Alone But Wonderful Tonight...

It's Valentines Day...lovers are getting comfy and cosy in each others' arms, love is being celebrated in many many ways and here I am blogging in my room on a cold gloomy Summer's night. I'm not complaining, I'm very happy with my single status. Infact Valentines Day makes me wanna puke haha! Not cos I'm jealous of all those who are in love but cos I think everyday should be like Valentines Day. We do have ups and downs, and we do have fights with loved-ones every now and then...and that's ok. But to give out wishes, pressies, cards on V-day only, and not really mean that LOVE is such a waste of money, effort and time. I'm a lover of Love, and that's why I hate to see that Love being abused or misused just for commercial gains or for superficial needs. But who am I to say anything cos this world works like that, whether I like it or not right?


Having said that, my day didn't start with Love anyways...it started quite the opposite way...and I ended up crying after a very long time *no sympathy needed plz*. And I thought to myself why does this always happen to me...I'm nice to people, I go out of my way to make others happy, I give my time and whatever I have to make others feel safe and happy...but I become the target of some people's wrath and frustrations. And no one is by my side usually and no one ever understands me so no point trying to explain anyways...cos no one wants to listen to what I have to say except tell their own stories. Why do some people treat me like I'm nothing? Is it because I'm nothing? But maybe that's what my life is about...maybe that's why I'm so strong amidst all my tears...maybe that's why I'm as hard as a rock though I'm as soft as a rose petal deep inside. After a loveless start to the day, I received few lovely txt msgs and emails from some very dear friends in and out of Blogville, and I finally felt loved and appreciated. Yes, someone thinks of me somehow...and that's enough for me to be content and keep going. Thanks Raj, Trinaa, Margie, Arv, Soul and some mates of mine from Sydney for putting a smile on my face today! *HUGZ*


So yes, I'm spending another V-day in my life all alone, yet content, listening to this song and thinking about the one man who loved me genuinely...it's been awhile since I last spoke to him or saw him...but I feel his LOVE even this very minute as I type this post.


V-day is a drag for someone like me. I have seen people who hate each other give each other gifts just for the heck of it on V-day. Now is that of any use? Presents without a PRESENCE is of no use to anyone. That's like being present in someone's life without a presence...I have so many people like that in my life too. If you really wanna give me something, let your heart tell me stories...let your heart deliver your actions...not your words. I don't want your wishes or your fancy chocolates...I don't want your money or your sweet sweet calls, or your empty hugs. Just let me feel your PRESENCE...and then I shall know you truly LOVED me...just the way how I feel his PRESENCE even today...and that man is none other than my dad. Yes dad, it's wonderful tonight...cos I feel your LOVE. I miss ya and I love you too. I'm thinking of you tonight, and I'm hoping you'll be reading this somehow from wherever you are...don't forget to wink at me with all your mates up there. I wonder how many fans you have in your new home...cos I know so many people loved you over here. *MWAH* This one's for you dad, cos tonight I'm alone but it's wonderful tonight...all because of your love.

Current Music: Wonderful Tonight by Eric Clapton