Friday, January 8

The Life In Your Death

It's right there, infront of my eyes. I can see it, feel it, hear it. It's in my hands. It's your heart...pounding, fighting to live, to breathe...to see another day. It's bleeding but it's still beating. Not yet dead, but not alive either. Your pain is in my hands. I can feel it but I feel useless. I just stand and stare at how your heart is struggling in my hands, your life beckoning to me. I try to bend your pain, but there are no shortcuts for that...pain is one long freeway that isn't really free. It costs you your heart and soul, but there's nothing that can be done. There's so much left to learn but not enough time. There's so much left to see, but not enough sun. I wish I could take your pain away and make you smile. Wish I could catch you when you fall. I wanna be your breath. I wanna let you live. I wanna be the air that you breathe...the courage in your will to live...the wings in your prison. I wanna be that last few pangs of life that's left in you. I wanna be the Red in your Black...the Life in your Death.


-An ode to my Writing passion that's faded into faraway memories. Goodbye my love!


Music: Fade Away by Seether

180 Cranium Signets:

Mayz said...

love dsnt really say goodbye...its jus buried smwhr...always to strike ya back...

ur passion for writing...

hmmm...cud ur words have better analogy?? see its still there...jus a tiny spark is all that is needed

vishesh said...

*painful

Anamika. said...

I don't know why but you never fail to make me cry and smile at the same time. Don't ever bid goodbye to your passions, hun. It's something we all appreciate in you. We love your words. Keep them coming. Loved the song :)

Miss you, Keshi darling!

Tarun said...

I read some where thats going on when u have strength is not courage,not having strength and till going on is courage.

All good things must come to an end.
Ode to Keshi the blogger, cheers for Keshi the soul.

Shall wait with bated breath the day you return to blogs again.

I know it could be like forever.

:)

Vani said...

Wow..Keshi!! How happy am i to see ya back gal!! Missed u so much. I wasn't around in blogs-ville for a while..nd now I juz thought to chk ur blog even though I didn't expect ny new posts..But I've received a pleasant surprise!

Such a sad Ode..:( I just wish u wouldnt give up writing..I luv ur write ups..It was lyk listening to my own mind..Reading ur posts always made me realise something..Always soothing..

Plz do consider writing more keshi..

Devika said...

to look upon one's passion (art, music or writing) die, fighting for life...no, it can't be so, Keshi...its when the passion comes back, with the force of life again...

"It costs you your heart and soul, but there's nothing that can be done" -- pain, not necessarily, but more often is at the base of good works...only thing one should know to process it when its there...and then a fine piece of work that can influence others is born...like this piece of writing,

I am sure you will have it back with you again..

wishes,
dev

Ria said...

hmm....this phase is inevitable in life isnt it....its jus some realise it on time and others dont.

WarmSunshine said...

hi keshi!!!

couldnt email you for the longest time! i barely havr time to use the net now :/

but hey... how are you doing girl??

xoxo!

I'll try 2 be truthful said...

that seemed like someone in love more so like Edward. if you can write a 'goodbye' like that, then a goodbye's far away.

!Teq-uila Del Zapata said...

yes, you need to write more, whatever may be the odds, but one should always do what they like. That is what makes us who we are.

slipperythoughts said...

you just wow me with every post! hope to much more of u this yr, May 2010 be filled wid a lot of colour, magic n happiness for u, God bless!

Princess said...

hey.. Keshi,
I thought you came back :( but you came back only to say goodbye it seemeth :( I really hope you will embrace your love and passion for writing sooner.

take care my friend
much luv as always,
-Aiz.

Asha said...

Hi Keshi. Loved this post, as if you are talking to me. very relevant to my life and what I went thru' after July 2009. People suck and trust we put in them suck. Hoping I will never face that again and hoping for the best.

I wish the same to you too, HOPE and LIVE for yourself. Life in death indeed.

Hugs to you, glad to see your post. Happy and safe 2010.

Swati Sengupta said...

Happy to be the first one to comment. It always felt nice to read you. When u decided to give up ur writing I really felt sad. But i had faith that you will come back. Writing is something you can never give up. U never should. Its like talking. Show middle finger to those whoever has problem with that. Keep talking Keshy. Few(like me) of us always want to hear you. :)

Shachi said...

hmm - love how u describe your passion....but the thoughts expressed apply to so many things....

hope u r doing great Keshi.....and its wonderful to see blog posts from u....even though they are less frequent.

Talking To My Soul said...

Love does not die, nor does it go away.


*smilez*

Beach Bum said...

An ode to my Writing passion that's faded into faraway memories. Goodbye my love!

Yes, it might be gone but you have a very creative spirit and something else will take its place. Please excuse this assumption but I have a nagging feeling in the back of my head that even your writing passion will come back. It may be years down the road but I think one day it will.

Satish Bolla said...

who said that the passion in you died? at least, it shows from this post that it's not yet dead

SJ said...

I haven't commented here much..but have been reading ur blog a lot.

When I read "Writing passion that's faded into faraway memories" it stuck me with much sadness thinking, how much could you have been hurt to leave a passion u loves so dearly...

I somehow felt I knew this passion u r talking about when I read your blog..I compared it to a mother's love to her child.
I hope all's well with u.

My regards
Jaya

Margie said...

Dearest Keshi
You always touch my heart so much!
Thank you dear!

May life always bring you much joy as you so deserve it!

Love to you, always!

Margie:)
XOXO

Die Muräne said...

so beautiful sad

Pooja said...

Hey..u brought me 2 tears.. :'(

Dis post proves dat ur passion still lives on..it's immortal,i believe...

cyclopseven said...

melodious expression of deepest yearnings. Pure existence.

cyclopseven said...

melodious expression of deepest yearnings. Pure existence.

Sun Follower said...

Passions always reignite... maybe not today, maybe not tomorrow... but there is always a little spark :)

angel from heaven said...

Look for inspiration in the smallest things and your passion will surely comeback with new gusto.

krystyna said...

Keshi...
Blogland without Keshi never be the same... I told you...

Your spirit will be here always...
beautiful spirit...
special spirit...
lovely spirit.

Please...
sometimes ... come here.

Love & hugsss

Uncommon Sense said...

very beautifully writeen

Tarun said...

This is more of an after thought, I was amazed but never realized or appreciated that the music on your blog was almost like a background score in the movie

Die Muräne said...

is that you in the picture?

lovely back, hottie!

preeti said...

no goodbyes.. atleast not yet..

Quest said...

In here after a long time.....was hopping galaxies :)

tsduff said...

HI Keshi Happy Happy New Year! Hope all is well with you & yours. xo

The Phosgene Kid said...

have another cappuccino,that'll help

sawan said...

i still see life in ur love. try and feel its pulse, if u find even a vague beat, dont leave it behind. dont kill it.

Margie said...

Wishing you a great Monday, Keshi.

MWAH!

Margie:)

Chakoli said...

good to see you back :)

love always remain.... no goodbye could ward off....

just take care :)

SaffronSaris said...

Hiya Poppy-doll pearl! Happy (belated) New Year!!!
Yes, I know it's past mid-January, but I just found some time to come around ;p

How are things with you? The earthquake in Haiti is really terrible. I hope help gets to the Haitians fast.

nicky said...

愛情不是慈善事業,不能隨便施捨。.........................

Ravisekharan said...

Loved the lines...

Regards,
Ravi
(http://j-ravi.blogspot.com)

Ankur said...

you know my dear friend.. i still see that passion but i dont know whats holding u back keshigirl!

may b i dont comment here, may b i dont come back here often... but still i do miss u my frnd... a lot... from the bottom of my heart!

Take Care,
Ankur

Sun Follower said...

Keshi... I just want to say this: Even in your expression about lost passion, there is passion.... and eloquence. I await your return.....

Arun said...

hey keshi, this is arun from hyd, india. after a long long time i'm blogging, just checked ur blog, ur still going strong...u really have the passion for writing.. btw the nice song (aadat) its one of my fav. song.. happy blogging :-)

yourstylentrend said...

quite touchy!

Margie said...

Hi Keshi
Don't work too hard!
But it's Friday now, so have a GREAT weekend!

Hugs

Margie:)

Dawn....सेहर said...

Hi dear, how are you doing?
The title of this post itself shows enormous depth.
I am glad to see you are still active and expressing your feelings through blogging :)
Keep rocking gal and god bless you my dear
Cheers & Hugs

anits said...

hi keshi..how r u...wishing u great new year ....b happy always....god bles u

Vest said...

True love never goes away. We are constantly reminded of earlier times of love and passion which came and departed through times of struggle and forced separation.

Re, my memoirs, W G B T A T F. chapter 30 'Reminiscing'.approx 1000 words, too large to insert here.

mutleythedog said...

I hope you come back and write again... I know you will.

Margie said...

You are missed very much, dear Keshi.
Have a great week!

Hugs

Margie:)

♪♪HARINI♪♪ said...

Don't say gooodbye to writing!!!!!!!
:O :O :O :O

Stupidosaur said...

Simply write. Thats all!

White Magpie said...

why does pain feature regularly in your articles these days? Where is THE Keshi gone? :)

Happy New Year.

Margie said...

Miss you so much, Keshi!

Have a wonderful weekend!

MWAH!

Margie:)

Nirmal said...

hey hw r yaa..

Chriz said...

passion doesnt fade away keshi.. it must be somewhere inside.. find that spark again and ignite the blog..

am here after a long time.. and i come with a proposal.. want to do a blog post with me on my page?

krystyna said...

Hi dear Keshi!
I would like to send you best wishes from BlogLand!

maverick said...

hey...how r u??long time..good post :)

Payal said...

As usual, great stuff.
Anyway good luck for 2010,
Rock-star !

AmitL said...

You'll be back..and,back with a bang, no doubt about it Keshi..:)

BloggerMouth said...

" I try to bend your pain, but there are no shortcuts for that...pain is one long freeway that isn't really free."

Witty but can't laugh at that one now can I? =) Your writing is too good for you to consider saying goodbye to it, in my humble opinion.

First time here... have been bloghopping for quite sometime now... read your blog... finally feel like I did something useful with my time.

Thank you for writing.

Cheers,
Swati

Jack said...

Keshi,

Nothing doing. The heart still is there and needs a little more care. Do it and be with us.

Take care

Margie said...

Another Monday!
Hope it a good one!

Miss you Keshi!

Hugs

Margie:)

Jimmy said...

There's so much left to learn but not enough time. There's so much left to see, but not enough sun.



that goes for us OLDIEs
me and VEST

anits said...

hi dear...how u doing....mis ya

Margie said...

It's so good to know you!

Hope that someday you might come back to blogging.

Hugs

Margie:)

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Compassion Unlimitted said...

it happens ,but as cycle..some long & some short
CV ya back sometime
TC
CU

Thousif Raza said...

it so sad to read this... sometimes its like that..... how much ever we want, we cant achive something... but keshi... you can... you are the person who knows, how to grow from nothing...., because you yourself have grown... dont let something take away from you what you do best....writing... your writing is so beautiful... it makes me smile... its so painful... it makes me cry... just want to say hang on... and lent out your feelings we are all here for you... especially me.... :)

will be waiting paitiently(read:desperately) for yor return.....


take care and keep writing.........

How do we know said...

it will come back.. for sure.. just sit back and wait..

Helen said...

Keshi, Am so sorry I missed your comments when you left them last year. I have missed you so much, you were a part of my life for a long time and part of my support! I know you're done blogging, but I hope you read this and can feel my love and know that you'll always have a place in my heart. I hope you have moved on to wonderful things and are happy, healthy, and, well, I know you're wise! Take care, my friend!

Helen (well, you know who I am)

紅包 said...

「不可能」這個字詞,在聰明人的字典中是找不到的。 ..................................................

Margie said...

I really do miss you in Blogland, Keshi.
Just not the same with you gone :(

Love ya ...

Margie:)

SaffronSaris said...

Poppy doll-pearl,
how have ya been?

It doesn't go away. It just needs to take a break, to recharge, and slowly, quietly, you'll find it coming back to you. Perhaps in a torrent, perhaps in a wave, perhaps in a pitter patter of raindrops.

Alaf!

Margie said...

Dear Keshi
Thinking of you on this very cold and wintery morning!
We got snow last night but it's very beautiful and the sun is shining so it's a truly a gorgeous day!

Today, may you have these blessings
Good health to make life enjoyable
Good fortune to make it bright
And lots of happiness
With everything going just right!

Hugs and love to you, Keshi!

Margie:)

Tarun said...

My cricket posts are missing ur comments.
:)
How r u?

Dawn....सेहर said...

Dear Keshi...how are you doing?
Hope all is well at your end. Whenever I hear things from Auz I think of you and pray for you're all safety.
Happy Valentine's Day to You dear
Keep that smile and faith :)
with love and hugs

Margie said...

Happy Valentine's day, Keshi.
Sending you much love!

Heading to San Francisco tomorrow morning with hubby!
Gone for a week.

Miss you tonz!

MWAH!
<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3!

Margie:)

david santos said...

Hello Kashi! I loved your words and loved the song.
Wonderful!!!

tulipspeaks said...

Happy Valentine's Day Keshi!

ammu.

Sun Follower said...

We miss you.

Die Muräne said...

no more naked back bondage? ;)

anits said...

hi keshi..just drop by to say hi....how r u? hope u hpy always

Tarun said...

Hey Keshi

How have u been?

Ravisekharan said...

Whr hav u been??



Regards,
Ravi.
(http://j-ravi.blogspot.com)

iriz said...

that was written with depth. don't say goodbye to something you love. be the red in our black. :)

nice being here keshi! regards! :)

Margie said...

It was good to hear from you!
You are a busy girl at work these days, huh?
Don't work too hard!

MWAH!

Margie:)

MARIA said...

Greetings from Poland
to you Keshi!
Hope you have a good time.
hugs
maria

Tarun said...

Give me a hint that u still connect to the internet and in touch with few good User ids of the cyber world.


:)

Spread the smiles,happy holi.
:D

Ria said...

Still miss u here....sometimes i feel its a dream...and at times it hurts to realise that blgoville doesnt have u!!

NE~ISM said...

I left I came back, I left again and came back.. this for me is therapy I just came back again! I have not been visiting noones blog.. I think I left for all the wrong and right reasons!

I dunno but I also know it is your time to take a break and when you come back it will be great.. I am sure.. write down on a piece of paper your life your love your passion everyday and then you will come back and it will be like you never left..

Love you Keshi...
Hannah Ne

Tarun said...

I m fine Keshi,thanks for coming around.

:)

I see that many bloggers are now logging out of blogville ... thats kinda a sad.

:(
Anyways,u take care

Jimmy said...

HAPPY HOLI

starry said...

Hi Keshi, I am back after a year and thought I would drop by my special blogging friends and say hello.How are you.I like the new lok of your blog.It s refreshingand cool.

Margie said...

It felt like spring here today, Keshi.
When I went on my walk with Jake I was thinking about you and I was smiling :)
Thoughts of you always make me smile :)

Be happy, be well.

Hugs ....

Margie :)

janus said...

@kesh

it is disappointing to see you lose heart in writing. please do go, on, girl.

sandeep

(who once used to be word_smith, if you remember or care)

Kulpreet said...

Farewell then, Keshi! Be happy! And remember, if you want to come back, you have many friends here!

:) Kulpreet

akanksha said...

where are you, keshi?
Hope all is fine at ur end? It has been long since u posted...let me know that theres nothing to worry.
Waiting for an update from u dear.

Take care
Akanksha

監控 said...

人要先學會做一隻駱駝,然後才能做一隻獅子........................................

Margie said...

Thinking about you Keshi and sending you love!

Be well!
Be happy!

You are so missed in Blogland but I know you are happy not being here now and that is all that matters!

Hugs!

Margie :)

Jimmy said...

YES
we all missing u verry much

Arv said...

Hows you doing Keshi gal???

Margie said...

Have a wonderful weekend dear Keshi.
I'm planning on the same.

Love always ...

Margie :)

BIG Omi said...

Hey Keshi,

Wow you were always an amazing blogger! Come back you never quit!

Bwana said...

Hi Keshi
I just entered the blogosphere
and I found VIVA quite ineresting.

иidhi S said...

AAwwww Keshi...Blogworls is so so incomplete w/o ya...
Miss ya babe...
But I know, the feeling deep insisde me that u'll soon strike back with fully-loaded force, with ur wisdom and magic thatu weave on the words...
Love :*

Srijith Unni said...

How Sad Keshi... My own blog was dying a slow death, with so many other things occupying my life. But then, I knew that when life sends you into tough circles, this has to be the best letout..!

~
Have Fun, Take Care and God Bless!
With Best Regards,
Srijith.
(A virtual friend eagerly awaiting Viva Forever's rebirth).

AnonymousBlogger said...

Kesk, it appears even your blogging is slowing down! I didn't think I would ever see the day D:

Hope you're doing well!

Nidhi said...

I dont follow your blog or anything, I just happen to reach here through some other blogs. I honestly find this really funny. If someone wants to quit writing then they can just simply stop writing, why do they have to make such a big drama? Seems to me you are nothing but an attention seeking person.
Stop whining about every single thing in life and yes you don't always have to be in good books of everyone so stop sucking up to people and stop stooping low and blame others for hurting your feelings and all the crap.

Margie said...

I'm here in beautiful Moab, Utah and loving it!
It's the most wonderful place and people are so laid back and the scenery is soooooo awesome!
The rugged mountains are so majestic!

Miss you dear friend!

Sending my warmest wishes for a most wonderful day!

Love
Margie :)

~*. D E E P A .* ~ said...

no way u cant renew it .. i renewed mine !!

Beach Bum said...

Dropping by to say hi, hope things are going good.

Anjuli said...

have u stopped writing Keshi?

Margie said...

Happy weekend, Keshi.

HUGS!

Margie :)

SaffronSaris said...

How's my poppy pearl doll doing? Enjoying life to the fullest?

Me's been just over a busy period. Gah, and the weather has been horrible :(

Lotsa Muak!

Rakesh said...

Hey Keshi, how have you been! Long long time. Hope everything's good with you girl. Just dropped by to say Hi!

Take care.

Margie said...

Spring is here & it's a beautiful day!
How are you doing Keshi?
You are missed sooooo much in Blogland!

Be well and know how much I care!
Be happy dear!

Love always

Margie :)
xoxo

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Rex Venom said...

Beautiful
Rock on!

Margie said...

Guess what, Keshi.
It's spring here but we are getting a big snow storm tonight!
Oh, that is just the way of Colorado weather but I do not like it as I was loving spring!
There go all my new flowers that were beginning to bloom!

Have a great day!
Miss you!

Love
Margie :)

donn w2Nz said...

How are you Keshiroo?

I trust that you are oot & aboot in the "RW" enjoying the sights and sounds...excellent.

I've pretty much stopped blogging..wasted a bit of time on Facebook UGH! so frustrating there.
The only people that are fun on FB are Bloggers!? The rest of them are playing Coleco games on an X Box-Wii hybrid?

Hahaha..hope that you are flourishing and enjoying your Life.
Take care.

Margie said...

Happy, happy Monday!

MWAH!

Margie :)

- Sugar Cube - said...

Hey Keshi..how are you ?! Hope everything's great at your end!

Take care!
Miss ya!

Margie said...

It's a beautiful spring day here!
Thinking of you, Keshi.

Hope you are happy and well.
Miss you tonz!

Margie :)
xo

Ria said...

jus dropped by to say a hi!!sorry for not being in touch, will mail you soon. Hope u r doing well hun. *hugs*

皓云 said...

先告訴自己希望成為什麼樣的人,然後一步一步實踐必要的步驟。........................................

Tarun said...

Hi keshi ...

Happy april fools day.

Vest said...

Please come home the children are sad and crying for you.

How do we know said...

Happy Birthday Viva Gurl... got to know from Farah's blog abt ur big day.. :-)

Me_ 2010 said...

Heartening.

Margie said...

Wishing you a wonderful weeeknd, Keshi ...

Love
Margie :)

Christian said...

nice post

Regards
Poliwhirl
http://poliwhirlgame.blogspot.com/

Die Muräne said...

hallo hallo, hows ya Keshi?

Priyanka Mahanta Pandiyan said...

Keshi girl, how hv u been? I missed yr blogs so bad. Am back now. Priyanka

Cynthia said...

You have very nice thoughts, Hope u never stop writing

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Vest said...

My heat cries for you-
Sighs for you -
Lies for you -
My heart dies for you-
Please come back again.x

tsduff said...

okay Keshi, you can please come back now...

Margie said...

Hi Keshi
Sending you love!
Hope you are enjoying your days, oh, I know you are as you told me so!
I'm on a break from blogging, how long I don't know.

Be happy my friend!

Margie :)
xo

krystyna said...

Hi Keshi!
I'd like to send to you
big hug
and my best wishes!
Have a wonderful spring time!

sambit said...

You are going into deep philosophy day by day..
Great..

akanksha said...

Where are u , keshi? Its been such a long time:(
Hope u are doing fine...Please take care of urs

Love always
Akanksha

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Kathy said...

... miss ya Kesh! :( hope all's well! luv yaaa**

muahhh!

starry said...

Miss you a lot Keshi.I come back often to see if yu are back.I hope all is well.take care and have a wonderful da.Alwas thinking of you and wishing you well.I miss all my old blogging frends:(

Tarun said...

Errr emmm ..

Hi Keshi
How r u?

;)

Whitenoise said...

Hey Kesh, hope everything is going okay.

shooting star said...

hey keshi, howdy??
just to let you know, i remember u a lot!!!

Dawn....सेहर said...

Hi dear how are you? Long time no news...I am hoping all is fine...I am a bit late to wish you Happy Mother's Day dear :)
You take care
with love always
Cheers n hugs

Tarun said...

hi Keshi.

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Jimmy said...

He was, like any unmonk, a captive of his desires.

In recent months, Saby had found himself attracted, regrettably not to the pretty young things he met all over the place (for apart from a fierce desire to shag them, there was nothing else he cud imagine doing with them);

rather, he found himself being drawn to the wives in his circle of friends. Women his own age claimed by marriage and scarred by childbirth years before; women who waded comfortably between dirty diapers and Smelly spouses and stressful jobs and thieving servants and occasional bright evenings filled with beer and good cheer.

They laughed easily with him, without that brittle coquetry that younger single women offered in the name of flirting.

They some times shone with all the gloss of a recent visit to the beauty parlor but were more frequently without makeup, displaying casually hirsute underarms and rough-stubbled legs dressed in old shorts

Yet he was seized with feverish desires to taste the beaded sweat on their upper lips as they frowned over some chore, and to bury his nose and mouth and body in the liquid warmth between their thighs.

He wanted to make homes with them. He wanted to fill himself with their comfortable, lazy sexuality.

He wanted to spend hours in their kitchens cooking vast and creative Sunday meals with them, and then spend hours more eating and drinking and lounging around with newspapers, absentmindedly rubbing toes to the distant clatter of maids cleaning up the debris in the kitchen.

He wanted to father their children. He wanted to have litle domestic quarrels about curtains, and long conversations about career issues, and exchange bright little secret jokes in whispers about people they both knew.
It was was time to be married.


-extract from The Red Carpet by Lavanya Sankaran

Jimmy said...

Dont be cruel Keshi

Many a time u threw me out from your page

but u all ways took me back


U just cant pack your bags and go away

many guys have bonded with u
u r breaking my heart and theirs


reminds me of the way Janice left
without any ADIOS

one day Janice just disappeared
from the face of the Earth

and now u doing a Janice too

to us this was Keshis home where we came and chatted and spend many hours joking and laffing

and yes some times crying too
as we did for Janice



Now come back Keshi
we all missing u verry much

Arv said...

you are missed.... :(

merry weather said...

To all readers of Mutleythe dogsdayout

I am so terribly sorry to break this news:

Rob, the author here on blogger of mutley the dog, and my beloved partner in life died peacefully in his sleep in the early hours last Friday, the 21st of May.

I would have preferred to email readers privately. That would have been best, I know. So sorry. Simply it is this - I am heart-broken.

At some near time I will post properly, as Rob would wish - a celebration!

Regards

Kate

韋于倫成 said...

永遠不要躊躇伸出你的手。也永遠不要躊躇接受別人伸出的手。..................................................

Jaycee said...

I came to check your blog today and saw this. I don't like good byes.

Jimmy said...

DEATH is not the END Kate
ROB will never die
he lives on in our memories


YES Kate
ROB will prefer that u celebrate his life not mourn his death

We all gotta go some day
till then we must continue LIVING and LOVING

and not withdraw from the World
as Keshi has done

and GOD only knows why!!

Tarun said...

Comments updated.
I see.

:)

How r u?

tulipspeaks said...

Missing you hun!
Mailed you but didn't receive a reply :(
Hope you are doing well there!
Hugs!

AlysiaDraeger0417永瑞 said...

認清問題就等於已經解決了一半的問題。..................................................

juliancu said...

Venture a small fish to catch a great one. ............................................................

欣來 said...

If the quantity is not a lot, I will hand carry..................................................

Jimmy said...

Kate
if my condolences wud help
u have it

but dont mourn Kate
he dont want u to mourn

LIFE and LOVING must go on
but treasure the memories

tqmcintl said...

Huggss and Kisses from Mumbai

Thousif Raza said...

hey keshi its been months since you last posted........ missing you like always.... it would be great to see you backkk........ hope life is going better for you.........
missing you...


take care and keep writing............

紀廷 said...

休息才能再次出發-隨時保持好體力-加油.................................................................

Margie said...

Hey Birthday girl ...
Wishing you a most wonderful & special day!
Happy Birthday dear Keshi!

Love to you my friend!

Margie xoxoxo

- Sugar Cube - said...

Hey Keshi..how you doing ??

Wish you many many happy returns of the day :)
Have a great time! Keep rocking!
Tc

Jack said...

Keshi,

MANY MANY HAPPY RETURNS OF THE DAY. MAY GOD BLESS YOU WITH VERY VERY JOYFUL, FUNFUL, HEALTHY, HAPPY, SUCCESSFUL AND PEACEFUL LIFE. MAY ALL YOUR DREAMS COME TRUE.

Take care

李哲維 said...

知識可以傳授,智慧卻不行。每個人必須成為他自己。.................................................................

MARIA said...

I'd like to be here again and see my beautiful friend Keshi.

with love
maria

Margie said...

Keshi
You are such a good friend!
Thank you for always being there for me!

Love always

Margie XO

Devika said...

Happy B'day, Keshi...Miss you dear girl....Please come back :)

love,
devika

ps: I should have wished you here when Hemanth posted the B'day post..it just didn't strike :)

蕙春蕙春 said...

與人相處不妨多用眼睛說話,多用嘴巴思考,....................................................................

mystic rose said...

It's a little late, but Many Happy Returns, Keshi.

Hope you had a lovely birthday :)

Keshi said...

tnxx each and everyone for ur comments, msgs, bday wishes and for ur constant love here! Im sorry to hv kept u all waiting here longing for a post from me...time sure does fly and it seems I hv 'crossed over' to different horizons in life :) But, from time to time, I do log in here, although Im not sure how thats gonna last either...one thing Im sure of is that there wont be regular posts, commenting, comment-replying, blog-hopping etc like before...those times are gone. Everything has a time for it...and that colorful joyful time is no more..it's gone. Im sorry guys...thats just the way it is and I hope u hv learnt to accept it and hv moved on.

BUT, thanks a tonn for thinking of me and passing ur well wishes all the time. Tho Im not here, I always think abt u and wish u well too. X

Love n light!
Keshi.

Jimmy said...

Never say NEVER again KESHI

we change
DONT make RULES for your self

go with the FLOW
some times u may just want to write a post

then WRITE it


whatever u do be PASSIONATE about it

dont do any thing because its the RIGHT thing to do

do what u WANT to do
when u WANT to DO IT

dont make OATHS like
till death do us part

that is SILLY
u dont know the FUTURE

Jimmy said...

Mother Mary's teachings are based in absolute love and devotion to humanity. She brings to each teaching the unconditional love and acceptance we all seek as human beings.

Mother teaches that we are divine because we are human, not in spite of it.

IMPORTANT
1. Simplicity, Creating an uncomplicated life
2. Awakening The Dreamer Within
3. Connecting With the Divine
4. Loving Relationships, Creating and sustaining them

Jimmy said...

Falling in Love with Yourself
by Mother Mary




Mother Mary has often said to those who seek Her, "If you knew yourself as I know you, you could not help but fall in love with yourself." As spiritual seekers we are told often to love ourselves. But the exact details of how to do that can be elusive.


Why do we still struggle with self punishing habits after trying so hard to change? What we need is an ally.


Mother Mary tells us that beginning with trying to love yourself is too big. She encourages us to start small and build a foundation that will last a lifetime.

Loving yourself happens as a result of taking the actions Mother Mary will recommend each week. Ultimately, you will move deeper into your true self, better able to find your inner compass and move more freely in the direction that is abundant and satisfying for you.


Even if you can only do a little you will feel more love for the beautiful person you are right now.