Use by 12/12/05

Push my buttons and get what you want. I feel like a frikkin vending machine sometimes. Haven't you ever felt that way? When someone you trust take you for a ride? I have been lied to, that's ok I could take it. Atleast I thought I can, but lately I cant stand lies and hypocrisy, it doesn't sell anymore mate. How can you look in the eye of a loved-one and bull sh#t? Some people flaunt their insensitivity in great style. It's ok that you are born insensitive but there are others who are born sensitive, get it? Cold cold hearts and ruthless minds can dwell quite happily in another's misery. Your eyes seem dead and the words sound numb but they stir the last bit of emotion in me to the very core. For you it's just the usual thing, for me it's just a brutal war with my ever-growing emotions. These petals didn't open up for no reason - now they are all so strewn with tears. Thinking these thoughts can never be stopped now - if only you didnt act this callous in the first place.

I don't know if some people like to make a mockery out of others but they do it somehow. I'm not the kind who pay attention to such people, but when it's someone you love and care for it's really hard to tell them off. It's like they don't want to feel weak in front of you so they act heartless and cold. How can you continue to love someone like that? Somehow you end up still wanting the same person! But why? Don't ask me that question, it's like an addicition - the more he/she hurts you, the more you want him/her. The more he/she disregards you, the more you pay heed to him/her. The more he/she pushes you away, the more you try to pull him/her towards you. What is it? I don't get that but alot of people fall into that same trap. It's not that you don't realise that he/she is being insensitive but it's like you are tied to that person by that very insensitivity! Strange but true. I have many sensible friends who have this problem - no matter what, you want that same heartless freak!

Feelings are precious...more precious than Gold. Don't disregard your feelings for a feeling-less person. Don't let them tell you you are a child and too much of a thinker. If you feel that something is not right, then that's what it is, nothing else. Don't let him/her make you forget who you are. Being sensitive is quite good for the soul if not for him/her but don't let that make them misuse you. I'm a sensitive person and my feelings have been used and abused...but I'd never let anyone kill my soul. So you had your share of scorn but look who has failed...it's you. I have always known who I am and I don't wear a mask like you. Where are you going to hide when the makeup fades....where are you going to run away to when someone sees the real you...when you can't even find yourself? That's when the pain will hit you all over your face...the feeling of nothingness...no identity...lost personality. The feeling of feelings misused...the pain that you inflicted upon me. It will get you some day, if not now. Use-by-date for this product has arrived - sorry, go get another one.

Don't insensitive people shock you?