Calling Mr.Right...Hearing Mr.Wrong!

The men I meet, boy oh boy! How come all the other girls have cool guys as their boyfreinds and I somehow get attracted to jerks? Like Linny's latest post stated, I strongly believe I have genes that get me attracted to jerks/losers. Yep let's blame it on the genes. At the beginning he's really cool and very interesting to hang around with. But very soon he'll demonstrate the fact that my genes wont and don't change - they have got me attracted to just another jerk. Trrrrrrring trrrrrrring...woooooooosh - out the door!

Well, what is it that makes you get attracted to someone initially? For me t's the looks...no matter what people say, looks are important for first impressions. I like a guy to be smartly and neatly dressed (not overly neat cos I really would like him to be straight..), I would want him to be decently clean (not stinky as hell that would make me wanna run 871 miles - boy that would be good for my waisteline though..), I would want him to have a cute and honest smile (not a fake one just to find someone to do his laundry or to listen to his snores..) and I would want him to have some sex appeal (now that's really important isnt it?). Well all of these factors are there in most of the guys I meet, but sooner or later he would show that he's either a Momma's boy or Mr.Wrong from Dumbdudeland or jealous and selfish Mr.Know-it-all or Prince Not-so-charming-with-no-manners or Mr.Im-too-simple-and-I-love-Scratching, or Chain-smoking gingivitis speciman or an About-to-become-murder-victim - btw Im the murderer. That don't impress me much..ah ah ahhh...lol! They say love is blind but you certainly can't be blind to all of that can you?

Maybe Im quite unlucky in the Romance Department cos no matter how romantic or what-not I can be, the guy ends up being a jerk. You may think I'm the real loser - well in a way yes cos I don't seem to find my man so easily...but Im not the one who's not impressing them - cos while they are highly impressed with me, they never impress me. Not that I'm playing hard-to-get either, they just simply turn me off. The fact that he's good-looking, has a zillion dollars in his bank, has a new convertible Porche or that he has a posh house with a pool and spa don't impress me - please get real crazy man! Somehow I must admit that I did know few great guys for a while, and that's just before they turned jerky. Yeah, so where are all the great guys? They say either they are married or are gay, so then when is it my turn to bump into my man or is it that he has already turned gay? Please don't say 'Keshi your man will come along at the right time'...like I said before, either he's on a sleeping pill overdose (most probably dead by now) or he wasnt born at all. And please don't say 'Keshi there is a soul mate for everyone and he will come on horseback just for you'...either his horse is brain-dead that it doesnt know how to get here or he's gone somewhere else and happily married, with kids going to kindy by now - oh I give up!

A close friend asked me if I think we are able to be happy without having a partner...my answer is YES...I'm quite happy right now, although it would be good if a man existed in my life. But That's not the only Happiness in life..being happy is totally upto you...it doesnt come from any external source...it's within you and happiness is what you define it to be, and it's a constant vigil one must maintain. But I sure would like to get into a beautiful bridal dress and take nice romantic photos even if there's no marriage after that lol! And yeah...they say Men are from Mars...my man sure is still in Mars not knowing where Earth is - poor guy. Didnt I say I have some special genes that attract me to Martians, well that's why he's still there. What about you, what initial qualities impress you and how easily do they all fall apart after a while? And do you honestly think a Mr./Miss.Right exists or we just have to mould one out of a Mr./Miss.Wrong no matter how pathetic they initially are?