Together & Apart

I overheard this interesting convo between 2 chicks in the elevator today:

Chick A: I love him and he loves me, but we can't seem to start living together

Chick B: If you 2 love each other why is it so hard to live together?

Chick A: You know, you can love someone so very much but living together is a whole different ballgame...it can wreck things between us...we don't wanna risk it...

Is this true? I mean can you love someone alot but not live with them under the same roof, just cos it may wreck the relationship? If that's true, what is love all about? Can living together kill the love you have for one another? What about our families then? Is this why they say that 'absence makes the heart grow fonder'? Then what about 'out of sight, out of mind'? Also, is this why some really close people who live under the same roof take each other for granted? Is that why they fight alot than they do with outsiders? So, do you think living apart will save the love between 2 people than it would when living together? Does physical proximity bore humans? Tell me, share your experiences and thoughts on this please...can you be together, yet apart...can you be apart, yet together? Or can that love fade away when living together, just like the sketch on the sand (see first pic) can be washed away by the waves, cos it lives too close to the waves....

one more question...do you think you need a break from Keshi? Would our love and friendship be safe and secure if we didn't live together anymore in Blogville? It seems some people find my constant presence here boring and too overpowering, and some seem to have taken it for granted. It's kinda similar to what Chick A said...living together and being around all the time can wreck things between us...true? Can Friends get tired of each other cos of the proximity? Not seeking for attention here, I just want an honest opinion...Thanks guys!


Current Music: Hard To Say I'm Sorry by Chicago

When Ted Bundy Is The Cupid!

What is it with men? They ask you if you'r single, they ask you if you're free for a drink, they ask you if you're ready for BED, they ask you if you can just remain 'casual'...and the notorious propositions continue. eeeeeeeeeks! Are men so cheap? I'm not a man-hater, neither am I a manless Biyatch lol, but one thing I can't stand is when men try so hard to 'score'...and purely for FUN? Here's a scenario:


Single, beautiful, smart and sensible girl is at a bar chatting with friends...she suddenly spots a handsome, decent-looking, well-dressed (add that sexy 'stubble' to it) man of her dreams, and she can't believe that something like it even came that close to her! The guy spots her too, and the eye-contact continues. This may be love at first sight but hey that SIGHT bit is enough for the time being, so they both enjoy each other's 'glances' for now. And then he like a true gentleman, walks upto her and asks if he could talk to her. And she, with cupids playing violins in her head and butterflies running a marathon in her stomach, excuses her mates and walks with him for that lil getting-to-know chat. All's well so far. And then after about 10min into talking, he displays his brain's capacity by saying 'I'm not looking for love...I just wanna have fun' *the music dies abruptly and the cupids now look like fucked-up lil devils*. What exactly is he looking for then, a fuck-me-when-I-want-and-leave kinda babysitter?


Pardon my language, but what is really wrong with some men? Let me correct it, what is really wrong with MOST men? Do they think women should be available to satiate their sexual hunger anytime they want it? No matter what Male genetic design suggests, there's something call discipline and respect. A true gentleman won't speak like that, even if deep down his Baboon-bottoms is about to explode in carnal pleasure! Men say women are too picky and don't give them a chance blah blah blah, but how can you even think of giving a chance to a reincarnation of Jack-the-ripper?

Here's some things men should never ask a woman they've just met:

**Are you free tonight? *no, I'm Murderer tonight*
**Are you a virgin? *check it out with a torch then*
**Have you ever had sex before? *yes, I had it for dinner*
**How many men have you slept with? *including Bisexuals?*
**Do you like to play? *yes I like to play dumb*
**Do you wanna go casual? *how about a permanent 'position'?*
**Do you like oral sex? *only when it involves a toothbrush*
**Do you like having fun? *on a Rollercoaster, yes!*
**Wanna come to my place tonight? *btw your 'place' will soon be the local jail*
**Do you wanna go Condom-shopping with me? *is that for your brain Mr.Dick Head?*


Girls, feel free to add to this Ted-Bundyish questions that should never be asked from a woman they've just met. What say Men?

I'm an independent, outgoing, outspoken, friendly, smart and witty woman...but that doesn't mean I'm easy ok? Get that right.

PS: This last pic is of a man, starting his 'act' from the day he's born. *rolling eyes*


Current Music: Somethin' Stupid by Robbie Williams ft. Nicole Kidman

Everlasting Cardiac Connections...

Disclaimer: Please read the post before answering the question at the end. Thanks!

Thanks all for answering the question in that last post so brilliantly. Each one of you had a beautiful view of this world, in your own opinion, and it was refreshing to read your unique thoughts on that subject. So from all your answers, some of the most beautiful things in this world are Love (most popular one), Nature, A long road with trees on either side and drizzle falling like flowers, Motherhood, Watching the Sunrise/Sunset, Feelings we experience when in love, Children, Being at complete peace with yourself, Puppies, 'Knowing' a person, Friendship, Life with its ups and downs, Being good to your parents, Imagination, A hug from a friend, One's reflection, Togetherness, Touching each other by a common invisible thread weaved in love, Eyes, The wordless smile, Affection, Colors of life, The silver lining on dark grey clouds, A genuine smile, A night sky full of stars...etc etc. Arent those answers so very BEAUTIFUL!

Here's what the guy in that movie thought the most beautiful thing in the world is:

The most beautiful thing in this world is the 'connection' between two hearts.


And that's all he said and my brain started working on that line :). Isn't that so true? I mean, be it any kind of love, the connection between 2 hearts(souls) is just amazing and unbeatable! Cos, that connection ties 2 people's hearts together, in a bond that's intangible and invisible, yet one that exists for sure and one that is so very powerful. We can go around the world looking for fame, fortune and riches...we can achieve so much in life, we can have everything in life, be it academic/financial/physical glories...but if my heart can't 'connect' to another's, I believe I have nothing. When all my work is done, when I'm ready to lay down my crowns and swords...what am I left with? My heart. And if that heart has never felt love, never reached out to someone, never 'connected' with another, then I'm actually left with nothing.

And now to why I chose that pic of earrings. Basically because an earring will never look beautiful by itself...it takes 2 of them to make it beautiful and worthwhile. The connection between 2 earrings is what makes them beautiful and valuable. And so, I believe 'connections' are one of the most beautiful, pure and long-lasting things in life. Connections take us places and make us do things that we'd never have imagined doing. They have the power to change us. And if we look at all your answers to that question, underneath all of that lives a 'connection'...be it Friendship, Love, Affection, Nature, Motherhood, Hugs etc etc. That means all of you nailed it somehow WOW! So, stay connected...not to your mobile fone, to hearts :-).

I wanna dedicate this post and song to my old blog-mate Janice. She's no longer here on Earth...I bet she's flying with the angels, experiencing new planes of love and light. But we are still connected Jan...you're not even in this world today, but my heart 'knows' your heart, and that old friendship we shared will never die. You made me realise that knowing a person like you changed me as a person inside out...I take life one day at a time because of you and your short journey here on Earth. You made a difference in my life! And that connection is still alive and I wanna keep it alive as long as I live. I love and miss ya babez MWAH!

Question: Out of all the 'connections' you have/had so far, what is the one connection that really changed you as a person and why?


Current Music: Show Me The Meaning Of Being Lonely by BackStreet Boys

Shores Of Beauty...

Here are my answers to the picture mosaic from the last post. (check last post for the mosaic).

1. What is your first name?
Keshi, apparently is the name of a unique Pearl (read here). Hence the pic of a bracelet made of Keshi pearls.


2. What is your favorite food right now?
That was a pic of Nasi Lemak...one of my fav Malaysian dishes that's made of coconut rice, cucumber slices, small dried anchovies, roasted peanuts, fried egg, pickled vege, hot spicy sambal, that can be accompanied with chicken or beef. yummmm!


3. What High School did you go to?
I went to a Methodist school from Kindy to High School. I basically grew up with nuns, the Church and Christian influence. I love my school, the education and the knowledge it provided me with. Hence a pic of a Methodist church.


4. What is your favorite color?
Many different shades of Pink ofcourse! Nah, my bathroom and car aint Pink (not yet), so don't worry.


5. Who is your celebrity crush?
Forever-hot Gerard Butler...he's another fav 'dish' of mine ahemm! This time not Malaysian, but a hot Scottish lobster? ;-)


6. What is your favorite drink?
Very few of you got this one and I was surprised at that. That was a pic of Coffee beans while it's growing on a tree hehehe. And my fav drink is Coffee ofcourse!


7. What is your dream vacation?
Spain! Hence the pic of a Matador and a Bull. I'm so in love with Spain, the Spanish language and the Spaniards. One day, I'm gonna end up in Madrid with a chilli-hot Spanish Antonio Banderas look-alike tour guide, taking me around saying 'Keshi quieres casarte conmigo?'.


8. What is your favorite dessert?
Sticky-date pudding yummmmmaaaaaay!


9. What do you want to be when you grow up?
I got some very interesting descriptions from all of you for this one. Loved them all. I chose that pic cos my answer to that question was FRIEND. I want to be a friend to people I come across. When I was little, I used to dream about being a doctor, then a teacher, then a dancer, then a IT specialist etc etc. But now that I'm all grown and know what this world and life is all about, I'd say I only want to be a good mate to everyone I meet, cos that's all that matters in the end.


10. What do you love most in life?
Music. Spot on people! If not for Music, I'd be long-gone by now, I swear.


11. What is one word that describes you?
That was a pic of a Mimosa plant...the very sensitive plant that's got leaves that curl up on contact. So the one word that describes me is 'sensitive'.


12. What is your user name?
Again, Keshi. I'm the same person everywhere I go, and I'm Keshi from day to night, first name to last name, top to bottom, left to right :). Hence another pic of Keshi pearls.


Thanks all for being such great sports and trying the guessing game. All of you did pretty well and I'm quite stoked at that. HUGS!

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I'm extremely busy at work these days, so I'll come by your blogs when I do get some time. For now, here's something I want to ask from each of you.

What do you think is the most beautiful thing in this world?

I was watching a Sinhalese movie last night, and in that movie, a guy says what he thinks the most beautiful thing in the world is...and his answer was touching, so genuine and made me think alot. I had to agree with what he said. I'm not telling you yet what he said...I just want you to tell me what you think the most beautiful thing in this world is, in your own opinion. But there's a clue in this pic that sort of relates to his answer...I interpreted it that way. Anyways let's see your answers first. Go ahead make my day! :)


On other news, a guy at work is kinda hitting on me and I so don't fancy that. I'm getting annoyed, and I'm afraid I might ask him to get real if he keeps calling my name again for the easiest C# questions that even a 3month old infant can figure out answers for!

Thanks and have a great week ahead guys!


Current Music: Pure Shores by All Saints

A Picture Is Worth A Thousand Thoughts

Both Comfortably_Numb and Trance tagged me on this beautiful Picture Mosaic tag. This was done by entering my answers to each of the questions below, into Flickr, and then using my chosen pics' URLs to construct the mosaic. Thanks you 2, I had so much fun dong this one!



I'm not going to tag anyone in particular, so if you want to do this, you may do it in your blog. So here is my mosaic...looking at the pics, can you guess what my answers were for each of the questions? Give it a go and see how good your Keshiology rating is :). (click on pic to enlarge)





















































1. What is your first name?

2. What is your favorite food right now?

3. What High School did you go to?

4. What is your favorite color?

5. Who is your celebrity crush?

6. What is your favorite drink?

7. What is your dream vacation?

8. What is your favorite dessert?

9. What do you want to be when you grow up?

10. What do you love most in life?

11. What is one word that describes you?

12. What is your user name?

btw, last night I went to have a shower at around 10:30pm (yes I love having showers very late in the night, cos then our house is calm, quiet and still...). And mid-way through the shower, I felt a different kind of water on my face, blending in with the fresh warm water coming out of the shower. They were tears. Don't ask me why, how...it just happened. There I was having a shower and crying, even without realising I was crying! I guess my heart was trying to tell me something...maybe it was lonely...maybe it was hurting...maybe it was restless. Maybe it realised that no matter what, there's no place it can call it's own...no place where it belongs. No matter how much good it does, it's always identified for the one mistake it did. I feel a huge void in this thing called Life...empty spaces...empty dreams. An empty beginning, an empty existence, and an empty end. I'm a stubborn girl, I'm not perfect and I make alot of careless mistakes, but I know I'm not heartless. I'm sorry if I hurt you Cindy, I love you, please forgive me?

Ok, will tell you the answers to the above tag later on. I might go see Mamma Mia tonight. Have a good weekend guys!





Current Music: One Of Us by ABBA

Hep Vaginas!

Warning: These are real pics of real women who went under the knife. Any resemblance to you or anyone you know is purely co-incidental!

It seems that the latest trend in Hollywood is Designer Vaginas. Yes you heard me right. Now there's Plastic surgery where women can go and acquire themselves a new and supposedly 'rejuvenated' Vagina. Read here, with actual accounts. My friend LaVida too recently wrote about this in her blog. Apparently the ladies who'd gained themselves a supposedly 'celebrity-like' Vagina *Paris Hilton's 'Can Can' label?* are having better and long-lasting orgies *how long I wonder!*. And their partners are apparently saying it's like that they have a brandnew woman, and that sex is great after surgery. Also, the doctors say they are aiming to gain an 'optimum structural architecture' of the Vagina *I didnt know that the Vagina was a building*.


Anyways, first it was Breasts, now it's Vaginas. What's next, designer Fallopian Tubes? Designer Ear-drums? Designer Lungs and Arteries? What the...??!! I mean all that money and time spent on doing that can be spent on something that we may get to SEE, what say? Who bloody cares what your Vagina looks like or curves like. This is a pretty evident symptom of serious Cranium-deficiency in some humans. At the rate this world is going, next thing we'd come across would be designer dick-heads and people would be going for it with all their might, trust me! Gynecologically speaking, a Georgio Armani Vagina might gain you some false confidence, but certainly not good health! So what do these women say when their friends ask what they shopped for today. It would be 'I just bought a new Vagina'. And if these women ever give birth, the babies might come out saying 'Are we on a ramp, are we on a ramp!'. And what would happen when these women grow old..their plastic Vaginas might fall off when they get up to get some water! *ooops my Vagina just fell apart...Im no longer a woman*. It seems that this world is on a one-way ticket to Plastic land. Everything is now 'designed' and 'delivered' and 'fake'. What about the natural gifts, qualities we humans and the Earth have? We seem to be forgetting about them, slowly but surely.

We each got a body and soul. Why can't people just be happy with what they've got, unless ofcourse it's necessary for health reasons. It's something I can never understand...one day, when I grow old, and all my hair is grey and my teeth are loose, I'd still be happy...cos I'd still remain a human, not some plastic mean-cat looking bimbo, with a metal Vagina. *animals are laughing at us humans, yet again!* Men/Women beware, you could be committing to a 'plastic' relationship!

Question: If ANYTHING could be 'designed' and provided to you, what would you prefer it to be? What's your take on this? I'd like to know.


Current Music: Lay All Your Love On Me by ABBA

Social Animals

Yesterday I called my cousin bro a Donkey, cos he did a stupid thing in my car. He changed the gear to Neutral while I was driving! *maybe he was trying to kill us both and claim insurance in Heaven?*. The last time I was angry at him, he was being a Chimpanzee. Cos he scratched his crotch right infront of me eeeeeeeeks! *some Baboon qualities won't die even after Evolution*. And I remember he once called me a Duck LOL! Cos I was 'quacking' away when he didn't turn up on time for a party. Once my uncle T, called my aunt G a Cow cos she was irritating the crap out of him *mooooooo!*. My friend G thinks his co-worker is a Dog...cos he goes around spreading shit and doing nasty things to people *woof woof bite!*. My friend N is well-known as kinky Kitten *she loves to purrrr and meowwww!*. Most women, including me are total snarling Bitches *stop looking so surprised, it's true...if you're not a bitcth you're not a woman, get over it!*. And most men are vagabond Bastards *'pappa was a rolling stone' music plays at the back..figure it out yourselves*. Sometimes I have seen myself as a graceful Swan that moves in style, a bloody Monkey that annoys my mum, a playful Rabbit enjoying life, a hungry Kitten that cries in a corner, a venomous Snake who hisses out the hurtful truth, a cuddly Bear who gives you a hug, a killer Tigress who'd chase you around, a funny Kangaroo who loves to tell jokes, a silent Shark who waits for it's prey, a chattery Bird who flies in glee, a blood-sucking Leech who'd make you suffer, a dancing Peacock who loves to showoff, a mischievous Squirrel who steals all the fruit, a scheming Panther who pounces on you, a lazy Badger who sleeps all day, a grumpy Horse who refuses to move, an innocent Deer who gets eaten alive etc etc.


So, we all know that being Human is also being Animal. Maybe the most intelligent animals of all, as we'd like to believe...but amidst our so-called great Humanity, we are still Animal. Deep down, underneath the pretty smiles and all that Sense and Beauty, we are just 2-legged, yak yakkety yakking, super gorgeous, hairy animals. We do stupid things, we do smart things, we scratch, we are fierce and competitive, we get angry, we calm down, we eat meat and plant, we throw hissy fits, we love and make love, we breed, we kill, we pounce, we observe, we sleep, we go in search of greener pastures, we protect our loved-ones, we leave our loved-ones, we are born, we grow old, we die etc etc, just like animals do...and it all boils down to Survival. Man and Animal are no different from each other...just that we wear clothes and animals don't hehe. Some animals have started to wear clothes btw...like my friend's lil dog Snowy and he's quite a fashionista! *pictures the future...a dog wearing a suit and a naked man walking it*. Anyways, sometimes I feel that we humans are weaker than animals. Cos it's humans that breed Terrorism..it's humans that are stuck in a mad rat race...it's humans that worry about looking good and chasing money...it's humans that betray, lie and cheat...it's humans that form groups and divide...it's humans that bomb each other...it's humans that fail their own race. Atleast the animals have an excuse to be less self-damagingly competitive in life...they are not as intelligently gifted as we are, we say. And to prey on other animlas for survival is their natural instincts - surely they don't have much intelligence as we do to figure out what's good/bad, logic etc. They just do what they are supposed to do. But what excuse do we have, for the destruction that we have caused on our own, and on this Earth? I guess the excuse is being human?

We may hunt down animals and put them in cages in the zoo. But what we don't realise is that we have created our own cages for ourselves. Our own prisons in where we remain as slaves. Some religions/people consider some animals as 'dirty' and 'unholy'...but if they believe in a God who created this World, then why did that same God create those animals? And some people kill each other in the name of God. Aren't humans plain boring *yawwwns*. Maybe the animals should call their mates 'Human' when they do something stupid. LOL! So, tell me...what similarities/differences between man and animal have you observed? Share your wisdom, along with 'animalistic' experiences that you've come across among 'humans'.

Current Music: It's A Mistake by Men At Work

No Stinging Strings Attached!

Nah I wasn't attached to a G-string...neither was I doting on my Hamstring :). Now you may think I'm being string-ent here, but hey just keep on reading my string of thoughts below, you'll get there soon ok.


Some strings limit you...
As humans, we are all bound and tied up by strings...strings of emotions. We are somehow attached to them, no matter what, however much you may deny. As a pathetic human myself, I was tied up to some strings that limited my movement...the free movement of my spirit. Last few days, I let those strings of expectations, reasoning, doubt, pain, disgust, anger, ego and humiliation tie me up and make me dance to their tunes. They played the music, I danced. Look at this pic...see how my emotions were playing the music for me...they never gave up! They haunted me day and night, made me depend on them and be a slave to them...

So I danced and danced...the way they asked me to...the way they expected me to. I tried to stand up when my knees were hurting...I bled, I nearly gave up but I kept on getting up, smiling and continuing to dance. And then my spirit got tired...cos I was letting those tight strings rule me and control my mood. They limited my free and happy spirit. I got exhausted, sweaty, uncomfy, short of breath and blood tears were starting to roll down my cheeks...I collapsed and I started to cry. That's when I realised I was letting them use me...that I was letting my own emotions abuse my spirit. I somehow had to help myself...cos no one else could...


Though I know, that these same strings will come around again and tie me up on another day, on a different experience, I just had to cut them off right now...I had to save my spirit. I somehow had to get rid of those strings and stop being their puppet. So I did. I took out the sharp scissors of my fighting spirit...and I snip snip snipped those strings and set myself free! All I know right now is that I'm free of those strings that hurt me. Right now I'm detached, Im on ground and I'm resting. I know that this may be just for a short while, before I hit another tiring spot in this cycle of strings of emotions and attachment...but I wanna enjoy this fresh feeling while it lasts. So I said Goodbye to those strings that had my spirit all bound and gagged for a couple of days. C'est la vie!


Some strings set you free...
While some strings of emotions like the above, limit us, some other strings of emotions set us free. Amidst chaos and confusion, hurt and anger, I was also holding onto the strings of hope, trust, courage and understanding. I was tied to these strings too and believed in them somehow. I was attached to them, yet they didn't limit me. Instead they set me free like how a kite can fly high when it's tied to a string. These strings didn't make me dance to their tune til my spirit got tired...instead they just let my spirit soar high up in the sky, making me believe that somehow I will be in one piece after the storm...these strings gave me hope that somehow those who know me, shall know me...and those who didn't know me from the beginning, won't know me anyways. And yeah, I won't get rid of these strings, cos they are the ones who kept my spirit alive and moving ahead...they are the ones who gave me the strength to cut the strings that limited me. C'est la vie!

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Thanks all for your time, efforts and interest in taking part in my last post! All of you did pretty well, had some clever logic behind whatever answers you gave (right or wrong) and all I can say is I have some very smart people in my blog and I'm proud of it. So well-done ALL of you! Now, to the winners. There were more than one who chose #6 as the right answer, so well-done all of you, but I only choose 6 winners (to go with #6), based on how very close your given reasons were to my thoughts. So, congratttz Donn, Parul, Solitaire, Mirage, Deepti and Outdoorsy_girl! woohoo! you just won the Most Amazing Psychologist Award from Keshi! cos you all read my mind pretty well and understood it too, without much evidence given. You did very well! btw I don't have pics of all the 6 winners, so these pics are of Donn, Parul, Solitaire and Outdoorsy in that order.


Donn said: I'm going with 'Strings' because it is something constructive and tangible that you have control over that will change your life in a positive way...
(this is very similar to my thoughts in this post)

Parul said: Strings..thats because may be u realized that hanging on to ur past does nothing but hurts u...
(exactly what I realised in the last few days)

Solitaire said: Strings...easy to get rid of a bunch of strings rather than the whole yarn...
(this is exactly what I'm trying to say in the first half of this post)

Mirage said: A bunch of strings u were attached to, so that u got a peace of mind & a sense of freedom now...
(this is how I truly felt after cutting them off...)

Deepti said: Strings...cause its better to cut off certain strings that tug so hard and cause nothing but pain...
(spot on about the revelation of it all!)

Outdoorsy_girl said: Strings...because cutting some strings to unhealthy things in your life sounds just like something a smart girl would do...
(I felt good after cutting them yes, it's just a better and quicker way to deal with them)



btw this song is for the way I feel right now...we can try and delete people from our lives, blogrolls, phones, emails etc etc...but we can't really delete those people from our minds, can we? Once we know someone, we can never un-know them. Hence, I just choose to cut the strings that sting (not the people, but my emotions that rule my spirit), and move on. But if you cut me off from your life, then knowing me, knowing you is the best I can do...I don't tread on unwelcome territory.


Once again, thanks ALL and have a great day guys!


Current Music: Knowing Me Knowing You by ABBA

Bye Bye Bye!

In this post, what/who am I saying Goodbye to? Have a go at it. Answer is one of the following:


1. A pair of old shoes
2. A friend who's leaving to Dallas, US
3. A song I hated but was in my iPod
4. An association that was a Chameleon
5. To Blogville
6. A bunch of strings that I was attached to
7. My longing heart


Let's see who's good at this :) So c'mon tell me, what am I deleting, cutting off, throwing away, shooting down, saying Adios to? You can only choose 1 answer, and tell me WHY you chose that answer too...so all the best! There's a surprise for the person who guesses it right, as well as give the correct reason why. So remember you have to get both parts of the answer right.

I'll come around to all your blogs soon. Extremely busy weekend here. And Thanks for your Understanding in that last post (those who DID understand that is). Take care and have a good one!


Current Music: Bye Bye Bye by 'NSync

Big Mouths, Empty Minds

The other day, a dear friend of mine here shared with me a story of how one of her so-called friends backstabbed her big time. That made me want to write about similar pesonalities that I've come across in my life. There have been countless Wolves in Sheep's clothing in my life and it's such a joke, cos these are the same people who go around pretending that they are the best thing that ever happened to this world. This only goes to show that most people can only talk talk and talk about how supreme they are, but when it comes to action, they themselves FAIL. Cos it's all just empty speech coming from an empty mind. Big mouths, but empty minds. Most people just float around like zombies, careless and heartless, trying to always avoid Living, than reallly Living. So when something happens that questions their credibility, they go around giving Einstein theories about it rather than admitting they failed. So remember that only very few people can leave footprints in your heart...only the ones that have a heart too. And if you're in the middle of a fireball, you are LIVING, not just EXISTING. And that's great btw. So here is a list of empty minds that I have come across in my life:


- Backstabbers
People who feed me sweets on the face, but hack me to death when I turn around...
I felt your stab but it only proved I'm 'bigger' than you. So get over it.


- Liars
People who keep saying they're so great and others are terrible, but never demonstrate those qualities...
Your lies were sweet but actions were bitter. So keep them to yourself.


- Pretenders
People who tell me that I should give a fuck about the world when shit happens to me, but falls apart when shit happens to them...
It's so much more easier said than done, isnt it. Stop acting like it's a piece of cake.


- Score Keepers
People who take out the Accounts Journals to check if I'm worth their time and help, depending on how I've handled their brittle egos in the past...
Settling scores is a shrewd way to live but certainly not a beautiful way. You need a soul makeover.


- Mask Wearers
People who wear one mask when they meet me, but wears a totally different one when they meet someone else...
Spying is a huge thrill but not when the mask falls down. You become the joke.


- Time Servers
People who just hang out with me to kill their time, for their own gain but not because they recognise what friendship really is...
When it came to the real test you failed. Next time, TRY.


- Jealous Whingers
People who cant stand it when I seem to be having a good time, so they label me as FAKE...
Jealousy can be cured too, by letting go of what you can't be. You are who you are and they are who they are.


- Lost Kids
People who claim that they are the only ones who have problems and that I don't deserve as much love as they do...
I may look as if I'm constantly on a bed of roses but the truth may well be that it's a bed of thorns...my attitude to life is what makes the difference. You carry your cross, I carry mine.


- Two Timers
People who basically tell you one thing but tell an entirely different thing to someone else...
Behind-the-scenes Playing won't get you too far in life. Drop the lowly habit.


- Emotion Evaluators
People who put my emotions on scales and weigh them to see if my emotions are heavier or lighter than what they SHOULD be...
Feelings and my person can never be measured or compared. Put your scales in the bin.


- Tax Agents
People who tax me for their presence in my life...
Some emotional costs are involved when you blindly place trust in people. I'd rather freeze that Trust in future.


-Sympathy Seekers
People who give excuses for their repetitive and very obvious mistakes...
A mistake is a mistake...nothing more, nothing less. Accept it.


- In-denial Dwellers
People who never want to accept when they have made a huge blunder, but they give me an Einstein explanation to defend themselves...
Making a mistake is human but accepting it and apologising for it is divine, and less of a mockery. Say Sorry and move on.


- Fence Sitters
People who sit on the fence not wanting to get 'involved', just so that they can be safe...
Yes go on be neutral, as long as that fence supports you for God knows how long! You're your own fence that blocks you from Living.

-Shit Spreaders
People who can't keep their minds controlled cos it's full of poison, so they go around making attempts to hurt others by their crashing conscience...
Futile is you. Give up on hurting your own self.

My momma taught me to live...not just get by. I don't believe in stagnating...I believe in flowing. I give out the best and I want the best. Nothing less, nothing more. And I'm not here to write write and write, but I'm here cos I have tasted all of that and know what I'm talking about. I'm not here to gain fans or attention...I'm here to share my life experiences with people who deserve it. I'm not here to blabber about how much I know and how much of a philosopher I am, but I'm here to give out the vibes of my real emotions. So if you are not upto my standards, leave. Finding a genuine person is like looking for water in the middle of a desert. Don't you think? So, tell me about your life experiences too, with that species called humans.


I dedicate this post and song to a rare, genuine humanbeing that I have come across in life and that is Silvara...over the years she has been a genuine mate, a natural teacher of life, an honest sport, a fearless traveller, a quiet mouth with a rich mind and a real heart. I luv ya hun and thanks for always showing me what it is to LIVE, cos your blog is the most REAL blog I've ever read, HUGS! (this is gorgeous Silvara with her husband)


And now about my weekend plans, I have my lil niece's bday party to go to tomorrow evening - I'll try to take some pics and put them up here next week. Hoping to have loads of fun :). You all have a great weekend too, see yaz!


Current Music: If You're Gone by Matchbox 20

Secrets Of Life

I'm gonna make you puke of roses! So here are ALOT of pics of the actual flower arrangement I sent to my sis on her b'day. I was mesmerised by it when I went home after work and set my eyes on these very tall, elegant, pink beauties, carefully placed in a cute box and cleverly arranged with fresh green leaves of various plants. My mum said that when she first saw it, she thought a whole garden had been delieverd and she wondered if there're any birds and reptiles in there LOL! When I saw the pic of this arrangement in the Roses Only website (the pic in the last post), I never knew it was gonna be so big, tall and heavy in real. So my sis had a huge burden to bring it home safely in her car without wrecking it. Even though she loved it, I promised her not to order an Amazon forest next time! :) Enjoy the beauties and don't forget to check out the titles for each slide (place cursor on slide), cos there are some SECRETS in there..;-)


Now, to some random news from my life at the moment. My 7yr old niece (cousin's daughter) is turning 8 this Saturday. So yeah, there's a huge b'day party happening at her place on Sat. She has just got her first email account and it seems like she can't stop sending emails to me LOL! I'm her first spam victim. And she always sends one-liners like 'hi keshi aunty'...and in the next one 'how r u today?'...and in the next one 'I got a merit card today'...and in the next one 'here's a joke'...and in the next one 'ooops forgot to add the joke'...haha! Aren't kids so innocent, honest and adorable. They teach us some great secrets of life that even some adults don't seem to know of. This is her..the lil brat. I love ya hun, you make my day!


Now, remember my Uncle T who called me few weeks ago (read here)...the one who's daughter (my cousin D) gave birth to her first baby. Well I sent her a card last week, and her baby boy's name is Divesh (that's him in these 2 pics just after he arrived at his new destination Earth). Well guess what? Today, lil Divesh sent me a TXT! Yes, this is the first txt that I got from a 4-week old bubs :). It read "Dear Keshi Aunty...thank u so much for the cute card that u sent...I'm really sorry I cudnt thank you sooner, mummy has been feeding me alot, therefore I hardly get to txt. Luv Divesh". Now isn't that the cutest thing ever! I felt so overwhelmed with love and joy when I received it this morning. My cousin D knows how to make me smile :). I can't wait til I go to Auckland next, to carry the lil one in my arms and tell him about some secrets of life. I txted back to Divesh, saying this: "ty sweet-heart and HUGS...wait til I come and visit u, cos u need the K-touch to grow into a hot boy some day ;-)". The boy has no idea what a maniac of an aunt that fate has given him! *poor baby*. Babies convey one big secret of life...and that is freshness and peace...to keep our minds fresh and free of baggage, no matter what.



I got another txt this morning...a close friend of mine went to Sri Lanka last week cos her mum was seriously ill. This morning her txt read "Keshi, my mum passed away this morning...". I was deeply saddened by that message and txted back telling her how I felt and that I'd call her soon. Death conveys another great secret of life...and that is - to live is to die..and to die is to live. The Sun rises and it sets too...it's all a part of it's LIFE.



And I was thinking...how in one single day, so many things can happen. Someone celebrates their b'day...someone else gives birth...someone rocks her newborn baby...someone else dies...someone buys shoes...someone else meets an accident and loses his mobility...someone cries...someone else laughs. Life is full of ups and downs, good and bad, tears and joy. Life is like a huge box full of secrets, both sweet and sour. One by one, those secrets surface to the top of the box and unravel themselves each new day...you have to take them as they come...but you can never hurry the secrets at the bottom to surface to the top. Neither can anyone tell you what they are. Every secrect has a time for it to show up. Til then, you've got to take them as they come, face them fully and LIVE to see what the rest of the secrets are. Cos you gotta LIVE to KNOW.

Current Music: Don't Let The Sun Go Down On Me by Elton John

Illogical Eulogical Greetings!

Disclaimer: Please note that this post does not intend to ridicule any dead person. This post was based purely on the humorous side of death.


The other day, a friend of mine was telling us how someone who attended her Granma's Funeral had told her this after shaking hands with her and smiling:

"Keep it up!"

huh? I thought this was a Funeral, not a Graduation. When someone just received a one-way ticket to heaven, the last thing you should say to their loved-ones is 'Keep it up'. LOL! How often do we say the wrong thing at the wrong time/occasion? Some people don't know what to say...some people are clueless when it comes to expressing how they feel. That's really ok, but it's best to keep silent then. I have always believed that if there's nothing to say or if you don't know what to say, it's best to keep quiet. 'Keep it up' at a Funeral? I laughed so hard! It's as if my friend killed her granma and that she's being commended for it :). So here are some very odd/abnormal/wrong things that can be said if you're not willing to keep silent, when in doubt or are clueless:


At a Funeral, to the family:

*Congratulations!

*He'll be pretty LATE for the next GNR concert *The Late Mr.James*
*Sexy coffin ooh lala!
*Can I bring a Date for the Wake? *winks*
*o man crap flowers!
*Death can be expensive WOW!
*Who 'killed' him? Sorry, I mean 'what' happened?
*Do you have a Michael Jackson CD? *does the MJ crotch-move*
*Didn't he write a Will? bastard!
*OMG he seems to be breathing?? *trembles while biting ur nails*
*There's a discounted Crematorium that I know of...

*Can I take these flowers home afterwards, cos it's my friend's bday
*Thank God it happened this week cos next week I'm away phewww!
*I looked for flowers but couldn't get a $2 deal *mumbles swear words*
*Can I skip the Service and come back for Tea and bikkies?
*His trousers seem a little short..not that it matters anymore hehe *smiles, frowns, smiles*
*It's logical to be Eulogical at this time haha! *urrgggg!*
*She looks a little blue in the face *touches and sniffs*

*How long did he camp at the Mortuary?
*I wonder if the Embalming was a hot experience?
*Is there gonna be any kind of Dancing? *does a lil booty shake, smiles, gets serious*
*Bullshit! *during the Eulogy*
*I got some Popcorn and Coke to keep us busy *munch, munch, gulp, munch*
*I wanna sign my name on the Coffin
*I'm bored, when is this gonna finish? *makes a highly annoyed face*

*Wonder if he ever found out about our secret nookaaay! *whispers to the wife's ears*
*Can I borrow his car now that he's dead?
*I wonder who's gonna be next *looking around the room with quizzical brows*
*He's 95yrs old? Wow then he asked for it, didn't he! *and serves spearmints*
*Did you inform Centrelink - they'll pay for petrol expenses
*In Life he just bludged big time, I wonder if Death will cure it *rolling eyes*
*Anyone want KFC?
*I wanted to wear my best clothes but hey what the heck he's not gonna hit on me anymore, is he!


Feel free to add to this notorious list...let it RIP! Today, I just wanna laugh people. And I know that one day, even as I'm dying, I'll be laughing my ass off...or maybe I'll die laughing? LOL! See what I mean. :)



off topic: btw yesterday was my sis' bday. And I ordered these exact same arrangement of 24 long-stemmed pink roses from Roses Only and got it delivered to her office today. She rang me just now to tell me how much she loved them. Arent they gorgeous! Flowers keep you alive...stop to look at and smell 'em when you can. And my mum was telling me I'm wasting money :(. Now she's being real motherish! *rolling eyes*. Do you think it's a waste to make someone happy with such beautiful things? Once in a while we have to do sweet things like this to let our loved-ones know how much they are appreciated in our lives. When words don't come easy and deeds are a few, expressions can mean alot. Money is not important...gestures are. I dedicate this song to my sis...she has helped me unconditionally when I needed her the most, without saying a word...we've had our many ups and downs, fights and arguments...but at the end of the day, she's my sister and I'm her's...and we are always there for each other no matter what...sisters have a special bond that can never die...and I know that I can always count on her like she can count on me...so, my sis, even at the cost of my life (if it ever came to that), I'll protect ya and help you keep smiling. LOVE n HUGS always! *damn it I'm crying now!*


Now don't forget the first part of the post. Have a good day guys!


Current Music: When You Say Nothing At All by Ronan Keating