I think the following lyrics (of the song My Way), sums up my feelings much better than what I said yesterday. Thanks for all your messages so far, they mean alot to me! But I think it's time for me to pack up my attachment to this place, hit the road and drive down a different route this time...it's about taking risks too. But I don't want to leave in bad spirits (like how I felt yesterday), hence I'd like to thank each and everyone who contributed to my being, by expressing here and in their blogs. I loved being here, learning, growing together, laughing, crying, sharing and feeling so taken care of. But all beginnings have an end too. Maybe I'll come back to post here some day, but I'm really sorry I can't be around Blogville til then. My inner voice right now tells me to leave, hence just like how the seasons don't last forever, I'm bidding goodbye for now. The lyrics below says everything my heart wants to say to you before I leave...
I find it all so amusing
A New Journey...
Taking some time off from Blogging will clear my mind. So I just want to go now...I want some solitude and time away from the madding crowd. My heart has to find a new home for a little while. The show can't go on forever...I did my best and now the curtains shall draw. The ones who truly care, thank you for being the flowers in my every step of the way. You know I love ya. Thank you for always being here when I needed someone to talk to, for trusting me and for accepting me just the way I am. Now kiss me goodbye and send me off with love. Don't worry and don't feel sad...it's a break much needed. Hopefully I'll be back sooner than you imagine. Take care all of ya! *HUGZ*
Current Music: My Way by Elvis Presley
This current song update is my treasured dedication to ALL my friends, both past and present, who have been here decorating my life with love, wisdom and warmth over the years, to this very day. I wish you well in all your future endeavours, I hope life treats you kind and I hope you have all you dreamed of...but above all things, I'm wishing you LOVE. Cos whatever we say or do, whatever we go through, LOVE is the final destination. And I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YA. Stay gold!
Current Music Update: I'll Always Love You by Whitney Houston
287 Cranium Signets:
In your one earlier post, you were talking of listening to inner voice.
Here you are talking of the way the people treat you.
Whats happening, Keshi ? But if its your own family and close-to-heart people, then it is hard to ignore.
Sometimes when i feel low like this, i listen to a good slow song of rehman, 'Enga ennathu kavithai' from Kandukondein Kandukondein. For me, Music helps a lot when I am feeling low.
If you think a break from the blogville will help you, take that much needed break. But don't be away for a very long time.
Hey....as much as I know you hate taking this step, it's a very wise thing you are doing as well.
Take some time away from all the shit that has been going on and you'll come back stronger and refreshed.
Please don't forget us :(
Love ya Kesh!
*hugs*
hugs keshi, take care...
sometimes, all te heart needs is a little time to see how perfect you can be in your own way. its easy to tell you to ignore people, but that won't be a solution. all i hope is that you continue to believe in yourself and yes, \find a new direction...who knows what a new road brings? and get back to blogging when you are ready, we'll be here...
take care, gurl...
Keshi, hun
** How do you handle loved-ones (friends or family) that may be jealous of you and try to make you feel like you're nothing?**
That line made my heart just break for you!!!!!
If I had a really good answer, I would give it to you.
But I'm sooooo sorry I don't!
I have never had that experience in life.
I just don't know what to say!
I'm just so very, very sorry you are going through this hard time.
Please don't leave Blogville, forever!
If you must, you must.
But I'll miss you so terribly!!!!
But I promise I shall keep in touch via email and phone callls.
I'll leave you with this poem...
IF I COULD
If I could reach the stars
I'd pluck the prettiest one for you
One that matched the glisten
Of sparking morning dew.
I'd cut it into a thousand gems
And fashion a royal crown
Of twinkling hues for your diadem
One worthy of renown.
If I could catch the wind
I'd make it sing your song
One of merriment and music
So happiness reigns all day long.
If I could change the seasons
I know the one I'd chose
It would be of love and flowers
Then I'd know you couldn't lose.
Love ya, Keshi!
HUGGGGGGGGGGGZ!
Margie
Go ahead.
You need a getaway.
Your mind is cluttered now.
Give it a break.
Enliven yourself.
Then come back.
Will still be here.
For you.
If this reads like a poem, that's your fault, Kesh.
God bless you.
*smilez*
how i face such situations...well i lock myself up in my room n cry till my pillow is all wet wid my tears...i fight...i get irritated...n then i message a close fren of mine to give me a hug...coz i kno her hug will wipe me off all my sorrows even if it is for some time...
u cant b tired of everyone...well atleast i hope coz i come in dat everyone...n i wud b heartbroken if u say u r tired of me...
well u wanna go...go...i wont stop u this time...wont tell u to ignore...tk ur time...will miss u
muuuuuuuuuuaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh!!!!
:( & :) hugzz baby... take a break but come back for sure.. i am not gonna say anything more.. we already talked abt this, rite?
come back soon.. ll miss u a lot...
Hey, can you please do the Moon-walk dance for me?
That sure would make me happy!
Thanks, hun!
I know you'll get to it soon!
Thanks for the email.
I'll be in touch on the weekend.
I promise I'll try my very best, anyway!
HUGS & KISSES!
Margie
i left a comment here...but some problem came durin publishin it :(
anyway i'll miss u keshi...i really will...jus tk cr of urself...
muuuuuuuuuaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh!!!!
u of course know how much v love u n ur posts, ryt:)
so if u go away do come back quick...u deserve ur time off but dun take a lot of it:D
as for people n their fakeness...u said u dun want textbook answers...well, as I look at it there are only two ways to deal with such situations...either ignore and move on[no point throwing stones in the slime] or else just confront them head on and give them a piece of ur mind[they may change or they may disappear after that]!!!
tk care dear:)
u knw how much v love u n ur posts ryt:)
so if u do go away for a time off, do come back in a jiffy!!!
as for ppl n their fakeness, as I luk at it thr r just two ways of dealing with such situations...either ignore them n move on[no point throwing stones in the slime] or else confront them head on n gv them a piece of ur mind[they may disappear or they may change after this].
tk care dear:)
Hey keshi...take all the time off you need cuz we'r not goign anywhere too soon. Clear your head. Get rid of all those who give you negative vibes or give it right back to them if you can't get rid of them. tell them they have pout on weight and start quoting cholestrol and heart attacks risk stats to them. trust me, they'l not want to bother you too soon again :P
No Text book answers! Actually there aren't ANY answers. You Just be...
Take your time off, have fun and come back when you're ready,
Doesn't mean that we won't miss you...
bye bye from bloggers :O
now who will read my blog...
i kno u mush be shcared of my pic on the top of my blog :P
temme..that's why u r leaving.isn't ??? :(
Hi Keshi,
We understand, get recharged and you will succeed in whatever you are doing or planning to undertake.
Regards
Prabir
Hey girl... i can understand what u feeling.. i have been there.. felt that...
But like you said you dont need to explain yourself to others ... they love you.. they vl get to understand about you as well..
The best thing to do now is be yourself and be proud about it too ...
Dont go away babes... we will miss you..
Hugzzzzzzz... Take care ...
Hey, girl
Have you done that Moon-Walk dance for me yet?
If not, hop right to it!!! LOL!
Well, I'm going to bed.
Nitey nite, Swt hrt!
Margie
this is an exercise you can do, it works for me. There are couple of song you should listen to in that order and in the way i ask you to do them. Get 45 minutes for this exercise.
First song:
Low Man's lyrics by Metallica: Listen it on moderate volume on speakers all alone, listen to every word, close the room when you listen this one.
Second one:
My sacrifice by Creed: Again same as above, but try to sing with this one.
Third one:
Suicide is painless by Manic street preacher: Listen on headphones with comfortable volume.
Fourth one:
Coming back to Life by Floyd: Loud on Speakers, while singing and moving.
Fifth Song:
I stand alone by Godsmack: Loudest on speaker, shout your heart with the song.
Sixth song:
So What by Metallica: Loudest, No singing just listen(if you prefer go headbangin.)
Seventh song:
Walk by pantera: just read the lyrics first and listen in after reading.
This should make you feel like "you don't give a fuck", try it.
Take your own long time,Keshi. i think this feeling is pretty coming. Once u get habituated to something and it becomes a part of our daily routine,v'll surly love doing it,but there comes another point of time where we get fed up of the same and thats when v need this big break.
Take care! Love you. :)
Hey i guess we all go through that phase, when we want to be accepted by our loved ones, but they reject you. but we need to move on....time heals everything. you take your break and come back soon, take care and hugsss
I can give you many answers but the best answer is always the one that you find inside you... and am sure the break would help you understand that...
take care da... cheers...
hey keshi..
i seriously don't think all of them fall in this category......"They are all so sweet with their sugar-coated words but are totally the opposite with their actions"
the point is you need to choose the right kind of ppl to hang out with.. they matter a lot cos they r the one whom u can talk and be open.. for eg i've a friend her logic is simple.. she says she is for her friends be it they r right or wrong.. cos wen u r right all r with u wen u r wrong u r alone and someone has to be with u to support.. that touched me.. but yes wen u r wrong u need ppl to guide u as well.. which is also imp...
anyway..
pls choose the right person.. thats it... and u reaching so far in life don't tell me u can't make out wen ppl fake! i won't accept that :)
hey girl btw.. i went to goa for 4 days and i'm backkkk all rejuvinated i lovedddddddd the trip :)
i'll send u few snaps it was funnnnnn :):):) missed u loadsss he he he
happy journey :)
Hugs Sweetheart. Please take your time.
Rejection, betrayal, ridicule are not easy emotions to handle. When confronted with this I go thru anger, meltdown, sorrow and finally acceptance. Please take care of yourself.
You will be missed.
muwahs
Another little poem for you, Keshi
I know there lives inside of me
a spirit of joy, incredibly free
I feel it often
I'm blessed that it's there
whenever my life seems filled with despair
When winds of injustice toss me around
I look to the spirit, where calming is found.
It shows me a sunset, a rich golden glow
soothing my senses, helping me know
that injustice, conflict, joy as well
are part of living, stories to tell
of the life that is mine-
my personal trial
lessons in living to be learned with a smile!
Never stop smiling, never!
Now, I'm really going to bed!
HUGGGGGGGZ!
Margie
Hey K!!
Those people must be berserk!!!
I won't say to ignore...cause I know that the mind does not have an ignore button!!! And I would neither stop you from your 'much-wished' solitude...i that's what you want...But I would surely want to tell you that there is no use of holding people who were never yours to begin with.....it's like sand...the more tightly you clutch...the more falls through the minuscule voids.....They don't want to be in your presence....then let it be...stop being like 'Monica'[ from F.r.i.e.n.d.s. :P]......pleasing everyone is impossible!!!
Hope you get what I'm saying.....
Hope to see your cheerful self very soon!!
Love you
Take Care
aaayyyyoooooooooooo!!! :( :( :( blog world sucks without ya..:( :( And abt wots goin thro u,I can so very well understand for me myself have been getting that outsider vibe from ppl arbd.,And wen ppl u feel and to whom u are close with give u such an impression,U just feel miserable.so much so that,I dun rly like talkin to ppl now.Coz,u dunno whats in their minds.
Take care n be back sooon..K??U shall be missed pretty badly.. :( :(
Hugzzzzzzzzzzzz...........
Nikhil
hmm keshi.. take ur time :)
ull b missed :)
take care..
hugz!!
hope that this break works for yaa and you come back refreshed with ur head and heart clear of such negativity ... we shall be waiting :)
take care mate and yea you can keep dropping by our blogs though .... :)
while spending time in the banks of the lonely Walden pond Henry David Thoroe writes about solitude...J.Krishnamurthy too write about the importance of being lonely.Being lonely essentially never means away from living beings(ofcourse we never can).it is away from thoughts.Is there a space inside our brain where thought has no importance?
it was interesting to note what some of the most modern biologists (VS Ramachandran-phantoms in the brain)think about "self"..self they say is too a memory.like the same memories we have of others..
so it one can find spaces where thought ceases to exist..there loneliness is..
how will we find it?
zen monks say..
drop the question and the search
all wishes..
take care
:)
Keshi,
Let me first begin with please do take a break and get over this insecure feeling. I have met many persons, relatives / friends / colleagues, who are double faced. Best is to carry on with what you feel is right and your conscience allows it. If I start narrating incidents of my having been double crossed by those whom I trusted or loved it will make at least a decent sized book. Just be your ownself and have faith in your capabilities. To hell with such characters. Go on take a well needed solitude. Hugs with a kiss on forehead. But GET BACK SOON.
Take care
any answer given would be a text book one sadly .. the only answer that will seem practical is the one you will come up with on your own ... have your catharsis ... hope to see you sooner .. viva .. Forever .. right ???
Keshi! I guess this is why I feel the way I do when It comes to blogging now.. I used to blog everyday but I am not only burnt out I am sick of people! *SIGH* I can blame it on school and work all I want, but when it comes down to it..It is some of the remarks that makes me wanna say Forget it..
I need time also.. In your time off I hope you do get that sense of peace that one needs in order to be alive again in this MAD world of blogging..
One thing, Let them Haters just kiss your arse! There is something in you and or your writings that makes them, he, she or all of them Jealous.. I don't really blame you for the time that you need.
I also read that post you told me to look at! Talk about expression, you did it girl and you did it BIG girl style.. I hope the Direction in which you are going to take is a direction that will bring you to your Happy place..The fake ones will read this post of yours and still not have a clue. Sad but true. I think everyone is going to be sitting right here waiting for you to come back.. Sorry I took up so much Comment space again! hahahaha
G-d Bless You and have a great time In the New Direction that you are looking for!
Love Ya,
Ne
Keshi-
"I'm feeling very tired, tired of everything and everyone"
I understand you, Keshi. My feeling is very similar. I'm feeling tired too. Many times.
If you feel tired you see everything in different way, believe me.
About family, friends - I think the same many times.
But... probably it is not the truth. I believe that your family and friends love you and respect you. I am sure!
When I am very tired, and my mood is down... I like to take break...no calls, no meet people... be only with myself/doesn't matter if somebody think - what a egoist/
no blogging too.
The break from people, from usually, daily actions is the best - for me. Sometimes we need short or long break.
Keshi, you are hard working blogger. Almost every day is a new, beautiful post, you answer and revisit each of your visitors.
This is great, fantastic... but it takes your all free time.
Then you feel...you are tired.
It is normal.
I decided stop blogging/visiting in regular way. Only if I am ready and need it, and first of all if I Can.
I love my blogger friends but I understood
that it doesnt mean regular visit, if I cannot.
The True friends understand.
I think that only You know what is good for you. If you need break..take a break.
Write when you can and what you like.
(Please, Not goodbye)
And remember that you are blogging for yourself.
Love & hugsss
u'll be missed keshi..so come back soooooooooooon! (((((((keshi))))))
tc hun..!
Nice post. Thoughtful. People expect everyone to be a clone of themselves. If anything is different and a little higher(as per whose standards, i hear you asking) than their own, they cannot tolerate.
Cheers to your bold individuality.
Learn to IGNORE them Keshi!
I know and understand what you are saying. I used expect people to respect and understand me as I do them but they just don't. I have cried buckets when I was young but one day you wake up and say "I will never let anybody bring me down ever again" and stand up to them.
That's the way to go, do what you like and try not to let others in. Treat them as they treat you.You are a mommy now, you have to live and be happy for that child remember? Hugs to you! :)
Heya Keshi. *HUGZ*
Keshi dear,I really dont want to comment anything on how it feels on being ignored or misunderstood by the people u love coz i really know how it is :(
And as far as taking a break is concerned,go ahead if you want it that way! Do everything that can make you happy.
I've started waiting for you already.(silently, I am praying that you don't take any break coz i would miss you soo much)
Come back soon sweets.And enjoy the break!
Hugsss :-)
Expectations kills a relations ship ...start njoing giving.Once you do that you will feel happy abt everyone and love everyone ...This is that text book answer. But I think its possible to try it ..and hey This is the best you can do ..Do not stop blogging...Take a break....I am not regular blogger as you know but whenever I do I make it a point to read you blogs. You write beautifully. I feel as if my close buddy is trying to share her emotions with me and might be the same for many people. Not everyone is always with you for ever. So pick someone who Likes you the way you are. there is a saying in tamil " Virumbi ponal vilaghi pogum, vilaghi ponal virumbhi varum". Just let go things for a while Things will get back to You .. and hey words never fake the interpretations may ...
Of course it is an uneasy task to forget our loved ones.
Clouds rain in hope of collecting vapors back, if there is only rain and no vapors is what happens between relationships to leave in drought.
I remind the words Martin Luther King III said today ‘students should keep pardon others as there lifetime sacrifice’. Let’s forgive them and move on.
There are many signals on our road, but don’t we stop and go ones green lights on. I hope you receive green signal soon to make clear your path for a smooth ride at blogvilla! Hugss, come back soon dear.
i can understand completely. Have been through it. Its like all they do is put u down. Just dont let it botther u. I know its hard to do but seriously, dont let it get to u! cheer up! :)
hey dear take care & have a nice break!
P.S As far as ur Qn is answered..well luckily I haven't encountered such relatives in my life.
Dear Keshi,
This post makes me sad, much more than you would think.
I wouldn't know who is sincere and who is not...just the same way that you felt I was playing with emotions...
this world seem a farce or real as you make it....and so I felt there ought to be a discipline in the communication on the virtual space....and the changing shades of people is one thing I couldn't tolerate...and written words definitely communicate that...don't you agree?
I do no wish to go back in time on any issue, and I have closed comments at mine for all, forever...
if you wish, you may publish this comment...if not discard it.
anyway, i wish that you come back to blogging with full energy and verve...and if you so wish I shall be here too...
wishes,
devika
Just take a breather. Things will return to normalcy soon.
Take care.
*hugs*
Peace. Be well.
*hugz*
u cant fite the world, keshi...any change that you want can only come from u...let it go...dont ignore it...go into it...find out why it really bothers u...explore it...become aware of it..in witnessing you will dissapitate it...
forgive the world keshi...
Nobody can ever been 100% of what you want them to be sweetie. And some people are just fake. There really isn't anything you can do about that. You haven't made them fake and you aren't the only one they are that way to. They're just crappy people.
Hope you come back soon! ;-)
hey kesh,
I hope you encounter a lot of feel good stuff during this break and come back with the same lively spirit we have always seen !!
You will be missed badly though and plz come back soon... lots of love to you :)
Aww...its so heart breaking not to see u in blogville. Although i hav made some gr8 friends here...but whenever u r not around there's this void which nobody can fill! But i m not gonna be selfish and ask u to stop coz i know u need to feel good, u need to refresh ur mind and most importantly u need to be real u to continue here!u r one of the most real ppl tht i hav none so far babe, and i think its bcoz of this tht u get hurt so easily. I knw sometimes its impossible to ignore ppl, especially those who r close to u. Its really difficult to cope in such situations coz they simply drain u of ur emotions and feelings!
But after saying all of this i knw one thing and tht is: Keshi is a fighter and she will never give up. she may take some time off but she will never abandon the ppl who love her and care for her. :) Dont worry babe u'll b fine soon! And i m sure u knw tht this is a part of life and we cant do away with it. Feel free to mail me and dont hesitate to write abt anything tht u r feeling bad abt. I jus wanna say tht i m there. Take care! *Hugs*
I have been feeling this way for ages, Keshi. I kind of just focused on only posting and not visiting. It helped a bit, but, it turns out, blogging is a social thing. That's the part that can just drain you sometimes. It's hard enough to stay in contact with your 3-D loved ones and friends, let alone maintain Facebook, Myspace, Twitter, Youtube, and Blog friends.
You deserve a break:)
I won't give you any guff - like having you around!
Hi hun
Hope you have a good day at work.
Watch out for that Boss Man..LOL!
HUGGGGGGGGGZ!
Margie
I have always been the oddball in my family and have had to grow a thick layer of scales to handle the rejection and lack of understanding that I have gotten from my family.
Making matters even worse is that the woman I married expected me to quickly fit in some sort of Ozzy and Harriett mold she had ready for me. I readily admit that I made my own bed when I pursued a relationship with the woman I married.
I have no easy answer about being forced to stay on the same old road repeating the same tiresome behaviors and dealing with people who expect you to understand them but will not make an effort to do the same for you. For me I started blogging to deal with the maddening lack of companionship and understanding. Along with planning the day when I can step off this crazy ride and begin to live my life like i want regardless of what others may think.
Take care, rest and have fun. Try not to think about those people and when you are ready come back.
hey babes.....we all need such times where we r own r own fighting against the world.....i guess the way u shud look at it is....its just to make u stronger from inside...preparing u to deal with people. i know its something tats bothering u but i'd say just change the way u look at it...
also if yur feeling choked up....take a break rejenuvate yurself n yes readers like me will be there to welcome u once again...looking forward to read yur posts.
hugs n take care
A Friday poem...for you, my friend!
A SPECIAL MIXTURE
Friendship is a special mix...
One smile of cheer
A listening ear
One hand to hold
A love that's bold
No knead for dough
Just need to know
'Til my life's end
You are my friend!
With love....
Margie
tnxx ALL for the great LOVE here!
I just updated this same post. I wrote it in a much better way to suit my current mood. Read it when u hv time.
Once again, THANK YOU! See ya all when I see u next. TC, be good, be well and keep smiling.
Much Love
Keshi.
Hi,Keshi-as I said in my email,if you feel you need a break,you should take it. A bit of introspection at such time always helps,and,I'm sure it'll help you to think over what the people who trouble you,who seemingly don't care,really are-opportunists,who value you so long as they can benefit from you,and,if they don't see any,you might as well be invisible..sad,but,a harsh truth of life,and,if anyone says they don't know any such people,they must be wearing blinkers.Coz that's the way God has made life for humans-always a test or two or three coming up at every stage.
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So,take care,have a nice break(Short,I hope..haha)and come back thoroughly refreshed and ready to say 'World,here I am,and,it doesn't matter whether you care for me,because,I care for me!'..good luck!
I understand and I've felt this way before so taking a break from blogging is good for mind & soul :)
Yes, hope you'll be back sooner than expected and you do know that no matter what, we are friends forever Keshi.
We might not bond through blogging but you do know that I'll always be your good host if you come to visit Singapore and I'll call you if ever I do 'hop' Down Under.
Love you Keshi and take care :D
{{BIG BIG BEAR HUGZ}}
Keshi,
I read it...again we are so much on the same boat, but may be in our own distinct ways...
See my latest at Certain Kind...you would know what I said...
and then I hope you be back, to be the way you are...you will always be loved for that, i feel...
Many in this world want to make us the way they want to be...but never give in..I am sure you would agree when i say, its like killing oneself, before death...yet not dying!
My best wishes always remain...
wishes,
devika
wishes,
devika
Dear Keshi..just take a break and come back.o will be truly missed.Brought tears to my eyes.Don't stay away too long/Sending you a warm big hug from across the miles.You are one of my favorite blogger friend.Luv ya!
Hey!!!Blogrolled through Mayz's blog...
sad ,u r away...but im sure will have to enough to read about in ur blog:)
so girl...go and spend some time with urself...and nothing else will reeally matter after that...:)..
Have Fun...:)
Hugzzzzzzzz...
Take care keshi..I think you really need this..whenever you come back we will be here for you!!
tc sweets will miss u..
urs..hemu..
huge hugs !!!
take your time. but stop by in my blogspot when you feel like. and say hi from time to time. promised?
you rock, bebe :)
Hi Keshi!!!I am going to miss you.Please come back soon.Remember I will be dropping in here regularly waiting for you:)
love you too Keshi girl :)
see? i'm bidding good bye with a smile :)
i hope you come back sooner than i expect!
take good care.
awww.. i'll really miss u..
i know one has to listen to one's thoughts n feelings.. n has to take that risk.. n look out for something new.. something more challenging.. something that makes us feel alive.. and not make us feel bad about the way we are.. no questions asked.. no fingers raised.. n no rude comments passed unncessarily without realising what we are ..
i really do hope u return back soon.. and i do hope we can be in touch otherwise.. my email id is anilathampy@gmail.com..
do write to me when u can.. would love to hear from u..
am sure u'll be fine.. take care.. muaaahhh.. keep smiling always.. ..
Good Luck and best wishes to you Keshi.
hey Keshi, loved reading your blog..... Hope you come back soon.....
Adios Keshi
for now
I am pretty sure
u r not heartless
les Yes
but not ....
Hey sexy ... enjoy your time, focus on you and know that you have made very many people happy to visit you here, daily, in blogland.
You have a warmth and genuineness (is that a word?) that few others have here, where we rely on anonimity to hide our real selves.
You opened yourself up for the world to see and the world fell in love with you.
Take care of yourself Keshi.
xox
ADIOS-Tears tears boo hoo more tears sob. XXXXXX
what happens to your roomies??
awww love you soo much!!!!
ill miss ya loads!!! :((
just when ill be coming back you go away.
anyway, hope itll do you good.if yu feel it isnt working, come back immediately.
goodbye with a positive note to see you back soon
hey...howdy??looong time eh??now im trying to come back to blogging and u r moving off??awww cmon....
Hope you find what you're looking for and come back soon...
Keep rocking and live life Queen style :)
cheers,
adisha
I'll be celebrating my third blogversary after about a week. I remember you were one of the earliest bloggers I had 'met'. I had a wonderful time with you.
Try to come back when you are renewed and refreshed. I know we all need 'me time'. Hugs.
Sorry to see you go Keshi, but given my own recent hiatus I can fully understand. It's not enough that life gets in the way... blogging in general just seems to have lost its way somehow :(. Maybe all us disenfranchised bloggers need to start our own closed social networking site, free from goons sending us stupid "gifts" and invitations to dumb causes. Are ya with me Keshi??!!!? I'll do it!!!
I know you'll be back soon!
A little birdie told me so!
I'm off to the the mountains in the morning for a much needed holiday.
Be back in a week.
TC, hun!
Hope you are enjoying the weekend.
Margie
While you wait for the return of Keshi, You ae invited to call at my blog.
c u soon gal..
Hi Keshi
It's Saturday night and all the songs are gone. There's no fever left, nor are there anymore Saturdays in the park. You talk about going in another direction, and that’s what we must do to keep our company going. We’re in good shape; however, we want to keep it that way. With major Canadian communication companies seeing the red and talking major cuts and drastic changes to over-the-air-operations, we know it can only get worse.
So, our blogs will keep posting for now, but I feel it’s time to deal with more important matters.
It’s been a nice spin.
So long for now
Bev
Gal... It is good to take break once in a while... go, explore, njoy and if ur heart allows then come back with more energy and strength... Njoy life... God Bless You... :)
Hey K!!
So how's the weekend fairing???
You know what I really do not like the recent UPDATE!!!
It sounds like it would be a while till I see you here!! And I hate it!!!
Please come back soon!!
Miss you!!
Love you!!
Take Care
I searched for tandoori chicken and a chilled beer and I landed on ur blog.
;)
*Suprise Suprise*
Well think about what AR Rahman said after wining one of his two Oscars.
"All my life I had a choice of hate and love. I chose love and here I am."
hey flush them all whoo gies u touble..
n get back to normal soon dear..
when i start reading ur blog..it lyk getting addicted sort of..
TC dear
>:D<
hey Suresh!
**In your one earlier post, you were talking of listening to inner voice. Here you are talking of the way the people treat you.
And how does that not relate to what my inner voice says right now?
What it says right now is to GO. Hence Im going Suresh. How long it wud take to come back, even I dun know.
tnxx alot for understanding!
Keshi.
Silvara ty sweetie!
As always I knew u'd u'stand how I feel.
And how will I ever be able to FORGET u? Someone wud hv to kill me for that to happen.
HUGZ I love ya too!
Keshi.
ty for u'standing my feelings Suma!
*HUGZ*
Keshi.
What a beautiful poem yet again Margie. HUGS n ty!
We spoke last week :) so u know where I stand.
Luv ya always!
Keshi.
HAHA Soul ty! ;-)
Keshi.
aww ty Mayz!
no ways! u will never fall into that category, cmon u know that :)
Keshi.
hey ty Rat HUGS!
yep. I know u'll u'stand.
Keshi.
HAHA Margie Im moon-walking all the time...even as I walk to work
;-)
Keshi.
Mayz I know u will miss me...but its all a matter of hvn me in ur heart...then u wont miss me :)
Keshi.
ty CN I know u truly care.
**...either ignore and move on[no point throwing stones in the slime] or else just confront them head on and give them a piece of ur mind[they may change or they may disappear after that
good one there!
Keshi.
aww ty SMM!
**tell them they have pout on weight and start quoting cholestrol and heart attacks risk stats to them
lol ur cute girl!
I dunno when I'll be bak...but for now, I wanna go. And ty for u'standing!
Keshi.
hey ty Rakesh!
**You Just be
I agree.
And now Im gonna just be...just be alone for a lil while :)
aww I'll miss ya too!
Keshi.
hehe no Bro Im not leaving cos ur superb pic :)
I just need some time away from all the speed of how things happen here...how ppl change...how ppl take each other for granted...how ppl just walk in and out of ur life as and when they please and still expect u to be here cheering em all the way...
u know, I think all my deeds here are now done. there's nothing more to say, nothing more to give. Atleast for now, thats how I feel.
:)
HUGS TC!
Keshi.
hey ty Prabir!
:)
u TC too...and all the best!
Keshi.
aww ty Charmed_one!
but if I am to be myself again, and laugh n dance, and write w.o. a care, I hv to go away for a lil while...and come bak if and when Im ready again. I hope u u'stand.
Keshi.
hey Margie :) Hope ur hvn fun in the mountains.
TC luv!
Keshi.
ty Anuz! :)
Great songs there! Music is a big part of me. wherever I go, whatever I do, I take my music with me. u know that already hehe.
**This should make you feel like "you don't give a fuck", try it.
Thats why Im going :) I think all these years I CARED too much...thats why I loved this space and cudnt leave at all. Now I dun give a damn. Suddenly I feel so free...free of attachment to this place.
Even if I come back some day, it'll be a different avatar...same Keshi, but different aura :)
Keshi.
ty Archana!
**Once u get habituated to something and it becomes a part of our daily routine,v'll surly love doing it,but there comes another point of time where we get fed up of the same and thats when v need this big break.
ur spot on! Thats why Im doing this...taking a new road...the road less travelled.
Keshi.
aww ty Moi!
TC!
Keshi.
hey ty Arv!
**I can give you many answers but the best answer is always the one that you find inside you
well-said! And my inner voice right now tells me to take a good break. And thats what Im doing.
u hv always been there for me. I'll never forget that Arv.
u TC ok. HUGS!
Keshi.
hey Uttsy tnxx hun! :)
**the point is you need to choose the right kind of ppl to hang out with
I cant CHOOSE my friends Uttsy...I wont do that. Every friend is different. u can only get to know them after u associate em for a while. And on the net, its so v hard to build a fence around ya. Its a wide place and a hard place to get to know ppl instantly. It takes time.
besides, I dun like to hang around with the same kinda ppl all the time. I dun always wanna be with the ppl I LIKE. That wont make me grow as a person. Thats why I leave my blog public...to hv exposure to all kinds of ppl from ard the world. It adds to the richness of my spirit.
So I can never make my blog private. Then I'd be living in my own delusional world. I will never grow Uttsy.
But anyways, ppl make mistakes. I do too. And Im not going away cos Im hurt. I just need a break. I just need some time alone...I just want to do something NEW. :)
*HUGZ*
Keshi.
ty Truthful and same to ya! :)
Keshi.
hey ty Lavida!
I was hurt, angry etc b4. now I've calmed down. Im looking forward to a peaceful journey...a new one. Dunno what it'll be, but I know I need a new road to travel on.
u TC too luv! Gonna miss ya tonnz!
*HUGZ*
Keshi.
What a life-giving poem Margie, TY!
**I look to the spirit, where calming is found.
Loved how u put it. Thats exactly wut Im doing now. :)
HUGZ!
Keshi.
aww ty Akshat!
I know u truly care. Tho ur new to my world, I know u u'stand me and ur a true friend. I can 'sense' it. :)
haha @Monica! thats who I truly am *rolling eyes*
**But I would surely want to tell you that there is no use of holding people who were never yours to begin with.....it's like sand...the more tightly you clutch...the more falls through the minuscule voids..
I so agree. ur spot on there!
hvn said all that, I just need a break Akshat...thats why Im going. I just need to put everything to a stop and spend some time with my spirit...away from the clutter n noise. Away from the madding crowd.
u TC ok!
Keshi.
aww Nikhil :( Im really sorry to make u feel so sad. I feel awful leaving u all. But I must go. This is imp for my heart n soul.
Think abt it like this. A car needs a good Service every 6 months or so right? :) Likewise Keshi needs to stop on her speeding wheels and get herself rejuvenated. And thats why she's going.
Dun be sad...atleast we met each other here.
TC be well!
Keshi.
hey ty Richa HUGS!
Keshi.
hey ty Hiren! :)
Im here now but in a few days time, I wont be around. I'll drop by some blogs whenever I can, but I cant promise u that either. I just wanna go away from it all for now...thats why. So dun be sad if Im not in ur blog.
U TC OK. And ofcourse, keep putting up those lovely quotes for the world to learn from!
Will miss ya...
Keshi.
ty MIP!
I love ur comment. I learnt so much!
**so it one can find spaces where thought ceases to exist..there loneliness is..
how will we find it?
zen monks say..
drop the question and the search
Spot on! Blogging was a QUEST for me...and now Im dropping it all for awhile. somehow I feel there's nothing more to look for, nothing more to give here.
u TC n ty for everything!
Keshi.
hey ty Jack!
Im not feeling insecure, just that I want to be WORDLESS for a while :)
u TC and keep writing ok! It was really great knowing someone like u.
Keshi.
aww ty Reclamation!
**the only answer that will seem practical is the one you will come up with on your own ...
well-said.
:) I dunno if/when I'll return. But plz TC and stay happy ok.
Keshi.
ty Ne for u'standing!
yeah sometimes we all need to get away from all the hustle and bustle. And too much info/advice can cramp ur style.
** I hope the Direction in which you are going to take is a direction that will bring you to your Happy place..The fake ones will read this post of yours and still not have a clue
yeah I hope the new direction Im taking will hv beautiful flowers, trees, lakes, birds and greenery as I drive down it. Just like how it was here in Blogville at the beginning.
Like I said in this post, all beautiful things come to an end. Every new direction has an end too...and then we hv to find another new direction. Thats what life is abt.
HUGZ I'll miss ya!
Keshi.
hey ty Krys!
ur comment made alot of sense.
**But... probably it is not the truth. I believe that your family and friends love you and respect you. I am sure!
hehe yeah. I spat the dummy with my friends and loved-ones, but I cant do w.o. em, just like they cant do w.o. me :)
I u'stand wut u mean. The Speed at which things happen in blogville can tire us and make us feel stressed out. At the beginning, I used to blog for myself and for few friends. Then teh crowd grew and some started taking me for granted. But none of that matters to me...cos Im a free spirit, I can do things real fast and Im still here for myself. but now I need to go...cos I need to experience something new. Something different...something fresh and exciting.
HUGS TC and u know I love ya Krys!
Keshi.
aww I'll miss ya too Trinaa! I'll never forget ur kindness towards me...u always cared.
HUGS TC now!
Keshi.
hey ty Anitha!
** People expect everyone to be a clone of themselves
so true! it chokes me sometimes.
ppl find it so hard to accept another for who they r. instead they try to see THEMSELVES in others. It cannot be done in such a vast world of personalities.
Anyways, Im meeting u just when Im abt to leave too :) Im sorry abt it. I hope I get a chance to catch up with u again if and when I return.
TC!
Keshi.
aww ty Asha!
**I used expect people to respect and understand me as I do them but they just don't
I agree. but by going away, I hope to clear my head n heart. I hope it does me some good.
Im not upset with anyone here. Im tired :) I just need a nice refershing break Asha.
And yes Im a mummy too hehehe...so I dun wanna be a cranky ol momma to my kid LOL! So let me maintain my sanity and love by going on a sabbatical :)
MWAH I'll miss ya!
Keshi.
hey Amy HUGZ! :)
Keshi.
hey Akanksha ty sweetie!
**I've started waiting for you already.(silently, I am praying that you don't take any break coz i would miss you soo much)
awww :( Im gonna miss u all so veru much too! This is not something Im capable of doing JUST LIKE THAT. It took me alot of time n tought to arrive at this post. I just have to do it, for my own good and everyone else's too. Thats why Im going girl.
TC ok LUV YA!
Keshi.
hey ty Badshah!
It was so nice to see a comment from u after such a long time :)
**Just let go things for a while Things will get back to You ..
Thats what Im doing. Im letting go of my blog for a while, cos this is where all the connections r. Let me be alone now and see how I go. :)
TC!
Keshi.
hey ty Jeevan!
u were one my oldest and treasured mates here. I can never forget ya.
** if there is only rain and no vapors is what happens between relationships to leave in drought.
I agree. Beautifully put.
u TC ok. LOVE YA HUGZ!
Keshi.
ty Ash!
:)
Keshi.
ty Arunima!
Its not only relatives, everywhere ppl r like that. They judge u always :)
HUGZ TC!
Keshi.
ty Devika!
Keshi.
Kartz hey tnxx!
I dun think things will return to that same beautiful spirit again Kartz, sadly. Everything goes thru a beginning, a maturity and an end. I think I've reached the end. I feel so numb right now, but comfortably numb :)
TC ok and all the best to ya!
Keshi.
ty Tys!
**u cant fite the world, keshi...any change that you want can only come from u...let it go...dont ignore it...go into it...find out why it really bothers u...explore it...become aware of it..in witnessing you will dissapitate it...
Thats what Im doing Tys. I cant fight the world, so Im going away...to be by myself. Cos thats the only solution that WORKS.
**forgive the world keshi...
d u think Im someone who never forgives? :) I forgive easily but it takes time for me to forget. That time is what I need right now. I need a fresh fill. :)
TC ok!
Keshi.
aww ty Jay!
usually I dun abide by anyone. Im me and I'd like to be accpepted just the way I am, just like how I accept em just the way r.
But sometimes, expectation jump the normal span and harass ur spirit. And thats when u need to be alone. And thats what Im doing now Jay.
I hope u u'stand..I know u will. Cos u hv always been really sweet, kind and loving towards me. ur a genuine mate.
HUGZ TC!
Keshi.
Prashanti ty sweetie and I will miss ya too!
*HUGZ* TC!
Keshi.
hey ty Ria!
I know its so difficult for u to see me leaving, cos u love me alot :) HUGS! But I also know that u will u'stand how Im feeling. I trust u wud u'stand that I badly need this break.
**most importantly u need to be real u to continue here
Thats exactly wut it is. Im glad u realise that.
And even if I take a very long time or never come bak, its not that Im abandoning u. Cos I know I live in ur heart as much as u live in mine. The love has been shared already. We can never un-know each other now.
*HUGZ* I will miss ya Ria!
Keshi.
aww Grunty ty!
I u'stand..it can drain u sometimes.
**It's hard enough to stay in contact with your 3-D loved ones and friends, let alone maintain Facebook, Myspace, Twitter, Youtube, and Blog friends
I agree! Sometimes we get carried away with the Net r'ships but eventually we find out that not ALL r here for the real thing.
TC mate, luv ya always!
Keshi.
aww Phoso :(
I'll miss my phos!
Keshi.
hehehe Margie :)
HUGZY BUGZY!
Keshi.
hey ty BB!
ur comments always make me think more and grow from em...ur such a rich soul, for all that u've been thru.
**I have no easy answer about being forced to stay on the same old road repeating the same tiresome behaviors and dealing with people who expect you to understand them but will not make an effort to do the same for you.
thats exactly wut I was saying b4.
**For me I started blogging to deal with the maddening lack of companionship and understanding.
yep me too...but now even Blogville has become just like the real world. I've been here for nearly 5yrs now and it proves to me it's no different from the real world.
TC n HUGS! I'll see ya when I see ya next..maybe we'll meet again, on a different journey :) til then, I'll miss ya sorely!
Keshi.
aww ty Mia!
And tnxx alot for all ur cute emails. They made me smile.
** i know its something tats bothering u but i'd say just change the way u look at it...
Its hard to change the way u look at something unless u really make a step towards changing it. And that step right now is for me to leave. I hope it will help in the way I see these things in future.
HUGZ TC will miss ya mah Aussie mate!
Keshi.
WOW Margie ur superb with words!
**No knead for dough
Just need to know
how neat! :)
ur my friend for life too...and even if we never get a chance to meet in this life, Im sure we'll atleast meet in heaven...just look for a dark-haired girl trying to moon-walk on God's driveway. ;-)
Keshi.
hey Keshi! ;-)
hey ty Amit!
All ur emails and advice really brightened up my spirit.
**'World,here I am,and,it doesn't matter whether you care for me,because,I care for me!'.
hehe I hv always been like that. So I guess the next time Im here I might only hv to say 'That annoying girl is bak'
;-)
Keshi.
aww ty Shionge!
ur one of my oldest blog mates here...u hv been here right from the beginning. we hv been thru many christmases too :) I can never forget ur kind heart and ur true friendship towards me. TY n I love ya always!
*MWAH* I know I'll miss ya!
Keshi.
ty Devika!
**its like killing oneself, before death...yet not dying!
we die a million deaths living this life anyways.
u TC Devika!
Keshi.
Starry ur one of my deareste mates here too!
Together, we were here...together, we shall be.
Love ya HUGZ! *tearz*
Keshi.
Santasizing WC n ty!
**but im sure will have to enough to read about in ur blog
yes..there r 777 posts to read while Im way :) So plz help urself to em!
Keshi.
aww Hobo HUGGGGGGGGGZ!
ur award was my last out of the 100s I received here. Im taking it with me like a treasured memory.
U TC and keep writing those precious travel posts as always. Will miss ya my dearest mate!
Keshi.
ty so much Rahul!
Keshi.
ty Hemanth!
Keshi.
HUGZ Murane u rock too!
ofcourse I'll stop by ur home whenever I can. How can I forget such a warm place ha? :)
TC mate will miss ya!
Keshi.
hey Kunjal ty!
**Remember I will be dropping in here regularly waiting for you
aww but dun keep waiting...wut if I dun return? :(
Keshi.
ty Sunshine girl, ty for all the warmth and the sun in my life! I love ur aura.
HUGZ!
Keshi.
hey ty Ani for u'standing how I feel. It really means alot to me.
ty for the email addy too. Will say Hi some time.
u TC, stay happy and keep writing ok? MWAH I'll miss ya!
Keshi.
ty so much Priya and same to ya!
*HUGZ*
Keshi.
WC Aparna n ty!
there r 777 posts for u to read while Im away :)
Keshi.
ty Jimmy!
Keshi.
aww ty George!
Just when ur bak, Im leaving :( Im sorry to do this to u all, but i need a break. Besides, I hv each and everyone of u in my heart, yes...my heart is a big place hehe. I'll take u all wherever I go next.
*HUGZ* stay gold!
Keshi.
Vesty hey plz dun cry. HUGS! :)
I love ya u know that! u TC of ur sweet self now. I will drop by ur place whenever I can...to check on ya and ur health. hooroo for now!
Keshi.
hey Shrav!
**what happens to your roomies??
hmmm they'll hv to wait til I return. I emailed all of em :)
Keshi.
hey ty Harini!
:) I love ya too...I know u love to laugh and u enjoyed most of my funny posts. I hope I'll be bak with more of em, especially for ya.
HUGZ TC luv!
Keshi.
Goodbye my dear friend Joi, tight HUGGGGGGGGZ!
Keshi.
hey Mav!
**now im trying to come back to blogging and u r moving off??awww cmon....
u hv been away for more than a year now I guess :) We all hv our turns to be away right..and now its my turn, sadly.
TC n be well..keep writing...u hv alot of other friends here na Mav. HUGZ!
Keshi.
aww ty Adisha!
**Hope you find what you're looking for and come back soon
I hope so too. MWAH!
Keshi.
hey ty Julia!
**. I remember you were one of the earliest bloggers I had 'met'. I had a wonderful time with you.
aww I rem too! When is ur 3rd blog anniv, I mean the exact date?
HUGZ TC I'll miss ya luv!
Keshi.
hey Boy ty! ;-)
** It's not enough that life gets in the way... blogging in general just seems to have lost its way somehow
I know wut u mean. Its reached its saturation point I think hehe.
neat idea! so ur really gonna do it? hehehe...
luv ya mate, TC n be happy always. HUGS!
Keshi.
hv fun in the mountains Margie! :)
It was great talking to u the other day. u made me smile.
Keshi.
Vesty I'll def visit ya mate. Ur one of the few REAL ppl here :)
Keshi.
c ya Nirmal! :)
TC.
Keshi.
Bev it sure has been a nice spin!
**It's Saturday night and all the songs are gone. There's no fever left, nor are there anymore Saturdays in the park
awww...I kinda know wut u mean here...its all hit a point where there's no more to see, no more to give, no more to feel. All my pictures hv turned to black n white....
*HUGZ* stay happy anyways. U know I love ya..thats stale news hehehe ;-)
So long my dahlin Bev!
Keshi.
ty Resurgence! :)
TC ok!
Keshi.
aww Askhat :(
**You know what I really do not like the recent UPDATE!!!
I dun like it either..its true, I hate it. but I hv to go...or else the spark of my spirit will die here. I dun want that to happen. I want it to live...I hope u u'stand.
I know u really care...ur such a caring soul. ty for everything. I'll drop by ur blog whenever I can. So dun miss me too much :)
TC n be well ok. Luv ya A!
Keshi.
ty Tarun! :)
I never wrote abt Tandoor chicken in my blog haha!
**"All my life I had a choice of hate and love. I chose love and here I am."
and how does that apply to me?
Keshi.
hey Amrita ty sweetie!
u TC too...and rem to stay happy always, no matter what. HUGS! :)
Keshi.
And guys Im really sorry abt the MANY typos in my comment-repiles, I just noticed. I was in a hurry as usual :) Pardon me for that ok!
Keshi.
now I need to go...cos I need to experience something new. Something different...something fresh and exciting
I understand that needs, Keshi. You are absolutelly right.
But I started to cry and I know that in the morning my eyes will be red and swollen.
YOU ARE SPECIAL!!!
Love & hugsss
Keshi, I'd like to dedicate you my favorite Chopin Sonata Nr2 mtv.3 (my son Adam playes). It is in sad tone sonata, as my mood is sad today:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=akHMgXGUrrA
Glad to see u replying everybody again...:)Btw i was still waiting for the email...:)
aww Krys :( it's not easy for me too...but this is for the good of everyone.
Love u so much!
Keshi.
Krys u mesmerised me with that dedeication! Ur son plays really well WOW!
ty so much. Its just the kind of piano music I need to listen to right now...u made my heart smile.
Krys HUGS!
Keshi.
Southy yes I have to reply to ppl cos they hv poured their hearts n souls here for years...so I cant leave w.o. talking to them. I owe them alot. Thats why Im here for this post.
I'll email u as soon as I get some time ok. I wont be regular with emails either...after a while. I just want to detach from everything for awhile.
TC ok HUGS!
Keshi.
As u wish keshaayy...:)
I just emailed ya Southy.
Keshi.
this cant be happening!!! :(
hope to see u back soon
afterall its "hotel bloggerfonia" (u can check in any time u want but u can never leave) :p
awww I rem even I said this the same thing abt blogs, long time ago :)...u can check out anytime u want but u can never leave...
However times change and new directions r on the horizon...and I wanna go down a new road now Pri.
I'll be here answering comments for a while. But after a few days I'll be gone.
u hv always been kind to me and I will always hv u in my heart. ppl will always rem how u made them FEEL...so, I can never forget ya Pri. HUGGGGGGGGZ n TC luv!
Keshi.
Whitney Huston is still alive? She must be in her 100s by now...
Do take care Keshi!
now wat have i done u replied to me as i was a stranger...u dint even reply to my mails..:(..
urs..hemu..
oyee it was just too tight
:P
will miss you sweets
come back soon
Good Morning, dear Keshi!
I am very happy that I met you.
You are the beautiful flower in blogland. I will be miss you!
I wish you good luck and many blessings in your break time, in your new direction.
May your dreams come true, and this beautiful little baby-boy be with you very soon.
God bless you!
Love you!
Hope you will be here after break.
awwwwww K
First of all...it took me ages to find my reply....there like a gazillion people who don't want you to go!! :P :D
But if this 'break' is what you really want....then have it....and enjoy it to the max!!
'haha @Monica! thats who I truly am *rolling eyes*'...you know Monica was my favorite of the three girls....and Chandler...in boys!!
Keep the spark alive!!
And though you may drop by but I'd still miss...your from the heart posts!!
Love you K
You TC too...
The seasons will soon change so will the swan's songs.
These times have always changed so will the tides of the sea.
Wishing u all the happiness for all the tides, times and seasons.
You going may be winter but i await spring to welcome u back...
So long Blogville Jockey.
*Hugs*
You will be missed in blogland. It's good to take a break every now and again.
Keshi: I was thinking more like another crash landing in the jungle. Now that really was something to remember.XOXOXSoooh X
LOL Phoso no she's not 100! She'a abt 60 maybe...
Keshi.
u too Rakesh and ty for everything!
Keshi.
Hemanth TC ok.
Keshi.
aww Joi I'll miss ya too...
Keshi.
aww Maria luv that means alot to me. HUGZ I love ya lady! U r so kind, compassionate, beautiful and giving.
**May your dreams come true, and this beautiful little baby-boy be with you very soon.
Baby Dee will receive all ur love and best wishes soon...I'll pass it on :)
MWAH so long darl!
Keshi.
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