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A HNT of a different kind. Find me right in all the pics and I will give you a wicked pressie ;-)
This is a home for my heart...a distant refuge for my spirit, away from the madding crowd and the masquerades that we live. This is where everything is unveiled and nothing is compromised.




Posted by Keshi at 1:49 pm 102 Cranium Signets
I want a sabbatical for my broken heart. A break from being broken. So for a change, should I start breaking hearts now? Right now my heart is broken beyond repair and no surgeon can fix it. The world is too fast to stop by and ask you if
you're doing ok. They might attend your funeral but they never check on you when you're alive. What's the point? But I'm not afraid to admit I'm broken, lonely and that sometimes I cry. Cos it tells me I have a heart. And I cried buckets last night. Am I the only one?
Current Music: I Wanna Know What Love Is by Foreigner
Posted by Keshi at 9:43 am 127 Cranium Signets
Ok you are not going to believe what I'm about to say. Cos even I can't believe that this really happened...I still can't and I won't be able to for a very long time. My life sure is full of dramas and I think it's worth putting it up on the Guinness Book. OMG I can't even believe I'm writing this today! I can hear you saying 'cut the crap Keshi and get to the point'. Ok let me take a deep breath now!! So I spill em now:
completely in shock that we drove past the same church that G was having her wedding!! I just can't believe that (I just can't cant' can't can't can't can't ever believe that!). Out of all the roads in Sydney, all the suburbs, all the places, all the churches, we had to go past the place where G was having her wedding?? I swear I didn't even know where her church ceremony or the reception was (come to think of it, I know G loved this area and now it isn't so much of a surprise she chose that area). However I had no idea that we'd be driving down that same street!
So we finally reached the cafe (in total disbelief and in joy at the same time), had a good 2 hours by the beach sipping coffee and talking about life and it's strange ways...went home and told my mum about what we saw on the way...she nearly fainted LOL! Anyways all's well that ends well. Did the angels drive S's car that day? Can someone give me an explanation to the shocking co-incidence that happened on Saturday? Cos I still can't believe what I saw. It's been a while since I felt that excited about something totally unexpected happening and I was chuckling the whole day at the marvel of it all. I will be sending G a card to wish her well, as well as to let her know I just happened to walk by. That day I was just a stranger down the street but I knew that bride so well. Life sure is strange and the surprises it has for you is totally UNREAL! I believe in angels and miracles. I really do.Posted by Keshi at 11:12 am 146 Cranium Signets
~~Crappily Ever After~~
A question for you:
What do you think is the world's worst invention- the crappiest ever?
My Answer:
Man-made WEAPONS. It serves only one purpose...for harming another being be it for self-defense or not. Would you need a gun if you have a conscience?
Apart from weapons, there are few other crappy inventions such as Revolving-doors that make me bang my head sometimes (why can't we just use a normal door?), Clothes-driers that waste energy when the sun can do that for us, Soup cos it never fills me as it's supposed to (here the problem could just be my greed), Paris Hilton cos she's Paris Hilton ('you should live everyday like it's your birthday', a Paris Hilton quote FYI) , Keyboard cos I can't hand-write beautifully anymore, Big Brother TV show cos it gives a new and extensive meaning to DUMB (waste of dictionary space), Plastic Surgery/Botox programs cos they make people lose their marbles along with whatever they want to lose/gain (with Plastic-surgery I could be marrying a guy with false parts you know and I could be eating pieces of plastic yukkk!), Money cos it wrecks relationships, Religion and Race cos they are the reasons behind all kinds of disputes today, Borders cos they help diminish humanity. I can go on.
This weekend an old friend of mine is getting married. She and I had a tiff long time ago. The fault was her's...she hurt me in a shocking manner and then apologized for it - it was big drama (I'm saying the exact truth here whether you wanna believe me or not that it was her fault ). Anyways, after that our friendship wasn't at it's best. You know how you can never go back. Well it was like that between us but we still said our hellos etc. Then last month I heard she was getting married. She's much older than me and I thought she's a matured person. We were good family friends too. Well she invited everyone in our friend circle to her wedding tomorrow, except me. Everyone's ringing me asking if I'm going to be there tomorrow and they are all shocked that I wasn't invited. Well she chose not to have me witness her happy moments. I really don't get that. Not that I'm desperate to go to a wedding, but we had alot of good times than that one sour experience. I can't understand how some people carry grudges through their entire lives yet call themselves devoted to God, good people etc etc (she and her family are extremely God-loving). My mum and sis were very close to them too...so if she didn't want to invite me, what about them? If I was getting married, I'd have
definitely invited her whole family though they hurt me big time - yes big time. I think it's during one's happiest times that you can tell if you are wanted in their lives or not. I guess with her, I'm not wanted anymore. Anyways I wish G and her fiance all the LOVE in the world and may the 2 of them have wonderful, love-filled, happy and joyous years together in each other's company! I'm not going to be there at her wedding tomorrow but I can wish her in my blog can't I :). Live it up beautiful bride! This song is for the new couple.Posted by Keshi at 11:09 am 116 Cranium Signets
This is a Pulitzer Prize winning photo (click to enlarge).His baby sandals on, he was ready to see the world...but little did he know that this world didn't care about giving him that chance. I don't understand why little Mohammed had to die this way...why all his years were brutally stolen. I have lost all faith in humanity and my heart bleeds for this innocent child. God when did you die?
Current Music: Disarm by Smashing Pumpkins
Posted by Keshi at 3:17 pm 138 Cranium Signets

I was in my sister's car and someone clicked those 3 pics from the backseat...I was trying to cover the camera with my hand but it didn't stop the notorious Clicker. Then I had to make that last face...it's especially for the Clicker but now it's for you too hehe. That's me with a mean face. That's me making faces at you. Cmon try and make a face at me too.
Ok forget my hissy fits, cos now I have something rather dramatic to tell you. That I have a Vain gene in me. So what? I'm vain and I'm proud of it ok. Well don't get me wrong though...I'm not overly vain that I make fun of others or forget to do my work cos I'm busy staring at my image on the computer screen! It's just that I love to look good, dress well and go out in style. I hate to look daggy and messy when I'm out...I would never go out without ear-rings on...I love to smell and feel fresh...I don't wear torn clothes (even though it can be fashion for some people)...I like light makeup which includes eye-liner and light lipstick - nothing more nothing less...I try to keep my hair in one place if I can (the bangs are making it look a bit messy though) etc etc. But these I believe most people do when they go out. So where is my Vain gene then? Wait on...here it comes! (this pic btw is of my new ice-pink top I got from Portmans - do check it out. o Im such a showoff!)
When I walk down the street and if I see a mirror or some glass window, I check myself out as I pass it - ok let me spill it, I actually do that at every single window that I pass. When I have my iPod on as I walk, I feel the music so much that I try to walk like I'm modelling to the music, all graceful and elegant - so in my head I'm Helena Christensen for a while (keep in mind that I love modelling and wish I followed a career in it). If I see a hunk infront of me, I try to act like a beauty queen who doesn't notice good-looking men, even though I'm not Miss.Universe hello! I spend some time in front of the mirror at home before going to work, which often makes my mum remind me that I just missed my train. I can't relax if something is out of order in my attire - say I dropped an ear-ring while I'm out, then I'd immediately buy a new pair from a shop close by. If I stained my clothes, I'd have to go to the nearest Ladies' and wash it off instantly or else I'd die of feeling uncomfy. If someone messed my hair, I'd kill them. If I'm going to a party, I'd like to look like I'm
going to a party. I can't understand how some people go to
parties dressed like they are going jogging in the forest. I recently went to a bday party and I wore this satin boob-tube and lovely short skirt. One of the girls who later saw my pics asked me if it was MY bday party...I guess she was just trying to make me feel over-dressed but I swear I wasn't. Just that she's someone who doesn't like to dress to the occasion...now is that my fault duhhh!I have a closet full of clothes and I still keep buying when there are so many kids starving in Ethiopoia...I know I'm as guilty as hell here :*(. My closet sends shock-waves through my mum's head so each time I buy something new I have to hide them from mum - that's until I wear it and when she asks if it's new, I say 'o no it's old, I just came across it after a long time mum, so I thought I'd wear it'. She knows I'm a pathetic liar too. If she does catch me coming home with a new bag of clothes, then I'd have to come out with the truth...but I do say it's $29.00 when it's actually $59.00 hehe.
Well some day I think I'd die a closet death - buried by it that is. Shoes - I have enough to walk/dance/party/jog another decade or two. I just bought a new pair of Manolo's (see pic on the right above) and I think I blew the budget (I don't know why I used the term BUDGET when I don't even have one). I guess I have over 30 pairs of shoes so far. Ear-rings...I have an obsession with em. I have enough to match any kind/color of clothing and any occasion (see top right pic and this pic for my latest pair). Sarees...I have loads when I don't really get to wear them. But I love the saree and when I do wear one, I walk around feeling like Kajol or Lara hehe. I love jeans (check out my pair of MWAH jeans on the left - yes that's my arse as well - woohoo arse shots!). I have all kinds and all colors...yes I have purple jeans too - I want all colors for all moods (nah I don't have yellow jeans though, thank God!). What about my obsession with the camera? I guess that has something to do with my Vain gene too. I love to take shots of myself, places, things, others etc cos I love to capture moments and moods. The still images of moments and moods speak volumes an
d I want to look back on them maybe years after, and that's where my interest really lies.
Posted by Keshi at 12:14 pm 115 Cranium Signets
Madrid Hilton pre-makeup
Madrid Hilton during-makeup
Madrid Hilton post-makeupPosted by Keshi at 10:31 am 100 Cranium Signets
I'd say the top teacher here would be Miss.Ingrid Martenstyn, among some other great teachers ofcourse. She was unbelievably kind and strict at the same time. She stood out from the rest cos something wierd happened when I was in Year 3 and that stuck in my head for good. I was always one of the best students in class (not bragging here) and almost all teachers knew that. And Ms.Ingrid was my Year 3 class teacher, and she too appreciated my work and my good behavior etc. I was also the class monitor then hehe. But one afternoon I got so chattery during class (yakking away with another girl and we were only 8yrs old LOL!), Ms.Ingrid punished me and my friend. She made us both go to the front of the class and stand facing the window (and our backs to the whole class). Outside the window, far away, I could see the ocean. I actually enjoyed that 20mins or so :). But what struck me most was the lesson I learnt out of that experience. I was not the kind who got punished in school...I was always great with my work and with the teachers. So when Ms.Ingrid punished me that day for the very first time, I learnt that no amount of good work can save you when you are in the wrong (as heart-breaking as it was for the 8yr old me back then, I had to accept it with dignity). When you do something wrong, you must pay a price for it no matter how good you may have been in the past. That lesson stuck in my head for good and I'm glad about it. Thank you Miss.Ingrid, you taught me to accept my faults with grace.
I was to become a doctor you know...yes that was my dream. But thank God for the greater benefit of the humankind, I didn't become one. Let me tell you why. Since I wanted to become a doc someday, like a big-fat doc in the making, I joined the Biology stream in High School. The first lab practical was to do with dissecting roaches and some were all over the place, having escaped out of their jars. Well guess what, that was the last day of my Medical career cos I ran out of the lab screaming (I'm traumatised by roaches, I can't stand them). Yes a roach changed my entire career (some of you already know of this quite tragic story). I then joined the Maths stream and eventually became an IT Consultant. My fav subject in H/S therefore was Applied Maths and I topped it in HSC - don't ask me how and no tuition will be given.Do you learn best through books, by watching, or hands-on?
I hardly read books these days. But I did learn alot from books back in school. I used to read alot of classics as a requirement for literature readings and began to love them alot. I learnt so much from books like Pride & Prejudice, Sense & Sensibility, The Class, Little Women, Great Expectations, David Copperfield, Wuthering Heights etc etc. I believe some of the books we read as kids have so much input into character building and foundation. I also learn by watching things and people around me - it's ntaural I guess. And I also learn from experiences in life - that's my biggest teacher. No amount of academic qualifications can teach you about life like experiences do. I believe both cognitive and behavioral learning happens best through experiences.Everyday there's something new to learn.
How do I feel about Education? Well it's required for doing well in career but not necessarily for doing well in life. To do well in life, you need to be able to Learn from experiences. And if you can't do that, no amount of education can help you to lead a satisfied life. As you can see there are so many 'educated' people around but not enough sensible people around.Education is what remains when we have forgotten all that we have been taught.by George Savile
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My friend Poo's 11 month old niece Prachi is suffering from a rare disease called Leigh's Disease. There is a post regarding this at BUF (please read). They have been told by the doctors that Prachi has only few more months to live as there's no cure for this disease. We are all trying to find a good doctor for little Prachi cos we believe she can be cured. We can try every possible thing for this little one cos she's very precious and she has a smile that breaks any heart. Please leave any information you know about this disease, doctors, cures etc here or in Poo's blog or in BUF. I hope together we can make a difference in Prachi's life. Thanks in advance!
Believe it or not, I'm the 'proud' owner of a few weapons. Yes, Keshi is a smart shooter, highly dangerous bomber, heart-piercing stabber, fire-igniter and a mean slapper. So you thought Keshi is all so sweet and innocent...guess not ha. btw these pics of mine were taken just yesterday oooyeah! So what are my weapons then?
rm that get me past some of the most difficult situations/people in my life. So when we already have so many great weapons inside of us, why do we need those man-made useless weapons that destroy those very useful weapons inside of us? The weapons that are inside of us don't destroy people, they make people. They help you lookafter yourselves, defend yourselves, go far in life, grow on a personal level, survive some of the toughest times and by you setting an example, others learn from you too and become better people (hopefully hehe). So isn't it better to find and use your internal weapons and make another person's personality GROW than to use man-made weapons and DESTROY people? What are some great weapons you have inside of you? I'd love to hear them. And today's music is one of my fav dance numbers. I just forget everything when I dance to this while listening to the wonderful lyrics. FEEL THE LOVE GENERATION - la la laa...la la laa la la la la laa! Keshi whistling here :)Posted by Keshi at 12:42 pm 90 Cranium Signets
I was. My body lies in a deep sleep...blind, deaf, mute, frozen...but I see, hear, talk, feel...no one hears me, sees me...no one talks to me, feels me...I see them, hear them loud, talk to them, feel them for I'm everywhere. Frozen in time, frozen words, frozen touch but I roam like the breeze. My skin so white and lips so dark, my heart so scorched yet beating moist memories aloud. Last journey severed mid-way, yet all the events fresh as dew. I stumbled, I fell, I gave up...but I can't go...no not yet. Unspoken words, undone deeds, unfulfilled desires...love is all I left behind...hearts scarred for life but I sailed to my next destination. 'twas too short, too good, too frightening, too lost, too quick. A bright flash once and a faded memory I've become. This sleep will last forever not, for my travels are a many...and I take refuge in another womb, in another time. And I begin. As the sleeping plant gets life with a sprinkle of rain, as new leaves sprout when Spring arrives, as the frozen lake melts with a kiss of the Sun, as the birds fly North when seasons change, I will rise up from the ashes, from this sleep, from this deafening silence, from this darkest night, into the dawn...blood will flow, my heart will pump again...lips will move and my skin will breathe...I will be seen, heard, talked to and felt again...another journey, another awakening...and I will be.Posted by Keshi at 10:34 am 94 Cranium Signets
Last night when all the people on my floor had left, I was still in my office finishing off some work around 7pm...so I was the last to leave the floor. Our floor's got a Password protected alarm system to be activated and also a door to be locked by the last person who leaves the floor. I activated the alarm and then when I was going to lock the door, I realised I had no key to do it duhhh! The key that has been in my handbag for so long and the one I use all the time was suddenly gone. Now where was it? Panic set in (being the top contestant of Miss.Drama Queen of all times). I sat down, emptied the whole bag on the carpet and was trying hard to find it somewhere in my bag, but apparently the Key God was drunk - or on some permanent holiday in the Bahamas flirting with the Door Goddess maybe, cos he wasn't answering my prayers damn it! I was sooo upset, tired, hungry and it was really late and I felt like a door bitch standing near the door not knowing what to do - and there was no f'n way I could leave without locking the place up (even thought of sleeping insde the office that night). So I went back into the office, rang up my boss (to ask where the spare key was or which security guy I should contact) on his mobile - he's someone who always answers the phone. Well guess what...this time he didn't. It went to his voicemail. BUMMER! And then I rang up another colleague, and another, and another...no one was bloody picking up the phone! Then finally I managed to reach my other boss who was actually still in the City - I felt so relieved! He came back to the office within 15mins, locked up the place and we went home. So where is my key? It was not at home, not in the office, not in my bag...this can never really be cos I always had that key in my bag for such a long time and I used it last on Mon this week. Key where are you??
Posted by Keshi at 12:47 pm 119 Cranium Signets