Monday, September 24

Hello Yesterday!

Yesterday is gone...
On Sunday I went to see my uncle at the ICU. He was very ill for about 3months but nobody except his immediate family was allowed to see him until last weekend. Uncle A is a very close one to me, and he has helped me alot in my life. He is a good man, a kind-hearted person, a loving and caring gentleman. He fell ill quite suddenly and was admitted to the hospital in July. None of us got a chance to see him as he was not all that fit to have visitors back then. So yesterday was our chance...the chance that I had been waiting for months to meet. The last I saw him was in July, just before he got ill...he was a fit and happy man then. That was his yesterday. So we were mentally prepared to see him as the nurses and his family instructed us not to get too emotional as he'd be upset then, therefore his condition would deteriorate further.


Today is all we have...
So as I walked into the 2nd floor and pressed the ICU doorbell, a nurse answered it. I then told her that I was there to see Mr.A. She then asked one person to walk in at a time, so I left my mum outside, pushed the door and walked in. Inside, was a world of pain and suffering...young and old...with a zillion tubes on them...trying to survive...holding onto the last bit of life they had in them. I wanted to cry. But I gathered some strength and courage. A nurse then came upto me, got me to wash my hands and made me wear protective clothing and gloves before I could go to his bedside. When I set my eyes on him, I witnessed the face of anguish...the face of longing to go back in time...the face of searching that 'yesterday'. And I suddenly realised that I was a big part of his 'yesterday'. Before he got ill, we used to visit him all the time as he lived in the next street to our's. Today he's bed-ridden...today he's not even able to stand up like he used to...he's not even able to speak cos of the tubes that went through his mouth...today he's not even able to breathe on his own. So his yesterday has now been taken over by sickness and disability. His today is VERY different from his yesterday. And I was standing there in front of him, and I may have reminded him alot of his yesterday...Hello Yesterday! That's what his heart must have told him cos as soon as he saw me, there was movement in his face...his eyes widened, his lips parted, his hands moved...as if to say, Hello Yesterday! I never expected to see my uncle A suffering this way (he isnt very old either), with tubes running all over him and not being able to speak or eat...but I was happy I could see him and that he could see me. I then walked upto him and told him that everything was going to be alright...I patted him on his forehead and I told him that we'll be praying for him (I'm crying as I type this). But strangely I didn't cry when I was with him. Some strength in me made it all easier for me...cos I wanted to be happy just so that he wouldn't feel sad. I asked him if he missed home, and then he raised his right hand gently towards his mouth, indicating that he missed eating food. It broke my heart. I can't ever imagine anyone being in this kind of situation...breathing from a machine, not being able to eat or get up...he was basically a vegetable, except that he could see and hear us, and was mentally fit. I think that's even worse - to recognise everything around him and to know that he can't be the way he used to be. I stayed there talking to him for 15mins and then it was my time to go and send my mum in. I said my goodbyes and promised him that I'd visit him again. I disposed the protective wearing, washed my hands and walked towards the door...as I walked away, I turned one last time to take a glance at him...he was staring at me from his bed...I then gave him a flying kiss and quickly turned away so that my tears would not be seen.


Tomorrow is unclear...
Today we are happy and healthy...tomorrow we may not be. Yesterday can come back to haunt us. I hope my uncle A would get better soon and come back home to live his yesterday again. I don't want him to suffer this way...no one should have to go through that. He's very well educated, fairly rich and mostly a very nice man. But none of that can get him out of this situation...except prayers...I believe in prayers and I know he will come out of this soon. Guys enjoy what you have, be content with whatever that you have today, be glad you're not on one of those beds at the ICU, don't complain about things that arent worth it, be thankful for today cos that's all we've got, for tomorrow we may long for the yesterday we had. And please pray for my uncle A...thanks in advance. Education, money, goodness or beauty can't save anyone from illness...nothing is permanent...but contentment and prayers heal, no matter what. Take care guys!


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Jay said...

Very sorry to hear about your uncle. It's so tough to watch people go through something like that.

Vidya said...

What can I say Keshi that will help alleviate your pain or your uncle's pain? He will be in my prayers!

Vidya

Shiv said...

Very touching post Keshi...Our prayers are with ur uncle and ur family...All will be fine soon...Tke care...

Silvara said...

Hello Keshi babe! I'm back!

But what a post to come back to :(

My prayers are definitely with your uncle. I know what it is like to go and see a loved in ICU - especially for the first time. My Dad was in there when he went for his quadruple bypass surgery. I hated it then and so I can understand how difficult it would have been not to break down. Good on you for that. :)

Really, today IS all we have - we can't bring yesterday, we don't know tomorrow will bring. So make the most of today and you won't regret a thing.

LOL - that rhymed as well heheheh :)

Sunita said...

May God throw lot of good health and blessings on ur uncle and he recovers soon!
Btw i have some news for you on my blog.

Vik said...

Very sorry to hear what you had to say. I hope your uncle makes it brave and he should be a happy guy because he has made few people cry for the situation he has found himself in. May the force be with him and your family.

Jim said...

u have too much pain in your life Keshi

your uncle in ICU must be heart breaking

Me in my world.... said...

very emotional and touching post..
My prayers are with u and the family..

Arti Honrao said...

Praying for your Uncle.
Everything will be fine...


Take care
GBU
Arti

Trée said...

You are wise beyond your years and a blessing to your family. Meet me at the crossroads of life--here and now. I'll bring prayers and thoughts and maybe something extra if you are good. :-)

Jim said...

Why Suffer?
by David Allen White

Perhaps the most obsessive idea in the Modern Age is the avoidance of suffering. The Temple of Science will cure our bodily ailments and create a climate-controlled perfect environment in which we can live in perpetual comfort;

the Nanny State will pamper us from cradle to grave assuring that no unhappiness or trouble ever touches us;

Feelgood Belief Systems will chatter endlessly about "luv, luv, luv" where religion is roses without thorns. We do not wish to suffer. Who does?

uttara said...

sweety..

ur uncle will be fine trust me

all my prayers for him sweetheart..

god is NOT that merciless.. he is testing us and our patience.. he will be fine

*sighs n yet sad*

HUGGGGGZ

Kirthi said...

you are a brave gurl keshi! prayer yes has a big strength.. i will sure pray for your uncle..

you post made me realize the mistake that i'm making with someone who is going through a very difficult situation! its important for me to smile and support... and atleast remind her that though the future is unclear but still it can be alright...

do take care and wil keep you in prayers! love

Jim said...

Christian theology on suffering

But from the expulsion of Adam and Eve from the Garden, through the captivity and wanderings of the Chosen People, through the agony of Abraham to sufferings of Job, up to the Passion and Crucifixion of Our Lord, God instructs us otherwise.

Suffering is necessary; suffering is just; suffering is redemptive.
When the ultimate act of love and justice took place on the Cross,

Our Lord taught us that we too, if we are to follow Him, must take up our crosses. We know where that Way of the Cross leads and we draw back from it.


But it alone makes sense of life. before Our Lord's Great Sacrifice, the sufferings of life seemed to be unfair and
senseless. Many among the Chosen People trusted God and believed there must be a purpose in His Will.

The Crucifixion showed us that Will vividly and clearly. To love is to suffer; to suffer is to be offered the possibility of redemption. Suffering mankind after the Sacrifice of Christ had the opportunity for a new understanding of God's Will and His Purpose.

Jim said...

To be forced to undergo great suffering meant an opportunity to unite with Christ.

St Paul says, "I Paul am made a minister. Who now rejoice in my sufferings for you, and fill up those things that are wanting of the sufferings of Christ, in my flesh, for his body, which is the church..." (1 Colossians 1:23-24).

God in His Justice will call us to suffer for our sins; we are guilty and merit suffering. But in His Mercy, He allows us to offer up those sufferings for a greater good, for our own sins, for the sins of others, for the good of others, for those we love.

We can never be Christ, the Innocent Victim, but we can share in His suffering and that suffering is redemptive and a great blessing.


Few of us, especially those of us who live comfortably in this artificial cozy comfortable scientifically fabricated world want to confront such an idea. Not only scripture, but the greatest writers of the past have in their greatest works given expression to the necessity of suffering --

Sophocles in OEDIPUS REX, Dante in the PURGATORIO, Shakespeare in KING LEAR, Dostoevsky in THE BROTHERS KARAMAZOV, Solzhenitsyn in THE GULAG ARCHIPELAGO.

The common theme -- the necessity of suffering, for only through suffering may wisdom be attained, love fully understood and the ways of God be made clear to us weak and erring creatures.

Solzhenitsyn echoes Tolstoy by saying, "Thank you prison for having been in my life." We should be grateful for those sufferings sent to us; they are blessings.

They are a way out of time and into eternity, a way out of self and into charity, a way out of sin and into salvation. As T.S. Eliot reminds us in the second of his FOUR QUARTETS, "East Coker": "...In spite of that, [suffering] we call this Friday good."

niki yokota said...

yeppp we will pray for ur sweet uncle!!
ive never been to ICU.
it must have been hard to going in there, keshi-chan.
my sisters friend was also in critical condition but he could survive by liver transplant in Germany.
medical technologies are great these days.
he will be fine. please take care!!

Nora said...

You and your uncle are in my thoughts. x

Trinnie said...

keshi, i hope ur uncle will be alright very soon...positive vibrations do make a difference u know. and u have generated a lot of it by writing abt it here and receiving the same. thats wat my dad says...

:)

**hugs**

take care keshi :)

desperado said...

HUGGGZ

Srijith Unni said...

When you stand beside a loved one who`s suffering, it takes courage to put up a smile and give warmth and hope, Keshi..! I`m sure you`re doing your best for your Uncle, Will pray for him..

With Best Regards,
Srijith.

anits said...

hi keshi..Very touching post :(...
Sure our prayers will be always there for ur uncle and ur family
God Bless..tcre gal

anits

Aditi said...

hmmm i know its easy to think that i dont ever want to live like a vegetable
"quality of life is more important then a longer life"
yet i wonder.. how can one ask their family to let it go..
totally irrelevant to the thoughts in your post but just stuff on my mind today

Kalyan said...

We all pray for your uncle's quick recovery Keshi...just stay strong and he will be fine soon...Stay well!

DJ said...

very sorry to hear that...
i this with these many prayers he will recover very soon and his 'tomorrow' will be as good as his 'yesterday'...
god bless...

tc...

EBEZP said...

My prayers and thoughts for your uncle.
Keshi despite the subject that was a beautifully written piece, you really are talented!

Lot of a 'kinster' yourself aren't you!!

You sooooo deserve this!

Rajeev said...

Im really sorry to hear that! :(
My prayers are with his family! I hope he recovers soon! :(

peace & love
Jeevy

Vest said...

Keshi: My best wishes go out to your dear uncle who you must love and continue to love. Today I was secretly bemoaning the fact I have arthritis in my left hand and left hip and my rt knee has not improved since the Op.
However, I am mobile, seeing, breathing, eating, hearing and still smelling the flowers which isn't terribly bad in comparison to persons in a I C Unit. X

Iceman said...

Wish I existed a world with no yesterday, today or tomorrow!

My prayers n best wishes to you Uncle!

Cinderella. said...

Hey girl...seeing you after along long time.
I havent bee around ever since Jan, Life's running and is pulling me with it.
Internship and Thesis have decided to eat up my 2007. Hopng to get back real soon. Miss you guys so much.
I lost my Uncle in a car accident lat July, left 2 li'l kids and a lonely wife. Yet we are all trynna move on.
I wish good health and prosperity for your uncle. And for you too.
Take care dear. See you soon.

Sweetstickychewy said...

Keshi this is a beautiful post. Thanks for sharing. It must have been hard for ya standing there and having to see someone you love in that condition. I am glad that you are taking courage in the higher one.

May He get well soon fast.

Hugz Darlz.

Sam said...

well... life is like that!! it makes you laugh one minute and cry the next!!
you uncle would be back on his feet fast enough.. have faith.. that's all you've got!!
oh btw, am sorry for not being around at all these days!! been very busy with my work and preps!! hope to be back in action in a month now!!

anuj said...

keshi its sad .. bt dont wry ..lets hope things will be fine soon n god bless him nd all of us ..

Its all a part of life .. d sad thing is we have to go through it ..inevitably ..

Cheer up
:)

adi said...

oh keshi!
i wish wish and wish that our uncle A gets well soon...
i know what u r feeling and how it makes u so full of life, every little pain that we endure, makes us crave more n more for the little joys we will have...
and god bless, we will
pls take care

twistedtruth said...

I hope he gets well.

Tys on Ice said...

cant pray for your uncle, since iam not a believer but i will surely wish it in my heart that he beats this illness and finds peace...

perhaps u r the prayer...

toby said...

Hi keshi girl,
Very sad post, beautifully written. Sorry to hear about your uncle A but he is in good hands. ICU is a difficult place for visitors; all the tech stuff and tubes are so dehumanising.

I view it slightly differently. Most patients emerge from ICU, to continue their lives, having been saved by the knowledge and dedication of the staff who work there. It is worth remembering that today's ICU patients have been given a chance of life which didn't exist even a few years ago.

I put my faith in the human search for knowledge and in those who are prepared to work hard to acquire it. Especially the ICU nurses who aren't paid enough! But prayer has its place too, to comfort those touched by pain, and I will say a prayer for you and your uncle.

btw - holding your uncle's hand and talking to him is powerful medicine!

KP said...

I pray for his speedy recovery...
Get well soon uncle!
T.C.

AakASH!!! said...

Am very tired, and had a LONG day. So if i say nothing and just give you a HUG, i hope you'll understand na.

HUGS HUGS HUGS.

Asha said...

I am sorry about your Uncle Keshi! Hope he recovers soon.
Yeah, everyday is precious.We have to stop whining about silly things and appreciate everything and everyone around us,never know what future holds.
Hugs to you, I will pray for him.Be strong!

Helen said...

We all need to be reminded that this is it, this day, this moment, this is the one thing that money will never buy, we can never trade, and no one can ever steal. Thanks for that reminder.

Shionge said...

I am very sorry Keshi and wish that he would be out of he would be out of ICU soon....

A tinge of sadness within Keshi as I had been through this ordeal with my Father in the ICU for more than two months :'(

Still, be strong my friend as I pray for your him.

Hugs always!

Fish said...

You are a brave woman Keshi. And no matter what happens next, your uncle was honoured by your ways.
I dont belive in God, much less prayers, but I belive, that whatever happens, happens for a reason. And I belive, that every moment, even when you are suffering, is given to you because you will learn from it. If it doesnt hurt, we dont cherish it. As sad as that is.

Keshi, I have seen a lot of people die. I was in Bosnia during the war. And it does not get easyer. You do get tougher, but you still hurt. The only thing you keep telling yourself is, that death and illness, are a part of life. I know, that is no consolation to you, but it will maybe help you deal with it.
Your uncle, will fight his own fight. No matter what the result will be, he will be the winner.
And you did good.
If you need me, you know where to find me.

Jim said...

Monday, September 24, 2007
India beat Pakistan







India are now World Champions

Posted by Jim at 8:48 AM 0 comments

George said...

With all of the advances of modern medecine ... there is so much they cannot do ... let us not be blinded by those advancements and forget that there remains real suffering.

AmitL said...

Hi,Keshi...that was one touching post,and,one touching visit to your uncle.Whenever I've been to see a relative or a friend in their last stages,I've wondered what it must seem like,to be lying there and wondering...sigh...I think you were quite brave to go in and see him and come out without crying.

Incidentally,there were 2-3 people who had cancer and passed away,and,I couldn't meet them.So,for me,it's always their happy, cheerful faces which come to mind...perhaps that's also good? God works in unusual ways..

As I said once earlier, enjoy today...Kal Ho Na Ho.(Tomorrow might or might not come).TC!*says a silent prayer for Keshi's uncle*

Pijush said...

This is a touchy and sad post. I pray that your uncle will recover soon.
But you know Keshi, time and tide wait for none, we are just like toys in the hands of almighty. Thats they reason I always say Njoy buddy, coz Kal ho na Ho.

One serious feedback. Have you ever thought of writing novels? Your descriptions are really vivid with nice flow. Take care Mate.

Art said...

hope God gives all your family members strength to take care of your uncle. Hope he gets well soon

Ghost Particle said...

//Guys enjoy what you have, be content with whatever that you have today, be glad you're not on one of those beds at the ICU, don't complain about things that arent worth it, be thankful for today cos that's all we've got, for tomorrow we may long for the yesterday we had.//

---> so true what you have said. We always look back today, at tomorrow wishing things were different when we have no clue of what might happen. Living in the present world can teach us many things, respect of life is one. We are never ready, yet even if we are, it doesnt matter anymore.

May God Shine his lights on your uncle, keshi, he will walk out and be with you soon I pray.

Hugs.

WP2007 said...

Hi Keshi

Being just back from the weekend I read your post.

One of the hardest things in life is watching a friend's health decline, knowing you can't do nothing to change the course.

Very sad.

I hope and pray all goes well. I pray for you and your family to have the strength to weather this terrible storm.

HUGS!!!

Bev

Diesel said...

Nice post, Keshi. I hope your visit was a comfort to him.

sandeip said...

hope ur uncle gets all right soonest..

hows ya?

here is wishing ya luck for all times..

Jim said...

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KAYLEE said...

sorry to hear that but that is so true!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can teel you that I fear that everyday :P

AnonymousBlogger said...

The bottom line is you went to see him, and I'm sure it meant a lot to him to see you and your mother.

I hope nothing like that ever happens to me. To anyone at all I guess, ultimately. Being in that bed must be a helpless feeling. And being the family to go visit wouldn't be much easier either.

Peter said...

I don't think it's necessary to comment on the pain you, your uncle... everybody feels about all this!
I would just wish to say that I really appreciate how you have written this, with "yesterday", "today", "tomorrow".
It's not nice reading, but it's so nicely written!

Aidan said...

Sorry to hear about your uncle....

Life is so uncertain, entire worlds can change in a heart beat, we sit in the middle trying to make sense of a world with no apparent fairness or rule set. It is easy to get lost in our grief.

I always think if this was the last thing i ever said would it change the way i spoke to someone.
As a result even if i am going out the door to the shops, i tell stace i love her. I make sure those who matter to me know how i feel, just incase. As you said "for tomorrow we may long for the yesterday we had. "

Take care of your self Keshi...

PS How did you go with the hotline?

krystyna said...

Hi Keshi!
When I was reading your post I could imagine what you were writing about. This same situation is in Kevin's hospital. (btw- he started 2nt step of chemo).
I'm so sorry about your lovely unkle. I'll be pray for him.
You wrote the true and I want to copy it

"Guys enjoy what you have, be content with whatever that you have today, be glad you're not on one of those beds at the ICU, don't complain about things that arent worth it, be thankful for today cos that's all we've got, for tomorrow we may long for the yesterday we had. And please pray for my uncle A...thanks in advance. Education, money, goodness or beauty can't save anyone from illness...nothing is permanent...but contentment and prayers heal, no matter what"

Keshi said...

Jay yes it's a very difficult thing to witness.

Somehow no one will know the pain until they themselves witness a loved-one going thru that.

ty!


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Vidya I know nothing that ppl say wud reduce the pain...but u being here means alot to me. tnxx!

***kisses***



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ty so much Shiv!





Keshi.

Keshi said...

hey Silvara WB babez! U know I missed ya tonz!


**My Dad was in there when he went for his quadruple bypass surgery

omg...how long ago was that? I hope he's well now. It must hv been really hard for ya to see him that way. This is my uncle, so I cant even imagine wut it is like to witness my dad like that! Anyways, my dad died next to me in his sleep...that sight was tormenting enough to last a lifetime.


ty babez and yes it rhymed well too :)

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Sunitaaaaa long time! U ok?

ty for the well-wishes for my uncle.


Im so sorry to hear abt Southy too...I hope he gets better soon. plz TC of him. TY!


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ty Vik!




Keshi.

Keshi said...

Jim ur right...I hv alot of pain in my life...half of which u dun even know abt.


tnxx!


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Me hey ty!



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Arti tnxx hun!





Keshi.

Keshi said...

hey Tre ty!

Im wiser for knowing u all..u guys r my WISDOM.


**Meet me at the crossroads of life--here and now. I'll bring prayers and thoughts and maybe something extra if you are good.


awww how nice of u to say that. TY! Wuts that extra stuff? ;-)


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Jim Hi again!


Suffering is necessary for the soul to grow...I agree.

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Uttsy MWAHHHHHHHH!

ty so much for all the emails and ur never-ending support. Im so lucky to hv someone like u in my life. Words dun do justice when it comes to expressing how much I value ur presence in my life.



Keshi.



Keshi.

Keshi said...

Kirthi tnxx hun!

**someone who is going through a very difficult situation! its important for me to smile and support..

Im glad u decided to support that person. Kirthi I hv realised that when someone is suffering, Im not able to relax, even if it's my worse enemy. In the end, we r all human..we all feel pain...and we all die some day. So be there for them...cos thats the MOST and the BEST we cud do in this life.


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Niki ty!

**my sisters friend was also in critical condition but he could survive by liver transplant in Germany

I rem u talked abt him some time ago. Is he still sick? I'll pray for him too.

ty so much Niki!


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ty so much Nora!



Keshi.

Keshi said...

Trinnie ty so much!

**positive vibrations do make a difference u know

ur dad is spot on! I believe in that too. Thats why whenever someone is ill or going thru tough times, I write it here in my blog. Cos I get alot of positive energy from ard the world and that helps. Last time my other uncle was going thru a tough time, I asked ppl to pray here...and a miracle took place the next day. It's amazing!


ty Trinnie HUGGGGGGGGGGZ! Say HI to ur dad for me ok :)


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aww Dhruv...HUGGGGGGGGGGGGGZ!

I really felt that HUG.


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hey Srijtih tnxx a bunch!


**When you stand beside a loved one who`s suffering, it takes courage to put up a smile and give warmth and hope,

yep...its very difficult...but some strength came upon me that day...surprisingly I was alright. Usually Im the first to cry :)



Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty Anits darl!



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ty Aditi!

I agree...quality is more imp than quantity.


**.. how can one ask their family to let it go..

I hv already asked my mum to switch the machine off, if I ever am in such a situation...I dun wanna suffer as I see no point in living like that (no offense to anyone out there) and I also dun want my family to suffer cos of my situation. This is my opinion on it. It may vary from person to person and I respect that.


So yep...it's an idividual decision.


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ty so much Kalyan!





Keshi.

Keshi said...

hey DJ!

**and his 'tomorrow' will be as good as his 'yesterday'

aww tnxx so much for wishing that for him.


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Hello Ebez!

Kinster I am...just like ya :) Kith n kin play a big part in my life.


aww that was a beautiful bear-hug..ty n HUGGGGGGGGZ right bak at ya!



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ty so much Rajeev!





Keshi.

Beach Bum said...

Keshi, like everyone else you and your uncle will be in my thoughts and prayers.

Keshi said...

Vesty ty!

** Today I was secretly bemoaning the fact I have arthritis in my left hand and left hip and my rt knee has not improved since the Op.

Im sorry to hear u suffer from arthritis :( I know that no one can escape illness but we all CAN escape one thing...and thats negative energy. We can all still be happy despite all the ailments of life. And I think u r a terrific example of that positive energy. HUGGGGGGGGGGZ!


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hey Iceman! great to see u bak.


**Wish I existed a world with no yesterday, today or tomorrow!

Im just thinking...wut kind of world wud that be...wud it be the world we may experience when we die?



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Beautiful Cinderella HUGGGGGGGGGGGGZ n WB!! I missed u so much. I was worried abt ya...I mean u didnt update ur blog for so long!


**I lost my Uncle in a car accident lat July, left 2 li'l kids and a lonely wife. Yet we are all trynna move on.

Im so sorry to hear that! OMG thats so sad. Thats a terrible loss. I dunno wut to say :( but I wanna hug ya....HUGGGGGGGGGGGZ! plz pass my hugs to the lil ones too.

plz TC of urself...and come bak soon. I miss ya!

And TY for dropping by sweetie!

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Amy ty HUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGZ!


**It must have been hard for ya standing there and having to see someone you love in that condition

yes...it was the most tormenting thing I witnessed since my granma's death in 2002.


Keshi.

Cazzie!!! said...

What happened? A stroke, An aneurysm? You know people can go to ICU and they are induced into sleep to give their bodies a rest for a while. Then, when they are taken off the induction drugs, they are sent to a ward and CAN have a good outlook, even if it does take a while to regain what was there before.
Yes, the World is changed, and it is sad that some people have to see this to know to appreciate what they already have.
Huggs to you Keshi :)

Keshi said...

Sam good luck with ur studies!

**it makes you laugh one minute and cry the next!!

yes...its all abt Ups n Downs.


TY Sam!


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ty Anuj!


**Its all a part of life .. d sad thing is we have to go through it ..inevitably

I know...but it really dun hit u hard until it happens to someone u know. The pain pierces so very deep.


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Adi ty!


** every little pain that we endure, makes us crave more n more for the little joys we will have...

thats so true!




Keshi.

Keshi said...

TT ty!

how hv ya been? Long time no see.


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hey Tys!


**cant pray for your uncle, since iam not a believer but i will surely wish it in my heart that he beats this illness and finds peace...

ty so much! Its ok that u dun believe in a God...and wishes r good enuff.


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Tobez tnxx for being here!


** It is worth remembering that today's ICU patients have been given a chance of life which didn't exist even a few years ago.

I agree. Its so much better now.


**ICU nurses

yes! I really dun u'stand why they r not well-paid cos thats a very tough job to do! It needs skill, patience, understanding, alot of time, energy and LOVE.


**btw - holding your uncle's hand and talking to him is powerful medicine!

Spot on! I did just that and I cud see his face light up. My mum always say LOVE is the medicine for many illnesses...we often forget that tho.


ty for the prayers Tobez HUGGGGGGGGGZ!



Keshi.

Keshi said...

KP aww ty so much!

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Aakash no worries my friend. TY!



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Asha heyy hows u?


**We have to stop whining about silly things and appreciate everything and everyone around us,never know what future holds.


exactly my point! I hv started to live like that long time ago...it feels great not to worry abt silly stuff...it feels great to live life like today is the last day on Earth. ppl should really try that. It does wonders to ya.


HUGGGGGGGGZ n ty swt hrt!





Keshi.

J said...

Everytime I come across such posts, everyone has to say something about 'yesterday 'today' and then life gets back to the usual. Hmmm!!

Keshi said...

G'day Helen!

**We all need to be reminded that this is it, this day, this moment, this is the one thing that money will never buy, we can never trade, and no one can ever steal

so well-said! Thats exactly wut I mean. TODAY is all we've got! So dun put off being HAPPY for tomorrow...cos we may never see tomorrow. Today is an irreplaceable TREASURE in ur hands. Dun let it just slip away...


ty Helen!


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tnxx Shionge!

**as I had been through this ordeal with my Father in the ICU for more than two months

awwww...HUGGGGGGGGGGZ! I cant imagine the pain u've been thru...cos it's ur dad! It must hv really tough for ya.


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Fish ty so much!


**And I belive, that every moment, even when you are suffering, is given to you because you will learn from it. If it doesnt hurt, we dont cherish it.

Spot on! I so agree with that. And learning from experiences is a must or else life will be poor in quality.


**The only thing you keep telling yourself is, that death and illness, are a part of life. I know, that is no consolation to you, but it will maybe help you deal with it.

true...somehow it makes it a lil easier to cope.


ty for ur very kind words Fish. I know u'd be ard if I needed ya, just like u were here now. HUGGGGGGGGGGGZ!


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Jim I think that comment is irrelevant to this post? Does it matter to me that India won when this post was abt my uncle?




Keshi.

Jim said...

take your mind off your uncle crying dont help no one

Keshi said...

hey Geroge!

**let us not be blinded by those advancements and forget that there remains real suffering.

So true! Medicine can never bring bak a dead person...also can LOVE ever be put in a bottle of Medicine?

U said it the best!


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ty so much Amit!

And I know u've been thru alot urself. Im sorry if I reminded u of that thu this post. HUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGZ!


**,for me,it's always their happy, cheerful faces which come to mind...perhaps that's also good?

so true...sometimes its better to just rem their happy healthy days...and not the last suffering days....


**kal ho na ho

so true...I see life as a candle who's flame can blow out anytime.


ty n u TC Amit!

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Pijush ty so much!


If there is a God, I dunno why he plays with ppl's lives...


**One serious feedback. Have you ever thought of writing novels?

:) mebbe some day..who knows. ty for the encouragement Pijush!




Keshi.

Keshi said...

aww ty Art!



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ty so much Ghosty! Ur support means alot to me.


**Living in the present world can teach us many things, respect of life is one

so true...alot of ppl dun value n respect present LIFE these days. They r too busy aiming for a TOMORROW that they mite never see...and in that process thet forget abt the LIFE they have TODAY.


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WB Bevz!


**knowing you can't do nothing to change the course.

yep..it's the HARDEST thing to witness in this life. It doesnt matter that much if I'm going thru it...but to see a loved-one going thru it is really difficult.


ty n HUGGGGGGGGGZ!




Keshi.

Jim said...

when u cry
u r asking for sympathy



that SUCKS big time

Jim said...

I stay away from sad ppl
its contagious

Keshi said...

Diesel ty so much!

The visit did help him...cos I saw his face light up...and its not an easy thing to do being in that situation, on that bed, in that kind of ward! GOD BLESS HIM!


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ty so much Deips!

I've been ok ta...and urself?



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Jim...


**u have won the wub award
why u not displaying the link

wut am I gonna gain from attaching all my awards here? My blog is abt my life and the ppl I meet in it. Awards dun mean anything to me...



Keshi.

Jim said...

I saw my father in law die in agony
i told the docs to end his pain if there is no cure

Jim said...

u shudnt insult the award giver
u r bad

Jim said...

u SUXS

Keshi said...

aww Kaylz I was thinking of ya when I entered the ICU..I really did. Its not an easy life that u have...

HUGGGGGGGGGGGGGZ!

do u know I pray for u every single day?

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AB tnxx!


** Being in that bed must be a helpless feeling

OMG yes! I can neva imagine me being in that bed...I'd really wanna end it all...no offense to anyone but it's a very TOUGH thing to go thru...not so much physically but mentally!



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Peter ty!


I know...it's hard to read this but it's the TRUTH abt anyone's life.



Keshi.

Jim said...

how do u solve a problem like Keshi !

Jim said...

my father in law was administered jelly laced with poison

Keshi said...

heyy Aidan!

**I always think if this was the last thing i ever said would it change the way i spoke to someone.

I so agree with ya. Ur a very wise and loving man Aidan.


**How did you go with the hotline?

will tell u soon. TNXXX Aidan!!


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Krys ty and Im praying for lil Kevin.


HUGGGGGGGGGGGZ!

Sending Kevin alot of angel blessings.....




Keshi.

Jim said...

i wanna sing and dance
not cry


life is short

Keshi said...

Beach_bum HUGGGGGGGGZ n ty!


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ty Caz!


**What happened? A stroke, An aneurysm?

apparently he had heartburn all of a sudden (in July) and then went into cardiac arrest...then the docs performed 2 bypass surgeries on him...then he had a chest infection that left him dependent on the machine for breathing! He was also bleeding from the mouth/nose...and the docs didnt know why. Right now he's on a breathing machine...if they switch it off, he can only breathe for 20min w.o. it. This was all sudden Caz...he was a fit n healthy man.


***HUGS*** n ty!


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ty J!


**everyone has to say something about 'yesterday 'today' and then life gets back to the usual

nope..not for me. Life doesnt get back to usual for me. I live exactly what I preached here Jon....I live only for TODAY. And it's not cos of my uncle's situation. I hv been living like that for many years now...




Keshi.

Jim said...

let the dead bury the dead
life is for the living

- Jesus

Jim said...

save us the gory details
we are not docs
and your uncle is not a case study

Keshi said...

Jim I know u wanna sing n dance and life is short bla bla bla. But when my uncle is at the ICU wut d u want me to do? Dance to Jingle bells?

Ur such a loser. U hv NO FEELINGS for anyone at all. So u can cut the crap.


Im not here to entertain u. Im here to write whatever Im going thru. So dun come here asking me to put up HAPPY posts 24/7 just so that u can flood my blog with trash comments. Learn to respect ppl's grief. And Im not here to gain sympathy...but even if Im here to gain it, how does it affect u? U can stop advising me and if u think Im here to gain sympathy, then just get out of my blog. OK????


Im human and I dun pretend to be HAPPY and CHEERFUL whern Im not. And if u cant handle it, then it's ur problem..not mine.




Keshi.

Jim said...

i am here for balance
u need to enjoy your life

u have too damn many friends
and some are going through hard times

Thank God
i dont have 100 intimate friends

Keshi said...

Jim who asked u to read it? Caz asked me a qn as she's a nurse so I wrote her that ans.

dun poke ur nose into everybody's business. everything is a joke for u and thats SAD!




Keshi.

Keshi said...

LOL @balance.

U mite need to find it first b4 ur here to help me!

I dun need u to help me Saby. its u who need SERIOUS help.


Keshi.

Keshi said...

btw u hv disrespected my uncle and my feelings...so i'd just appreciate it if u dun comment again on this post.

Keshi.

Jim said...

sad songs make me cry
i am human too


but i dont wanna cry all my life
India has a billion ppl
every day some one dies or commits suicide

FUCKITALL

Jim said...

when u cry
cry inside
dont make a spectacle of it for spectattors

when u laff
laff out loud
and the world will laff with u

when u cry
u cry alone
no one gives a damn

its all lip service

Jim said...

Wasted days and wasted nights,
I have left for you Behind
for you don't belong to me,
your heart belongs to someone else.


Why should I keep loving you,
when I know that you're Not true?
And why should I call your name,
when you're to blame
for making me Blue?


Don't you remember the day,
that you went away and left me?
I was so lonely,
prayed for you only,
my love


another tear jerker

Keshi said...

Jim...I thought u had some dignity left in u but it seems u dun.


**but i dont wanna cry all my life
India has a billion ppl
every day some one dies or commits suicide


so? can I help that? I cant care abt the whole world and I cant cry for the whole world. But I do cry for my loved-ones...especially when they r ill or dying. So cut the lecture on poverty and suicide.



**when u laff
laff out loud
and the world will laff with u
when u cry
u cry alone
no one gives a damn

it doesnt matter...I wont stop expressing my sorrow/happiness anyways. wut r u SCARED of? TEARS?

Jim said...

my parish priest Fr Anil attends births weddings and funerals




he has a drink every time
he dont cry
and he dont laff too loud

Jim said...

Dont ask for whom the bells toll
it tolls for me and for u

Keshi said...

Well then ur priest dunno HOW to cry. Thats sad!


Keshi.

Keshi said...

Being scared of tears or thinking of tears as a weakness, is inhuman.

Keshi.

Eternally Curious said...

Keshi: I'm so sorry to hear of how your uncle is suffering. But I'm also very glad that you got to see him and be with him. I know it must have been tough for you, but I'm glad the two of you could be together nonetheless.

I know this isn't the right time, but maybe it'll help lighten things just a bit for you: you've been tagged! Stop by when you're up to it - for a visit and to see what this is all about.

Keshi said...

ty Curious HUGGGGGGGGGGZ!

And I checked out ur tag...and commented too. sweet...


Keshi.

Zhu said...

I'm very sorry to read that... Your title is beautiful, you expressed so much in one post. That's a side of you I didn't know.

Keshi said...

tnxx Zhu HUGGGGGGGGZ!

Keshi.

:P fuzzbox said...

Sorry to hear about your uncle. Since AJ's heart attack, I try to live every day to it's fullest.

Cazzie!!! said...

Keshi, ty for answering my question. Bless you and your Uncle, and your family. Make sure you keep talking to him, and holding his hand. The sence of hearing is the last thing to go you know. They can still hear you off and on even in induced comas whilst on the machines. They can also still feel touch too. Softly goes the finger tips.....tender loving touch. Try not to cry, speak of the happy times with him, the fun times, then he knows he is not alone. When the time is right, he will let go..then he will know he has been blessed to have you there :)

Cazzie!!! said...

Life isn't about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself. How far you go in life depends on your being tender with the young, compassionate with the aged, sympathetic with the striving, and tolerant of the weak and strong. Because someday in your life YOU will have been all of these.
Huggs XXXX

Steph said...

How sad! This post really put into perspective for me all the stupid bullshit in blogsville lately.

Thank you for reminding me what's really important. I hope your uncle A recovers soon.

starry nights said...

So sorry to hear about your uncle"A". We all have to think about what our yesterdays will be like when we look back.I really do hope my yesterday's will be worth remembering.So much to think about.so often we get caught up with the future that we forget that today is going to be that yesterday.

deepsat said...

hope your uncle gets well soon!

take care!!

Sun Follower said...

lovely post- thanks for the reminder(s)!
*hugs*

SaffronSaris said...

Hugggggzzzzzzz!!!!!!!

Keshi said...

Fuzzy when did AJ hv a heart attack??


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Caz u r one of the rarest PURE souls ard. ty hun!


**The sence of hearing is the last thing to go you know

thats right. The nurses told us that when my granma was dying...my mum held her hands until the second she left this world...


**How far you go in life depends on your being tender with the young, compassionate with the aged, sympathetic with the striving, and tolerant of the weak and strong. Because someday in your life YOU will have been all of these.

those words should be carved in gold Caz! TY n HUGGGGGGGGGGGGZ!


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Steph tnxx hun!


**This post really put into perspective for me all the stupid bullshit in blogsville lately

yes..alot of idiots in blogville think it's funny to spam others...losers! They hv absolutely no idea wut life is. Actually we should sympathise with them.


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ty Starry! Hope ur doing well.


**I really do hope my yesterday's will be worth remembering

so true. thats what we must make the best of TODAY...cos if/when TOMORROW comes, our YESTERDAY wud be something to cherish...


:)HUGGGGGGGGGZ!




Keshi.

Keshi said...

Deepz, Sunfollower and Saffy, ty n HUGGGGGGGGGGGZ!


Keshi.

Fish said...

I said it before, and I'll say it again. Jim, you are a prick.
Keshi, hug. Anytime.

Keshi said...

Fish ty for that!

Jim just loves to play with ppl's feelings...its very sad actually.


***HUGS***
Keshi.

Jeevan said...

You said it right keshi, which we are getting tomorrow is not to prove that it would be like today. I wish you uncle get well soon and recall the yesterday’s memories with u on tomorrow.

niki yokota said...

thank u for remembering him, keshi-chan!!
he could get well soon and working as a doctor again.
but he feels guilty for receiving so much donation from us.
i asked my sister to invite him for SNS, but he declined :)

Keshi said...

ty so much Jeevan!


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hey Niki he will be ok...dun worry.

btw wuts SNS?


Keshi.

Kalpana said...

Wishing Him to get well soon..............................................................

Keshi said...

awwwww ty Kalpz!


Keshi.

niki yokota said...

SNS is social networking service.
like orkut, facebook, etc.
u are not doing orkut?

Keshi said...

tnxx Niki!

I dun orkut at all...I hate SNS sites like that :)

Keshi.

chocolteluva said...

aww im sorry to hear about ure uncle. i hope he gets better asap. =) atleast you are around him to see him ad visit him. my friend just told me her uncle in the philipines just had a stroke and tbi and is in the icu and is probably not gonna make it. he's in critical condition and the doc's mostly declared that he's machine dependent now. my cousin cant even go back and visit him.

I HOPE ure uncle gets to see his yesterday asap =). yes, it is important to value ure today and ure yesterday.

indicaspecies said...

A good post reminding us to enjoy good health and appreciate life.
I understand what pain, sorrow and grief means - I've experienced it recently. I hope your uncle gets well and you feel better. Hugs to you Keshi.

Keshi said...

aww ty Choco!

And Im so sorry to hear abt ur friend's uncle :(


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Indica HUGGGGGGGGGGGGZ!



Keshi.