So I was thinking...people have dreams, hopes, goals...some people sacrifice all their dreams for others...some people sacrifice others to achieve their dreams. It's an individual choice we make. Anyways, a good friend in my previous post's comment section said the following to me: "Keshi, you seem to be drifting through life with no anchor to weigh you in. I would not want to venture to intrude into your life, but have you not gotten the most out of drifting for so long? You seem to be just reacting to the events that unfold in your life and this has caused you to have a mixed reactions, some bitter and other sublime. I want to know more of Keshi, the survivor or the overcomer". That was a wonderful and genuine revelation about my life. Thanks Mel for 'seeing' me so clearly :)...shows how observant and wise you are. What Mel said there about my life was very accurate...I don't have many dreams...there may be a million dreams in my heart, but I know that most of them would never take shape in real (not being pessimistic here but rather being realistic). How many of our dreams really do come true? The life-long dreams and goals of mine have already been achieved...such as good education, career, financial freedom, having my own car/assets/freedom etc. Having achieved all of them, I realised that none of that is what Contentment really is. None of that truly makes me happy or have put me in a place where I can get up and say 'This is it, I can be happy now'. Through all those years, like Mel said, I have always had some kind of 'anchor' to weigh me in...but not anymore. Cos I realised, knowing my destination, planning to reach for it, having a clear map and something to back me up, was boring me...that was making my life very dull. I wanted to set myself free from being 'conditioned' to always chase a goal...to be unafraid of drifting through life without an anchor to weigh me in...to go with the flow without always wanting to see a distant destination. Life can take me to strange places and I really have no control of that...but as long as I keep drifting, I'll always be content with anything that comes along. The pursuit of happyness lies in the journey..not in the destination or knowing the destination. I don't want to be bound by the chains of so-called goals and destinations of life - I have been there and I have come to know that I wanna burn fully, not conditionally. Even in the depths of despair and in the seas of the unknown, you can be happy...it's a choice, and it should not be an obligation. I just want to live one day at a time and not live by plans - just burn free and fully this moment. Cos there'll always be someone out there who won't even see the dawn of tomorrow.
Thanks Mel for being the source of inspiration behind this post...you really made me think. ***HUGS***
Guys I'm so busy at work these days...will be coming around to your blogs ASAP. Til then, keep smiling, keep dreaming...it's ok to dream, and it's great when your dreams come true...but life is so full of surprises and there's always a good chance that dreams you've often dreamt of don't come true in life or even if they do, they wont bring you the happiness you expected..but some dreams that you've never dreamt of can become a reality in your life...so have the doors of your hearts open and drift along in joy, not in chains.
Current Music: Burn by Tina Arena