Friday, May 11

Awakening

I was. My body lies in a deep sleep...blind, deaf, mute, frozen...but I see, hear, talk, feel...no one hears me, sees me...no one talks to me, feels me...I see them, hear them loud, talk to them, feel them for I'm everywhere. Frozen in time, frozen words, frozen touch but I roam like the breeze. My skin so white and lips so dark, my heart so scorched yet beating moist memories aloud. Last journey severed mid-way, yet all the events fresh as dew. I stumbled, I fell, I gave up...but I can't go...no not yet. Unspoken words, undone deeds, unfulfilled desires...love is all I left behind...hearts scarred for life but I sailed to my next destination. 'twas too short, too good, too frightening, too lost, too quick. A bright flash once and a faded memory I've become. This sleep will last forever not, for my travels are a many...and I take refuge in another womb, in another time. And I begin. As the sleeping plant gets life with a sprinkle of rain, as new leaves sprout when Spring arrives, as the frozen lake melts with a kiss of the Sun, as the birds fly North when seasons change, I will rise up from the ashes, from this sleep, from this deafening silence, from this darkest night, into the dawn...blood will flow, my heart will pump again...lips will move and my skin will breathe...I will be seen, heard, talked to and felt again...another journey, another awakening...and I will be.


This is a very old post of mine (some of you may remember this). I wanted to post this again (without the previous comments) especially for Poo and for anybody out there who's going through a tough time right now, including myself - you wouldn't believe the mess I'm in right now. I'm haunted and stalked by who I was and who don't seem to return but I know she will, cos I believe so. The haunting indicates you are still there somewhere. Everyone goes through immense pain, suffering and death of the soul that may feel like a complete loss of self and THE end. But we have to believe in beginning again...believe in blooming as a fresh flower all over again. I can smell me, can hear my voice, can feel my love, can see myself deep inside of me. Cos this soul is immortal, the love is immortal and the energy we carry within us is immortal - they don't die . Just like how Spring hides for a while and then comes around again after a long cold Winter, you will return too. There's no beginning without an end...and there's no end without another beginning.


Current Music: Haunted by Evanescence

94 Cranium Signets:

Shiv said...

A very thoughtful post gurl...Felt better after all tats happening...

and it feels even better to be the first to comment here..u take care and have a nice weekend!!

Jay said...

You're wise and insightful beyond your years Keshi. Great post.

Jim said...

as a bipolar person
i am controlled by my moods

at times i am in depresssion so deep
i want to sleep and never wake up

then the next day i become super man, i can achieve any thing

who am i for real?
it is hard to say who i am

am i superman?
or are these just delusions of grandeur?

visit my bipolar blog

ToOothlEss WOndeR! said...

WoW!
That's brilliance, Keshi.. awesome stuff!

I've been a perpetual optimist myself. And that's why I've been a happy man.

Here's something I wrote sometime back, but made me sad.
I dont want to be recycled. I want an end.
(that applies only to death, though.. )

Aditi said...

hmm its true but sometimes hard to remember.. that a new day will come..
(oh and its mothers day everywhere keshi.. i was just being a silly daughter and forgetting)

Rajeev said...

whoa keshi!!
Great post! i donno what to say! :(

peace & love
JeeVY

dharmabum said...

"Everyone goes through immense pain, suffering and death of the soul that may feel like a complete loss of self and THE end."

death is not the opposite of life, just the absence of it. there is no death for the soul.

vishesh said...

:) nice story...again here is another voice telling me something....what my heart is telling me now....and i am trying to forget it.....i am in a fight with someone...a friend i love.....she thinks that the society will never accept that boys and girls can be friends...and she accused me of being in a dream world...that was the zahir poem....

gautami tripathy said...

We all come through. We have to.

Hugs!

Kavi said...

Very thought provoking stuff. Yes. Each end beckons a new beginning !

ღ lil_kath ღ said...

hi Kesh muahhh!! hows u sweetie? soo meaningful post here... i can feel the meaning of every words u said but still m out of words to say anything! ur soo good of expressing feelings dear...

... hope ur ok! smileeeee na... luv ya!enjoy weekend!

hugssssss**

Shionge said...

Whatever that's not gonna break you is going to make you stronger Keshi.....You make me think with yor insightful thoughts dear pal.

Have a nice weekend sweetie :)

Poo said...

Thank you, Thank you
A simple word that still feels new
All I want to say is
Thank you, Thank you
Thank you for been so true
Thank you for kindness
Thank you for your love
Thank you for friendship
Thank you for showing care
Thank you for reading my works
Thank you for your encouragement
Thank you for your comments
Thank you for your strength
Thank you for your votes
Thank you for been there
Thank you for believing in me

Keshi , Thank you so much. I feeling so much better. No body has ever done to me something like this. I don’t want to lie , I am very sad with so many pbms around me but your attention made me feel so nice. You made my day and I love you so much. The care and happiness your valued friendship brings. The little things you do to me, that mean so very much to me. I am going to be fine. Promise !!!

You are a special and loveable friend who grows more dear,
With every day and every glorious year.

HUGZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ . I want to write so many things now. I am in a hurry. Going to the hospital. But I will be back .

Thank you Keshi for everything and for giving me strength. I am so proud of myself to have a special friend like you in my Life. Thank you Angel.

SamY said...

I dun get the head ortail of it ... but guess thats what ur post is supposed to do

I'v been writing such posts offlate too :) so wud'n ask for an explanation

I hope it passes by soon ... hopefully by the weekend :) ... cheerios

Dalicia said...

i dunno about me becoming a mother.
since my mum hopes that my children will be bad to me :P i don't want to be punished....

i'm sure you'll be a good mum :)
hmmmmmm...take care of yourself.
ahhh hard to say with this moment of awakening..haunting...all this bad memories starts coming back. you can't really get rid of it..

Jim said...

, TO ALL
if u have mood swings
u need clinical help
,



one in five persons, the stats say is bipolar to some extent

dont be ashamed to seek help

Priyanka Sarkar said...

wise and pensive....:)
im glad a lot of us fellow bloggers have been posting optimistic stuff of late!!!:D

Cazzie!!! said...

Chicken or the egg kinda thing.

MONA said...

I can empathise with you. I have felt like that at times.Yet go on we must, there is no other way, Life is like that, & total security comes only with death.
That is a beautiful way of presenting your true feelings.Thank God for blogs. They do provide an outlet!

Dawn....सेहर said...

I dunno what to say...but remember what Kalidasa has said:

Listen to the Exhortation of the Dawn!
Look to this Day!
For it is Life, the very Life of Life.
In its brief course lie all the
Verities and Realities of your Existence.
The Bliss of Growth,
The Glory of Action,
The Splendor of Beauty;
For Yesterday is but a Dream,
And To-morrow is only a Vision;
But To-day well lived makes
Every Yesterday a Dream of Happiness,
And every Tomorrow a Vision of Hope.
Look well therefore to this Day!
Such is the Salutation of the Dawn!


Hugggzzz to you my dear

DJ said...

i hope too that it does not end this way...that things happening right now point towards something big and better which, though unseen, is worth fighting for... :)

so let peace be bestowed upon and courage stay with everyone...

regards...
tc...

Vest said...

Keshie:
Today is the tomorrow
you worried about yesterday,
and all is well.

Vest said...

Cazzie: the chicken or the egg question answered,finaly it was neither, it was the cock (rooster) who came first.

Jeevan said...

Thoughtful writeup keshi! The night ends the day to give another fresh brightest day. Happy mothers day, enjoy with ur mom in weekend dear:)

Mr. J said...

Always feels good to see a smile on someone's face :)

Łóòň Ġãĺ said...

true that!!!

very wise indeed :)

Ghost Particle said...

id say the hell with it all and just wake up...but then I cant...because I'm one of you too keshi...we are alien in this world and we hide the past so that we can live the present..but for how long?

Jewel Rays said...

Keshi..I am mesmerized. Beautiful..beautiful post. I am feel it much. I see myself rising out.

*hugs* so thoughtful of ya to dedicate it to Sweet Poo..

Steph said...

What a beautiful post! I hope you feel better soon hun. You're a gorgeous girl both inside and out.

Asha said...

You will do fine Keshi girl.Just let the life happen!!Hugs.Have a great weekend:)

shammu.. said...

Keshi, I kinda feel u just read my mind or something .... I try to be a strong person Keshi, in real life I am expected and supposed to be and I am too! but...... I dont know!

Few days back, I had thi sudden urge or something..and I felt I have seen too much of all these,and that it ws time for a renewal, to be back to how I was, and then I renamed my blog "The Awakening"!but what to do, I get nothing to write in there these days!!! :D dunno why!!

Takecare Keshi, and thanks for everything!
You are an Angel, for so many people out there!
Hugs for you!

Ganesh Ranganathan said...

Hi Keshi, I am back...

alex said...

Keshi,

A struggle is inevitable. It is what keeps ourselves fresh and ever learning. :)

homo escapeons said...

Oh-Oh what kind of trouble?????
Sometimes it helps to concentrate on other people when you're feeling completely UNDERwhelmed by the state of your existance.

Too much mirror time can be emotionally crippling because not many of us are very good at being neutral or open minded about our own desires, thoughts and subsequent actions.

In a hundred years from now is whatever you're going through right now going to matter? Nope.

So what does that tell you. Will worrying add one day to your life? Nope.

Socrates stated that an unexamined life was not worth living but he was in a life and death situation. He had to decide whether to take poison or exile.

Operation cleansweep, compress file, delete.

Carpe Diem Keshiroo!

Nadim said...

'There's no beginning without an end...and there's no end without another beginning.' but life cant be made of just beginnings n ends! there has to be period where things should be normal! that normalcy is missing! but im happy that you have overcome the darker days! :)

jitendra said...

wow that was you in your unusual mood, or so i suppose :)

my 2 cents: you (you = generic) suffer if you let yourself suffer=> you let yourself suffer b/c you have enough time to suffer=> you have enough time to suffer b/c you have no time to do better things..

so if you keep yourself so effing busy that you dont have time to suffer, then there is no suffering :)

Iceman said...

We all say goodbye... but its not all that easy to let go!

But if u wanna be happy, then just let go... of everything!

The true state of happiness is complete absence of any desire! But we are only humans, aren't we.

You will breathe again! You will Live again! It all in ur mind! Set it free! Nothing can keep you down! Thats what drives me! Keeps me goin...

Why should I deprive myself of happiness because of something that is completely external! Something that I can get the better of!

starry nights said...

A very moving post and I believe in my heart that there is always a new beginning.Just as there is a light at the end of the tunnel.Have a nice weekend and a good Mothers day.

LPC said...

Wonderful post ! Thanks for this !

krystyna said...

Hi Keshi!
Your posts are The University of Life . From the begining to the end. Thanks!
Have a peaceful and blessing weekend!

Trée said...

What is the light without the dark? Have a great weekend Keshi. :-)

DICEY said...

The post was a sight for sore minds. Well done.

smrtnhuggble said...

well i can say one thing for sure. i know how you feel, uve read several posts ive had about just not knowing what happened to me - all in all i wish i could get back to who i used to be
but then again - was that REALLY me? OR IS THIS REALLY ME? the change may be bad, but it could be REAL.
so the question is how do u know that the old is the TRUE YOU. you might want it back but it might not be the real u..
i dont even know if im making sense..

George said...

We each die a little bit every day but we are reborn every day as well. I suffer from severe major depression and like Jim said there have been days, weeks and months when I wanted to sleep and not wake up. Thanks to some great meds and medical staff I am alive and kicking ... sometimes even hard.

One day I will die, whether from natural causes or from my own hand. At my memorial service I want the following to be read ...

Do not stand at my grave and weep
I am not there; I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow,
I am the diamond glints on snow,
I am the sun on ripened grain,
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awaken in the morning's hush
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circling flight.
I am the soft starlight at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry,
I am not there; I did not die.

Mary Frye

As long as you know that you have touched someone, you will be remembered.

Wonderful post Keshi

Silvara said...

Life is a journey isn't it...we stumble, we fall and if we can pick ourselves up and keep moving then things will be ok.

Neihal said...

I'm haunted and stalked by who I was and who don't seem to return but I know she will, cos I believe so.

I feel this too soemtimes...it is a wierd feeling, neither happy nor sad, eerie

Daman said...

Lovely post..
"There's no beginning without an end...and there's no end without another beginning"...awesome!!...

lee said...

Just got to get up, dust myself off, re-focus, and get going again. There's nothing else for it.

desperado said...

just d kind of thing i needed to read at this time..
someone dropped by ur mail acc...it will be a more frequent happening in dese 3 months :D

Princess said...

Rebirth from ashes like a phoenix bird.... wonderfully written...
I can literally feel the pain with which u hv written and I really appreciate the confidence you wanted to bring in others....

"HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY"

much luv,
-Aiz.

Dan said...

You write very well! And your choice of photo is spectacular.

Laetitia! oh my! :)

Helen said...

Hey Keshi,

I worry sometimes about the depths of depression I can sink to as well, and I obsess over the trivial when I am in those states. There was a time when I didn't trust my happy self and made myself more miserable waiting for HER to come back with a vengeance.

Part of learning to cope is figuring out what makes you calm and grounds you during those times. For me it's weeding, I put my hands in the dirt, and just start cleaning up my gardens and the tensions and negativity dribble into the earth.

There's really a yin and yang when you act like God in the garden: you get to live, while you--because you spread your seed and take in nutrients without care for your neighbor--must wilt and give your nutrients to my compost heap.

Sometimes our own negativity must be turned into something good (like sharing your experiences so others can relate).

Poo, I'm coming over to visit.

Top cat said...

I'm so glad you reposted this post, I've never read it before.
You are so right, at times when we are struggling it feels like death of our soul. But from the ashes we begin anew, stronger, wiser and one step closer to the truth of what we really are.
HUGS
tc

Aidan said...

Blogger ate my comment, and tried to log me in as stace:

"There's no beginning without an end...and there's no end without another beginning."
There is no beggining or end, we are transient, part of the story but not the story... Or lives just make up part of the wrld as it is... sorry in a bit of a tangeant mood.
Life travels in cycles, sometimes your ahead sometimes your behind, Life is too short to focus on what has past no matter how dark. Enjoy the ride and aim for a better future.

javagirl1111 said...

Very True Keshi... The Beginning and endings make life at times quite cRAzzY:-) But when God closes a door He tends to open a window! Ya know?

niki sato said...

>there's no end without another beginning.
awww great quote, keshi-chan!!
wats happening(??)
this music is really cool!!
i wish u & poo-chan all the best..

Sugarlips said...

A very thoughtful post Keshi.


Stay Beautiful...!

Princess Banter said...

Awww m'dear *hugs* I hope you find yourself once again, without the myriad of ghosts in tow. You can do it, with a bit of strength and lots of love... both of which you have. Stay strong, girl, stay strong :)

Mr. Evil said...

Just a couple of months more.. and I know everyone will be ok :)

Enigma© said...

Hey Hi!! Yet another awesome post.. I was damn pissed n was kinda goin thru a tough time.. may all the reasons for our tough times may be different.. but yeah.. u really made me feel better all of a sudden.. Thanks a lot.. Gud work sweetie..

And yeah.. All the Best Poo.. Hope u're better now.. Alteast after readin this post..:)

anup.777 said...

been there, buddy ... so i know what u mean ... hope it helps ones who r down and feel they can't go on ... coz' This too shall pass ...

priya said...

That was cool post keshi.

Michelle said...

very intense keshi...really love this one...hang in there :)

Rex Venom said...

How did that go, now..?
THe Heart doesn't break. It grows stronger. But it sure hurts as it does so.
Rock on!

Outdoorsy Girl said...

I do remember this post! I guess I have been a Keshi fan for a long time!

I've missed ya, too! How have you been?

Things going great here. I did have a Mr. Darcy type of thing happen to me about a month ago. I guess I still haven't cleared the Jerk Magnet Syndrome, but it's getting better!

Take care, girl!

WP2007 said...

Hi Keshi

Just got back.

Read your post--very good.

I hope your haunts will go away, but they likely never will--in this life anyway.

I think we all have something from our past waiting for the right time to resurface and clobber us.

This may sound cold, but have you ever wished someone from your past will die. If they are dead then maybe that haunt will leave--you would never know I write comedy.

The good, the bad, and the ugly is very good way of describing our haunts.


Bev

Lisa Francisco said...

HI...

I don't know what is up with you but I wish you the best. You're demons will come back and haunt you. But what that means is that you always prevail.

This time, vanquish them.... You can do it. They have no right to you and your happiness.

Please come out happy...the blogword needs you sweetie....

Lisa

Keshi said...

Shiv ty! :)

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Jay we all r insightful in our own ways...tnxx mate!


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Jim who am I for real...will we ever know that?


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Toothless ty!

**I dont want to be recycled. I want an end.

I agree...even I want that but will we get that?

Loved ur post...was brilliant!


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Aditi yes it's hard to believe in it but if u do believe, then the results r priceless.

Silly daughter I like ya alot! :)


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Rajeev ty!



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Dharma heyy!

I dunno wuts after death tho...will anyone ever know?


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hey Vishesh ty!


** love.....she thinks that the society will never accept that boys and girls can be friends.

well give her some time. I believe she's still very young?


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yes Gautami ty!


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ty Kavi!



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aww Kath huggggggggz n ty!

Hows life for ya? btw how was Mums Day?




Keshi.

Keshi said...

thats true Shionge ty!


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aww Poo u dun need to Thank me..cos I really dun want that...I only want u to feel better, look forward to life no matter how hard it may be...find ur true self...dun let others get to ya. ok?? HUGGGGGGGGGGGGZ!

And that verse was so very special...I dun deserve that...cmon, we r all here for each other. No need to thank ok?? :) Im just sending u some angel blessings...thats all. MWAHHH!


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Samy I hope u feel better soon. TC mate.


** dun get the head ortail of it

thats cos u didnt read it properly :) Its really not that hard to u'stand.


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hey Dalicia hows it goin?

**since my mum hopes that my children will be bad to me

awww thats such a bad thing to wish for someone. Why wud she wish that upon u Dalicia? Can I ask?


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Jim I agree...dun be ashamed to seek help. It cud save ur life.




Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty Priyanka!

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aha Caz!


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ty Mona!


**Life is like that, & total security comes only with death.


I agree...every worry n trouble stops with Death...but the only difference is ur not ard to experience it. So live thru the troubles while ur alive...and experience the good that comes out of it.


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ty Dawn thats such a lovely verse...a very encouraging energy comes out of those words...just like u DAWN!


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DJ thats right...thru every obstacle we find something precious...a golden lesson learnt.



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true Vesty ty!

and LOL @came first!


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ty Jeevan I hope u had fun on Mums day with ur family.



Keshi.

Keshi said...

Johno yes :)


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Cheesy ty pommy ;-)



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Ghosty heyy!


**we are alien in this world and we hide the past so that we can live the present..but for how long?

so true...I guess we just put the past underneath it all n try hard to move on...but we really dun detach from the past completely. We r made of our past as much as we r made of out present n the future.

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ty Amy I knew it that u'd love this one.

HUGGGGGGGGGZ!

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aww ty Stepher!




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Asha I will..ty so much n HUGGGGGGGGZ!


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Shammu we all need to renew ourselves every now n then...and for us to do that, first we need to go thru the a weary soul....then we come out of it all fresh n AWAKENED.

I wish u well.


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Ganesh WB!


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Alex true, ty!



Keshi.

Keshi said...

hey HE!

**Oh-Oh what kind of trouble?????

Something very difficult for others to u'stand...something thats very much my own cross. But I'll b ok HE...ty so much for being concerned. I keep telling myself I'll be ok and I hope I'll be.

I agree...WORRY is bad n nah I wont waste time on it.


**Socrates

his death was the death of all wise men.


ty HE!

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hey Nadim hows u?


*but life cant be made of just beginnings n ends! there has to be period where things should be normal

I agree but who r we to change the nature of life ha. :)


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hey Jit ty!


**so if you keep yourself so effing busy that you dont have time to suffer, then there is no suffering

well IMHO even tho Im very busy (or try to keep myself busy), the suffering deep down my soul doesnt vanish...it somehow gets to me when my work is done. My point is, if the suffering is real, there's no way u can escape it...it'll get to u somehow.


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hey Iceman!


**But if u wanna be happy, then just let go... of everything!


I agree...but then thats very hard too.


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ty Starry I believe there's light at the end of the tunnel...or else I'll somehow find a match-stick or make some fire :)


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lpc WC n ty!



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Krys heyy!


** The University of Life

WOW thats the biggest honor I can ever get. Im stoked ty!


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Heyyyya Tre!

**What is the light without the dark?

And whats the day without the night?

Lovely, ty!


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Dicey WC n ty!




Keshi.

Keshi said...

Choco hello hows ya?

**you might want it back but it might not be the real u..

I agree...it's like u'll never know who u really r...I guess we have so many sides to us, we'll never really know the WHOLE self in one lifetime.


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George u wont die b4 ur time...HUGGGGGGGGZ!


**Mary Frye

I love that verse n have seen it b4. Very touching.


btw u have touched my life n u WILL be remembered as long as I live!

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Yes Silvara, the key is in getting up, dusting ur self off and walking again. With a renewed courage n new-found strength ofcourse.


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Neihal for me its kinda sad...


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ty Daman!





Keshi.

Keshi said...

Spot on Lee, ty!


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Dhruv I got ur email...ty! Take it easy mate. HUGGGGGGGGGGZ!


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Aiz ty so much n HUGGGGGGGGGGGZ!



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Dan WC n ty!

u like the beauty ha...she's HOT I agree :)



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Helen as usual that was an enlightening comment...ty!


**you get to live, while you--because you spread your seed and take in nutrients without care for your neighbor

so true...


And I read wut u wrote in Poo's blog...u r so wise girl. Ur words always teach me something new. ty so much!

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Rick no worries mate!


** and one step closer to the truth of what we really are.

Spot on! The more troubls n trials we r put on, the closer we get to the TRUTH abt us.

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ty Aidan for all the positive vibes u bring in here. I appreciate that.


**There is no beggining or end, we are transient, part of the story but not the story

I agree...we r part of the story...but the roles we play do have a beginning and an end each time. I hope that makes sense :)


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heyyy Java!

**But when God closes a door He tends to open a window

I sooo believe in that!




Keshi.

mystic rose said...

keshi,
that writing is beautiful!

Keshi said...

Niki Im ok...duncha worry. HUGGGGGGGGZ n ty!


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Suga ty so much!


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Banter it's friends like u that give me strength n love to carry on..so TY!



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heyya Evil!

**Just a couple of months more.. and I know everyone will be ok

how d u mean?


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Enigma Im glad this post helped u in some small way.



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ty so much Anup n how have u been?




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Priya ty!



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aww Michi ty!


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Rex heyy Im ok tnxxx matey!


**It grows stronger. But it sure hurts as it does so.

Thats a whole new way to look at it...ty soooo much!


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Outdoorsy HUGGGGGGGGGZ!


**I did have a Mr. Darcy type of thing happen to me about a month ago.

oh no...I hope ur ok now? Do tell us abt it if u wanna share it that is. Well if he was like Mr.Darcy, then dun worry...u havent missed much.


**I guess I still haven't cleared the Jerk Magnet Syndrome, but it's getting better

well thats good to hear :). I just found out I have new symptoms..n they belong to a gene group called 'jerk-of-all-trades-magnet'. Go figure sweetie!

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Bev HUGGGGGGGGGZ!

**but have you ever wished someone from your past will die. If they are dead then maybe that haunt will leave

Nope...ppl have been very cruel to me but somehow I have never wished Death upon em (even tho I wanted to kill em LOL!). I guess to me Death means VOID. So I want such ppl to live n learn their lessons. Thats why I dun wish Death upon em.

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Lisa HUGGGGGGZ n ty!


**They have no right to you and your happiness.


I agree...thats a good way to see it. TY!




Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty Rose!


Keshi.

Thumbelina said...

Hi Keshi,

Nice post! I'm sure Poo is feeling much better with so many loving friends like u around her :)

Thumbee

vishesh said...

a year elder to me actually...

lol keshi you are becoming popular looks like in BUF all of us want to meet you in person....

Poo said...

Hey Keshi did you check ur email?

AnonymousBlogger said...

There's no beginning without an end...and there's no end without another beginning.

I think that was the most important line of your post.

We've both been through some crappy times, and have chronicaled them on our blogs. Each time, things always get better.

SaffronSaris said...

Hiya poppy-doll pearl!
I haf some peony pics on my site- not as spectacular as the ones you took of the tulips, but good enuff for me :)
How's winter coming along??

Anonymous said...

Nothing can be hopeless
even a broken heart will heal some day soon ...

i hate this song


I've seen fire and I've seen rain
I've seen sunny days that I thought would never end
I've seen lonely times when I could not find a friend
But I always thought that I'd see you again

Won't you look down upon me, Jesus
You've got to help me make a stand
You've just got to see me through another day
My body's aching and my time is at hand
And I won't make it any other way

Oh, I've seen fire and I've seen rain
I've seen sunny days that I thought would never end
I've seen lonely times when I could not find a friend
But I always thought that I'd see you again

Been walking my mind to an easy time my back turned towards the sun
Lord knows when the cold wind blows it'll turn your head around
Well, there's hours of time on the telephone line to talk about things
to come
Sweet dreams and flying machines in pieces on the ground

Oh, I've seen fire and I've seen rain
I've seen sunny days that I thought would never end
I've seen lonely times when I could not find a friend
But I always thought that I'd see you, baby, one more time again, now

Thought I'd see you one more time again
There's just a few things coming my way this time around, now
Thought I'd see you, thought I'd see you fire and rain, now

Anonymous said...

Today is the tomorrow
you worried about yesterday,
and all is well.



VEST is the BEST

Shiva said...

The ebb and the tide are inevitable in this wave of life. Let's master the courage to sustain both.

Paul said...

When it comes to describing how Life or the Universe works, all I can finally say is: I don't know.

ghee said...

I love this song by Evanescence :)
Hope you feel alryte now,Keshi dear.

We all have the time to rejoice,to think and ponder,to grave and to feel haunted.they arent eternal,though..all you need is some time to figure things out and I do believe that you will conquer those negative thoughts you have in you.if you`re not willing to fight the feeling,it is your freedom,too.coz we all must welcome various feelings of life :)

hugs,Keshi dear!stay gorgeous!

diyadear said...

keshi,
wow the prev post is soo beautiful. i'm speechless.. n dont u worry.. u'll discover ur true self soon.

RamaG said...

Ah this belief in self so strong...
You doubt if you can sustain for long...
Like a race driver's wins after crashes...
I hope you continue to rise...like the phoenix from the ashes !!

Keshi said...

ty Thumbee n hows u today?

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Vishes heyy, it looks lilke Im Paris Hilton in BUF LOL!



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Poo I got ur email today and I have replied. with u puttin that msg up in BUF as well, Im sure ur gonna get alot of good contacts. I wish ur lil niece ALL THE VERY BEST! Sending her tonz of angel blessings!


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AB yes we learn n grow from each others' experiences.


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Saffy I saw em...WONDERFUL...so pretty, TY!



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Anony I love that song...one of my favs.



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Very true Shiva TY!



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Paul yeah no one knows the truth...but we all can derive our own meanings n live by em.


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Ghee ty n HUGGGGGGGGGZ!

I know u love Evanescence.


**if you`re not willing to fight the feeling,it is your freedom,too.coz we all must welcome various feelings of life

So true. ty for that. There r feelings that we dun wanna fight...and sometimes we just cant fight em.


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ty Diya HUGGGGGGGGGZ!


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tnxx Rama!




Keshi.

Nadim said...

oyee!!! wheres your new post gone?? :-O

that post was really funny! i mean the pics were! :-|

seriously, it was good!

Keshi said...

Nadim heyy it just got updated with lil Prachi's details. It's there now.

Keshi.

shooting star said...

Very thoughtful...yes when we undergo immense pain..a part of us dies...and something else takes birth in its place and we feel like a new person..but we crave for the old one...i been thru it....and i so wish this time i dint die.....but god has other plans i guess....

Keshi said...

Spot on Star!

**..but we crave for the old one...i been thru it....and i so wish this time i dint die.....but god has other plans i guess....


I so know the feeling. And when I finally cant get the old me, I surrender to God's will.



Keshi.