...why didn't you stay?

Current Music: Never Dreamed You'd Leave In Summer by Stevie Wonder

A Silent Requiem...

As a mark of respect and love, there wont be any new posts here til my fav humanitarian MJ is farewelled. I cannot seem to write anymore, I don't know why. Sorry guys. Words fail me and even though I wrote more than 1 tribute post to MJ, the pain doesn't seem to subside...it only seems to grow. And now I wanna remain silent. And his final rehearsal vid made me cry so much I have never cried that much in such a long time. I swear I don't want to see that vid again, it hurts so much...his wide, genuine and that beautiful trademark Jacko smile after the lights were dimmed, will haunt me for life.

There are other posts below that you can read until I start writing again. I have disabled comments on this one. Take care and LOVE one another, for the Love that MJ created both in his life and in his death has now been revealed to the world, and he united the world in his Death...embrace that Love. Live in love, appreciate people when they are around, hurt none, give without expecting, do something good for someone, be kind, be compassionate, let go, smile, reach out, forgive, be the bigger person, work on it, live for today, give thanks, be true to yourselves, stop existing and start living...

I'll see yous later.

A Place Where There's Space...

As a die-hard fan of Jacko, I seem to be grieving indefinitely. I cannot express enough how very sad I have been feeling in the last few days and how much of a personal sense of loss his death is to me. I don't feel like doing anything and I'm not myself at all, and I know my b'day will never be the same again. I'm so disturbed by his death, I don't think I'll ever be the same again. A part of me died along with his death. You may be surprised cos I didn't know him personally...but I knew him on an emotional level through his music, dance and lyrics. His life, his passion, his fears, his love, his triumphs, his demons, his last few years, his death...they have all changed the way I see the world now. Yes rockstars can have such an effect on you cos some ARTISTS BRING LIFE TO LIFE. The Keshi that was pre-MJ's death is no more. Drama? Not really. Cos if you didn't grow up with his music, you'd never know how I feel would you? You don't know how it feels when MJ's music creeps into your body and soul do you? You don't know what it is to have his music running through your veins do you? A singer has never touched me this 'personally' through his music and lyrics...he wrote and sang life.


He is moonwalking to Heaven right now. I somehow find some small comfort in the fact that MJ has left a world where people didn't leave him alone...where sadly people chose not to see the greatness in him, instead to concentrate on his personal life. It's harder and takes more guts to trust someone than to assume things about them. But most people chose the easier option and made life hell for Jacko. He stood out in the crowd, and some people couldn't stand it. He not only made great music but he gave so much to Charity and to the world, and lived in Love. He was a great Humanitarian in every sense. Yet people who wanted to make money out of him used him to their advantage. It's appalling to realise what a sick world we live in...a world where some people would do anything for a quick buck and 15mins of fame and attention. I can't believe some people are still going on with sick jokes and judgements about him. All the rumors about his hair, his skin, his sexuality, his habits, his this and that...how does it matter to you?? Take a good look at your own selves before you point fingers at others. Just live and let live! And just STFU will ya. He's dead now...there's no need to kill a dead man, is there?

How do you say Goodbye to someone you don't want to say Goodbye to? I usually do it this way...I believe that they are going to a better place...a place that they will be happier and that they are leaving for the best. That's how I say Goodbye to someone I don't want to see leaving. Death is not a punishment...sometimes it can be the ultimate peace you waited for. Sometimes Nature has a way of claiming life when it's just better that way. I hope Jacko found Peace now. As much as I'm deeply saddened by his untimely death, I'm happy for him too...I'm happy that he's in a better place now...a place where there is space...where hearts are not small and love is not for sale. Where there is enough room for acceptance, forgiveness and unconditional love. He's at a higher state of being now, on a completely fresh plane of the spirit world. Goodbye MJ, you were one of a kind! Know that with all your ups and downs, you were just PERFECT. You really healed the world. Hopefully we will get to listen to your voice, watch your cool moves and dance with you again in another time, at another place. God bless your superenergetic and beautiful spirit! XOXO

Do you have enough space in your heart to accommodate someone that is not you? Does your heart have enough room for others? Is it a spacious place for love or is it cramped up with you alone? It doesn't take much to create some space for others...just a little space?



There's a place in
Your heart
And I know that it is Love
And this place could
Be much
Brighter than tomorrow
And if you really try
You'll find there's no need
To cry
In this place you'll feel
There's no hurt or sorrow

There are ways
To get there
If you care enough
For the Living
Make a little space
Make a better place...


Current Music: Heal The World by Michael Jackson

The Birth, Life & Death Of A Feeling...

You decorated yourself with lies. You bought me with your fake persona. You promised me bullshit. You wasted my time. You lured me into believing you. And then one day, you just shed your mask. And I saw the beauty that wasn't you. I saw it falling apart...down to the floor, shaking the grounds and the very core of my heart. I saw it break into a million pieces. I picked up one piece, that had cut my skin and made me bleed...


It hurt for awhile. But today when I woke up, I couldn't find that longing in my heart for you anymore. It had left my being without my knowledge. Something that I thought would never leave me, had now expired. Something that I thought would haunt me for the rest of my life, had now left me in my sleep. Something that I tried to kill countless times, had now killed itself without any attempt from me.


Yes our desires, longings, wants and cries may go unheard today...people may hurt you again and again, and you may wonder why that it is so, and why it's happening only to you. And you may try to kill the feelings so very hard, you may do anything and everything to bury it and move on, but it returns to you the very next day. So you nurse it like a baby, you look forward to it's touch, you become the feeling and the feeling becomes you. You wait for it to switch on every single day the moment you wake up. You live by it no matter how much it hurts you. And it keeps repeating itself for days and months, and even years. But, one day you will wake up and realise it's gone. Gone for good. And you can't get it back even if you try to...even if you try feeling that way again. You may search your entire heart to catch that same feeling again, but it's not there anymore. At first, you struggle, you feel uncomfortable not feeling that way again. But you realise that it had decided to die on it's own...it had beaten itself to it's own demise. And you are free again. You can't even believe it!

I have become resilient to hurt. You will never get to me again. Every feeling has a birth and a death. Give it some time. Bask in it fully. And one day, it will be gone, just like that. And you are free to stand on your own 2 feet again. And when the same feeling returns on another occasion, you are better equipped to handle it this time. And you know that it will leave you again some day. So, don't shun your feelings, and don't depend on them too much either. For most of them are temporary...most of them has an expiry date, just like anything that's alive.


No one wants to be defeated
Show them how funky strong is your fight...
It doesn't matter who's wrong or right
Just beat it, just beat it...


Current Music: Beat It by Michael Jackson

Take Me As I Am...

(Note: for my tribute post to Jacko, please read last post)

Disclaimer: Please note that this post is not yet another post for my bday. I already did one last week :). This post is to highlight the importance of accepting one another for who they are and forgiving one another somehow. Please read the post before you comment. I don't want people to dimiss the message in the post at the sight of the cake. Thanks!


This is the lovely bday cake my cuz made for me...I love it, totally!

She first asked me if I wanted a particuar cake. I asked her to make anything she wanted, with what she knew about me so far...I asked her to use her imagination.













She came up with SHOES ofcourse! ;-) Isn't she brilliant? Manolo Blahniks on a neatly iced Pink cake...very girly and very KESHI to say the least ;-)

These are the 3 cakes that she made for me, my mum and another cuz...we all celebrated our bdays together yesterday at my cuzn T's place.


*click on pics to enlarge*


It was an amazing night. It was a 3-bday marathon that totally rocked! And yes, though I didnt want to have a party this year, my cousins and friends insisted that I had one and I'm glad I went. We had a great time...family, friends, great food, lots of sweet presents (omg I got a Versace perfume set too! And Lingerie *now I'd have to wear em and show em to myself!* and some other hot items as well...). And I wanna thank TT, Hemz, Krys, Jay and Suree for making beautiful bday blog posts for me last week, and for ALL your wishes here in my blog, emails, txts and calls! *TY n MWAH!*

And ofcourse Music. Wherever Keshi goes, Music follows too. Without Music, there won't be a Keshi. Last night at the party, it was 'strictly' Michael Jackson. There were countless times in my life when I didn't wanna get out of my car cos I wanted to finish listening to the MJ song that was playing in my car. Right now in my car CD-player, there's a MJ cd in there. I loved his music to death. So last night at the party, we all wanted to remember him, his music and yes we boogied the night away to his great dance numbers. Blame it on Jacko, cos he infected us with the dance virus and now we can't get rid of it! However, though I was at a party, I was feeling this very personal sense of loss and I couldn't get my mind away from his death. I know, that with his death, a part of me died too. In between my dancing, I cried. I always danced to forget...but last night, I danced to remember.


After MJ's death, I will never look at life under the same light again. There are alot of unanswered questions and alot of judgements. People talk about Jacko as if they never make a mistake in their entire lives. Jackson had feelings and a heart too, just like you and me. He's somebody's son, somebody's brother, somebody...just like you and me. The difference is he GAVE alot to the world and got nothing much in return. He still didn't care, he continued doing what he's best at doing. And if our personal lives and our every move were to be on the News, I'm sure we'd all be labelled 'crazy' too. No one has the right to judge another's personal life. We all have our likes, dislikes, ways, perferences, lifestyles, attitudes, wierdness, similarities, differences, the best and the worst. That means we are all the same on scales. So let's not play God. We are all human and being such a public figure, and living such a public life, I'm sure Jacko had his own share of demons to fight every single day...demons that people like us would never know of. I wonder why people can never accept someone 'different'. Is there some kind of strict code that people have to follow in life? I don't think so. We all get different challenges thrown at us in life, we all deal with them differently, we all have different views. Bite it folks, we may all be the same but we are all different. That's the beauty of this world.


Do you accept people for who they are? I do. You know why? Cos I myself make mistakes, may appear crazy to you, may be different, may have a life that's not just like your's...but this is me...this is my life. And I'd like to be accepted for who I am, and not for who you want me to be. Do you forgive people? I do. I give people second chances. Cos I'd like to be forgiven when I make mistakes too, cos I'm only human. And I know you are too. We can beat someone up endlessly for a mistake they did or for being different, but that doesn't make us any better than them. But if we choose to accept people for who they are, forgive one another, then really, that would make you a better person than many out there.

One day in your life, I hope you'll remember all the people you met in your life path, and be glad that you accepted them for who they were, and not for what you wanted them to be...

One day in your life
You'll remember the love you found here
You'll remember me somehow
Though you dont need me now
I will stay in your heart
And when things fall apart
You'll remember one day . . .

Current Music: One Day In Your Life by Michael Jackson

You Beat It Jacko!

I grew up with his music. I grew up trying to moonwalk like him. I know almost ALL his songs and lyrics by heart. I always wanted to dance and move so smoothely like him. I admired him so very much. I respect and love his work from the ultimate core of my SOUL. His music took me through some of my toughest times. His song BEN (that I played often in my blog and very recently too) always made me feel that I'm not alone. His song BEAT IT brought out the devil-dancer in me. His song BAD made me feel it's ok to be me, with all my flaws. His song BLACK OR WHITE and HEAL THE WORLD revolutionised our Thinking. BILLIE JEAN is my ultimate 'move it' song. All of MJ's songs are a huge part of me now, that will live and die with me.


Jacko created a new dimension in Music...one that got etched in Music history, that belongs to him and him alone. Jacko is a Music legend no matter what people say about his personal life - not that it matters anyways. I have great respect for MJ & for his work, and I know that people who judge him can never achieve what he achieved in his short life. He is a genius. His work excelled all the negative publicity he got towards the end of his life. Those who cannot see his expertise are poorer for not being able to recognise his unique genetic brilliance.

He is Body, Soul, Rhythm, Precision, Technique, Brilliance, Performance, Dedication, Professionalism, Strength, Heat, Devotion, Passion, Talent, Charisma and LOVE. Jacko you beat it mate! WE LOVE AND MISS YA! The world is poorer today for losing you way before your time. Thank You for the great music and the passion that you brought to our lives! Your legacy will never die. There will never be another Jacko and there will never be another dancer like him. No one else in the world can MOVE like ya MJ! *lotsa tears*

I will be playing MJ songs for the next few posts as a tribute to one of my fav singers and performers ever.

People always told me be careful of what you do

And don't go around breaking young girls' hearts...

And mother always told me be careful of who you love

And be careful of what you do...

'cause the lie becomes the truth.

Current Music: Billie Jean by Michael Jackson