Monday, June 1

On A Blanket With My Baby...

You may think I'm a girl with a million friends. You may think I have no time for a single friend. You may think I have no time to love. You may think I have appointments that run over 24hrs. You may think I wear plastic smiles. You may think I have no heart. You may think I don't know how to care. You may think I never tried. You may think I'm insensitive. You may think I'm not all that I appear to be. You may think I'm not worthy of your smiles. You may think I'm just a waste of time.


But for me, FRIEND is a very precious term. Sometimes I have the whole world laughing with me but at other times I weep alone. Sometimes I have a bunch of friends chatting with me, and at other times it's just me and the beach...


There's something that I think alot of people here need to comprehend. Just cos I have many commentors in my blog, it doesn't mean I'm cheap, shallow or don't carry any depth when it comes to friendships. Some old friends don't even stop by now. Oh well, I may have a 100 readers per post but not all 100 are my FRIENDS, neither do I email each and everyone, neither do I have the time for it! If you notice from day 1, I never put my email addy on my profile. There must be a reason for that. If I was crazy about collecting 100s of 'friends' just to be popular, then I'd have given my email addy to everyone and advertised myself all over. Actually, only a handful of people from the net have my email addy with them and if you have it, then you are someone I trust. Alot of people find it very easy to judge me, I don't care anymore. No matter what you do, people will always judge you. You turn left, they will judge you. You turn right, they will judge you. You stand still, they will judge you! I really can't sit here and get affected by what each and everyone thinks about me. I know that I have tried keeping in touch with some people here...people I thought were worth my time and energy. But just cos they couldn't keep in touch with me and took their own sweet time to get back to me, that doesn't mean I'm gonna have to cop the blame and should be thought of as someone who doesn't have time for her FRIENDS? I have my limits, self-respect and dignity too. After a certain amount of time trying to contact someone and if they don't come back after a certain time, it's not my nature to go after them again and again. Cos now its YOUR turn to respond. Some people have a zilch sense of AKNOWLEDGEMENT, and that is such a poor quality to have. You may be well-educated, rich, goodlooking etc etc but if you can't and don't know how to respond to someone, then you haven't reached your potential yet. What stuns me is how these same people so conveniently turn around their mistakes on me, and paint me with a specific image as to being shallow, selfish, egoistic etc just cos they didn't have the courtesy to respond. This is Blogville...if and when you leave Blogville on a long break, I believe you should atleast let your friends know that you won't be around for awhile. That way they don't have to keep thinking what happened to you etc. If you suddenly disappear and ignore all your friends' messages for months and months, and then suddenly turn up one day, please atleast be kind to the people who were worried about you and tried numerous times to find out what happened to you. Blaming them for your absence and for your lack of response is not quite the fair way to go about it.


I believe that a FRIEND don't come around and blame you, especially when they are petty issues. A true FRIEND would appreciate you even more when they return. I guess it takes alot more than these petty finger-pointing and grudge-carrying in public, to become a FRIEND. I'm a girl with a set of values, and I don't trade those values for anything in the world. Actually I'm too old to engage in these silly teenagerish arguments on the net! :) If you think I'm not worth your time, well good for you. Cos I think the same about you. I'm over it, I hope you are too. Even if I had to be without a single FRIEND, I know I will survive. And those countless assumptions you make about me, infact tell me alot about you yourself. I don't believe in net friends anymore, like I used to. I have blogged long enough to know that many people are here just to vent out their frustrations, for some quick attention and 15mins of fame, and to display their egos. Only very few are genuine and I think they are enough for me to get by with. Now I'm just here to write my feelings out, share knoweldge and to learn. Im not here so much for the FRIENDSHIP thingy...it's all so fake. I'm so over those days when I went behind people and begged for their friendships or begged for their approval of me. I learnt this place is not the place for forming solid bonds. Maybe bonds based on Writing and that's about it. So please don't expect me to fall at your feet, check your every new blog that you create every few days, soothe your ego, leave you a million blog messages, email you 200 times and be your forever-friend. Cos I can't. I'm not a person like that neither do I have the time for it. I'm human too and I have my own set of standards. If they dont suit you, well feel free to forget me. I'm not the perfect friend that you want me to be. I'm full of imperfections and yes I make alot of wrong decisions...so it's best you chuck away someone as 'insignificant' as I am from your superior life. And please
don't expect from others what you can't be to others.


It's the first day of Winter and I miss the beach so very much! This is one of my fav songs from one of my fav movies ever (Beaches). When every tree is sleeping, when everyone seems so distant, I always had one friend beside me...and that's the Beach...

(btw the very first pic in this post was taken by a friend of mine in a beach here in Aus...isnt that a lovely shot!)


Under the boardwalk, down by the sea...
On a blanket with my baby, is where I'll be...


I wanna dedicate this post to some of my oldest friends here who never judged me but sailed along with me in style and calm composure (years and years of unaffected bonds. If I met you just 2yrs ago, your name won't be here, so please don't be disappointed). They accepted me just the way I am, like I accepted them just the way they are. They are Shionge, Beach_Bum, Cazzie, Phoso, Krys, Murane, Jay, Asha, Nora, Donn, Silvara, Menchie, Steve, Loon_gal, Coco, Uttara, Ria, Vesty, Margie, Amit, Jeevan, Saffy, Ishita and Dawny. TY for being who you are and ty for not forgetting me! People like you make me realise everything that I CAN be.


Current Music: Under The Boardwalk by Bette Midler

205 Cranium Signets:

Hemanth Potluri said...

me first :P.

urs..hemu..

Arv said...

You got that absolutely right da :)

do take care.. keep smiling lotus :)

cheers...

Hemanth Potluri said...

lovely post sweets....every word is true from the heart....


**You may think

who is the you....u generalized everyone..


**FRIEND is a very precious term.

beautifully said :)..

**, it doesn't mean I'm cheap, shallow or don't carry any depth when it comes to friendships

no one is thinking that and i dont want u to say that again..

** Alot of people find it very easy to judge me, I don't care anymore

when they dont deserve then u should not never care their words...

**if and when you leave Blogville on a long break, I believe you should atleast let your friends know that you won't be around for awhile.

i did always put a notice ahead...twice i dint do it and i know u were so angry on me when i returned i could not never forget the angry mail...


**please atleast be kind to the people who were worried about you and tried numerous times to find out what happened to you

i always respond to the mails i get ...and give them the reason of my absence but i dont want them to be hurt because of my rudeness if i am in a pissed of situation...

**Even if I had to be without a single FRIEND, I know I will survive

everyone will survive but frnds do share lot of love and caring :)...

**people are here just to vent out their frustrations, for some quick attention and 15mins of fame, and to display their egos

hope i am not one of them ...

**And please don't expect from others what you can't be to others.

yeah thats true ...we should never expect anything..unless we do it ourself...

lovely dedication for ur oldest friends...soo sweet of u and i am happy u have them always with u to hold ur hand..:)....


i just loved to read the entire thing...u poured ur feeling's and heart totally into the words...i just realized something i should be doing..thanks for that to...

urs..hemu..

Hobo ........ ........ ........ said...

He who love himself/herself will surely love others. And Keshi - The dearest love Keshi.
Claps for you dear.

Silvara said...

My darling Kesharooni,

Ever since I stumbled by your blog and was introduced to the world of blogging by your inspiration I have respected and admired you :)

(LOL - feel like Mr.Darcy pouring out his love for Elizabeth :P)

You're truly one of a kind and I feel blessed to be your friend :)

Be happy always Kesh :)

Silvara

tulipspeaks said...

Keshi,

Blog readers are not be confused with friends. I learned it well over the years. It's hard to identify a friend, Keshi. It's even harder nowadays with the emergence of Internet. All we see here are words. Yes, sometimes I see expression conveyed through words but I wonder if the expression is true.

That is why I am now keeping my private thoughts really private..

It helps.

:-)


ammu.

WarmSunshine said...

Hi Keshi

I've been thinking as I read this post... I've been absent from your place as well.... I hope you didn't mean me *goes red*

*goes really really red*

Other than that, how are you doing? The shot was lovely!

Rakesh said...

Yup, Agree completely Keshi, People will judge you left right and centre... So it's best to be the way you are... It's best to be real!

Cheers!

muthu said...

hmhm..

thats a post that carried a lot of feelings...

hmhm...

keshi, you know what I think - Like ideas, friends are the a bit over-rated. (thats is most of the times.)

I mean u get mails and messages saying that, mail this to your frds and if you get more than what u send then u have a lot of people 2 care abt you as frds.

I think that such gimmicks are actually the act of the human mind that finds itself lost in the jargon of everyday and suddenly realizes, that it has no body to share itself with.

And the obsession with numbers is the worst part of it.

You know something...

I told my first story to my sister. Wrote my first 1 to my sister. Just her. Not many people listened to what i narrate nor did many really read what I write. But she was all ears and She alone made me a story teller I am today.

You do not need frds in large numbers, jus one would do- if he knows you as you are and still loves you..

Like once i tweeted-

A friend is 1 who has d patience 2 listen 2 every shit tat u did & d heart- love u even more after hearing & give u space 2 do more shit :P

I have had my failings as i learnt along the way. whom to trust and whom not to.

I believe evry1 want a frd, and I believe that i can be one to anyone but when it comes to trusting people I get choosy.

When I dont call 4 a while and people call me to ask me whats happened, I feel honored.

from your words, i see a lot of disappointment.. as if you are addressing this post to some1.

I hope they read this and get to know how u feel. And I really think... people should not change for others and I think you are doing the right thing in letting go. And yeah I can understand that we cannot do things that dont agree with what we are (set of principles)

And yeah, not only in blog ville but you will find people everywhere 4 their 15 min of fame or to vent out what they think.

So there are no exceptions.

After all humans are a failed species- You see the more we live, the more problems we discover within ourselves and evrything else- Quote by muthu :P(thats me)

So I think that people when go though failings get mature.. and getting mature is good.(helps make good decisions- like getting married.. :P:P:P). as long as you can retain the childishness of ur original self in your heart.


So as awkward as it may sound, congrats on your good frds as well as the ones who did not quite make it.. coz they are the ones who made you who you are today...

:):):)


cheers.

BSK said...

A friend in the real world is worth two in the Interweb.
- Karthik B.S.

Well said, Keshi. Accepting people as they are is important in building a friendship.

BSK said...

And that beach snap is awesome.

Rakesh Vanamali said...

Its better best to be who you are from deep within!

As for me, I have no friends or enemies...... there are people I know and there are ones that I dont!

Keshi said...

Hemanth hey :)

Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty Arv!

Thats why I dun get too close to ppl on the net anymore. It often becomes and obligation and thats what I wanna AVOID!

keshi.

Keshi said...

ty Hemz!

u can be assured this post isnt abt u :)

For me to write a whole post on something, it has to be some serious accusations hehe...so yeah, u r not involved in this at all. So chill.



**no one is thinking that and i dont want u to say that again

u arent thinking like that abt me, I know. But some ppl r. What amazes me is that these ppl were once my great friends.


ty for ur encouragement! TC Hemz :)


Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty Hobo!

And I so agree. They may call me big-headed etc etc but yeah I believe in and love myself alot. Or else I wudnt hv arrived at where I am today.


Keshi.

Keshi said...

Hey Silvara ty my luv!

Now I sound like Shakepeare lol!



**Kesharooni

wow I love that nic...sounds like macaroni!!! :):)


Me too...I love ur honesty and ur transparency. There's nothing to hide in ya..u r just YOU! u dun hide ur true feelings with heavy poems or stories..u just get out there and speak the truth. Thats the best thing abt ya babe!


Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty Ammu!


**Blog readers are not be confused with friends

I know that and thats why I wrote this post. Cos alot of ppl seem to think that all these ppl here r my FRIENDS and that I chat/email them 24/7. *rolling eyes*



**Yes, sometimes I see expression conveyed through words but I wonder if the expression is true

I agree but that doesnt mean that all words we write here r untrue. A major part of us lives in our blogs, thru our words.

But its the friendships..the r'ships that Im weary of now. ppl r not always what they seem to be.


ty Ammu!


Keshi.

Keshi said...

lol Sunshine_girl no ways, its not abt u!

Its abt some old ties...

TC luv! And hey Im good :) ty and urself?

Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty Rakesh!

**So it's best to be the way you are... It's best to be real!


yes :) This is me..take me as I am or leave.


Thats how I always lived.


Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty Muthu!

I think u got the clear picture of this post, and for that Im glad :)


**You do not need frds in large numbers, jus one would do- if he knows you as you are and still loves you..

Spot on! But alot of ppl seem to think I hv a million FRIENDS. Its so funny lol!


And ur right...I may know alot of ppl but I trust only a very few.


Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty BSK! :)


**Accepting people as they are is important in building a friendship.

yep. If each one of us try to see ourselves in others, then we'll be living a very boring life :)

ppl r different and as long as they dun hurt ya, we need to learn to accept them and love them for who they r.


Keshi.

Cяystal said...

Sigh.. I've been feeling similar Kesh.. and its just the same sunken feeling. The whole conclusion is..there actually are people who're genuinely concerned, and are FRIENDS. Maybe I'm not in your list, but surely, I do love you. So take care..=)

Keshi said...

ty Rakesh!

**As for me, I have no friends or enemies...... there are people I know and there are ones that I dont

I so agree.

Rem my last post where I said I dun hv a single best/true friend. Everyone is a friend at some point in time and we dun hv to expect too much from ppl...cos we ourselves cant ALWAYS be there for others.

Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty Crystal!

**The whole conclusion is..there actually are people who're genuinely concerned, and are FRIENDS

for sure! I know that very well...and thats why I dedicated this to the ppl who never faltered or failed over the years.

And even tho I only met u recently, I know that u truly care...and I care abt u too Crystal. HUGS!


Keshi.

Ramya said...

I have made some of the best of friends thru blogsville and personally I will always be grateful for that.
Also I think u are a very genuine person at heart who gives importance to people no matter what - and that's what I appreciate most about you.

Keshi said...

ty Ramya!

** think u are a very genuine person at heart who gives importance to people no matter what - and that's what I appreciate most about you


*HUGZ*


Its amazing that the very friends I dedicated so much time and efforts on now see me as otherwise. I guess to each his own :)

tnxx alot!


Keshi.

Enigma said...

Aww Keshi, its really sweet to know that u care so much... I can undertsnd ur feelings.. I too mail all my friends and keeps the communication going, but sometimes i feel so frustrated wen no one responds for so long and then they give me comments like I'm married, am a mom, have to juggle two kids, job and all..well its not like i'm jobless and have all the time in the world...i make time to write to all in between work at office and all...

Talking To My Soul said...

Hmmmmm...When did I meet you? Has it been two years? Well.. I'm just trying not to get disappointed.

Relax. Just kidding, Kesh.

As I keep saying a friend who leaves you midway was never a friend to begin with.

I believe a friend is going to be your friend always. No matter what. Some days, (s)he may not show up, sometimes (s)he may appear to have gone but return (s)he will. Like Sri Aurabindo says if you are thinking of someone, you are with that person. So you know.

*smilez*

Keshi said...

Enigma I so know what u mean. When they need some time off, we respect that. But when we need some time off, they never u'stand that...and is never even there to find out whats happening with us!

Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty Soul!

**When did I meet you? Has it been two years? Well.. I'm just trying not to get disappointed.

aww...u hv become a very dear friend to me, in this quite lonely life of mine. but I said 2yrs cos it takes alot of TIME for real friendships to be tested. I dun mean ur friendship will die (it very well may, who knows) but the ppl I mentioned here hv always been with me thru thick n thin...eversince I started blogging. they never questioned my personality or my words or actions. They took me just the way I am and made me a part of them. For that, Im grateful!


**if you are thinking of someone, you are with that person. So you know.

I agree. we may draw borders but the mind wont stop us from thinking abt one another.

Good one!


Keshi.

Margie said...

Dear Keshi
I will NEVER, EVER forget u & I will always be ur friend!


Love always!

Margie

- Sugar Cube - said...

Hmm well I've just begun reading your blog & I think you are a good person at heart ..pretty much reflects in your posts

Yes , people we get to know or talk to online are not our Friends.In fact its very difficult to make friends online as it demands much more than an actual friendship does.
Its good for you to have realized who your friends are and who not.

Enjoy.Stay the way you are :)

Whitesnake said...

you watered me lamps.......

Pass the tissues.....

Gonna be here for a long time yet girl...


Thank you princess .......xx

Whitesnake said...

NOW.where ya keep the beer?

Talking To My Soul said...

Let's see what dies and what stays alive, Kesh. This is a brief life.


*smilez*

Ria said...

Perfect!! :) I like ur attitude gurl. Over a period of time i hav realised tht there's no point in trying to please everyone coz u cant no matter how much u try.

And i m so happy tht u trust me, coz i hav ur mail id. :P ;) I m sure u knw tht we share a connection which is so unique and i am proud of tht hun!! :)

And u also know tht u always hav me as a confidente no matter wht u want to say, u can always drop a mail. Although u dont do tht, coz i knw u r a very strong gurl!!i hav learnt a lot from u sweets and i admire u for the person u r. :)

Nora said...

I miss the beach too - and I miss you, friend!

[Thank you for the shout out - I needed it. I will stay by your side from here-on-in, just as you stayed my mine. Promise.] x

Nora

ash89 said...

Keshi...I've learnt that one needs to be very careful with net friends. I think its important not to get attached to them. I've been hurt a couple of times cuz of this.

Cazzie!!! said...

Keshi, I love you for you. You are an amazing person, you are a "normal" person, you have feelings, desires and passion...and that makes you one awesome cocktail of fun!
Lots of huggs, and I am honored to be able to share in your life and your stories here :)

SMM said...

Hey i hope it wasn't me your talking about cuz I haven't been dropping by as frequently as I'd like to :(

on a diffreent note, for me a friend is someone I'd have o trust and share stuff with and be able to connect with. On a general blog hopping basis and infrequent comments, I wonder how many we actually connect with on such basis.

That said, there are also some with whom we connect instantly just on the first interaction.

I hope you consider me one of your blog friends, cuz I certainly do :)

Nachi said...

Oye! yes, i love you too...

:)

MultiMenon said...

BANG ON sissy.. :)

I have reasons to cheer..thanks a lot.. :D t means quite a lot to me,reading this post has had that refurbishing effect on ma mind which was not cruising for I dunno how long since..?? :( :)

Nikhil

Priya Joyce said...

That's taking things in the right perspective :)

net friends..real friends personal life...love all

matters...but we gotto take things in the right perspective....

Dad tells me this every tym i get disheartened coz of other people
U r on the rite path ...i need to get there soon :)

cheers to life
:)

Priya Joyce said...

sometimes it's like getting tired of justifying and proving how much we love a person....
It's to to difficult too.

Priya said...

Can't agree more with ya Keshi. Friendship- from ace to face, thru' friends and from the net makes it all different. Some tend to be too god and real friendly and to some its just a passing time. Just be choosy and stick to real good people who you believe Keshi. Coz pl' wait to gossip and backstab even as friends. Well it never happened to me, but ppl' are animals at times u know.

Cess said...

true true true double triple true! Not everyone can be reliable and we can t waste of energy to try to make friends with everyone on the internet, gladly there is still few worth it :)
hope u re doing great sweetie :)
tc
C.

Adisha said...

I guess in the end it's all about keeping expectations and not wanting to match up yourself when the time comes. Some people just know what they want but when the time comes to do something themselves they just back out ...

There's a LOT I would LIke to say about this post of yours, but then I think most of it would be agreeing with and saying my version which would be too cumbersome :)

Babes, I know people can be hurtful and stupid and mean and spiteful. They know only how to take and expect but not to give and return. So , keep as you are and enjoy the friends you've stood by you through thick and thin!!!! The rest will just come and go with time , like tides at the ocean ... Don't justify , don't change, don't even bother thinking about those people who try pulling you down to their level ...

I for one have never met you, don't know you, and love everything about you ... :) Just an admirer, so Do NOT get me wrong here :))

Cheers,
adisha

La vida Loca said...

Agreeing w/ you...

You kinda sound angry though! Hope you are ok.

pisku said...

Very thoughtful.
But to be honest, i've never come to terms with online friendships. I've been around for a little over five years now but don't really know if someone would call me friend in blogsville

Jeevan said...

Who is perfect in this world, and it only remains in our views and thoughts.
None can judge anyone just by there looks alone, and I keep this in mind every time I come across people. If we came to a term of doubting, then everything comes under this way. We can listen to someone, but that’s not mean we accept everything he says; only unless we closely associate with them we can try to appreciate.

I always leave a word to say am I off to blogging, because it bothers me much, like how I feel someone is off from blogging across their limits. It was so nice having you keshi, and today I am happy to know that I am one among your trusties. When I came to blogging I was like a dump personality, but I could never forget this place (blogging) get me realize who am I.

Like how it was beach to you, for me its birds, breeze, trees belong to nature because it has something interesting for us always to refresh.

Jay said...

"Oldest" friends? As in your saying I'm OLD???? LOL ;-)

Yes, I've been stalking you .. uh ... we've been friends for a long time. You were one of the very first bloggers that I "met" here in the bloggerhood. And we're both still here!

ItAteMyBrain said...

That was brilliant. A very good read but what made u research this suddenly?

Tarun said...

*Maybe bonds based on Writing and that's about it.*

I agree ... well u were always patient enough to read and comment on my cricket post.

By the way those posts are something I always wish to write but dont expect for all to read, I dont care if someone doestn't, writing cricket posts is a hobby.

Everyone does at some point in time run behind others for their approval but most realize it is not worth it.

I personally feel there is no relation between people's education and behaviour, I have seen educated people act in most bizzare way.

Friendship is something which cannot be explained. All I understand of friendship is, it a phase in ur life.Rest of things can be left to time/fate or whatever.

The weather is awful here. :(

Mayz said...

keshi keshi keshi...my dear dear pretty lil angel...we all love u...n those who r not able to understand u well their loss...

n keshi true love is in d mirror...so temme wat do u c...coz i see a confident self assured totally hot chick who knows exactly wat she wants in life n whr is she gonna get it from...

you have ur heart in d right place, for d right ppl...so keep showerin ur love whr it matters

muuuuuuuuaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhh!!!

Phoenix said...

*hugs*

i have been reading you for quite sometime now so i know the ordeal you have been through... i fail to understand why people judge you no really i mean this... whenever you have commented on my blog i have felt nothing but warmth and love... and that is in no way fake.. i say it again.. its ur friends' loss not yours...

lots of love
raka

krystyna said...

"No matter what you do, people will always judge you. You turn left, they will judge you. You turn right, they will judge you. You stand still, they will judge you! "*****
That's right. It is very important to be counscious about that, and never take someone's opinion to the heart and to the head. Opinions are always subjective and changeable.
Keshi, your posts are always inspiring, thoughts-provocative, supportive in our daily troubles,
sometimes full of good humor, sometimes tear-jerker.
You are definitely the Queen in aur Blogville, (as I told you few months ago).
You write from your heart.

Keshi,
you are certainly my very important and lovely friend in our Blogville!

Diya said...

Ummm... Is this post intended to hit back at something or someone? Sorry if I shouldent have asked. :)
What I loved here is ppl should learn to care about other people's feelings mucch before they expect others to care for them. isn't it?
Keshi as ever. :)
Cheers girl. :)

Diya said...

The first pic is really nice. :)

akanksha said...

I almost agree to everything there!
There is a difference between virtual and real and people around here need to understand and respect it.

Hmmmmm and I guess I started reading ur posts around a year and a half back so my name wasnt there...:( Glad u mentioned the 2year thing ;) so it didn't bother me much as i wasn't meeting the eligibility criterion!

But one thing is for sure, I do consider u as one of the honest bloggers around who have the courage to speak their minds.Your posts are inspiring and you are one of the few people whom I can connect to instantly.

When I first visited your blog and saw the number of comments on each post,I was apprehensive about whether u'd visit me or not...But u did and I was so happy about that.

Another thing I'd like to mention here is Please dont let all these incidents affect you...Your readers who know you wont judge u at all.

Take care and keep writing :)
>:D<

rayshma said...

oh it's been a while since i heard this song... love it! :)

loved the shot ur friend's taken. i love beaches too... SO miss them now...

as far as friends are concerned... quality matters SO much more than quantity. and it's all the more difficult to get to know ppl these days. the smaller the world becomes, the more difficult it gets!

Rajeev R said...

we looked for frenship on net...long back when internet was a novelty...and chatrooms..a phenomenon. You are right about it....
And ofcourse, Friends are not made....they become an integral part, and u know..they are ur fren.

Ofcourse, and getting many comments makes your writing popular...and one can't judge your character.....through that~!

Whoever thinks that.....

And I loved the beach pix, and I start wishing there were a beach in Delhi....or maybe, Yamuna were cleaner, and we could seat by it...lol...its no more a river...but a narrow drainage....


Keep writing....
Let different people form different opinion...take the path which suits u....this is the only life...live it the way you want...blog it the way you want...shrug/shoulder it the way u want...


Keep Smiling, Stay beautiful...

P.S. BTW, your post reminded me of PentaGram in some ways. I am a vociferous reader....I need material to read...anything comprehendible.....so keep giving me my food....

I like the way you cook it.... :-P


Raj

Beach Bum said...

No matter what you do, people will always judge you. You turn left, they will judge you. You turn right, they will judge you. You stand still, they will judge you!

Ain't that the truth! I have that at work and sadly at home quite a bit. Its really funny when I hear about someone passing judgement on me when they often do the very same thing they fault me as doing.

After a certain amount of time trying to contact someone and if they don't come back after a certain time, it's not my nature to go after them again and again.

I use to do the same thing much closer to home. Often I would be very puzzled over how I would try to build an important, at least to me, relationship or friendship with someone with them only using me while I was useful and forgetting about me after my usefuliness was over. I've gotten to the point now that I distance myself from people to the point some say I'm a snob.

They accepted me just the way I am, like I accepted them just the way they are.

I just want to return the feelings. Keshi, you are a remarkable woman on so many levels that trying to pinpoint just a few would not be fair. From my observations you are a rare person who is activily seeking truth and beauty in a world of shallow people only looking for the answers they want. I hate to get to deep but you are not only looking for answers in life but you are not scared of the questions, which again makes you are special person.

Keshi said...

hey Margie u dun even hv to tell me that, I just KNOW it :)

*HUGZ*

Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty Sugar!


**In fact its very difficult to make friends online as it demands much more than an actual friendship does.

ur right. ppl start EXPECTING from u, what even they can't provide to others. It becomes an obligation and then u hv to be prepared to take the blame too!


Im not gonna go down that path again. I've had enough of blogmates trying to PERFECT me to suit their needs, when they themselves cant stand straight. Im done :) This is me..this is who I am. If u cant take it as it is, leave.

Thats what I live by now.


Keshi.

Suresh Kumar said...

A nice post... thought provoking one....

let's stop judging and assuming about people at least in the blog world and just be friends.

And yes when someone goes off the blog without saying something for months, it leaves u worried until they return...

Keshi said...

Stevo hey!

I'll send u some Smiley tissues...d u shop at Cardiology? :)

Keshi.

Keshi said...

hey Soul!


**Let's see what dies and what stays alive, Kesh. This is a brief life.

I know. And in that brief life, so many ppl point fingers at others when they themselves need to take a good look at themselves.


I know ur a genuine friend. Im just scared that if I lay too much expectations on ya and if one day u too throw it all and walk away (like some ppl did), that I'd hv to write another post like this! *lolz*


Keshi.

Keshi said...

aww ty Ria! :)


**Although u dont do tht, coz i knw u r a very strong gurl!

yep u got that right! all the OLD FRIENDS that I hv mentioned in this post r not ppl who ALWAYS EMAIL ME, CALL ME or even VISIT ME IN MY BLOG.

ppl need to get that right. Just cos someone visits u all the time or leave msgs for ya or emails ya, that doesnt mean there's a GREAT FRIENDSHIP there.

The ppl I mentioned here never had anything to complain abt me. I hv alot of flaws but they still accepted me just the way I am w.o. judging me or trying to correct me. Thats what make them special. Over all these years, they saw me just the way I am and liked it too. Its very rare that someone accepts u just the way u r w.o. their massive egos playing a part.


*HUGZ*


Keshi.

Hemanth Potluri said...

**For me to write a whole post on something, it has to be some serious accusations hehe...so yeah, u r not involved in this at all. So chill.

serious...:P...now u can smile ..its over na :)....i am chilling in this tupid hot climate lol :P...


**u arent thinking like that abt me, I know. But some ppl r. What amazes me is that these ppl were once my great friends.

hahah ...then they were never ur friends in the first place...a person who comments abt a gr8 frnd does not have the right to have any friend ...

**ty for ur encouragement!

well i should thank u for the post...:)....


good morning sweets :)...

urs..hemu..

Keshi said...

MWAH Nora!

I so miss the beach! It's too damn cold to even stand out in the balcony these days :(


**I will stay by your side from here-on-in, just as you stayed my mine.

u dun even hv to promise. u were always there, both in body and spirit. u may not always comment in my blog or email me all the time, but my Instincts tells me who u r...ur a true FRIEND.


*HUGZ*

Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty Ash!

** I think its important not to get attached to them.

I know. Im not attached to anyone on the net :) Im glad abt that!

The ppl I mentioned in this post r friends who r not crazy abt me, but r there somehow. I feel their PRESENCE even when they r not ard.


Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty Caz n same goes to ya!

**You are an amazing person, you are a "normal" person,

it takes alot to be NORMAL these days lol!

btw ur email doesnt work anymore?
:(


*HUGZ*


Keshi.

Keshi said...

hey SMM u sure r a great friend! This was not abt u at all. So relax :)



**On a general blog hopping basis and infrequent comments, I wonder how many we actually connect with on such basis.

I so agree! The ppl I dedicated this post to are not ppl who always comment here or email me. But I know they r there for me...I can sense their genuineness. I know I can TRUST them.


*HUGZ*

Keshi.

Keshi said...

hey Nachi ;-)

*HUGZ*

Keshi.

Keshi said...

o thats good to know Nikhil :)

Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty Joyce!


yes its best u gather ur own standards so ppl dun walk all over u, just cos ur always there for them. Alot of ppl on the net take u for granted. u gotta draw a line somewhere.


**sometimes it's like getting tired of justifying and proving how much we love a person....

Spot on! Im sick of it now. Why do I even hv to explain myself to ppl who dun give 2 hoots abt me!


Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty Priya!

u r one of those great friends too. I always had u in my mind and felt ur presence. u never had bad things to say abt others.



** Just be choosy and stick to real good people who you believe

I agree. And thats what Im doing now. Previously I tried to accommodate too many ppl into my life. I just cant do that anymore. Cos I realise that most ppl r ANIMALS after all..just like u said!


Keshi.

Keshi said...

Cess yes, very few r worth it. :)


The problem with the Internet is ppl can so conveninetly find excuses for their bad habits and even dismiss u from their lives with a single click.


Keshi.

Keshi said...

aww ty Adisha!

**They know only how to take and expect but not to give and return

I so agree. Its all abt TAKING but I cant see any GIVING!


Im not justifying anything to anyone...I just want some ppl here to know that Im not here to be walked all over. This is ME...take or leave. :)


*HUGZ*

Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty Lavida!

yes Im very angry...I hv the right to be angry. Cos all these ppl who act as if their angels brought down from Heaven, r the worst lot. They go ard as if nothing affects them but they r the devils deep inside. Just cos they dun speak their minds in their blogs, that doesnt mean they r so beautiful and pure.


Im always weary of ppl who r way too polite and well-mannered on the outside. Often its the RUDEST person who is HONEST. Sometimes offense is where the TRUTH is.


I laugh out loud reading their blogs LOL!


Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty Pisku!


**But to be honest, i've never come to terms with online friendships

with me, I dun look for too much in a friendship. There needn't be any 'requirements' to be a FRIEND. ppl who expect too much can never make friends.

:)


Keshi.

Keshi said...

hey ty Jeevan!

u hv one of the purest hearts I hv ever come across in my life so far!


**None can judge anyone just by there looks alone, and I keep this in mind every time I come across people

I agree. u know some ppl think that Im here to 'advertise' myself. I just cant u'stand what that wud be for or wut I'd gain from it all.

Just cos they dun hv many readers in their blogs, it isnt really MY fault.


I know u love Nature Jeevan, cos ur 'naturally' real ;-)


Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty Jay!

**Oldest" friends? As in your saying I'm OLD????

lol I didnt mean that matey..in that case, I'd be quite OLD too ;-)


yes, we r still here...part of the reason is we stalked each other over the years LOL!


*HUGZ*


Keshi.

Keshi said...

hey IAMB ty!


**A very good read but what made u research this suddenly?

real-life experiences :)


Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty Tarun!

I read ur long Cricket posts cos u read my long long Drama posts lol!

If I seeked a person just like me, then I'd never make any friends. :)



**I personally feel there is no relation between people's education and behaviour, I have seen educated people act in most bizzare way

Spot on! I hv seen so-called scholars in Blogville behave like poor lil F-graders.


Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty Mayz!

I do know that really care. but ur a NEW friends...lets see how it all goes ;-)



**coz i see a confident self assured totally hot chick who knows exactly wat she wants in life n whr is she gonna get it from...

gee tnxx! :)


Keshi.

Keshi said...

aww ty Phoenix!

** i fail to understand why people judge you no really i mean this... whenever you have commented on my blog i have felt nothing but warmth and love

Thats cos humans ALWAYS judge. It's an inherent habit of all humans :)


u do good to them, they will judge. u do bad to them, they will judge. u do nothing at all, they will still judge!

So I might as well do nothing and be neutral :) Let em keep judging!


Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty Krys MWAH!


**That's right. It is very important to be counscious about that, and never take someone's opinion to the heart and to the head. Opinions are always subjective and changeable.


Well-said! Thats why Im still here...amidst so many accusations, judgements and name-calling, Im stil here in Blogville. I didnt run away. Cos I dun bloody care abt their insecurities.


Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty Diya!

u need to click n enlarge that pic to see the real beauty of it..its just awesome! :)



**What I loved here is ppl should learn to care about other people's feelings mucch before they expect others to care for them. isn't it?

so so true! They say I dunno how to CARE but looks as if they r the ones who need to learn to care first!


Keshi.

Keshi said...

aww ty Akanksha!

**Glad u mentioned the 2year thing ;) so it didn't bother me much as i wasn't meeting the eligibility criterion!

LOL HUGS! plz dun be sad that ur name isnt in this post. Just cos it didnt make it to this post, that doesnt make u less of a FRIEND. u r all in my heart, always! I hv met some awesome NEW friends like u too. Im just giving them time.

I only dedicated this post to some very old friends in blogville...ones that I made from day 1...so yeah, alot of NEW names r not here. I hope u u'stand :) tnxx!



**When I first visited your blog and saw the number of comments on each post,I was apprehensive about whether u'd visit me or not...But u did and I was so happy about that.


Im glad u mentioned that, cos some ppl try to tell me what I CANT be, and try to put me down. Im glad that ppl like u r telling me what I CAN be and r making me feel happy. It shows ur a positive person that emphasises on someone's GOODNESS.

TY n HUGZ!


Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty Raysh ur comments r always some of the best!


**quality matters SO much more than quantity. and it's all the more difficult to get to know ppl these days. the smaller the world becomes, the more difficult it gets

I so agree. ppl seem to live in an illusion that suggests that more emails, more msgs, more meetings, more comments mean more friendships. I dun think so!


Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty Rajeev!

ur absolutely right there! daily chats, meetings, comments, msgs dun directly relate to a solid friendship. Its all a farce.


My true friends dun even write to me regulary or meet me that often...but I just know that they r there somehow. I feel their PRESENCE even in their ABSENCE. Thats what friends r!



**or maybe, Yamuna were cleaner, and we could seat by it

LOL good one!


TY for ur encouragement, I will keep ur advice in mind :)


Keshi.

Keshi said...

gee tnxx BB!

Altho I dun deserve all that praise *u know Im full of flaws*, I do know that u truly care abt me :) Thats all that matters to me. tho we dun talk all the time, u r there for me and I feel that strongly.



**Often I would be very puzzled over how I would try to build an important, at least to me, relationship or friendship with someone with them only using me while I was useful and forgetting about me after my usefuliness was over

me too! I went out of my way begging for some ppl's friendship. Now when I look at all that, I feel ashamed of myself. I must hv been very desperate :)


Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty Suresh!

no we can NEVER stop others from judging us. Its just inherent to so many humans. All we can do is just be ourselves no matter what.


Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty Hemz!

**then they were never ur friends in the first place...

I so agree! I've had enough of all these public accusations as if Im some kinda murderer lol!

some ppl need to get a life.

Keshi.

Hemanth Potluri said...

**I so agree! I've had enough of all these public accusations as if Im some kinda murderer lol!

some ppl need to get a life.


lol i hope not the serial murderer from some movie heheh :P....let them be sweets they really dont need some attention and mostly the time of ours :)..and yeah were is my gud mornin :P...

urs..hemu..

Keshi said...

yeah and I aint some Attention-provider either lol!

GOOD MORNING HEMZ! :)

Keshi.

Devika said...

The title had me thinking something else, Keshi! :)

Blogville friends....they are a strange world to me, still....Not you or not all....but as a group, sometimes I feel so....and from others I get the feeling that I am the most absurd of all...so it all evens out for now :))

and perhaps as time moves on we all will understand each other more! :)

wishes
devika

Keshi said...

hey Devika yeah the title is misleading :)

But what I meant by it was that I always hv the beach as my FRIEND...and some FRIENDS who r just like that beach...no judgements, but just being beside me all along. Thats who I dedicated this post to.


**and from others I get the feeling that I am the most absurd of all

ur not alone. Some ppl hv made me feel that way too. But its ok. We r all absurd in our own ways. But we hv our goodness in us too. And its the goodness that we need to focus on.


*HUGZ* ur wonderful just the way u r!


Keshi.

Keshi said...

And Devika, it takes a bigger person to accept that they r indeed absurd. :) So u did well!

Cos alot of ppl just act as if they r perfect lil creations of God. They need a reality check.


Keshi.

Gigi said...

Thanks Keshi for always leaving inspiring comments on my blog.I hope to see you again.

Devika said...

Thanks for the smile, my dear Keshi :)

If friends too start making conditions....where are we going to be ourselves....then its better off being alone! :)

But sometimes, I also felt if someone really advised what I should be doing for the good of all/ or a good majority....I mean in the blogworld...in the other world I have never been that confused!

then finally I decided...i will be what I am! :)

Love,
devika

V. Archana said...

hi Keshi,

Nice write.
Tc!

rahul said...

Well,I guess someone who turns up and says you didn't visit my ego..and you are this and that is certainly worth being a friend!!!

♥ÐÅyÐяєÅмє®♥ said...

hmmmmmm

serious issue....

can't stop laughing though

:D

Keshi said...

ty Gigi! :)

Keshi.

Keshi said...

hey Devika!

**then finally I decided...i will be what I am

good on ya! :)

Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty Archana!

Keshi.

Keshi said...

I so know wut u mean Rahul!

u didnt come to my new blog, u didnt say Hi, u didnt reply, u didnt call, u didnt this, u didnt that yadda yadda yadda!


*rolling eyes*


Keshi.

Keshi said...

Bro wut r ya laffing at?

Keshi.

Donn Coppens said...

You will always be my Keshiroo..the one and only.

We pretty much hit it off from the getgo didn't we?

:) I guess that we'll be together forever in the cyberworld.

Chriz said...

i remember all the relationships i have had. and i am left with a smile now..

have lost friends down the lane..
have gained many too..

rich in experience now..

and yea! i didnt get emotional in the post.. just told people not to get emotional and crib in the comment section.. asked everyone to write the positive funny take on their sad times..

:P

♥ÐÅyÐяєÅмє®♥ said...

Laffing at the fact...

that u lectured me about the readers thingy ..u gave a similar one to ayushi and still i see n+1th post in ur blog about this issue....

don't take me otherwise....but too much shouting

"I don't care"

makes me wonder

" Is she saying it indirectly that she cares ???"

Btw

I missed reading my name....

does it says 'I judged u before' ?????

Keshi said...

We did Donn! ;-)

*HUGZ* n ty for being u!

Keshi.

Keshi said...

Chriz yes I agree, rich in experience, but Im yet to reach that richness ;-)

Keshi.

Keshi said...

Bro Im quite disappointed at ur comment! WOW I never thought u wud just scoop up some assumptions abt me, just like that.

So u think this is the same issue as Crystal's post? NO its not. u very well know what this post is abt, yet u AVOIDED commenting abt it, cos u just wanted to be on the SAFE side? WOW Im impressed.




**don't take me otherwise....but too much shouting
"I don't care"
makes me wonder
" Is she saying it indirectly that she cares ???"


My blog is abt MY feelings. HONEST feelings. When someone blames me for no reason, Im not gonna just PRETEND that I don't CARE, cos I DO CARE.

u may be able to go abt it as if u dun care, but bro, Im the one who was at the receiving end of it all. So u clearly hv no idea how I feel.

u r basically being very insensitive, prejudiced and simply judgemental.


TNXX!

Keshi.

Keshi said...

And Bro if u dunno what Im talking abt or if u r pretending u dunno what this post is abt, plz atleast stop judging my feelings.

I know its a joke for u etc. But its not a joke for me. Cos I know how hard I tried to reach the person Im talking abt in this post. Now its all a big fat joke for all of u. But not for me.

Simply, dun laff at the expense of another's feelings. u hv no idea how I feel right now cos ur not in my shoes r u?



Keshi.

♥ÐÅyÐяєÅмє®♥ said...

Makes me wonder

what if I said

sissy u r so right I so agree...


Anyways...
**talking about the last line**

I guess u are right about me

Now I know why I am not in the list :)

Keshi said...

**sissy u r so right I so agree...

who asked u to say IM RIGHT? Why d u and ur group of friends always suggest that Im self-righteous? Is this some kind of new attack on me?

Plz bro thats the last thing I thought u wud say! Im shocked.

I didnt want u to AGREE with me on this post. The least u cud do was LAUGH at me.


Keshi.

Keshi said...

**Now I know why I am not in the list

God there u go again!

How many times do I hv to tell ppl this is abt my OLD friends? were u here 5yrs ago? Did u know me then?


Well to be honest, it doesnt look like u know me at all! Cos ur accusing me of being self-righteous, that Im disturbed by ppl's actions etc etc w.o. atleast trying to u'stand where Im coming from. I think it's really unfair!

When u were hurting, when ur so-called friends were all against ya, rem I didnt TAKE SIDES. Neither did I say UR RIGHT. I was just there for ya. Guess I cant expect that from everyone!


No worries. And tnxx for ur time!

Keshi.

♥ÐÅyÐяєÅмє®♥ said...

who is laffing at ur feeling :O

**looks here and there**

not me at least....

wow

u have known me for more than a year now...I guess u still need time to accept what brothers are for...

brothers are not for being a name in circle..it is about showing what's wrong and what to rectify...

anyways...I tried my part ..it is all on u to accept and mend...and as usual u r not a kid to be forced...

rest I am quite happy with the titles u gave to me....felt very wonderful with the bro...made it complete I guess... :)

love n carez

♥ÐÅyÐяєÅмє®♥ said...

Now u say....

I am attacking u with 'my group' of frnds....

so what should I do with this accusation

laugh or sue u ????

Keshi said...

**brothers are not for being a name in circle..it is about showing what's wrong and what to rectify...


why am I always wrong in ur eyes? I hv the answer to that too. cos all the probs I've had in blogville so far is with ur friends. So, u really didnt wanna SEE my side of the story. Instead u sat on the fence.


The brother bit is fine but that doesnt mean u hv to always treat me like I hv no say in my own struggles. u just dun hear me out. Instead u shut me off.


Keshi.

Keshi said...

Bro let me say something..u dun need to agree with my every post..if thats the impression u hv abt me after a year of knowing me, then Im truly disappointed. I guess u will never know me then.

And thats all I was saying.

Keshi.

♥ÐÅyÐяєÅмє®♥ said...

I m sorry I tried to be a brother....

and yeah I know I don't know u for five years....

makes me wrong ..I know that too... :)

take care


and yeah

me and My group of frnds are trying to malign ur image...ohh Btw I was not on their side...i was the mastermind....

happy ????

take care....

Margie said...

My dear friend, Keshi
I just read your comment on my blog.
I don't know when I will be coming back but if I do I shall let you know.

I miss you, but you are just a thought away!

HUGGGGGGGZ!

Margie

Keshi said...

ty Margie HUGS! :)

Miss ya too!

Keshi.

Keshi said...

Bro read ur own comments...ur the one who said u were laffing at this post and my actions.

Instead did u even try and read the post, and try to u'stand where I was coming from? NO. U just jumped into the conclusion


'this is yet another post of Keshi where she's blabbering w.o. making any sense. And she goes on advising others yet cannot act upon it herself, so lets just laff'


Well thats the impression ur very first comment gave me. And I felt very small by ur words..as if u didnt care how I was feeling...and I felt as if u didnt respect the feelings behind this post at all.


But thats ok. I hv stopped depending on net friends to u'stand my feelings or for any respect. I hv long lost that desire.



Keshi.

♥ÐÅyÐяєÅмє®♥ said...

Good...

but U did heights today... U blamed me that I m playing games with u....I will remember it throughout my life....

ohh btw..I remember when I said sumthing about ur frnd Sneha...and u bashed me taking her side....and soon after u realising who was real wrong.... did i blamed u for taking sides.... ?????

ohhh ! of course I can't coz u r the good one and I m the bad one always....



ahhh anyways....

Keshi said...

Simply put bro, it seems u dont know me at all. 'Brothers' dun just sit and watch their sisters getting attacked and laughed at. Neither do they take sides or think their sisters r ALWAYS wrong.

So its really no point taking this argument any further.

Im always wrong. And all the ppl I whine abt in this blog are always right.

Lets just stop it there. Cos that wud make alot of ppl happy.

Im off to the beach now!

Keshi.

Keshi said...

**I will remember it throughout my life....


aha ;-) good for u...now u hv something that u can never forget and that was brought upon by KESHI hehe...


**and soon after u realising who was real wrong.... did i blamed u for taking sides..

I didnt take her side bro! I only told ya that it was really wrong of u to attack her openly in my blog. u were very RUDE with ur comments to her that day, right?


Nevertheless, is that why u r taking revenge on me now? :) u can do better than me hehe.


Keshi.

Talking To My Soul said...

Heyyy darling,

You wont have to write a post on me or because of me. You can rest assured on that count.


Take care and keep smiling.


*smilez*

Keshi said...

awwww Soul did u call me DARLING? This must be one of the happiest days of my life! ;-)

*HUGZ*

Keshi.

♥ÐÅyÐяєÅмє®♥ said...

Ohh btw if u happen to get back to those old frnds who are now ur enemy...and allegedly my group of frnds...of which I am sure u r talking about cindy...who is sure my good frnd...and rest i even don't know who :P

Just ask them???

which point of time....I was unconcerned about u.....

anyways...cool off in the beach..I will take a smoke break

♥ÐÅyÐяєÅмє®♥ said...

revenge ..blame....

now u made me laugh for sure :D

go and take a dip sis..u r getting paranoid :D

Keshi said...

Bleh! ;-)

Bro no need to ask anyone. I can sense alot of things. I dun depend on words of anyone. I believe in my Instincts.

u take a good break. I need one too. Anyways, no hard feelings. I just poured out my heart to ya, as usual.


TC
Keshi.

♥ÐÅyÐяєÅмє®♥ said...

sometimes blindly trusting brothers isn't that harmful.... :D

so don't use ur instincts abt me..the only one thing people know abt me from their instincts is that they need to apply their basic instincts :P

and u r my sissy :P
u don't do that :P

Keshi said...

Bro sometimes all ppl need is a HUG...not a sentence of correction :)

Keshi.

Keshi said...

**basic instincts

thats all I've got anyways :)

Keshi.

anits said...

hi keshi..i drop by to say HI ... im quite busy..wil b back once im done wit my work k?tcare n hv fun!

ishipishi said...

hey kesh...haven't been catching up on blogs for quite a while now! who the hell disappointed u here...? must've been sumone u gave a lot of urself too or else u wouldn't be so upset...sigh...just take care kesh and letting off steam is good but don't let it linger :)

we're flying off on 4th early mornin, so crazily busy with all the last minute stuff...i think I sent u an email (?) ... let me know if u got that or did I forget in all this chaos at home...quite likely to do so! I put in a quick post in my blog but I hope to update more exciting stuff while I'm on vacation :)

u tk care and stay smiling... :)

((((hugggzzz)))

Meghaa said...

fantabulous post and true people always have time to judge you but they don't have time to respond :)

Cess said...

not only on the internet u know, before internet i do remember when i was going 3 weeks on holidays with a group of people to learn english, we were like sooo good friends during the trip and promise to stay friends and keep in touch, then we all went back to our habits, u keep in touch the first month maybe and then the number of letters are decreasing and decreasing, it s like all distance relationship, some people are good at it, some not soo good i m trying to find excuse, but i m not a big fan of long distance relationship (and i m not even talkin about love long distance relationship cz it s even worst) but i have the feeling that u ll never know someone truly till u live or at least go on holidays or spend some time with. Some people are going to internet at a point in their life when they need it, they might get some friends here but then when this person does not need internet, will leave for good and let some people down which is not fair for the people but what can u do... no need to waste ur time on it, need to move, i guess there is things more important or valuable to take care of than waiting for someone to come back... not everyone is worth it... it makes ur character or at least mine stronger :) but it s just my point of view anyway.
C.

Kido said...

Just be happy, dear :)

Tarun said...

I never read for verve, versatility and fun.

I perceive a great sense of Panache in and around you. Suave and stylish.

I enjoy and at times get over awed reading what u blog.

Friends or no friends we do try and make it a point to read thru each others posts.

:D

Friendship must stand the test of time.Or else it would be just one of the things that happened.

AmitL said...

Hi,Keshi-that was quite touching!And,you know I don't need to say'I understand',coz I naturally get the point you're making!:)
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Yes,people do have a tendency to judge others-maybe it gives them a kind of odd pleasure to pass judgement,maybe it makes them feel superior and boosts their ego..I gave up trying to understand that,quite some time ago..what I realized is,you just need to let your inner sense say'I'm where I am,and I'm comfortable'- then,the outside negative energies are not able to penetrate within one's mind and I remain at peace!(And,the judgement passers also feel happy with themselves..LOL)
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I mean,I agree-everyone has his or her own troubles,but,criticizing others without reason is no way to get rid of such troubles,is it?Sighhh!!And,that's where my inspirations blog comes in!!The first person I want to inspire is me,myself.Others read it and get inspired,great-I'm happy.If not,people are always free to find their own inspirations,right?:)
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Have a lovely weekend,friend!:)

иidhi S said...

Hey, sweetie, wats wrong ... ???//
look, dont be upset about such people because the best you can do about them is jut to ignore them. If someone doesnot care for you, you too dunt have to give a damn about them. And sweetie people are there to talk shit, cos hat their only job, i personally feel, they dont have much to do in their lives, rather dunn have a life altogether, and their idea of living life is to poke around in others lives no matter what. So, just chill and be as good as you always have been.
Smile at the world, no matter what they give you in return, coz your smiles will make your happier and foes jealous, that you dnt give a single care to their shit n crap. :)

Margie said...

Hey,Keshi
Oh gosh, I wrote a long comment & then lost it.
I have made a decision.
I am going to be here, as much as I can reading ur blog & commenting.
I miss u too much to not be here.
You are a true friend I have made in Blogville, & I need to stay connected to u via ur blog.

I do not know if I shall go back to blogging again but I shall be here...ok!

"You are important to me
You bring value
into my life! "
Oh, it won't be long now till my baby girl (when did she grow up so quickly?) will be getting married.

Got to go as my knee is very sore & I must rest.

HUGGGGGGGGZ!

Margie

Keshi said...

hey Anits no worries :)

take ur time.

Keshi.

Keshi said...

Ishiiiiiii! :)

ur right...I wont just write a post for the heck of it. I'll only write one if someone I dedicated alot of my time and energy on dissed me for no reason.

Anyways u TC and hv a great trip ok! Im excited for ya!

Keshi.

Keshi said...

Hi Meghaa!

**people always have time to judge you but they don't have time to respond

Spot on! ppl just come ard accusing me of things that I DIDNT do...in that process they forget the very things that they COULDNT do.


Keshi.

Keshi said...

Cess ty sweetie!

I u'stand what u mean. Even real-life friendships r hard to maintain, so long-distance/Internet friendships hv very lil scope of survival and genuinity.


But thats not even what I meant from this post. I hv long gotten over old friends that dun stop by anymore. Im so over it. trust me when I say that :). But this post was abt a friend who suddenly disappeared w.o. any notice, and despite all my msgs for months in their blog, now comes back all of a sudden and accuses me of being 'self-righteous' and giving too much imp to my self! I cudnt believe WTH they were talking abt. With no gratitude whatsoever for the countless times I left msgs for them, is this what I get in return? It hurts alot when ppl I trusted do things like that. It just makes me feel that where I put my 'money' on the net, is all very wrong :)

And it seems like a never-ending ordeal on the Internet. ppl come ard, promise me the world, I give my all to them and then one fine day they suddenly decide Im not fit to be their friend anymore..for no fault of mine...go figure!


Im so done with immature ppl like that. I dun wanna trust anybody here. This place has now become only an avenue for me to write my feelings out...not to make any friendships or to trust anyone anymore. Now it just makes me wanna puke ya know :)



Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty Kido Im happy...But some ppl seem to be unhappy with me. :) It's time they stop trying to fix me and start fixing themselves.

Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty Tarun u make alot of sense!


**Friendship must stand the test of time.Or else it would be just one of the things that happened.


Exactly what I mean by this post. Thats why I dedicated this post to my OLD friends...friends I met here long time ago and ones who never left my side.


u r one of them too...one TRUE friend. I know u r not here for the BLOG-comment thingy. u r here for real.


TY!

Keshi.

The Phosgene Kid said...

ummm...rough day?? Just thinking about you...

Keshi said...

ty Amit!

I dedicated this post to u too :) That AMIT is u.


**you just need to let your inner sense say'I'm where I am,and I'm comfortable'- then,the outside negative energies are not able to penetrate within one's mind and I remain at peace


I really like what u said there Amit. Thats exactly whay Im practising too. I dont need to change. If ppl r unhappy with me, they can go fly a kite. LOL!


but I do write posts to express how I feel abt it all. Keeping quiet abt it doesnt necessarily mean Maturity either :)

tnxx alot for ur great advice Amit!


Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty Nidhi!

** If someone doesnot care for you, you too dunt have to give a damn about them.

very well-said!

But writing my feelings out has always been a quality of me. I dun hide any feelings. I tell it like it is. And for doing that, some ppl may think Im affected by it all. I still dun care, cos I know that writing abt it and being affected abt it r 2 different things :)

tnxx for ur sweet encouragement!

*HUGZ*


Keshi.

Keshi said...

Margie hey u dun even hv to tell me any of that..I just know that u CARE! :) *HUGZ*

Thats the difference between u and some others. I can feel ur PRESENCE even when ur not here. And some others who finger-point at me, even when they r here I dun feel any presence at all.


Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty Phoso!

all i needed to hear was something like that...

*HUGZ*

Keshi.

Margie said...

Ok then, Keshi, I knew that u knew it but, I just had to tell you as it's been so long since I have been around.

Remember a real friend walks in when the rest of the world walks out!

Have a wonderful day & if you see Diego give him a "wink" for me!

Lotsa HUGGGGGGGGZ!

Margie:)

Keshi said...

hey Margie :)

**Remember a real friend walks in when the rest of the world walks out

yes and ur that kind of friend. No doubt abt that.


*HUGZ* get well soon!

Keshi.

Shachi said...

Hiya...read the post couple times now....

Well-written! Me and most others reading your blog can see that you wear your heart on your sleeve and pour out ur emotions here....it wud be like therapy to u, right?

please keep doing that....coz its GOOD for u.

Friends will come and go....some people will stay, some will leave, some will agree, others will disagree....

It's good to have emotions and feel hurt/sad when someone u trust breaks that very bond of trust u build, but these experiences are what makes each of us stronger.

About internet friends, I am not yet biased or judgemental. I have not been around as much as you....but for example, I know I can trust you when I need to. I know what kind of a person you are and what your values are. I know I can be a good friend and listener. And I have met amazing people online - they inspire me everyday and grow me....sometimes more than what my "friends" in person do.

It's not important for us to agree on everything, but it's important to disagree and still respect each others' opinion.

I hope I made sense :)

Do keep writing!

Keshi said...

Hey Shachi ty!

u made VERY GOOD sense there!

Thats exactly what I mean too. we dun hv to always comment on each other's every post, neither do we hv to agree all the time and neither do we hv to KIT every single day. True friends dun need 'requirements' to survive. They dun need to justify each others' actions or non-actions in order to keep the friendship alive.


All the ppl I mentioned in this post (the dedication) r not ppl who r ALWAYS in touch with me. But somehow I feel their genuineness across the oceans. That quality dun belong to everyone on the net.

I may hv met u just recently, but I know I can trust u more than some of my old so-called friends here :)

HUGS!

Keshi.

Coco said...

thank YOU!!
thank you for being a friend...
thank YOU for being there for me...

Hugs & Blessings

Hemanth Potluri said...

gud mornin sweets :)..hoz the sunshine today :)..

urs..hemu..

Eternally Curious said...

"Don't expect from others what you can't be to others." Brilliant! I am serious. Positively brilliant! As is this post, by the way. You have attained what I am still seeking to attain. Yes even as old as I've (somehow) gotten to be! You have attained self-assurance and independence. I could learn a lot from you!

!Teq-uila Del Zapata said...

once again u have written a wonderful post and all ur thoughts about keeping in touch with friends reflect my own attitude towards friendship.
Infact, i take too much pain to be in touch, but not everyone is like me, LOL!

Shionge said...

I love you just the way you are too Keshi and I have every reason to visit Down Under now ;)

Thank you so much for embracing friendship with me Keshi Sweetie :D

Kulpreet said...

Friendship rocks! I feel frinds are unconditionally yours. If not, they are not friends.
BTW, Srilankans have got rid of terrorism. I am very happy.
But the Aussies haven't been behaving with our Indian boys very well. Need a kick, I guess. And a hard one. Have you been a victim of racial discrimination? I haven't been, frankly. But I don't travel beyond India very often.

uttara said...

hi keshi..

how r u?? ishi told me u were kinda upset on ur post.. so just dropped by to check if everything was okay?

who betrayed you or tried acting funnny? as i always say u draw ur line n not allow ppl to trespass simple rule :)

let the tide settle mail me when free

huggz
tc
uttara

Vest said...

Thank you fair maiden for your generous compliment,xxxxx.

The ideals which have always shone before me and filled me with the joy of living are goodness, beauty and truth. To make a goal of comfort and happiness has never appealed to me; a system of ethics built on this basis would be sufficient only for the likes of a herd of cattle.

Tarun said...

U mean I am real in this virtual world?

ROFL

:D

Keshi said...

Coco hey thank YOU! :)

Keshi.

Keshi said...

Im good Hemz ty and urself?

Keshi.

Keshi said...

EC hey tnxx alot! :)

**You have attained self-assurance and independence

yes..in alot more ways than a blog post cud tell hehe...

*HUGZ*

Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty Anuz!

**Infact, i take too much pain to be in touch, but not everyone is like me

haha me too! And that habit in me kinda backfires on me :(

Im not gonna KIT anymore...wud that help? ;-)

Keshi.

comfortably numb said...

and once again u speak for so many of us out here:)
sailing the crests and the troughs together with the same zest is all what's friendship is about!!!
relax dear...glad you let it out, am sure u wud be feeling much better now:)
now tell me the latest about Diego:D

Keshi said...

Shionge u just rock, w.o. me hvn to say that! ;-)

*HUGZ*

Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty Kulz and ur right...UNCONDITIONAL is the word.


**But the Aussies haven't been behaving with our Indian boys very well. Need a kick, I guess. And a hard one. Have you been a victim of racial discrimination?


never. I dun blame just one RACE or one COUNTRY for Racism. Communities arent racist Kulz, INDIVIDUALS r.


Im speaking with experience here...I hv lived in Aus for so long and I know that if ur good to ppl, so will they be good to u...and that applies to anywhere in the world :)

Keshi.

Keshi said...

hey Uttsy so nice to see ya! :)

Missed n missed ya. Hows life?


**as i always say u draw ur line n not allow ppl to trespass simple rule

hehe I know..u always tell me that. I think I go overboard when making friends on the net...I guess I should draw the line now.

ty sweetie! will email u later.


Keshi.

Keshi said...

Well-said Vesty the besty! ;-)


I really like how u put it. THE BEST, as always!


Keshi.

Keshi said...

hey Tarun!

**u mean I am real in this virtual world?

yes u r :) REAL humanbeing with a head n a heart, behind that nic Tarun hehe.


Keshi.

Keshi said...

aww ty CN!

omg I hv some news abt Diego or wut! but u'd hv to wait til I get some time to write it all n post :(


Keshi.

rahul said...

Hey keshi, could you give some updates regarding the protest by Indian students in Australia...and have you urself faced any acts of racial discrimination.
Thankx..tk care!!

Keshi said...

Hey Rahul!

It's all happening in Melbourne. Far far away from where I live.

However I read the news and thats all I know. That its a race-based crime.


Race-based crimes, don’t just judge the perpetrator, unfortunately it judges the culture and entire community.

I always believed that communities arent racist, only individuals. And thats all I hv to say.


Whoever who acts upon RACE, CREED, CASTE and RELIGION, ought to be ashamed of themselves.


And u asked if I hv ever faced Racism in Aus. NO.

Keshi.

Keshi said...

But I also know that the current times are financially challenging to many Aussies and there is a huge hype abt overseas (Indian/Sri Lankan/Asian etc) students coming over here and taking up Aussie jobs. So I guess there's alot of tension there. And some ppl give into these thoughts and attack others. I guess thats the reason.

But Racism exists everywhere in the world, not just in Aus.


Keshi.

Tarun said...

I confess the nic is ture, the same spelling is there in my colllege id too ...

rahul said...

Thankx a lot for your reply..ya I guess this could be a by product of recession...and it's wrong to judge a country by some isolated incidents but the fact that the Australian govt. hasn't done much about it is getting on our nerves!!

Menchie said...

Hi Keshi! Am taking a short break from breastfeeding the baby! Thank you for this. And you know I love right? So everything turned out ok though I have to admit there was a big scare when I gave birth unexpectedly. Will blog about what happened soon when I have more time. I just realized how powerful friends' prayers and well wishes can be! take care sweetie!

!Teq-uila Del Zapata said...

its totally upto you,
See, i wont change my self, i would try to keep in touch, thats my nature.
If they are jerks its their nature not mine.

иidhi S said...

(((Hugzzz Back))) :*

AmitL said...

Hi,Keshi-I did guess that I was one of the people mentioned!:)Quite an honour!
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*but I do write posts to express how I feel abt it all. Keeping quiet abt it doesnt necessarily mean Maturity either :)**

Of course-keeping quiet just means that you've got something boiling inside and it could burst out anytime!!A blog's a much better place to express oneself!Keep up the great work!:)

Keshi said...

o really? Thats more real now! @Tarun :)

Keshi.

Keshi said...

hey Rahul :)

**but the fact that the Australian govt. hasn't done much about it is getting on our nerves!!


not that they r doing NOTHING abt it. The problem just emerged. Give them some time to come up with something to protect overseas students.

If we really look at own govts, just look at how long they hv taken to solve our own probs Rahul! :)


Keshi.

Keshi said...

Menchie OMG u ok? HUGZ! So nice to see ya bak in good health. do TC luv! And my kisses to baby Lucia!

I eagerly awit that post. MWAH!

Keshi.

Keshi said...

hey Anuz!

** i wont change my self, i would try to keep in touch, thats my nature.

well I tried that for yonks. And if they treat me bak like Im some kinda bimbo, I dun think I should go behind them again.


There's a very thin line between being a caring friend and being a total idiot.

:)

Keshi.

Keshi said...

aww Nidhi :)

Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty for u'standing Amit!

ppl tell me not to write abt negative feelings cos it kinda tells the world that Im indeed 'affected' by these ppl. well thats not the truth. its abt expressing my feelings...and that doesnt necessarily mean Im affected :)


Keshi.

!Teq-uila Del Zapata said...

bimbo?
LOL, you know that is like, WTF.
I laugh on such people. u see if they are not in touch its their lose not mine.
I am too valuable to worry on such shait!