Wednesday, September 5

The Lone Survivor

Last night something happened, some words were exchanged and some feelings hurt. It was very minor, but somehow it got on my nerves. I suddenly realised that sometimes even your closest loved-ones don't really understand how you feel...and they can take you for granted. The words spoken were not harsh, but they spoke volumes. It suggested that they didn't have a clue about what I was going through. Just cos I don't talk about certain stuff, that doesn't mean I'm living a cosy life. I have my demons too but I just get by...I somehow survive...cos I have to. Cos what can you do about things that are not within your control? So, I don't talk about such thnigs in the open if I can help it..cos what's the point talking about it if there's nothing you can do about it. So I just survive...no one has to know about certain things in order for me to feel better or even be appreciated. As long as I appreciate myself and my strength to overlook certain things and get on with my life, then that's all that matters. It's just amazing how some people take you for granted...it comes as a total surprise through few words they say or a minor act from them. Then it suddenly hits you that you've been surviving all alone somehow, all the while they have been thinking otherwise. But you can't make people think the way you want them to think. If I can understand their feelings without them having to tell me everything, then it's really their call to try and understand mine too. But I seem to have become a black and white picture that has frozen in time...in their mind. But I don't have to let anyone know certain feelings of mine, cos I already know...that's all that matters. Often survival doesn't allow you to hold hands. Therefore silence is more precious and peaceful than wasted words.



Current Music: Don't Let The Sun Go Down On Me by George Michael and Elton John

116 Cranium Signets:

anits said...

** silence is more precious and peaceful than wasted words.
I agree 100% of this phrase! Words thrown cannot be taken away so think carefully before throwing any words!
hv a nice day gal!

KAYLEE said...

AWWWW THAT IS HOW I FEEL LATELY:(

KAYLEE said...

I AM NOT WELL TODAY:(

Sweetstickychewy said...

Beautiful song Keshi...

***So, I don't talk about such thnigs in the open if I can help it..cos what's the point talking about it if there's nothing you can do about it.

I am with you on that sweets. And feel the same way too. Not everyone will understand what we say. And not everyone is required to know every single thing that runs through us.

Beautiful picture. speaks well.

***Lone Survivor

I am one as well.;)

*Huggiz*

Have a good day beautiful..:D

RAFFI said...

the only person's thoughts i can control are my own. i think you're in the right frame of mind and are approaching this in a healthy manner. however, if they continue to do it, i would pull-out my paint ball gun and unleash (if parent's are involved, just tell them you're pregnant, you don't know who the father is, and you're going to keep it).

Jay said...

A lot of times the people closest to us are the ones who are most likely to take us for granted. They think they know us completely and stop trying to learn more. Or they don't notice when we or things in our lives change from time to time. Even family members can be that way.

Arvind said...

Hey Keshi,

Yes, as long as you appreciate yourself and know who you are, nothing else matters, thats humility as well as strength of character.
And with loved ones - it hurts I know, but surely all is understood and forgiven eventually.

Am impressed by your blog and you as a person.

AmitL said...

Hi,Keshi...we go back to what I always say'You and only you are responsible for your happiness'..and,what you said("As long as I appreciate myself and my strength to overlook certain things and get on with my life, then that's all that matters.")...do what I do-don't have expectations from anyone except yourself,and,you'll always feel happy.From yourself,ensure you keep the highest levels-of determination to not feel let down/taken fro granted,especially,by (hu)man-kind..:).I adopted this strategy 2-3 yrs back and can count the number of times I've been sad,on my fingertips only.:)TC,cheers,cheer up and forge ahead...will mail u..we're there,na,to make things better.:).

KAYLEE said...

I NEED SOMEONE TO TALK TOO :(

AmitL said...

Hi,Keshi-at the risk of repetition,let me say'you and only you are responsible for your happiness'.Don't keep high(or any,acc to me)expectations from people,but,from your own self,expect the moon.That's the one way to be happy.Believe me,I implemented it 2-3 years back,and,can now count the number of days I was sad,on my fingertips.:)So,cheer up,smile,tc and have a great day.For the rare times when you feel sad,we are there to cheer u up,na?:)

AmitL said...

Hey,Keshi,did you get the last two comments?It keeps saying'your comment could not be processed'.strange.

AmitL said...

ohhhh..it's there.:)So,it must be something wrong with their'comments':)

Aidan said...

YEars of love can be destoryed with seconds of anger... Hurtfull comments said in anger, momentary lapse, we loose sight of whats important because we are slaves to our emotions.

I dont know enough of the back story to give anything more than that.

The truth is we all do our best, there is no right wrong, good or bad, just good enough given the conditions!

If not you always have me to kick around:)

chocolteluva said...

im soo sorry ure not having a good one today.
ure last sentence "silence is more precious and peaceful than wasted words'
its hard for me to understand that sometimes.. just cause i tend to blow off steam BY YELLING. but i yell empty words, nothing that i feel or nothing thats actually good. i know its not productive, but im trying to change.

usually im a lone survivor, cause i always feel like people in my family just dont get me..

Mizrepresent said...

Keshi, be yourself, always...people, family like to put us in a box, and we are always evolving, so keep evolving...you are meant to be only you lady...and a beautiful you at that!

anuj said...

keshi did someone spank you .. haha

ohk on a more serious note .. i knw it hurts .. d small things, the little comments hurt d most .. but thy need to pass .. u jus hav to ignore thm ..

it happened .. u said it out here .. d anger is out .. done . so calm down n take a deep breath ..

I guess I should start takin yoga classes .. calm down take a deep breath .. lol ..

so cool dwn ..nd spank some booty :D

so hw r u tdy bomshell?

mystic rose said...

Hi keshi,
sad when such misunderstandings happen, esp so with loved ones.
I certainly think you are showing a remarkable strength of character by your attitude. No use feeling sorry for your self or allowing anyone else to.

we do have to communicate though -since even those who love us can misunderstand our silence- as effectively as possible, but theres only so much we can say and its upto others to receive it.
Im sure you are wise and all, and know where to draw the limit.

take care! hugz!

ToOothlEss WOndeR! said...

That is so much me.
family, friends and doggie doo.
you cant expect family and friends to understand always - just you cant expect the doggy poop to move out from under your foot every morning.

I just came in from my morning jog, and shit just happened!

Jeya Anand said...

I agree and believe and live by that..silence is more precious than wasted words.. its sad that every relation has got some bad times..i mean each and every one..hmmm thats how it works..life..

Radha said...

Cheer up sweetie! Lifes too short to brood over minor things :-)

Trinnie said...

**HUGZZZ**

:) don't think too much about it keshi...don't get stressed

Aditi said...

it might be true that many of your friends take you for granted but look at how many dont.. look right here in the blog world keshi
=)
and no i havent disappeared just dreading something tomorrow.. will post on it later

deepsat said...

everyone is a lone survivor from the grind of everyday life!

cheer up!!

;-))

Jim said...

Dont lissen to WORDS Keshi
words is a lousy communication medium

lotta misundertsndings happened with my girl and u


bcoz of WORDS

Jim said...

Anuj
r u hitting on keshi too?

Jim said...

Kaylee is not well
look after Kaylee

Vik said...

Keshi,

I am a firm believer that you gotu run your course by yourself at sometime. I feel doing it by yourself is no let down of any sorts. As for as people trying to understand you within the family, you cannot always get that. I mean adults within the roof, so many difference in opinion can't help. All that matters is letting the water go under the bridge. Also that like my mate Aditi said look at your blogger world. You have some good and lovely mates. Just vent it out we would be one of those listening and consoling without saying anything harsh =)

On a funny note, being lone is great except for sex acts =) so there you go.

Southpaw unplugged said...

So no one told you life was gonna be this way *clap*clap*clap*clap*
Your job's a joke, you're broke, your love life's D.O.A.

It's like you're always stuck in second gear
When it hasn't been your day, your week, your month,
or even your year
but..

I'll be there for you
When the rain starts to pour
I'll be there for you
Like I've been there before
I'll be there for you
Coz you're there for me too...

Cheer up will u....:)

Cazzie!!! said...

Silence is important...outsied silence that is...we still have our thoughts, but it gives us the opprtunity to think within.
Huggs Keshi lovey :)

J. Andrew Lockhart said...

"silence is more precious and peaceful than wasted words"
very wise...

Little Miss Muffet said...

sometimes even parents say hurtful things and ur left wondering how they could say that, shouldn't they understand their kid...but that's how it is...in the end,people know us only by the emotions we choose to display, not by the ones that lie buried inside ua..cheer up girlie!

Andrew The Asshole said...

your post is so true I think my favorite part is, "survival doesn't always allow you to hold hands."

Short, but cut me like a knife. You can't truly help people til you are in control of your own life and that takes time a work to get to that point.

desperado said...

"silence is more precious and peaceful than wasted words"
....and sometimes it helps to write a mail like I did :)

And more often than not for survival it is essential to hold someones hand

take care dear

--Sunrise-- said...

"silence is more precious and peaceful than wasted words"

:)

:) :)

Die Muräne said...

I often think: How can someone other understand me, when not even I understand me...
It often helps to get out of that.

Crazy Me said...

(((HUGS))) It sounds like you need one.

niki yokota said...

very nice music...*tear*
>silence is more precious and peaceful than wasted words.

love this quote!!
take care keshi-chan..

Sam said...

profound insight into a basic fact of survival... its always for yourself... never do things for others.. you'll be happier!!

Ps said...

You know sometimes, positive happy people are exprected to be that way ALL the time.Many do not realise that the 'positive happy people' have their down moments too.THEY expect YOU to be cheerful, happy-go-lucky, enthusiastic like you always were..They don't understand that sometimes you feel totally lost too.And you dont feel like sharing everything all the time.
I could relate to this--because on my down days, people just cannot relate.They have always seen me as buvvly,jovial,talkitive.
Sometimes one just wants to be very quiet and wants everything to disappear!
Hugs.

Tys on Ice said...

hang in there kiddoo...though we all have to fite our battles alone, you will be surprised how many are there on the sidelines cheering you along...

chin up soldier!

DJ said...

this is exactly what i have been through in the last couple of months...
i totally understand u on this note and fully agree on ur thoughts...

Then it suddenly hits you that you've been surviving all alone somehow, all the while they have been thinking otherwise.
this one hurts and hurts big time...

Therefore silence is more precious and peaceful than wasted words.
yeps... very true...

tc...

priya said...

Keshi, I totally agree. Either in relationship or even your best friends sometimes do hurt unintentionally. Well even after we know each other, some times few words r hard to digest coz we do not like to hear form the people who love us. Its not taking it for granted keshi. Its basically, they show their aggressive beahvior when they r unable to hurt someoneelse and throw it on their loved ones. It can be hard to digest. But I think they will realize their mistakes once they come to sense.

Till then, atleast someone shud better walk off quiet to let them understnad you very well.

CapCity said...

((((((silent hug, mate)))))))))

check my post where i am in a hibernation of sorts, when u can: Dormant now.

Peter said...

To be "in line" with yourself is difficult, the first ever lasting struggle. ... and we all have our moods. If you then have some "reserve" for others, that's wonderful and I believe you have a lot of that! But, don't "expect" anything, then you will of course often be disappointed. But, also, don't forget that the others have the same problems as you - and may have their moods. So, try to forgive!

Thanks for the music, I adore. That would have been a concert to attend!

... and for the flower which so perfectly illustrates your post!

Jeevan said...

I share by taking matter on myself to know other, than until anyone can’t find what i feel and what my expression is.

Many of the times have asked by people how can u be living alone without non to talk and share, but how many can know like how u said: “silence is more precious and peaceful than wasted words.”

Iceman said...

What at times puts me off is, when its done by some one close...

but then... I dont take my feelings seriously... Yeah... what the fuck will happen if I am hurt... by their words... The world doesn't end right... It pains at that moment only if you let it get to ya!

I don't take somethings into my ears... even if it gets in accidentally, I let it right through out, from my other ear... :P

True... Silence is Precious...
And they do understand, that their actions were indeed damaging, when my answer is nothing but silence!

Harry said...

C'mon Keshi...cheer up...

I can understand that these things really hurt...but there in no ones control on these things...better to forget and move forward/ahead...

now plz smile Keshi...:)

yeah,1 mre thing...I don't understand since last 3-4 days, ur comment page is not allowing me to put my comments there in the comment box...even today also, somehow, I could manage to get it straight..god knows...

anyway, u tkcre..

Cheer Up!!

Harry

Pijush said...

Keshi, sorry for you. It happens almost with everyone, in every phase of life. You will be better if can accept it easily. I don’t keep expectation from anyone, not even from my near and dears, not even from the fortune. Its only because whatever happens, happens for good and if it is not still good just believe in the phase “Destiny is unavoidable”. But I know, its easy to say, tough to face. Sometime it pains a lot, but anyway life has to move, we cant help controlling everything, so just keep smiling :-)

Alok said...

Hey Keshi, I know exactly wht u r sayn becoz u knw wut, I have felt tht way so many times ..... I don't know whether it has got anything to do with my zodiac (I am a cancerian btw) but they used to affect me a lot esp coming frm family or loved ones ....

but then u knw Keshi, I brooded, brooded and brooded and I got tired of it ..... not becoz I accepted it but becoz I realised tht I loved them too much and irrespective of wht they say I can never stop loving them even for a second ....

and even though people dont say enough but we know for sure who loves and who loves us not ..... so I started not expecting anything in return .... I still love them when I go thru these small times, becoz they r too irrelevant in the bigger pic, if someone whom I dont love .... I really dont care ....

Have u seen the hindi movie Mohabbatein .... SRK has a beautiful dialogue in the film ... "Maine Mohabbat karne se pehle yeh to shart to nahi rakhi thi ki woh bhi mujhse mohabbat karegi, yeh shart to nahi rakhi thi ki woh mujhse jyada jiyegi" .... trnsl ..(I had not expected love or set the expectation that she will live more than me) .......

Really I expect so little in return these days expect frm myself (call me selfish if u want to .... but it lets me stay happy and strong even when alone or with people I love)

alok

Kulpreet said...

Well said girl. I guess nobody understands the state of mind of another person. That is why so many problems happen between people.

It is perfectly alright for one to live with one's problems.

Silence is the only metal in the world that doesn't make any sound (c) Kulpreet.

But the best thing about life is that when you least expect, people stand by your side. And at that moment you know life rocks.

ASm I saying too amy things... Don't know.

annie said...

Makin my blog private..need ur mail id to send u an invite.

Shionge said...

Yo Keshi sweetie I totally know where you are coming from and it hurts so much when our love ones hurt us sometimes.

Hugz to you...you are not a lone survivor my dear friend, you have us :D

Nadine said...

So sorry you went through a hard time. I hope that it gets better for you today.

Thanks for the song - it's a good one.

Asha said...

I agree! Sometimes it's not wise to have argument with somebody who are not willing to compromise.Silence if golden!! Take care Keshi.Hugs:)))

AVIANA said...

hey sweets,

this makes me think of when shit hit the fan in my life back in late 2004 early 2005.

One of my friends at the time encouraged for me to move in with him. he was a good friend i thought. i packed my bags with my tail in between my legs and moved from Los Angeles back to DC. My boyfriend at the time, C, was the main culprit of all the bad happenings. My heart was ripped out. I even told my friend who I moved in with that there were times that I spent screaming in the house when I was alone to deal with the pain. For the 7 months I lived there, he did not once asked me how I was doing. Not once did he ask me what was going on, what did C do.. I didn't have a job. My closest friends vanished whom I thought would be there for this 1 time.

I remember close to when I moved out, me and my ex-friend were driving and quickly mentioned C in passing. That was when he asked me "so have u talked to C?" I said no and that was that.

after all of this, one of the few people who I thought would be there for me simply asked me had i talked to C. I told you months ago I was screaming with tears in the house when no one was around. not once did you ask me what was going on, is there anything i can do to comfort you...

going through all of that helped me realize the strength I had to make it through the most horrible pain I have dealt with to this date. I dealt with it with no one. no one supported me emotionally which is what I needed the most at that time. every thing came crashing down, my dreams, my love, my finances, my sanity everything....

it's a harsh moment the moment you realize that the one person who you thought would understand you and be with you is not that person...

maybe it's our fault for creating a visage for this person when that person showed signs all along they were not who we created them to be or maybe they were once that person but changed....

i don't know....your strength is what is going to have to take you through this....

it's sad that i am more closed than before and you may be even more so now but don't let this person ruin all that you have in you....

smile sweets... :)

it's wednesday...HUMP day....

go find you a lad to rub yourself on...someone who's of LEGAL age MISSY!

or at least find a pillow or something...in private....

smile sweets.. :)

tkkerouac said...

Silence is more precious and peaceful than wasted words...
so true

and sometimes things can get so bad with a relation,
you have to "dismiss" them from your life
If only for you own protection

starry nights said...

Keshi I am with you on this, many times I feel I am a lone survivor .nobody understands how you feel and what you are goiing through, just because I don't talk about it.

love the song.

WP2007 said...

Hi Keshi

Silence is golden.

There are things we all hide from others. In a sense, we really do not know other people.

Sometimes, I wonder if I know myself. :)

Good post!

Hugs

Bev

KAYLEE said...

HOW R U?

KAYLEE said...

KESHI I WISH I COULD TELL YOU WHAT WAS WRONG BUT I DONT KNOW THAT I WANT EVERYONE TO KNOW::)

Dawn....सेहर said...

Hey dear how r u???? Its been ages....and I miss you so much!

I feel what you say...soon you will see something similar in my post too :)!
Yes silence and intelligent plays a good role sometimes
Hugggs to you my dear
Hope you feel better
Cheers

Top cat said...

Big Furry Cat HUG.:)
tc

Keshi said...

Anits ty!

I used to waste my words trying to make ppl u'stand. Now I dun. Cos I realised no matter what, someone who's willing to u'stand u, will somehow u'stand u, even w.o. having to tell them how u feel.

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Kaylz cheeru up girl! We hv each other. If that's some comfort for ya :)


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ty Amy MWAHHHH!

Ur recent post speaks alot abt my feelings.


**And not everyone is required to know every single thing that runs through us.

yep thats why I just get by on my own...sometimes there's no one to save u but urself.



Keshi.

Keshi said...

Raffi ty!

**if parent's are involved, just tell them you're pregnant, you don't know who the father is, and you're going to keep it

I dun want my mum to hv a heartattack. but tnxx for the tip :):)


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Jay ur absolutely right mate!

** They think they know us completely and stop trying to learn more.

thats exactly what I meant by "I seem to have become a black and white picture that has frozen in time...in their mind"...

its like they hv this fixed HAPPY picture of u that will never change...but the truth is ppl change as time goes by...


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Arvind WC n ty!

I got ur msg yday...will write to ya soon. tnxx!


**thats humility as well as strength of character.

I agree. I think as much as some ppl think Im a very sensitive cry baby, I have immense strength n courage. Im proud of myself.


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Amit I got all ur comments :) dun worry. What happened when u were commenting?


**do what I do-don't have expectations from anyone except yourself,

true...i hv learnt that art a long time ago...but sometimes I feel even thats an expectation from myself...and that becomes a burden...at times. Anyways its much better than expecting from others.

tnxx for all the great advice!


Keshi.

Keshi said...

Aidan aww ty n HUGGGGGGGGZ!

**, we loose sight of whats important because we are slaves to our emotions.

I agree 100%! thats what its all abt...SELF.

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Choco ty sweetz!

I used to scream like ya...trying to make others SEE. But now I dun. Cos ppl who choose to SEE will SEE anyways.


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ty Miz!


**people, family like to put us in a box, and we are always evolving, so keep evolving

u put that so neatly! u got me thinking. ty so much n HUGGGGGGGGZ!




Keshi.

KAYLEE said...

//Kaylz cheeru up girl! We hv each other. If that's some comfort for ya :)//

It definatly is :P

Keshi said...

Anuj hey hows u? :)

**u jus hav to ignore thm

how can I just IGNORE hurtful words Anuj? Somehow words hv the power to cut deeper than a sword. Especially words spoken by a loved-one...

Spank? LOL I wish...by Jude Law or someone...

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ty so much Rose for having faith in me! That means alot to me.

HUGGGGGGGGGZ!



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hehe Toothy Im sorry u stepped on shit..lol!




Keshi.

Keshi said...

Jeya ty!


** its sad that every relation has got some bad times

Its not so much of a bad time...it's like they dun see what Im dealing with...and how bravely I handle some situations. And when ur strength is undervalued, by the very ppl u thought wud know ya, it hurts.

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Radha ty!


** Lifes too short to brood over minor things

I know but u cant just ignore some ppl's words can ya..:) cos it matters to me how my loved-ones see me. or does it anymore.


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Trinnie tnxx hun HUGGGGGGGGZ!




Keshi.

Keshi said...

Aditi tnxx n ur spot on! I do hv so many ppl here who KNOW me more than some of my closest loved-ones in real. Isnt that amazing :)


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Deepz ty!


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Jim tnxx!


**Dont lissen to WORDS Keshi
words is a lousy communication medium


its hard to do that...cos words do express how u really feel.


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hey Vikz tnxx!


** I mean adults within the roof, so many difference in opinion can't help.

I agree...its REEEEALLY hard.


**sex

LOL why cant u hv it alone? :)

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Love that song Southy...tnxx alot!

Rembrants right?




Keshi.

Keshi said...

hey Caz hows it going?

** still have our thoughts, but it gives us the opprtunity to think within

Spot on! So well-said.


ty n HUGGGGGGGGZ!


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ty Andrew!

I hope ur doing well.


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Miss hows ya?


**sometimes even parents say hurtful things and ur left wondering how they could say that, shouldn't they understand their kid...

I agree...some words they say can scar u for life. Only cos those words came from their mouth...the parents'.


**in the end,people know us only by the emotions we choose to display, not by the ones that lie buried inside ua

I agree...but sometimes u tell them how u really feel n they either dun wanna believe u or they misunderstand u. So thats why I said keeping silent is better.


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ty Andrew!

**You can't truly help people til you are in control of your own life and that takes time a work to get to that point.

definitely!



Keshi.

Keshi said...

Dhruv ty matey!


**and sometimes it helps to write a mail like I did

awww...Im glad u did too :)


**And more often than not for survival it is essential to hold someones hand

I agree...but at times ur all alone, even when ur holding hands...


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ty Sunrise!



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Murane heyy!

**How can someone other understand me, when not even I understand me...

true..very true!



Keshi.

Keshi said...

Crazy_me I cud do with tonz. ty n HUGGGGGGGGGGGGZ!


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Niki MWAHHHHHHH!


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Sam ty!


**its always for yourself... never do things for others

I broke that rule long time ago and Im paying for that now..heavily. Its too late to go bak.


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PS ty!

**.THEY expect YOU to be cheerful, happy-go-lucky, enthusiastic like you always were..They don't understand that sometimes you feel totally lost too.

Spot on! thats exactly wut I meant. thats why I said they see me as a black n white pic frozen in time...cos they always expect me to be this ONE HAPPY PERSON. But they dun realise we all hv our struggles n that ppl change...


yes sometimes I want everything to disappear..including myself.

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Tys tnxx alot n that means alot to me!



Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty DJ!

Its good to know that alot of ppl r going thru the same thing..kinda makes u feel u r holding hands anyways :)


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ty Priya!

**But I think they will realize their mistakes once they come to sense.

yes..thats wut I did with someone very close to me...


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k Capz ty n HUGGGGGGGGZ!


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ty Peter!


**But, also, don't forget that the others have the same problems as you - and may have their moods. So, try to forgive!

aww that really made me think...I know they do hv their probs too...I really do know that. thats why I kept silent.


yep that concert must hv been a great one to attend!

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Jeevan BIG HUGGGGGGGGGGZ!


**Many of the times have asked by people how can u be living alone without non to talk and share

do we always hv to talk to feel alive? u should ask them that qn bak next time :)

btw Jeevan, I hv had so many moment by myself and they hv been the BEST in my life.




Keshi.

Keshi said...

Icaman ty!

I agree...we hv to let go of the hurt...but how easy is that? for me, time heals some wounds...n some other wounds remain fresh even after years..


**And they do understand, that their actions were indeed damaging, when my answer is nothing but silence!

I agree. Thats the best re-action u cud give!


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Harry ty! :)


wuts wrong with the comment box? Can u tell me wut msg u get...tnxx!


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Pijush tnxx mate!


**I don’t keep expectation from anyone, not even from my near and dears, not even from the fortune.

me neither...on a materialistic level, I hv told my mum that I dun need any of her money or anything at all after her.


**Its only because whatever happens, happens for good and if it is not still good just believe in the phase “Destiny is unavoidable

I like the way u think and face life Pijush...brilliant.


btw ur looking GOOOOOD in that pic sir ;-)

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Alok thanks for that insightful comment. It really helped me to focus on the good things in them n discard the negatives.

ur right...I love them anyways.


**I had not expected love or set the expectation that she will live more than me

beautiful n so true!

yes I've seen that movie..and I love the songs in it..especially "Humko humise chura lo" :)


tnxx Alok!



Keshi.

Keshi said...

hey Kulz ty!


**Silence is the only metal in the world that doesn't make any sound (c) Kulpreet.

loved it!


yeah some stand by u and some just dun...some others stand by u and later expect u to be a slave for that...

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Annie I'll get to ya soon, tnxx!



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aww ty Shionge n HUGGGGGGGGGZ!




Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty Nadine!

this song is one of my FAV favs...in my entire life. :)


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Asha hows u girl? Hope ur eyes r getting better now...


**it's not wise to have argument with somebody who are not willing to compromise

so true...I keep shut now. Cos its no point argueing with someone who's not willing to give u a chance to explain.

TC Asha!

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Lisa HUGGGGGGGGGZ!

tnxx for sharing that story from ur life and making me realise it happens everywhere. That some ppl u think care abt u, dun really care.

what kind of friend was he?


**no one supported me emotionally which is what I needed the most at that time.

yeah...I had a rough time like that too..NO ONE was there for me. And then I learnt to depend on someone who was always there for me...and that someone was ME.


**HUMP day

lol I dun need to look too far...the city is these days is crowded with handsome Aussie police guys...Im drooling 24/7 these days!

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TK hows ya girl?


**and sometimes things can get so bad with a relation,
you have to "dismiss" them from your life
If only for you own protection


I agree...I did that with an aunt n cuzn of mine. They were becoming too lethal to associate! too toxic to my bloodstream.


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Starry HUGGGGGGGGGZ!

Sometimes silence speaks volumes...so maintain that girl.


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Bev Im good ta and urself sweetie?


**. In a sense, we really do not know other people.

aww how true!


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Kaylz u can email me...



Keshi.

Keshi said...

Dawny yeah it seems ages...HUGGGGGGGGGGZ! I've missed ya too awww...


**Yes silence and intelligent plays a good role sometimes

I agree. And Im looking forward to reading ur take on this.

tnxx hun!

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BIG FURRY HUGGGGGGGGZ right bak at ya Rick!

RICK HOW UR DOING MATE?........can u hear my voice echoing all the way from Sydney to Michigan?

:)




Keshi.

KAYLEE said...

OKAY WHAT IS YOUR EMAIL OR I CAN GIVE YA MINE?????

KAYLEE said...

thanks:P

KAYLEE said...

OKAY SENT IT :P

Keshi said...

Kaylz tnxx but I havent received it yet. I will reply as soon as I see it.

:)

Keshi.

Keshi said...

Kaylz I havent received it yet...mebbe u sent it to a wrong addy.

its

kajole@hotmail.com


Keshi.

KAYLEE said...

WILL RESEND IT

Sweetstickychewy said...

***yep thats why I just get by on my own...sometimes there's no one to save u but urself.

Indeeds.:D It always begins with us.

Thanks for that!:D

*HUGZ*

KAYLEE said...

GET IT YET>>????????

Steph said...

You're like me in a lot of ways. I'm often the one there for everyone, always making sure my friends are ok, and then, when it's ME that needs a bit of TLC I have to spell it out or ask for it, and I don't want to ask for it, I want it to be offered.

With the exception of one friend, Kylie, who is more like my soul sister than friend, everyone else seems to take my care and attention for granted.

It gets me down sometimes but then, I'm the one offering it, it's my choice and I can't expect people to read my mind, right?

Meh, it's all too complicated.
Hope you feel ok today.

RamaG said...

Sometimes people say things at the spur of the moment not thinking about the repercussions of the statement on the other person. Maybe they dont mean it when they say it but then impulse gets the better of their rational thinking.

Its best to put such things in a back-burner and look forward. If they're your closest loved ones, I'm sure they'll come around and also maybe you should forget about it and not read too much into it.

Thats what I tend to do, but this special privilege is enjoyed only by very few closest loved ones.

-Rama.

Keshi said...

Kaylz I havent received it yet...whats the email addy u sent it to?


Keshi.

Keshi said...

Amy yes...it begins with us...well-said.

ty n HUGGGGGGGGGZ!


Keshi.

Keshi said...

Stepher whenever ur here, it's like Im being sprinkled with a lil bit of silverdust from the heavens above. So glad to see ya here HUGGGGGGGZ!


**then, when it's ME that needs a bit of TLC I have to spell it out or ask for it, and I don't want to ask for it, I want it to be offered.

thats exactly my point. And I dun even expect it sometimes...but it's some words they say that shock me.


**but then, I'm the one offering it, it's my choice and I can't expect people to read my mind, right?

that truly opened my eyes! ty so much Steph.



Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty Rama! Nice to see ya here.


**If they're your closest loved ones, I'm sure they'll come around and also maybe you should forget about it and not read too much into it.

I hope so...


Keshi.

Jim said...

u can see what i see
but u can never see what i perceive

so i try to express it in WORDS
u read the WORDS
and u try to perceive what i saw

when i express emotions i always cloak it in humor

i feel kinda embarassed to say out right I LOVE U

so i just say U GIVE ME THE HOTTZ
and my love thinks its only LUST


DAMN !

Sujit said...

its true some people take everything for granted.. and hurt a lot!... hang on.. you are much stronger that these storms can;t do anything.. :)

Jim said...

the WORDS I use are also influenced by my MOOD at the moment


very often i just blurt out FUCK U
that dont mean i hate u

it is just my irritable mood at the moment

what i say of me applies to my friends too

i dont get fooled by WORDS
my love said FUCK U to me many times

but the relationship is still going strong
we have moved beyond WORDS

Keshi said...

Jim I know wut u mean...when online it's harder to u'stand what ppl mean by words...

but in real life its different right? cos then we also hv the tone its said with. Its not that easy to misunderstand then.



Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty Sujit!

:)

Keshi.

Drama Div@ said...

I’m sorry your day sucked yesterday. I hope today is better.

:P fuzzbox said...

Keep on keeping on. Sometimes that's all we can do.

Anthony said...

the WORDS the tone in which it is said .... its all MOODS


Keshi to me is a spunky girl i met at IT chat many years ago

over time i got to know u
i didnt have your pic until recently in this year

but it didnt matter
i formed an image of Keshi in my mind

and i got to loving the girl i knew as Keshi just as i knew and got to love Janice

once u reach the threshold limit
the love cannot be destroyed by any subsequent events


its the same with loving Jesus
my image of Jesus is totally different from what the padres in the church preach

i can even say FUCK U Jesus and i know i wont be struck my lightning

Anthony said...

Woooo Hooo
i survived

Jim said...

of LOVE and RESPECT

i may respect my parents
though i may not love them

Respect is a duty
a moral duty mebbe

i believe Jesus dont want my respect
He wants my Love

Keshi said...

ty Diva!


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well-said Fuzzy!


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Heyy Anthony aka Saby the one with a zillion names. :)



**once u reach the threshold limit
the love cannot be destroyed by any subsequent events

I agree...


I curse God too...I dun care...if He made me, made this Earth, made all the Cuss words...then He better be prepared to receive some too.



Keshi.

Keshi said...

Jim for once ur talking like me :)


**i believe Jesus dont want my respect
He wants my Love

I agree...and that Love can come in many forms...I see my Love for God thru my smiles, tears, anger and even in my cuss words at Him.


Keshi.

Steph said...

Awww thanks hun. I love your little visits to me as well.

I don't always get time to comment but I always read you.

((hugs)

Keshi said...

Steph tnxx n u r loved!

Keshi.

Jim said...

Very often we say things we dont mean

coz we dont want to hurt the one we love
coz we want to be loved
coz we want to be politically correct (Andrew the asshole)

we may say Fantastic post Keshi
while i am thinking this post SUXS

KAYLEE said...

keshi send me one at kaygirlyyy@yahoo.com and then i will send it

Keshi said...

Jim I agree :)


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Kaylz I will send u one, tnxx!


Keshi.

uttara said...

keshiii darl!!

wat happened to the bomshell? the dynamite

a tighttttttt HUGGGGGGGGG now smile cutie :)

Not everyone can understand all right else they all would be GOD!! :):):)

just ignore cos even the closest person fail to understand u baby ..

so cheer up .. buck-up girl :)

luv
uttara

Jim said...

A woman awakes during the night to find that her husband was not in bed.

She goes downstairs to look for him.

She finds him sitting at the kitchen table with a cup of coffee in front of

him. He appears to be in deep thought, just staring at the wall.


She watches as he wipes a tear from his eye and takes a sip of his coffee.

"What's the matter, dear?" she whisper as she steps into the room.
"Why are you down here at this time of night?"


The husband looks up from his coffee, "Do you remember 20 years ago when we were dating, and you were only 18?" he asks solemnly.

"Yes I do" she replies.


The husband pauses; the words were not coming easily.

"Do you remember when your father caught us in the garden?"


"Yes, I remember" said the wife, lowering herself into a chair beside him.

The husband continued.. "Do you remember when he showed the shotgun in my face and said, 'Either you marry my daughter, or I'll send you to jail for
20 years?"



"I remember that too" she replied softly.



He wiped another tear from his cheek and said, "I would have been released today" !!!!!!!!!!!! !!

Keshi said...

thats so true Uttsy. ty n HUGGGGGGGGGGZ! :)


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:) Jim



Keshi.

Charles said...

We are always alone, even in the middle of a crowd. Do not rely upon others, but don't avoid them either.

Keshi said...

very well-said Charles, ty!

Keshi.

Vidya said...

Hmm... Keshi you are right! It is very difficult for people, even the ones that you are close to, to empathize completely. But heres my two cents - Let them be! It hurts but why react more to the hurting statement and hurt ourselves in the process?

Thoughts?

Vidya

Kalpana said...

Yes Keshi, Silence is the best option in those situations. Things will change good for you.

Keshi said...

ur right Vidya, tnxxx!


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ty so much Kalpana!



Keshi.