Today is the day Keshi came out of her mother's womb saying 'Let me out! Let me out!'. Aha, yes it's my birthday :). My mum said I was a big baby (8 pounds) and with lots and lots of hair (kesh, get it?), and apparently I came out screaming 'Amma!' which means 'Mother' in my culture. LOL I'm not joking there and apparently the nurses were very puzzled and had asked my mum 'How come this baby came out saying 'Ammaaaaa' when all other babies come out just crying??'. Silly nurses didn't know my 'crying' was to come later on in my life hehe. Anyways, the best b'days I ever had was when my dad was around. He always made it very special...just the way I wanted it to be. He never missed on getting me a pretty dress or shoes or books that I loved. I used to invite my school-mates for a party at home and have some fun too. But it was special cos he was there. After my dad died (after my 15th b'day), I never really celebrated my b'day. Cos nothing really mattered anymore. The true essence of life and death started crawling into my mind. I realised that what needs to be celebrated is LIFE itself...not just b'days. My 16th b'day was spent in tears cos it was just few months after my dad died. And the subsequent b'days up until recent was spent doing nothing flashy...just cake and dinner/lunch with family and friends - small cosy gatherings at home, few charities here and there. My family and friends threw parties for me, but I never really 'celebrated' my b'day for me. I never celebrate myself...I celebrate LIFE.
What are b'days? To me, it's just another day. What are we 'celebrating' here? In my opinion, we should really celebrate, not how many years we have lived on this Earth, but how much LIFE we put into each day that we get to live here. Over the years I have only realised how fragile life is and cos of that, EVERY SINGLE DAY should be celebrated, not just our b'days. Live life to the fullest everyday, open your eyes and see more than you're programmed to see, listen to the cries of the unheard, convey the messages to your loved-ones without delay, be a voice for the unspoken deeds, do the things you must do and put in your best efforts to it, reach out to someone before you wish you had, compliment more than insult, seek the similarities and appreciate the differences, spread love by demonstrating it - not just by words, and live one day at a time. After all, nothing is worth celebrating if we can't recognise how short Life really can be and what a big difference a single Day can make. It's about how much Life you put into one day. It's in the small things you do everyday...it's the simple things that give great joy and true rewards to you. Although at times I fail miserably as a humanbeing. I'm yet to see, hear, speak, do and learn alot in this life...and I hope to do my best by living to the fullest, and one day at a time. Cos 'learning' doesn't end until the day we die.
Below is a little verse I wrote just now for the Life that I was given...for the Life that somehow keeps me going. She is a treacherous Path fated for Keshi, sprinkled with Mysteries to be unravelled and hidden Love to be embraced at the end of the day...
In these shoes that you have walked
Over the years and over the hills
Of love and tears and glory
Nothing compares to you..
PS: My darling cuz Renu in NZ woke me up at 6am today just to wish me...then the calls/txts started comig one after the other, like my phone was some Hotline! Then my mum gave me a Camcoder as her pressie. How sweet, but yeah what a waste of money - I'm not so much into expensive gifts but they always do this. So that's gonna be my new toy for the next few months ;-). And just now I got a huge bouquet of about 20 long-stemmed roses (light pink, cream and blood-red) from Roses-Only along with chocolates, delivered to my office! It was from my sis awwww...I'll take pics and put them up in the next post ok. I'm loving the pretty roses, o man I'm stoked to nanobits! My office mate D went to the door to pick it up and I heard a big 'OMG!' at the door lol! And he came back with the huge box and placed it on my desk saying HAPPY BIRTHDAY Keshi, as if he's giving it to me *rolling eyes*. My office team cut a cake for me y'day, and my mum is planning a small party for me and her (her b'day is on the 28th of June) on Sat. So yeah, we are gonna dance the whole day like Dance-bug bitten zombies! For life is too short and we've gotta enjoy every moment we have been GIVEN to the fullest!
You guys are the best part of my Life, cos without you, I wouldn't be Keshi. Without your wisdom and support every single day of my life, I wouldn't have the candles (light) on my cake (in my heart). And who is gonna read all the long posts I write here except you, and still love me for who I am? :) So thanks for being here for me and please know that I LOVE YA lots! btw when you leave a comment in this post, please leave your b'days too...cos I can't remember 300 blog b'days unless I'm Wonder-woman with a RAM of about 900GB? lol! I wanna keep this post's comment section as a future b'day reference, so that I can wish ya all on time. Thanks guys MWAH! And don't forget to put more Life into your day. This is one of my fav songs and one of dad's favs too - reminds me of the few truly beautiful years I had with him. Enjoy, tata!
Current Music: Brown Eyed Girl by Van Morrison