Thursday, July 13

The Desolate 'Tomorrow'

NOTE:This post was written ages ago but I didnt feel like publishing it for some strange reason. I did publish it once and then quickly deleted it. I think today is the appropriate day to publish it - don't ask me why. So here it goes.

Yes we all know that...Tomorrow is only a term we use for the Today we thought of Yesterday. So, Tomorrow never really comes. Then what happens Today? We think so much about Tomorrow and waste the Tomorrow we thought of Yesterday, which is Today.

Ok enough of me mucking around with your sanity :) What if Tomorrow I stop blogging altogether and cut all connections with the net for good? No emails and no nothing. For some it may mean nothing...just the end of a net Id called Keshi. But the few who loved me for who I am, would surely miss me, I know that. This kind of goodbye sounds harsh, but you never know, it can happen, be it through my own will or not. But please understand that if it happens, that it's not cos I want to hurt you all intentionally or not cos I don't consider you all to be good friends...but it could be cos I just wanted to end all net activities, just like that. Maybe cos I wanted to be free of too many heartbreaks. Maybe I just wanted some peace of a different kind. Or maybe I just died. No matter what,
Janice has always been on my mind. Everyone is unique and no one else can fill the emptiness left after Janice, that lurks around for so long. Unfortunately no one could help me with finding her since my last post about her. I even contacted the Mulund area personnel, but even they couldnt help me. So either Janice was not using her real name on the net or she is just untraceable. How has that affected me? Well, can anyone undo a bond once it's formed? I can't. Once you get to know someone and once that someone has touched your heart in a very special way, you just can't undo the bond, can you? The bond may have a set number of days of life, but the emotions and memories it leaves you with will never expire. Sometimes I feel scared for her...sometimes I feel what if she's alive and didn't want to contact us anymore? Is that fair on us or is that something wrong to do? But I don't blame her...if she's alive, she may be having her own reasons that need not be explained to some net girl called Keshi that she met long time ago. Well the point is do I even have the right to know - maybe not. Agree guys? Well I'm trying hard to make up my mind about Janice. Sometimes I wish I was not this ultra-sensitive...it's really irritating you know. I wish I could just go on with life like most people do...you know, have a heart of rock-solid matter.

So if I'm not here Tomorrow with no trace whatsoever, please don't feel angry at me. Please don't feel scared for me. Please don't ask for an explanation. Please don't try to find me. Live and enjoy Today, and be glad you did so Yesterday. Please don't worry about the Tomorrow that never comes anyways! It's like reading a book...it has a set number of pages...once all pages are read, there's none new left to read...you only have the pages that you read before. Life and every other phase in life (be it blogging, acquaintances, good health, happy times etc) is like that too. Nothing is forever so don't long for foreverness. Every bond in this world has a set number of days...and Yesterday's memories and Today are all we've ever got to share with one another, so cherish now. Be happy with what was Yesterday and what's here Today, so don't push me away...don't discard the time I have with you now...don't mock the friendship I have for you...don't cry about what I couldn't deliver...don't forget the Yesterday I had with you and don't throw away the Today you have with me...don't long for perfection of bonds either but live in the moment, for Tomorrow I/you/we may not be here at all.

~~Yesterday,
All my troubles seemed so far away...
Now it looks as though they're here to stay,
Oh, I believe in yesterday.
-Yesterday by Beatles

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desperado said...

strange na...the same mental proximity thing:)
take care dear n may the feeling in ur heart abt her always remain n u get the best of times
a sincere wish from a person....who likes this girl called Keshi

southpaw said...

All that conversation i had with u a couple of days back seems to hv gone down the drains...
Blogging and keeping in touch thru net, making new friends, learning new things was ur own choice and i m sure u dont regret any of it except a few.
Writing all this is contrasting ur own feeling of foreverness u derived after u nourished the relationships with each and every pal of urs here.
Stop making a mean picture of urs and make us believe that coz we wont believe it as we know u r the opposite of mean.
We already hv a lot of grievences in our mind coz of many things, dont multiply it.
Take it easy and be what u r and in case u thought of vanishing away just like that, make no mistakes abt it we will not let it happen no matter what.

Dinma said...

I hate losing friends especially those Dear to my heart. I pray one day, you will get to find your friend janice.

Het Waghela said...

Oh!

Keshi, balance in life is a very substantive. If that will make you feel better you should go ahead.

Keep in mind you have got so many people as ur friend. You are as special to us Janice is to you.

Definitely we will take care, Keshi so do u.

Keep in touch!

Die Muräne said...

If you would disappear, we wouldn't try to find you.
Because we already know where you are. In our hearts!!

you rock!

Eclipsed Thoughts said...

Things look strange all the while. When we really sit to think about yesterday, today or tomm, it feels as though **nothing**. Just as you have said, pages of the book.
Sometimes we seek for a static relation, i mean we want everything to be the same, we want things to remain good for us (afterall being humane), and that yearning for losing grip comes along.
So many times i used to think what would happen if i lose touch and get lost... how many would it afffect???
It seems like we just flow, like water, never static, never stable, never struck to anything. But when we pass, there are people who we touch, who still have the reminiscence of our "water" even after we leave. It will take time for them to dry up... sometimes, they dry up too fast and sometimes they take a long long time... but we are still moving, unaware of the person who is still looking at the waterdrops, missing us...
Truthfully speaking, i am never surprised when i hear about someone vanishing from the space just like that...

Relationships nourish us, nurture us, teach and boost us... maybe thats what it is all about (coming across people who have touched you all along).

Enjoy Keshi... P.S.: everyone has a different perspective of "enjoying", take whatever suits you the best... life is short to muddle around and wreck our brains!!!

Hugggssss

deepsat said...

your are beautiful the way you are!! you can never see your reflection, becoz what you see is what you want to see!!
cheer up keshi!!!

Nikita said...

Keshi,

At times it is difficult to face what you leave behind. Often it tears one apart to know that one will no longer see the sights that one beholds today. Why tear oneself apart when one knows not even whether the path will ever yield anything good?

There are bridges we cross and even as we cross them we realise that there will be no return journey. There will be no turning back, for this moment signals a passing far beyond what Time or Life has ever thrown across our paths. It signals a departure into a future where the past holds no more than mere memories of times gone by.

As far you going away from the blogging scene is concerend - There are points you reach when you realise that some things have changed, whether within or without counts for nothing. Some things change and at these times some decisions need to be made. And knowing you as a person (for whatever brief moment of tme), I know that u will make the right decision for yourself. :-)

visithra said...

well tom is always ur choice - but today is ours - so whatever u decide always know we loved u ;)

Apy said...

Now u r scaring me.. talkin like that.... i dunno wat to say... but yeah.. in a way.. so true.. in a way it holds true for each n every one of us... U neva kno wats there in tomorw.. all u have is today...cherish...
but dontcha even think bout disappearing .. i guess u already know how it feels n i m sure you dont want any of us here feel like that...
well. in case u stop using internet totally... i think i can still find ya.. but if u leave Australia.. then i cant .. hehehe...
Dont ask how... hehehe

Apy said...

my yahoo chat id is angel_hanginaround

manish said...

Yeah,even I'll miss you,though I visited your blog today for the first time!! Keep writing :-)

manish said...

Yeah,even I'll miss you,though I visited your blog today for the first time!! Keep writing :-)

mathew said...

hey..I dont know u well enough to comment on this..But reading through your old pages i guess u are pretty aggrieved a lot!!..
But guess u are getting too emotionally into it..Know its hard to lose friends..But its you who is losing if u mull over it..Gather strength and live another day!!Know it sounds easy..and though diffcult..its the way,,there is no time for yesterday!!!

Cinderella said...

What a beautiful post !!

Life is such a divine amalgamation of yesterdays,todays and tomorrows....sprinkled aiwth the love and affection of our loved ones and the ones who loves us.

And honey,its only words that take our breath away and its these words that make us remember a person.So know this,your kind and loving words and (sumtimes intelligent..hee hee !) will keep you etched in our memoirs forever.

Love ya.

karmic_jay said...

Uh oh.. This is not a blogging hiatus or a gooodbye is it?

Everyone who touches your life is special in someways, life though has to go on. So we live with the fond memories of those.
Sorry about Janice, hope you find her some day. She is from Mulund? Thats where i sued to be from too, my parents live there.

Jeevan said...

This post show how u love Janice, Remember her days with u, and go futher. THe pages of a Book can be end, but their is no end for Books, go and read another. If you think only about the same book and sit quite u can't read other books. So keep memorise, what u read in that book.

Rose said...

I know a couple of blogs which have not been updated for months.. I keep checking in on them to see some trace of life.. My presumptuous mind begins to imagine all kinda wild possibilities.. Its horrible!!

All the interjections that we have (even in this blog space) slowly becum a fragment of our life (no matter how small) and leave its impact (no matter how small the intensity). So in future if you decide to vanish, pls leave a note.. Its terrible to be hanging in the air and wondering wat cud hv happended to the other person..

“What we are today comes from our thoughts of yesterday, and our present thoughts build our life of tomorrow: Our life is the creation of our mind.”

:)

..Me

Sujit said...

net or person in real life, we will never know them truly!. All we can see is the image of them, through what they are to us. I have been like you, and still to be like that. I tried myself to get away into lonliness without any contacts, but realised that itsn't me. I think one should be what we are, things can happen for good and bad.

You can plugout, the connection through net. This would be just like what others did to you, you do to others, and the circle continues. Like, you.. who make freinds and cherish being there, will also be thinking about and cherish your freindship, they would be left vacant.. and the hole that keshi leave.. as penetrable as the black hole in the universe!

Has to be me said...

That is how life is Keshi. Gotta accept things the way they are. Everything is for a reason. Yes they do hurt.....but there's no choice u c.

kannan udayarajan said...

safe in Pune....

christabelle said...

I just went to Janice page now and just by reading her posts, I understd the kind of person she was, I wish I met her, and Keshi, I just hope shes ok, hope she had her baby and everything is fine and one day she'll continue blogging again. I just hope so...

Pls keshi, stop talking like that, It makes me scared, I once met this guy on the net who was a professor, he really was almost like a mento, but suddenly all contact broke, I just couldnt get in touch again, i tried sending mails and stuff, then I searched in google and guess what I found, HE DIED. I was devastated.

saby said...

All sentimental hog wash if u ask me

saby said...

if u gotta go
u gotta go


but dont expect the world to stop turning

we will survive widout u
my blog is heaps better than yours

and Karen's (starbender) blog is heaps better than mine

but Micheles blog is real bad
i convinced her to stop blogging

uttara said...

keshi

F OFF now
GRRRRRRRR
i was the only 1 who read this post wen u posted it last n deleted

i will revert laters
muahhhh

SaffronSaris said...

Poppy doll, this is in response to the post further down.

Beckham? Have you ever hear him speak? Nah! He looks better when he is silent ;)

>|' ; '| said...

i felt the same way sometime back, when you had blogged about janice...memories make up what we are. you are right. we are too hung up thinking about tomorrow and yesterday, and suddenly today passes us by...

take care..

i am off blogging for a few days. going to shift to another city, over the weekend.

Zombie said...

be well then.

samuru999 said...

keshi,
I sure would miss you if you
just vanished as Janice did.
This was a wonderful post!
Take care.
HUGGGGGGZ
Margie

Aditi said...

Very true and touching.

Het Waghela said...

Keshi
where are u???

pleaseeeeee,,,

tussi na jao!

prithz said...

OMG Keshi!!! i have always feared such a thing happening. People suddenly absconding...its unbearable... i share the same feelings with u... EXACTLY THE SAME!!! I simply cant bear the feeling of separation.

I regard ur thoughts a lot Keshi. I simply love the way u express urself... and i hope u r around here for a long time to come... i cant bear to see ur absence here baby... take care... and as u said.. lets live in the present with optimistic thoughts...

hope u find ur lost friend soon... take care... Hugggggggggggzzzzz...

p.s. BETTER NOT GO AWAY ;)

Trée said...

My dear angel, you will forever live in my heart. If you leave here, just head over to the bridge. I'll be waiting, for however long it takes you to find me again. :-)

IcEyeZ said...

Looks like this is ur first post ! welcome to bloggerz....keep writing dudette..:)

SCRIBBLEZ TO WAKEUP said...

"Tomorrow is only a term we use for the Today we thought of Yesterday"
This is a precious statement, wisdom in all essence, realistic.

Well, people go and we hurt but its ok. We feel vulnerable and cheated but its OK. "Men may come and men may go but I go on forever". A brook or a stream or river sees people on it, sees so many things on it but it doe snot stop, it carries on till it reaches the ocean. The memories it cherishes. Your action is your rightful action and you will be missed but as you have stated you dont want people to dig, no one shall. We will be sad and cranky but will respect your decision always!

I dont know about the friend you miss and so I dont think I would be in any position to comment.

Cia on Mon...Away this weekend starting Tom morn. Take care Keshi

ANKIT said...

***Live and enjoy Today, and be glad you did so Yesterday.

rightly said....!


so smile now fast ...even if you have no reason...!

hope you did smile...a thoughtful post...!

ur blog buddy,
ANKIT!

Kumar Chetan said...

U meet some one and he/she gets close to you and one day suddenly disappears. U feel the pain but still its bearable
U meet some one and fall in love with him/her and one day he/she backstabs you . Now thats not bearable. Thats more painful.
I passed thru both. My one and only virtual GF is not in touch with me and my "best" frends backstabbed me.
This happened not only with me but with many. This is part and parcel of life. You have to accept them.
Happiness is state of mind, you are as happy as you can think of.

Astral said...

Hey Keshi Girl! HOw are you? I am fine.... thanks for your concern. BTW I ahve read this post of yours earlier and most likely that was my 1st visit to your space.... Take care and GOD bless!

Homo Escapeons said...

keshi,
This world is so BIG and there are still thousands if not millions of people who would love to be your friend.
You need to realise that your attraction is your sensitivity and verve.

It is hard to lose friends.Some change, some don't grow up, and some even die on us. I always try to focus on the best memories of those old chums and laugh at the silly quirks that each one of them had.

You cannot please everybody all of the time and when you do find someone special you do have to WORK at keeping them ..but ..the best relationships are the effortless ones.

The ones that you can pick up wherever you left off at even 5, 10, 20 years down the road. As if nothing happened. Those are irreplaceable!

ari4u said...

whoa.. i dont know what triggered this post, but it seems to strike some chords of frustration and sadness in your heart. Maybe i am wrong, but i think you are probably having a blogging-overdose and spending more time with your virual friends than the real ones.

Take a break. Stay away from blogging for some time, get charged up and if you decide to come back, all your friends will be right here waiting for you and your next rockin post. If you decide otherwise, you will definitely be missed. (I will have to tell you that your blog rocks and i love reading what you post.) Your decision will be respected and yes, there is life outside the blog world ;)

Take it easy and take care. You will be fine

I have dedicated two songs to you on my blog. look for the player under the clock http://shutterhappy.blogspot.com

Cheer up :)

sittingnut said...

hey mate !

you do not have a 'heart of rock-solid matter' ( as everyone here knows) and felt all the pain about janice. all your friend here who love you too will feel all the pain of your absence if you do what you say you may do.

it is not a question about our right to know it is a question about our wanting to know.
that is inevitable, even you cannot prevent that.
-

ppl may try to live in the moment but they also live with hopes and memories. so tomorrow and yesterday are real as today is. to deny that is to deny our humanity. some saint or other may achieve that sort of nirvana but us mere humans cannot do that even if we wanted to.

so ppl who love you will take pleasure in yesterday's memories, today's moment, and tomorrow's hopes concerning you. they are human

and you and your blog is one of the things that made/make some of them realize their own humanity.
in other words if we feel strongly about this it is your own doing (not your fault but your achievement) :-)

-
huggggz!

AnonymousBlogger said...

Whoa whoa whoa Keshi. I hope this post isn't the precursor for something else.

You post is interesting, as Sudeep (as I'm sure you read) posted similar thoughts the other day.

My question is why would anyone just disappear like that without a word of warning? I see no good reason. Unless god forbid, they actually died.

Keshi said...

~~Desperado

**the same mental proximity thing

yeah strange but beautiful :)


**a sincere wish from a person....who likes this girl called Keshi

And liked I said b4, I happen to like a boy called Dhruv...thanks n huggggggggggz!








~~Southpaw

Southyyyyyy Im so sorry if I sounded like I put all ur words down the drain :(

na I dun regret blogging, not at all - infact I LOVE IT and the ppl I have met thru it...but I/we have to be prepared for uncertainities...look what happened with Jan...look what happened with so many Mumbai ppl...I dunno wut might happen with me/u. So I had to write that. Thats all.

I can be mean sometimes South...not intentionally but it happens. Na I aint gonna vanish w.o. telling any of u - I will never do that but I could vanish if for some unexpected reason. Hence this post.

dun ya worry - thanks for the encouragement n HUGGGGGGZ Southy!


Keshi.

Keshi said...

~~Dinma

**I hate losing friends especially those Dear to my heart.

I know that feeling so well..I have seen ppl slipping thru my hands right and some even in front of me eyes. I cant get over that grief.

I too hope I find Jan some day but chances r dimming by the day..







~~Het_Waghela

Thanks Het I know wut u mean and it's what I needed to hear. Ur a wonderful human being, a wonderful friend and a good heart. I always think of u that way. Plz know that.

** You are as special to us Janice is to you.

Huggggggggggz! And I know u will move on...ur tough. Stay strong always.







~~Die_Murane

**Because we already know where you are. In our hearts!!

U made me all teary by that line...thanks mate HUGGGGGGGGGGGZ! And u rock too, definitely!


Keshi.

Keshi said...

~~Eclipsed_Thoughts

Ur comment made me 10yrs wiser...wow u r sooo full of wisdom.

I like the example of Water that u used..brilliant! I hope everyone reads that.

**But when we pass, there are people who we touch, who still have the reminiscence of our "water" even after we leave.

Pure bliss in these words!


**It will take time for them to dry up... sometimes, they dry up too fast and sometimes they take a long long time... but we are still moving, unaware of the person who is still looking at the waterdrops, missing us

this made me cry...cos I miss Jan soo much! Im still looking for that waterdrop called Jan...she's unaware of it...maybe?

Thanks so much for that perspective of r'ships here...really touched me. HUGGGGGGGZ!








~~Deepsat

WC Deepsat!

Thanks sooo much for ur kind words...u guys really lift me up. TC and have a beautiful day mate!


Keshi.

ArChaNa said...

hello keshi dear

its been a loooooong time na? how you been?? I am kinda bz with research n projects n blah :D

whoa! so many posts to catch up :D ..

hmm.. don't ever worry abt tomorrow.. 'coz that ruins your Today. And even if you ever left blogging... u will always be in our hearts! (though i've known you for a while .. u did leave your footprints)

Okies, I'll log off now .. :(( sob sob .. i have a deadline for my literature project by tomorrow and I haven't started yet.

you take care

huggggggggggggggz!

Keshi said...

~~Nikita

Thanks Niki that was good advice for me.

**It signals a departure into a future where the past holds no more than mere memories of times gone by.

thats so true! What's left is just the memories...


** Some things change and at these times some decisions need to be made.

true...but right now, nothing has changed that way for me. I just wanted to write this post incase something happens unexpectedly and I had to leave u all w.o. notice. So this post remains as that notice. I hope u know what I mean Niki. And thanks so very much for having faith in me - HUGGGGGGGZ!


Keshi.

Keshi said...

~~Visithra

Mwahhh and I love u too, alot actually.






~~Apy

so ur gonna try n find me? awwww that breaks my heart Apy. What if Im not in this world anymore. Janice proved to me that even the latest technology cant get me in touch with her cos she may have an Earth address anymore.

Got ur YM id, and thanks for ur kind words...I do know u care. Huggggggggggz!








~~Manish

WC Manish! Hehe u visited for the first time and Im already crossing over :):) dun worry Im here till Im here. Thanks dude!







~~Mathew

Thanks Mat! I know what u mean. Im over-sensitive most of the times. But thats me...I cant help it. God wud have to re-mold me if I were to change :) and thats not gonna happen in this life. I agree I get clingy and too sad over things like this, but how wud u feel if u lost a good friend for life?

**its the way,,there is no time for yesterday!!!

true...but there's always time for the memory of my true friends - and Jan is one I can never forget or have no time for.

Thanks Mat for the encouragement...I'll try my best to live up to it.








~~Cinderella

Thanks sweety I knew it that u'd see eye to eye with me on this post :)

**So know this,your kind and loving words and (sumtimes intelligent..hee hee !) will keep you etched in our memoirs forever.

Those words from u are just enough to keep me going for life...tnx n HUGGGGGGGGGGGZ!







~~Karmic_Jay

na Jay I aint going anywhere but just wanted to post this so that if I do vanish w.o. me planning it, then u guys have something to hold on to.

**She is from Mulund? Thats where i sued to be from too, my parents live there.

Really? Yeah she was from Mulund but lived in Cali with her husband till Nov '05 when she vanished from the net. Someone from her area came and told us that Jan and the much awaited baby had passed on during delivery - that ws shell shock to me and many of her friends here. But I want to hear from her family to confirm that who I cant seem to trace. Thanks for the concern Jay.


Keshi.

Keshi said...

~~Jeevan

**THe pages of a Book can be end, but their is no end for Books, go and read another.

I like what u wrote mate...so beautiful and inspirational. I like it when my friends derive something further from what I write. Thanks for that n hugggggggggz Jeevan I will just do that ok :)







~~Rose

**So in future if you decide to vanish, pls leave a note..

aww I sure will sweety. this post was for unexpected vanishings that may happen - when I wont be able to say a proper goodbye.

Quite the apt quote there, thanks alot Rose!







~~Sujit

** I think one should be what we are, things can happen for good and bad.

thats so true. I can never run away n be alone for too long. Cos thats not just me. Im a social butterfly and I need to be with all of u always :)


** and the hole that keshi leave.. as penetrable as the black hole in the universe!

awww HUGGGGGGGZ Sujit same goes to ya! Cos we all have our unique auras. U TC OK.


Keshi.

Keshi said...

~~Has_To_Be_Me

**Everything is for a reason.

u really think so? I used to think like u too, that everything was for a reason. But what's the 'good' reason that Jan died for during delivery? If there's some hidden reason that God wants to show me some day, when is that gonna be and how justifiable wud that be. Anyways, Im so done with God n his reasons these days.

Thanks sweety and u TC. Hugggggggggz!







~~Kannan_Udayarajn

hey Kannan thanks for letting me know. Im so very glad ur OK.







~~Christabelle

Chrisss hugggggz n thanks! U saw Jan's page na...did u read some of her posts where she was so looking forward to her baby etc. We even suggested names for him. Well someone came n told us that she and baby died during the delivery in Dec '05. I wud rather hear that from her family but I cant seem to trace her family. Living in the unknown is worse than knwoing she's really dead.


**i tried sending mails and stuff, then I searched in google and guess what I found, HE DIED. I was devastated.

OMG thats so sad! How did he die? I had goosebumps reading that!! Chris Im so sorry and I hope ur coping well. HUGGGGGGGGGGGGGZ!


Keshi.

Keshi said...

~~Saby

didnt ask uto judge my blog, post or my sentiments. I was just expressing how I feel at the moment. Sorry if it bored u.







~~Uttara

Ur spot on! Cos this was the post that ONLY u read :) U rem na? I deleted it straight away and u didnt like it either. But the truth remains na Uttsy.







~~SaffronSaris

Saffy mwahhhhhh!

**He looks better when he is silent

lol awwww...I'd put duct-tape ard his mouth b4 I take him on a date then :):)






~~Poison

Im so glad ur OK mate. I missed ya!

yes today is all we have...and the memories of yday.

TC and best of luck in the new city! be bakk soon ok??






~~Zombie

u too ok. thanks a ton for knowing exactly how I feel!







~~Samuru999

awww I know u will miss me...cos u r one of those rare souls who love ppl for who they r w.o. asking for too much - thanks for loving me like that. HUGGGGGGGGZ!






~~Aditi

thanks girl!







~~Het_Waghela

**tussi na jao!

Aur aap bhi ruk...;-) Is my Hindi beyond repair?

Im here Het...Im here till Im here. Thanks for being here for me too.






~~Prithz

Prithz babez I got u...I better not go away :) All cos I have such wonderful friends like u here. Dun worry...this post was for should anything unexpected happen to me. okk? So huggggggggggggz Im here!







~~Tre

I know I have a permanent spot in ur heart - rent-free too ;-) Thanks Tre!

** If you leave here, just head over to the bridge.

If not here, that's def where I'll be...will u smile when u see me?







~~Iceyez

WC Iceyez and thanks!

This is my first post for u :) oyeah hehehe.






~~Scribblez_To_WakeUp

Thanks Scribblez!

** A brook or a stream or river sees people on it, sees so many things on it but it doe snot stop, it carries on till it reaches the ocean.

thats so beautifully expressed. Brilliant example!

I know u will miss me, and that u will be upset...and Im also glad to hear that u will move one cos thats what I want my friends to be. Never be like Keshi, who doesnt stop crying over lost friends...it's actually draining.

hey u have a wonderful weekend then! Huggggggggz!







~~Ankit

Smiling all the way to India...:) Thanks Ankit ur so sweet!


Keshi.

Keshi said...

~~Kumar_Chetan

**This is part and parcel of life. You have to accept them.

I agree Kumar. Im sorry friends betrayed ya and that ur virtual GF dun talk to u anymore. Thats no good. I hope things work out between youse.

With Jan its different. She never lost faith in me. I just lost her just like that. And it seems I cant accept it.







~~Astral

heyy Suchi Im so very glad that ur OK. Thanks for letting me know HUGGGGGGGGZ!






~~Homo_Escapeons

Mate how d u always, I mean always come up with such alot of sense? Im amazed at ur wisdom and the great load of smart-ass comments u write here. U r just brilliant and thanks for that!

**but ..the best relationships are the effortless ones.

thats so darn true! I have realised that even my non-net best friends r those who dun demand anything..we just happen, just like that.


**The ones that you can pick up wherever you left off at even 5, 10, 20 years down the road. As if nothing happened. Those are irreplaceable!

This is exactly what I mean! One of my bestest buddies left to Germany for good (cos she was born there and was here only for studies)..she and I r so close. But when she went to Germany we lost touch for a while. And when she came back for holz after 3yrs, it was like she never went anywhere!

Jan was a net friend but she really touched me in many ways. Apparently she's no more.


Keshi.

Keshi said...

~~Ari4u

hey Chiquitita and Everybody Hurts r 2 of my FAVVVVV songs! How did u even know? :) I sing Chiquitita on Karaoke hehehehe and trust me I can sing it pretty good. THANKS SO MUCH FOR THAT! U dunno me for too long but u picked some fine songs that I really love and suit my situation. U must be one of those friends that need no effort to be a friend to. HUGGGGGGGGGGGZ Im touched.

**there is life outside the blog world ;)

lol I know awww...but u ppl r real too and I love all of u just as much as I love my non-net friends. Actually I dun spend much time on the net...I dun chat, I only blog. This post was not cos I got tired of blogging or anything else here. It's cos I felt I need to say that should something unexpected happens to me.

Anyways thanks a ton for the 2 beautiful songs for me...u r soooo sweeet!

'I'll be dancing once again and the pain will end
I will have no time for grieving...'







~~Sittingnut

I u'stand ya...awww it's not that Im gonna leave all of u. This post was should something happen to me unexpectedly. Thats all so dun worry ok.


**so ppl who love you will take pleasure in yesterday's memories, today's moment, and tomorrow's hopes concerning you.

Thats so true...I know what u mean. But just that I want u to move on if something should happen to me w.o. me wantinng to say goodbye. I know u will miss me but it's wise to move on na. Unlike my sappy self who can never get over grief.

Hope u have a lovely day..thanks for all the kind words HUGGGGGGGGGZ!






~~AnonymousBlogger

Hey AB na I aint going anywhere...this post was a proper goodbye should something unexpected happen to me. Thats all :)

**My question is why would anyone just disappear like that without a word of warning?

I know..I wont do that to u guys. But like I said b4, if Im to vanish w.o. my liking, my blog may remain forever w.o. being updated. Like Jan's.

Thanks AB!


Keshi.

Keshi said...

~~Archana

heyy sweet busy bee me missed u!

na I dun worry abt Tomorrow...but I have to be prepared abt Tomorrow na :) Hence the post.

Now u do ut lit. project in Ace style and come bakk soon ok? mwahhhhhhh!

Keshi.

Sujit said...

how is you now?.. glittering like stars but hidden behind sun rays?..hehe

southpaw said...

Uncertainty is surely the biggest truth in our lives, i for sure know it pretty well.

Keshi said...

~~Sujit

**glittering like stars but hidden behind sun rays

Sure am...thanks that really made me wanna come out n shine...hows u?







~~Southpaw

Southy yep Uncertainity is the only certain thing abt our lives.


Keshi.

southpaw said...

There's a slideshow oops choco for eyes on my side bar, check it out...:D

Kumar Chetan said...

Why did she stopped talking with me?
simply coz she got bit busy with her job and life. I never got so close to any female although met many in life and on internet. IMO its a curve that one day touches its saturation and then recedes quickly to -ve side. If both sides can handle this -ve sides the relationship, any kind of relationship, can survive, infact becomes more strong.

Keshi said...

~~Southpaw

will do yeyyyy!






~~Kumar_Chetan

well she might get bakk in touch after all the work...so hang ten :)


Keshi.

Apy said...

dunno wat to say :(

starry nights said...

Keshi..I can understand how you feel about your friend Janice,do we have a right to be sad, I think so.The other person does not have to stay around because of us, she should want to.Sometimes when I dont see a post from a blogger for some time, I too get worried and wonder if they are doing ok.I think its human, even though I met u not long ago through my blog, I feel as though I have known you for ever.I enjoy the posts you write and u are a lot of fun.But as you said I am going to enjoy today and not worry about to-morrow.for if tomorrow you end your blog, I will know that it is what you want even though I would miss you.

starry nights said...

I just returned after reading some of janice's post. I can only imagine what u feel.I think everyone who blogs should leave a goodbye post if possible or tell someone close to them to , because it really hurts when you dont know what has happenend to some one you have formed a bond with.Keshi please dont stop blogging.

lil _kath said...

...Kesh i was reading ur post from yesterday but i dunno what to write coz i have many thing in mind same like what u feels. If u will remember i've posted about " Missing Friend" few weeks ago ...yeah i had a friend too that so dear to me, we spent times together a lot..we chat,we talk on phone,emails, sms etc..etc. thats last for 6 months and one day he came and he told me that he will give-up our friendship and i dunno what to say after hearing that? it's like...DAMN!! what's the meaning of everything? what the hell u think kathy is? u came from nowhere...get close to me and now saying goodbye? it's so unfair!!! but the only words he replied back is..." kathy i've never been happy in my life when i met u but sometimes we need to accept that its not for forever and im very sorry that im not worth of ur gem friendship" thanx and be happy!"...and he's gone.

..see how cruel sometimes life is...i dunno if there's anything wrong i did to him and it cursed me for almost a year and last week is his bday that impossible for me to forget so i've posted about him , thinking that maybe he will leave at least a message for me... yeah i had message from someone anonymous that just saying "i'm sorry" sigh!!!

..its hard to make a friend really, to find a true one and to grab friendship and think that it would be forever.
..yeah we met many people here , find few good ones but each one of them have different and unique things that we learned to love them , that we can't see from others...

..yeah but i'll keep on trusting and just think that God gives us always the best and the worth one.
..and im lucky i have you sweetie!

have a nice day!

TC.

hugss,
-kathy-

ishita said...

i read sudeep's post yesterday and now this...and i still rem the post about janice...

we never really sit down and think these things na keshi...i mean in ur head u know this could happen...there's nuthin certain about life 'cept death...morbid thought but the truth :( but we don't really think that's sumthin that could happen to us now...or just suddenly out of the blue...

I am very superstitious about this ok...i mean i don like sumone talkin about dying or death...i said the same thing at sudeep's blog. But I once told rajiv to ensure he put a note in my blog if anything were to happen to me...of course i was laughing about it and said sumthin to the effect of .."rajiv write this 'Here ends her walk'!!"...he wasn't amused but obviously. But my point was that he would let ppl know...and so would suchi...

It's people who write wid a psuedonym and those whose real identity are not known to us...i worry about them and a sudden stop in their blogs would leave me utterly helpless...

i can tell sumone like sudeep (or those who blog with their real identity) that i'd even catch a flight and check on him but what can i tell those whose real identity i don't know and yet they've become such an integral part of my daily existence...I dread that thought...

And like death is the only certainity....there's another important truth, life moves on Keshi...we can choose to fall back and grieve the loss of a loved one but sooner or later, we have to move wid life...we have to live it...nothing is forever i know...but if i am alive, i gotto keep living...

and nuthin's going to happen to u (nuthing bad!!)...and knowing u :) (even if it's just been a short while now), u won't quit blogging just like that...if ever, u'll have valid reasons and u will share them with us...but m hoping u don have to do that ever!!!

It's a new day today keshi dear...get a smile on your face and your heart and see the endless possibilities ahead...that's why we're here na:)...to explore and savour life...that's why we need to live the life God's blessed us with :)...

Keshi said...

~~Apy

I meant that she may NOT have an Earth address anymore :) Chill cos I still do...HUGGGGGGGGZ!






~~Starry_Nights

Staryy thanks sooo much for ur touching words and the warmth u have always showered me with!

I know u will miss me but Im glad ur a string girl n that u will move on..u u'stood what Im trying to say and thats great. Good on ya Starry!

Starry it's just that Jan had no way of puttin up a Good-bye post...apparently she died. I just hope it's not that but seems like thats what it is...cos she's someone who never lost touch that way b4.

Thanks for all the comforting words here. TC.


Keshi.

The Phosgene Kid said...

Rough day? Have some chocolate, you'll feel better.

lil _kath said...

..if ever u will leave i know u'll be back again...
... hope Janice is doing fine, i can't forget her name too now. Maybe she's just somewhere... just can't access net, think positive dear so it will help u ease the pain.

Stay Kesh, we love you! Death is the only thing that can separate us but ill still find u there if ever hehe...^_^ smileeee!

Keshi said...

~~Lil_Kath

I read abt him in ur blog...but until now I didnt know he planned that and left - I thought he just disappeared. Thats so harsh Kath! Really. I dunno how u handled the situation.But I just hope ur ok now and u have to be cos Im here na :) HUGGGGGGGZ!


**its hard to make a friend really, to find a true one and to grab friendship and think that it would be forever.

thats so true. It's really hard to make a true friend. And worse, it's even harder to keep it alive for a long time. I say it's just got to be there naturally.

Thanks so much for that experience of ur's...cos I learned from it that not all great friendships have to last anyways. Sometimes ppl just leave be it planned or not.







~~Ishita

2 of mah sweeties together - u n Kath! Lovely to see u both here. Thanks alot Ish ur words have always brought more n more wisdom to my life.

**rajiv write this 'Here ends her walk'!!"

hell na it wont happen atleast until Im alive...somehow that line brought me so much pain Ish. I really did feel like a knife was cutting me up. Have we become so close? Isnt that amazing how some friends can have such a hold on each other! U have definitely become an imp part of my life Ish and I would neva wanna see that kinda post in ur blog. NEVER!

yep those with pseudo Ids can neva be traced easily. Janice apparently is her real name but Im having enough trouble tracking her even with a real name.

**get a smile on your face and your heart and see the endless possibilities ahead

:) Thanks that really got me smiling...mwahhhhhhhh!








~~The_Phosgene_Kid

Chocs it is after lunch, thanks for reminding me mate!


Keshi.

Raghav said...

very profound ! very kal ho na ho types

Keshi said...

Kath I too hope Jan is fine...hope hope hope...I keep hoping...

**Death is the only thing that can separate us but ill still find u there if ever

That'll be fun na...we can boast our wings ard and flirt with the male angels lol!


Keshi.

Anand said...

All i can say is that the best way to live is to live for today...dont worry abt who will remmeber u or who wont..whats important that will i remember today when its yesterday!?

~*. D E E P A .* ~ said...

yeah .. i remember the post on Janice .. i left a comment on her blog , and someone replied as well ... now , i dont know if it a fake id / clone !

well , in my case , if i disappeared , there'd be a couple of ppl who would try to find out , coz we were friends b/f we started blogging ...

neway , i feel u shouldnt keep thinking these dark thoughts ... they have a bad impact in the long run

tc
c ya

Keshi said...

~~Raghav

hope ur having a good day...






~~Anand

na its not that IM worried if I'd be remembered when Im gone...it's that I just want my friends to be prepared for something like that - only cos I know how hard it was for me after Jan's disappearance. Anyways who's a truckload of emotions like me anyways!






~~Deepa

heyyy Deepz that was not Jan who replied u..it was that stupid clone.

**neway , i feel u shouldnt keep thinking these dark thoughts ... they have a bad impact in the long run

I know Deepz everyone keeps saying that, and even I will say that to someone else who might be crying over some loss...but how easy is it for us to do when it's our turn to grieve.

Thanks!

Keshi.

zonko said...

The wisest King, Yudhishtir, was once asked "what's the strangest thing in the world?"

And he replied, "That men die everyday but still each man forgets that he will die too; he believs in his own immortality"

By the by, have you thought of making an e-will? Like, putting your IDs and passwords in some document so that they can be deactivated; and suitable messages sent to your online friends?

(See other people of going offline too ;)

(and topical song playing right now is)
When I was just a little girl
I asked my mother
what will I be
will I be pretty
will I be rich
here's what she said to me
"Que Sera Sera,
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours to see
Que Sera Sera"


Trivia: Doris Day didn't want to do this song, and aftering finishing the recording said "that's the last you've heard of that song"

Keshi said...

~~Zonko

** "That men die everyday but still each man forgets that he will die too; he believs in his own immortality"

thats so very true! somehow we think we r immortal and its cos of that reason that we r so schocked by someone else's death.

My mum loves that song 'Que Sera Sera'...it's one of the very first songs she sang to me. :) Thanks!

Keshi.

uttara said...

heyy bubzz have a lovelyyyyyyyy weekend
muahhhhhhhhhhhh

Keshi said...

Uttsy hows u? I miss u even when ur here...strange na.

Im having a hot chocolate and Im feeling ok...:)

Hope u'll have good one too HUGGGGGGGGZ!

Keshi.

Ekta said...

hey girl,
What makes u think ur gonna go away...what makes u think we'r gonna let u get away!!
Naah..not so easily..ur gonna be ard here for a while writing lovely posts for us:-)
Lotsa lvoe and hugggsss to u:-))

Het Waghela said...

Keshi!

No i am not strong, we are not strong. We are your addict now. And this addiction is something which will go away as time goes by. Its something we cannot live without and that is "Viva forever..."

Hope you will be in regular touch.

You will be na?

You hindi is fine, only thing is i couldn't understand what u said... lolz.

Keshi said...

~~Ekta

**What makes u think ur gonna go away...what makes u think we'r gonna let u get away!!

na its not that I think I will go or that u will let me go Ekta sweety..just that uncertainities made me write that. Thanks for that HUGGGGGGGGZ!







~~Het_Waghela

Het u have an addiction issue then...lets take u to Keshi-rehab lol! btw I will be in that same rehab taking therapy for bloggers-rehab :):)

**You will be na?

will be duncha worry!


**You hindi is fine, only thing is i couldn't understand what u said... lolz.

ROTFL! seriously? lollz why not?


Keshi.

prithz said...

Oh Keshi... i did understand the reason behind ur post... i was jus hoping it doesnt happen... Thnx for lighting up my hope Keshi...

"Sometimes v never know how much some people regard and love us"... and i am one such person who loves this bloggie girlie named Keshi...

Take care... and Huggggggggzzzz!!!

Mr. J said...

Today, I live. For tomorrow I don't know where I might be. Howdy do Kesh.

Vest said...

It would be doubtful if any of you muttonheads commenting on this site would have an I Q of more than 14. However, 14 kilos would more than likely be the amount of bullshite stuffed in your heads.

Known Stranger said...

ya,... okie keshi . just didnt feel of writting anything as well didnt feel to be here. thanks you care to ask my regards. thank you keshi.

alice said...

what's up girl...why this post???
what are u thinking...???be nice girly..we all love u..
hugggs...alice

Harry said...

hey keshi...
i truly agree with ur views...i wish Janice wil be fine...
and i really believe in living a day at a time..
and dear dont get get so senti...everything will be fine...

Alapana said...

Lets live for this moment,say all that you want to say to your lovedones,share all the smiles and joy,Tomorrow we maynot have the chance.I know it scares to think of it all,but then such is life.
How i wish you find your friend,i remember your post about her too.Life and its mistries never seize to amaze me.
You are very sensitive and wonderful person,well,thats what i feel from your posts,you must have made wonderful friends here,they will be with you come whatever.Few might hurt,lot may walk off,but the true friend will remain with you forever.I have been through it,been in blogging for almost three yrs now,lot left and now with new friends,they accused,they made me cry,they let me down,but those who are with me even today make me smile,i TRUST again and move with ease,hoping for a better tomorrow,living for a today and cherishing my Yesterdays:)
God bless you girl.

Orikinla Osinachi. said...

Keshi,
Janice reminds me of my beautiful and wonderful friend Rashmi Kayala from India and told me that she lives in America. We met in the blogosphere and later she insisted that we should be friends and even said I should be her mentor. I tried to discourage her and she said she would appreciate it. And I obliged and brought her into my professional network "Soflow". Then she soon disappeared and all my e-mails and messages on her whereabouts have not been replied till date.
Strange.

Keshi,
people come and go.
But life goes on.

But, no matter where you go or disappear to, my love will seek you out and find you.

As for me, I will never forsake you nor leave you.

Remember my comments when you first published this post. Well, I am even more determined now than ever before.

A much younger blogger asked me to oblige to visit her and I did as she requested last Friday. I had to cross the sea. And the speed boat broke down in the middle of the sea. The passengers were transferred to another boat and I continued my journey to see her. I had to go by road for over four hours until I reached her city at night. I paid for a night in a hotel. Then, I called her. She came and we set eyes on each other for the very first time. She was even prettier in person than her photographs online. I gave her the gifts I brought for her. A bikini, my precious sleeveless cardigan made of 100% wool, a can of perfume called Maliza and a ring. I left the following day and returned to my base.

I had to do this to prove that I meant every word I have mentioned in our chats and e-mails and on the phone.

Our love can see us through.
And nothing can stop the spirit of pure and true love. For it is eternal.

True love never lies.
And true love never dies.

God bless.

Orikinla Osinachi. said...

Keshi,
Janice reminds me of my beautiful and wonderful friend Rashmi Kayala from India and told me that she lives in America. We met in the blogosphere and later she insisted that we should be friends and even said I should be her mentor. I tried to discourage her and she said she would appreciate it. And I obliged and brought her into my professional network "Soflow". Then she soon disappeared and all my e-mails and messages on her whereabouts have not been replied till date.
Strange.

Keshi,
people come and go.
But life goes on.

But, no matter where you go or disappear to, my love will seek you out and find you.

As for me, I will never forsake you nor leave you.

Remember my comments when you first published this post. Well, I am even more determined now than ever before.

A much younger blogger asked me to oblige to visit her and I did as she requested last Friday. I had to cross the sea. And the speed boat broke down in the middle of the sea. The passengers were transferred to another boat and I continued my journey to see her. I had to go by road for over four hours until I reached her city at night. I paid for a night in a hotel. Then, I called her. She came and we set eyes on each other for the very first time. She was even prettier in person than her photographs online. I gave her the gifts I brought for her. A bikini, my precious sleeveless cardigan made of 100% wool, a can of perfume called Maliza and a ring. I left the following day and returned to my base.

I had to do this to prove that I meant every word I have mentioned in our chats and e-mails and on the phone.

Our love can see us through.
And nothing can stop the spirit of pure and true love. For it is eternal.

True love never lies.
And true love never dies.

God bless.

Orikinla Osinachi. said...

Folks,
leave Keshi to me.
She could slip away from the net, but she cannot slip away from my grip.

She is already embedded and coded into the matrix of my love.

She cannot escape.

I have got her pictures and if I have to publish them on full pages of the newspapers in Australia and in the Time and Newsweek to find her, that would be done.

She loves playing these mind games and the more she does so, the more I love her.

Keshi,
can you escape from your shadow?

If you can escape from yourself, then you can escape from me.

Orikinla Osinachi. said...

Just to remind you that my Scarlet Tears of London is now ready and will soon be available on Amazon, Barnes and Noble and other retail outlets worldwide. And I have found a partner for the making of my film "Naked Beauty".

We have a lot to celebrate, so don't disappear yet.

An Oscar is definitely coming soon.
After I win the Nobel Prize for Literature, then you can leave me alone.

I will always love you.

But, you have the right to tell me to stop loving you. Then, I will ask God if I should stop loving you. And if our Almighty Daddy in heaven agrees, I will then stop loving you. Because, love is not by force. Love blooms only in peace.

Stay beautiful and wonderful my sweet Keshi.

Jim said...

, ,and i am one such person who HATES this bloggie girlie named Keshi..., ,


she just loves to cry
so dat hunks like Jagbir will wipe her tears

Jim said...

DUMBASS

DUMBASS

DUMBASS

as Janice wud say

Gangadhar said...

Oh..Keshi,
we're so lucky to have a nice friend like you..I don't wanna say nothing more than this.....

karmic_jay said...

I recall that post about her. If you know her maiden name, someone in Bombay could try to look it up for you? Maybe you already tried that.

starbender said...

Ok enough of me mucking around with your sanity :) What if Tomorrow I stop blogging altogether and cut all connections with the net

U would have one hell of a case of the D.T.'s
;]

niki yokota said...

eh? ultra-sensitive? lolll
im glad u are okay, keshi-chan.
thought u might say good-bye at the ending and freaked out. ^^
im glad z000nie-chan is alive too!!
many thanks for your great post...

Dawn....सेहर said...

Yes dear ...I agree with this post but then I think if someone has a reason to do so then they better mention it and that would be the true justice and love towards others from that person!
One day suddenly disappearing leads to many bad thoughts...and thats not the good way to leave in any manner...so no one can predicts about uncertainities...but hey certain things we can always convey ...for me I will loose a friend and a sister...thats a big loss...so dont even think on that note OK...grrrrrrrrrr
hugggggggz to my dear..
Cheers

smiley said...

r u getting married :)

KK said...

Wish you luck to find Janice some day.
Your book example of life is very true.
Cheer up!!

Thanks for visiting my Travel blog, I have another regular blog here.

sophie said...

for if the message is from me to you i would say

When I come to the end of my journey and I travel my last weary mile
Just forget if you can, that I ever frowned and remember only the smile
Forget unkind words I have spoken;
Remember some good I have done.
Forget that I ever had heartache and remember I have had loads of fun.
Forget that I have stumbled and blundered and sometimes fell by the way.
Remember I have fought some hard battles and won, ere the close of the day.
Then forget to grieve for my going, I would not have you sad for a day,
But in Summer just gather some flowers and remember the place where I lay,
and come in the shade of the evening when the sun paints the sky in the west.
Stand for a few moments beside me and remember only my best.

uncertainity is the charm of life...but life keeps moving..and is beautiful as always....
dont think too much da...take life as it comes
huggzzz...muaaahhh

ghee said...

Dear Keshi,

Ive been blogging for 3 months or so,i ve met some friends thru blogging that makes me excite everytime i logged in.

but yeah,we dont know exactly the people we met here.but we have special feelings for some,we couldnt say all.

i was more than glad as ive found your site,you inspired me coz sometimes i think wht do i get frm blogging?

and you became a model to me,i saw that you have good warm readers,and thts the most important thing for me in blogging;gaining good readers...

yest.another blogger friend said goodbye..,ive known her for a short period of time,and yet,i feel so sad..well,thers always hellos and goodbyes..,but goodbyes are always effectively sad...

i wanna thank you though..and you will remain as an inspiration to me.
i wish you all the luck...and just be happy...

ghee

Meg said...

Keshi, live in the moment, live for today, just live! If your not here tomorrow - if none of us are -yes there would be a void, a greiving time, and then a time to move on - thats just how it goes. We can't stand still forever. You'd be missed because you are a beautiful person with a huge heart - and there just aren't enough of those in this world. Have a great weekend Keshi - get out and do something fun TODAY!

sittingnut said...

heyy mate!
understood :-)

only we will miss you very very much if that happens.and i am not sure about moving on completely, something will be left behind.

huuggggzz!

Unlike my sappy self who can never get over grief.
who said only you are sappy ? :-)

anyway have a great week end.

Keshi said...

~~Prithz

**"Sometimes v never know how much some people regard and love us"... and i am one such person who loves this bloggie girlie named Keshi...

:) Thanks a ton HUGGGGGGGGGZ Prithz!







~~ME

awwwwww so glad to see u here!

**Today, I live. For tomorrow I don't know where I might be.

thats true...today I live too.

I'm keeping well...bloody rainy Sat - not able to get out of the house - too cold n gloomy...so sitting here checking my blog :)Thanks dude!







~~Vest

Ur mistaken Vest...Im not Saby. I know he has a zillion IDs but is that my fault? I came to ur site cos Saby said u were from Aus too but I think I have bumped into some real serious sh#t. I regret that, and dun ya worry, I wont ever visit someone like u again.

**It would be doubtful if any of you muttonheads commenting on this site would have an I Q of more than 14.

And I guess ur IQ is below 0 cos u dun even have the sense to recognise one blogger from another. Mebbe ur stoned beyond repair. Good luck mate!


Keshi.

Keshi said...

~~Known_Stranger

Thanks KS! U tc now ok.







~~Alice

Im fine Alice tnxx...just was thinking of Janice...







~~Harry

Im the queen of senti land lol! I know. But yeah, I'll try to be strong, thanks for ur support.








~~Alapana

I luv the way u see things girl...so beautiufl and so sensible. Thanks for those very comforting words my dear. I feel so blessed to have ppl like u who spend few mins of their day trying to lift me up...isnt that a wonderful gift in my life. HUGGGGGGGGZ!

** TRUST again and move with ease,hoping for a better tomorrow,living for a today and cherishing my Yesterdays

Thats it...I have started doing that too.

Thanks for everything Alapana!







~~Orikinla_Osinachi

aww na I aint playing mind games at all :) I'd hate to do that to such a wonderful lot like u. These thoughts r what I truly feel right now. Cos of Jan, cos of the Mumbai blasts, cos of my long-gone Dad, cos of my friend Dan who committed suicide...these ppl dint have time to say goodbye...rather they didnt get a chance to. And cos I love u guys so very much, I'd hate to leave like that if I had to. Cos if it happens unexpectedly some of u might even hate me for leaving w.o. notice. So this post remains for that purpose. Na I aint going anyhere yet :) Im here till Im allowed to.

**As for me, I will never forsake you nor leave you.

Thats enough to make me happy for a very long time mate..THANKS so much! HUGGGGGGGGGGGZ!

Im glad u met ur friend across the seas...what a wonderful gesture on ur behalf. She's lucky and so r u. I have never met a blogger friend in real yet...few Aussie bloggers here but Im not as close to them as I am to all of u here. And guess wut..most of u r across the ocean thousands of miles away :(
but ofcourse only a heart beat away.

U say some of the most beautiful things ever...u r sooo sweet and so genuine. Im lucky I got u as a friend.

heyyy CONGRATTTS on the book! I will def look out for it in Amazon...but wud it be in Dymmocks too? Wud be a treat to read it cos I now know the author too whoaaa!

yes I will be here to celebrate with ya...duncha worry...this post is a adios-note should anything unexpected happen to me :) Thanks n God bless.


Keshi.

Keshi said...

~~Jim

**she just loves to cry
so dat hunks like Jagbir will wipe her tears

nobody really can wipe my tears...neither can I ur's.






~~Gangadhar

thats so sweet of u Gangzz!






~~Karmic_Jay

hey Jay thanks I did mention her surname...it's d'Lima (her hubby's name). So she's Janice d'Lima. I think her maiden name was Janice d'Souza.

Nobody could trace her...there were some efforts from few ppl in Mumbai but no one came back to me with anything yet :(







~~SatrBender

**U would have one hell of a case of the D.T.'s

lol wuts DTs? Some mental prob I hope haha!







~~Niki_Yokota

Thanks babeh! HUGGGGGGGGZ!







~~Dawn

Dawny I missed ya u know that?

**...for me I will loose a friend and a sister...thats a big loss

awww even if I disappear w.o. wanting to, dun ever think my spirit will leave my sista at all..ok? HUGGGGGGGZ!







~~Smiley

Great thought lol but na...if I'm getting married I'd invite ALL of u whether u could make it to Aus or not :)







~~KK

aww did I just visit ur travel blog :P sorry! I'll visit ur regular one soon, thanks!

**Your book example of life is very true.

yeah...seems like the book called Jan-Keshi is read and finished...I only have to re-read it in my head now.







~~Sophie

I have seen that verse elsewhere Sophie...so beautiful and apt to the situation. Thanks!

**Then forget to grieve for my going, I would not have you sad for a day,

Thats what I'd want from u too...







~~Ghee

ur truly a beautiful person both in and out...cos u saw me (if u know wut I mean). Thanks for that!

**and you became a model to me,i saw that you have good warm readers,and thts the most important thing for me in blogging;gaining good readers...

Im stoked that I could be of any model to u..thats such an honor. I think we all r role-models to each other in some unique ways.

I will try to b happy...but I know Jan's memories haunt me every now n then. but thanks so much for puttin up with my sad episodes :) I hope ur not bored to death..hehe.
TC and have a good weekend Ghee!



Keshi.

Keshi said...

~~Meg

hey thanks Meg! I know alot of u wud move on and Im so very GLAD abt that :) Just wut I wanted to hear.

btw who said that Im the only one with a big heart...so do u girl HUGGGGGGGGGGGZ!






~~Sittingnut

That something that will be left haunting u, is exactly what's haunting me right now with Jan's memory...

Me n Sappy r best friends :)

Hope ur having a wonderful sunny wknd in Colombo...here's its rainy, cold and so darn gloomy...just like my current mental status. TC mate.


Keshi.

tsduff said...

I wish I could just go on with life like most people do...you know, have a heart of rock-solid matter.

Well Keshi, I don't know who you are referring to, but most folks, including me don't have solid hearts. I think people have hearts full of hope, anxiety, fear, love, and constant change. We all wish for the best, and I know you are similar. Yours is the coolest site, with so many questions full of life and love and hope. I would miss it awfully if it just snuffed out one day. You are unique and quite a part of my daily life.

Thanks Sweetie.

lil _kath said...

Keshhhhhhhh ..damn hot here today ;( It's 35 degrees here in Tokyo ...take me with u to Aussie plsssss.. hehe ^_^ lets go and do SKI there...i want to lay down in snow all day...;)

ok im gettin' crazy na, sorry :P

..enjoy weekend sweetie muaaahh!

hugss,
-kathy-

anup.777 said...

whoa! ... what is this about?

of course one must live every day to the fullest and count blessings daily... appreciate what one has ... be it friends, family, faith, hope, love ...

but that doesn't mean that one doesn't look for answers if someone dear vanishes ... while i would accept that she's not coming back ... i would still seek closure ...

knowing what happened is quite important ... as i wasn't there with her/ for her when it happened

Contented said...

Hey Mate!! I am back and feel very good to be back here on your space where I can enjoy words of my thoughts put in different tone!! I understnd what you mean by, and I too have similar thought abt leaving the blog suddenly for some unexpected reasons...:(

Sorry to hear about Janice trauma you went through. Hope someday you will findout the truth about her...
But whatever you do, I and most people here likes you forever and would love to be your friend!!!

Hugggggggggggggggzzzzz...Take care!!

Sudeep said...

i have met so many ppl thro blogs who just went away one day n i didnt have the opportunity even to say bye n tk care... it hurts somewhere ofcourse

I dont know why but i see a post of urs saying tht Janice is back..

Kumar Chetan said...

Girlfrends and net pals come with an expiry date. I am trying to tell myself that I wasnt in love infact there wasnt anything called love,duh, silly me.

ari4u said...

>>U must be one of those friends that need no effort to be a friend to. HUGGGGGGGGGGGZ Im touched.
:) hug back to you..


Anyways thanks a ton for the 2 beautiful songs for me...u r soooo sweeet!
No problem :) Check my blog for more, i updated the playlist.

Suji said...

Hey Kesh! Don't worry, hopefully you will find out about Janice some day. My philosophy is 'Tomorrow is another day'. Take care. Hugs.

Orikinla Osinachi. said...

Nature girl,
Have you ever thought of publishing a selection of your best posts?

Your thoughts could be in demand in hard copies offline.

Let the living waters of your soul continue to flow.
Let the winds of your spirit continue to blow.
And let your genius continue to grow.

Keep walking tall baby.

God bless.

Maya Cassis said...

"Sometimes I wish I was not this ultra-sensitive...it's really irritating you know. I wish I could just go on with life like most people do...you know, have a heart of rock-solid matter".

somehow it feels like you have just described me.I get so hurt since I am ultra-sensitive too.i try to be rock hard but I feel like I am suffocating myself if I don't let me tears come out naturally.sometimes I really hate myself for being so 'weak'.I just don't know how to be stronger...if you learn how to please educate me too

Keshi said...

~~Terry

I missed ya missy HUGGGGGGGZ WB!

**but most folks, including me don't have solid hearts.

true...but some can just move on easily...and I cant seem to do that. That's my weakness I guess.

Thanks for all ur kind words...they lift my spirits up. Thank u so much!






~~Lil_Kath

we can lay down on snow all day if Sudeep's with us providing us coffee etc na...Sudeep ur coming with us?






~~Anup.777

yes Anup ur spot on...knowing what happened is quite important ... as i wasn't there with her/ for her when it happened...thats so true and its that part that's crying inside of me wanting to know what happened to Jan..cos I need closure too if I can get to it.






~~Contented

WB I missed u! I think I told u that already na :)

yes I hope I find out what happened with Jan b4 it's too long...thanks so much for ur kind words mate. ur so dear to my heart.






~~Sudeep

** it hurts somewhere ofcourse

sure does ha...

u see a post of Jan's return? wow thanks for even feeling that way...HUGGGGGGZ!






~~Kumar_Chetan

**am trying to tell myself that I wasnt in love infact there wasnt anything called love

There is something called LOVE no doubt. Im sure u felt LOVE if not for GF, right? So yeah there is LOVE - its just that there r some ppl who dunno what real LOVE is...






~~Ari4u

HUGGGGGGGGGZ Ari! :)






~~Suji

Thanks Suji HUGGGGGGGGZ!






~~Orikinla_Osinachi

heyyyyyy hows u Bonny Island hunk? :)

**Have you ever thought of publishing a selection of your best posts?

nah hehe...who wud want my silly thoughts to be published lol!






~~Maya_Casis

**i try to be rock hard but I feel like I am suffocating myself if I don't let me tears come out naturally.

Spot on Maya I feel the same way! If I dun cry or grieve then Im doing injustice to myself...so I have to shed the tears...grieve the grief. I just have to. Im not sure whether it's a weakness altogether...sometimes u've got to show ur emotions w.o. being afraid of looking sappy...never be afraid to feel what u feel...

Huggggggggz Maya!

Keshi.

cheesemeister said...

I have trouble bonding with people because I don't like the horrible emptiness when it ends. That's why I tend to keep most of my contacts superficial. This may make me sound shallow but I'm really not. It's a protective mechanism.

Keshi said...

Meister I kno wwut u mean...it's so hard when the memories haunt.

** It's a protective mechanism.

I know...its not cos u r cold, it's cos ur quite the oppositte.

huggggggggggz!
Keshi.