It hurt for awhile. But today when I woke up, I couldn't find that longing in my heart for you anymore. It had left my being without my knowledge. Something that I thought would never leave me, had now expired. Something that I thought would haunt me for the rest of my life, had now left me in my sleep. Something that I tried to kill countless times, had now killed itself without any attempt from me.
Yes our desires, longings, wants and cries may go unheard today...people may hurt you again and again, and you may wonder why that it is so, and why it's happening only to you. And you may try to kill the feelings so very hard, you may do anything and everything to bury it and move on, but it returns to you the very next day. So you nurse it like a baby, you look forward to it's touch, you become the feeling and the feeling becomes you. You wait for it to switch on every single day the moment you wake up. You live by it no matter how much it hurts you. And it keeps repeating itself for days and months, and even years. But, one day you will wake up and realise it's gone. Gone for good. And you can't get it back even if you try to...even if you try feeling that way again. You may search your entire heart to catch that same feeling again, but it's not there anymore. At first, you struggle, you feel uncomfortable not feeling that way again. But you realise that it had decided to die on it's own...it had beaten itself to it's own demise. And you are free again. You can't even believe it!
I have become resilient to hurt. You will never get to me again. Every feeling has a birth and a death. Give it some time. Bask in it fully. And one day, it will be gone, just like that. And you are free to stand on your own 2 feet again. And when the same feeling returns on another occasion, you are better equipped to handle it this time. And you know that it will leave you again some day. So, don't shun your feelings, and don't depend on them too much either. For most of them are temporary...most of them has an expiry date, just like anything that's alive.
No one wants to be defeated
Show them how funky strong is your fight...
It doesn't matter who's wrong or right
Just beat it, just beat it...
Current Music: Beat It by Michael Jackson