Keshi Kringle

HO HO HO! how's it going my sexy reindeers? Well last night this Santa woman couldn't go to the beach as she planned (like most of the things in life really don't happen as we plan). Cos it was raining cats and dogs, even koalas and roos! So I drove to my cousin's place instead...and since we decided to have a massive Christmas party on the 25th with family and friends, last night we picked names for Kris Kringle (Secret Santa). You wouldn't believe who I got! One of my cousin brothers that I really adore - I really love being his Kris Kringle yayyyy, Ho Ho Ho brother here I come in my red-suit now singing...

Jingle Bells, Batman Smells,
Robin Laid an egg,
The Batmobile lost a wheel,
On the M6 Motorway
Dashing through the snow,
On a pair of broken skis,
Over the hills we go,
Crashing into trees,
The snow is turning red,
Think I might be dead,
All I want this Christmas is an artificial head! heyyy!.

Can you please help me decide what to get him as the pressie? Here are some details about him. He's my oldest cousin bro and he's married, and is also a dad of a 2yr old little cutey (pic on right). He loves music (he loves Opera too urghh!), he's very calm, sweet, very very helpful and absolutely good-hearted. That doesn't help you much ha? LOL! ok just tell me as a guy, what would you like to get from your Kris Kringle? The budget is $10-$20. I know I'd definitely stretch that cos I'm not a great fan of Reject Shop. So guys, please throw me your ideas and help me get something cool and not too common, for my sweet bro ok?? Thanks dudes!

So yeah, this will most probably be my last post for the year 2006. What a year it has been! Lots of turbulance while flying, but the view was great so I didn't jump out of the flight ;-). Wanted to complete my trip and reach the destination safely somehow. I say year 2006 was a year of revelation...a year of complete change...a year of my soul waking up after sleeping a thousand years...a year of a million tears but also a year of golden bonds...meeting strangers who poured their hearts out to me. I swam with the Sharks and Stingrays that I feared. But the real danger came from the Starfish - the attractive and the most harmless ones. I loved the swim anyways...cos I made true friends with the corals and the moss, the rocks and the stones, the sleeping beauties. They listened quietly and they cared. And they didn't mind my tears falling on them. Mostly they had time and heart to offer me. Thank you my friends I owe ya many

Guys from Friday afternoon (22nd of Dec) I will be off till the 2nd of Jan 2007. It's gonna be a good break cos I have cousins over at my place from NZ for 10 days. I'm gonna have lots of fun with them and I will also be busy taking them around Sydney. So yeah, it's gonna be all good. So I don't think I'd have time to blog from home at all...so I'll be away from all of you for a little while (and Im sure you need a break from this Keshi too (rolling eyes!)). awwww I'm missing you already. But hey how can I miss you when you reside in my heart, and I mean it (especially all the hot guys who come here lol!). You always do. So have a very Merry Christmas, a grand New Year and a safe holiday season folks! DO NOT DRINK AND DRIVE. Let me hold the banners for your safety now - STOP, REVIVE, SURVIVE. And another one...DRINK-DRIVING IS A CRIME. Remember that and also remember this - the greatest Chrissy gift you could ever give anyone is a bit of real Love - it's not that iPod, the CD, the sexy dress, the Rolex, the super toys, the cool shoes or the diamonds - it's a little piece of your heart, and it seems so hard for some people to give. Look at nature and we should learn from them. The Lions,the bears, the birds and the deer don't leave their kith and kin for money or big dreams, do they? They love each other and stick together no matter what. Between them they don't even know what HATE is. And hell na they don't go shopping during Christmas...they are the same to their loved-ones all through the year. So why do we humans behave somewhat differently? Anyways Hakuna Matata guys, think about it over Christmas. Ok so take care guys. LUV YE MWAH see you's in 2007 then!

UPDATE:Gonna rent a Boy-friend this Christmas so I can kiss. Haven't kissed in a zillion years and I feel like an eskimo living in an igloo with no human contact. Gonna grab a cute guy (yes any guy) and kiss deeply. Think it's a good idea folks?

Current Music: Circle Of Life by Elton John (from the movie Lion King)

Current Music Update: Suraj Hua Maddham (from the Hindi movies Kabhi Khushi Kabhi Gham)

Current Music Update 2: I Have A Dream by ABBA

Numb

These days I walk around like a zombie...comfortably numb head to toe, and humming Nirvana's 'Dumb'. You may ask what's wrong with me. Nothing actually. Just that I've become emotionally numb. I can't seem to feel anymore. Must be just a temporary numb/dumb phase but it sure feels great. Cos I don't seem to care and not caring about anything/anyone seems to have set me free. You know, how you suddenly realise that nothing is worth putting an effort on...like everything is just total shit that's not worth your efforts and time. Well it's that feeling and it has granted me freedom. I don't know if it's a good thing but I'm high. No I'm not on LSD, neither do I need a shrink (looks at Bev hehe), but I sure feel great man :). Tonight I'm going to drive down to the beach, just by myself. I wanna sit there and feel the breeze, stare at the waves, listen to the sound of my feet touching the sand, smell the sea, collect some sea shells...all by myself you know. I haven't done that in a long time. I used to always want someone in my car to go places...you know, some company. But I realised that the state I'm in right now makes me wanna be alone and hey who said it's bad. It's not bad at all. Numb got me flying high.

I think I'm going insane...well that's even better. Cos one will never know what life really is without a bit of insanity striking them good. btw this photo was taken 2 weekends ago. Don't ask me why I'm not smiling (or am I)...cos I was just numb. Wanna join me and have some Pennyroyal tea with me at the beach? yeah I know...Keshi's lost it but it's all good mate, dun worry! I haven't been this happy. It's good to be dumb and numb...it makes you totally happy.

Im not like them

But I can pretend

The sun is gone

But I have a light

The day is done

But Im having fun

I think Im dumb

Or maybe just happy... ... ...

(Dumb by Nirvana)

Current Music: Dumb by Nirvana

Address Of My Heart

No we didn't dance...main dancer wasn't there...next time, and we all have ups and downs...don't worry..see you next time I'll organise something ok..

take care
bye S.



That was a message from a dear friend who was at that party on Sunday. She missed me so much and so she sent me an email Mon morning asking why I wasn't there. And then I said I had a problem so couldn't make it, and I asked if they danced and that was her reply. Anyways, I'm glad people do miss me too...that means I have touched them in some way that they really wanted my presence. How sweet. Guys I also made some pretty difficult decisions yesterday (I was forced to cos I had no other way to deal with this any longer) and I'm gonna stick to those decisions somehow. With the New Year around the corner, I'm gonna be a new and somewhat stone-hearted Keshi. I don't mean to say I'm gonna be Cruella DeVil. What I mean is I'm not gonna be around for people who have no respect for my feelings. I used to care about others all the time and it has certainly taken the toll on me. It was overkill. So now I must start caring about myself too. Since I don't know how to be heartless and selfish, I'd rather not give attention to such people. I think silence is better than wasting my breath on them and I have decided to go far away from them - sometimes physical distance is a good start. So that I wont be around for them as a bait for their evil pleasure. I deserve better, don't I? And I must thank all of you who are always right here waiting to make me feel better. Without you guys I wouldn't be feeling OK and this strong. So a big THANK YOU to you!


Now I wanna make this post a fun one...cos I'm tired of all the drama in my last post and sorry to have tired you all too. So here it goes: If there was a Tsunami coming your way and your house is bound to be destroyed (yeah it's all about storms this week haha!), and you could only take one thing from your house, what would it be? I'd say your answer will most probably tell you where your heart is. Your answer will be the address of your heart.


This is my answer: I would take my photo albums. Cos that's where all the precious moments in my life are preserved. And that's where my dad (and many other loved-ones who are no longer in this world) still smile back at me. So if the photos get lost, I'd lose a big part of my life too, cos I can never capture those moments again. Everything else in my house I can easily replace. Cos even though those memories are in my head, what if I suffer from Dementia some day (not that I don't have Dementia now (rolling eyes...)). Then atleast I can look at the pics and think of those lovely people and those golden moments. So that's what I'd take with me. (o btw if I can, I'll try to take my iPod too only cos I can't live without music even during that short period of running out of the house hehe). Now how about ya?



Current Music: Fall At Your Feet by Crowded House

The Storm

Have you ever had a storm rip your heart out and take away with it everything that you've ever had? Have you ever lost everything you ever worked and lived for? Do you know what it is to lose all your dreams overnight? Have you ever felt so lost and destitute that you feel you'll never come out of it alive? Have you watched your dreams break into pieces and realised you still can't do anything about it? Have you lost your self completely that you begin to miss what you were before? Did someone ever steal your life that it seems it doesn't belong to you anymore? Did the storm leave you naked and in tears? Have you ever had someone laugh at your feelings as if you were nothing? Did you ever feel so hurt that there were no words to express it? Did you feel muted by that hurt itself? Have someone close to you ever made you feel that you are less important than the rest of the world? Did someone ever disgrace you infront of others that you just wanted to die? Did the whole world laugh at you along with him/her? Did you ever feel so misunderstood that you feel silence is better than saying anything at all? Have you just wondered what your life would have been if not for the storm? The storm that changed you forever. The storm that took with it everything that belonged to you. The storm that washed away your life and left you with nothing but a memory of someone who used to be. Have you ever watched your life just pass you by? Have you ever lost everything? I can't seem to begin again.

Ladies and Gentlemen, I had a terrible Sunday. This post came out of that experience. I have no words to express how lost I'm feeling right now, so please bear with this very personal post that may not make sense to you. Some people have no aim in life but to revel at the hurt and tears of others. I can't believe this is happening to me but who am I to question ha? I'm just another being in this big wide world who is subjected to hurt every single day. It happens to everyone and I'm no exception, so I'm not gonna ask WHY ME. The part that's unbearable is when it's someone who's very close to you that does this to you. Well maybe I'm ill-fated to be affected by someone like that, who knows. But I won't say I'll get used to it either cos I can't and I won't allow anyone to dampen my spirits. Whoever I have become from it all, I know it's a better person - a person with more sensitivity towards others' feelings. When you lose everything, in a way you become completely free. Cos after the storm everything is washed away. You have nothing more to lose.

Right now I had no one to talk to when I was truly broken. I just cancelled a bday party I was invited to while the person who hurt me went ahead (and it was my good friend's party so I felt bad not being able to be there...but she understood my feelings so it's ok). Anyways I wanted to talk to someone and there was no one around...except one good friend who was also on her way to a meeting, so I couldn't trouble her for too long with my probs. Called 2 other mates and they were not available either. Isn't it strange that sometimes when you need a friend, there's not a single one around? Well I felt like that today. Then I thought of all of you and I logged in and wrote this. I really am very thankful for blogs, cos if not for blogs, I'd be long gone by now. You guys are the best, so incase I never get to tell ya here's a big THANK YOU for always being here for me! For those people in my life who don't wanna hear what I have to say too, this blog will remain for them to read someday when they are ready to hear how I felt, and then it may well be too late to say sorry (Life is only a passing flash...say your dues without delay). But with you guys, I don't feel lonely anymore no matter what. Hail, rain or sunshine, I somehow find my shelter in you. Having posted this, I feel heard, understood and hugged. THANKS guys you're amazing and I'm sorry if I didn't say that before!


Current Music: One Sweet Day by Mariah Carey

Psychedelicious!

First of all, if I'm not in your blogs anymore there is a stinking reason for that.

Since I'm a Classic blogger, I cannot comment in Beta blogs that don't allow Anonymous comments. It's pissing me off big time. Even if you allow Anonymous comments, I really don't like leaving Anonymous comments that make me look like some faceless gunk walking around with a pillowcase over her head. I like to be able to login and have my profile pic for identification when I comment. If Blogger can't get that to work and if Blogger is making us Classic bloggers look like some old trash that need to be flushed into Beta, then that's when I'd really stop blogging for good, not when I die like I said in my last post. Just this morning I gave up trying to comment in 3 Beta blogs and left tearing my hair out feeling like an illegal immigrant.


Ok today's thoughts are about psychic readings. Why do some people live on psychic readings (Astrology, Horoscopes etc) and are so addicted to them? Now there must be some truth in those star/planet related matters, but not to the extent you wanna setup house in Jupiter? cmon now! I know that alot of Indians believe in Astrology/Psychic readings etc. My mum does too (although she's not loco about it). Well there's someone I know who wants to know everything that's gonna happen in her life through these readings (let's call her Chantel). I told Chantel that her life is not to be predicted by some robe-wearing crystal-ball churning genie, but it is for her to find out herself as it unfolds. She says that it's better to know what's gonna happen in future so she can be prepared...huh prepared?? If it's predicted to happen how can you change it? I don't get it. Anyways who could predict your life 100% accurately? Even if someone could do that, how stupid would it be to know all of that and have nothing adventurous to look forward to in life? Cos when you already know what's gonna happen, where's the magic of life? And if it reads something real bad that's gonna happen to you, how awful would that be living each day expecting that to happen? Some people are crazy about matching horoscopes before getting married, and it doesn't make sense to me at all. And I know that some psychic readers cheat people real bad too. They just make money and make a fool out of you. There is this aunt of mine who gave so much money to a psychic reader to get her life read and in the end, nothing was right - it was a total disaster actually.

What about talking to dead people? Is it really possible (especially when I find it sooo difficult to talk to some people who aren't even dead yet LOL!)? I'm curious about that one though cos I used to watch John Edward shows on TV. He seems so accurate and most people are really impressed with him. Some people do have the gift of the 6th sense and perhaps that makes them tap into other territories of the Universe, such as prediciting the future or even communicating with beings on other planes. Alot to research on that though (if you have time, read my previous post The Unfelt Touch). I have been to one such ghost whisperer (just once) when my dad died. I went along with my mum and I was about 16 then. Well I wasn't sure if that reader was genuine. I felt so bored and felt she was just bluffing big time. All the while she was supposedly communicating with spirits, I was dreaming of California. Anyways have you had such experiences? If so please share with me cos I really do wanna know if there's some truth in it.

The closest they got it right was when such a reader told my mum that I'm a smart-ass...LOL so they are not that bad after all ha :). Well I'd say everything has a limit. You may be intrigued by it and it's ok to get your future read maybe once or twice (maybe just for fun even). But if your companion for the office Christmas party is your psychic reader then there's deep trouble hunny. Chantel must be saved before she starts asking her psychic reader everyday if it's ok to get out of the bed. Have a good one folks :).


Current Music: Who Can It Be Now by Men At Work

Neverland

My mate Starbender cast a bewitching spell on me with her magical wand and whispered 'Keshi now list 10 things you would NEVER do in your life'. So here they are:

1. Kill someone (although I have a mental hit-list)
2. Cheat someone (but I cheat myself sometimes)
3. Steal from someone (unless ofcourse it's a cute boyfriend of some bitch that don't deserve him)
4. Eat snakes/frogs/insects like some people do (I'd rather mutilate in hunger)
5. Become a sex worker (not even if I'm about to be hanged)
6. Live if I ever become deaf (you know how much I want music in my life)
7. Trade my values/beliefs for the world (not even for Robbie Williams)
8. Sky-dive (will probably die out of fear 2 days before the dive)
9. Become fat to the extent that I'd dislike myself (even if I do I'd somehow get back in shape)
10. Stop dancing and blogging (unless I die)


Ok go ahead now...you too can list your 10 'will-NEVER-do' items.


Current Music: You Can Do Magic by America

Will You Marry Me?

People propose at the weirdest places these days. The other day I was watching a show where a guy proposed underwater to his long-term GF. They were snorkelling and suddenly he went down on his knees (atleast it seemed like that from his funny movements struggling with the water), and asked her to marry him by showing a board with MARRY ME LISA written on it. She was overjoyed but couldn't answer cos of the water so they both had to come out to talk. So why do people these days choose the most difficult places to propose for marriage when they can just sit somewhere comfortable and do it without nearly drowning before even saying a word? Is it cos marriage itself is too suffocating? LOL nah I guess it's for the variety and excitement and it can be fun, but I honestly feel a good old-fashioned way/place will save alot of trouble and perhaps tragedy hehe. And in future, I'm sure there will be heaps of very weird places and funny ways that people would choose to propose. Imagine these places, ways and results:

At a Sushi joint: Would you like another Sushi darl? The Sushi roll comes with 'Will You Marry Me' written around the seaweed roll. She eats it without noticing it at all.

While jogging: It would be great for us to be husband and wife and 'run' for life together?

At the Cinemas: Swt Hrt I was thinking about marriage cos now it makes me realise not everything in life is a movie (rolling eyes...).

While bungee-jumping: heyy honey I'm falling at such a scary speed that even marriage seems sane right now, so will you marry me? ahhhhhhhhh...hhhh...hhh...hh..h ye e e eeeeee sss!

At the beach: The ocean is so peaceful and it makes me wonder why I miss some mess in my life...darling will you be that mess in my life?

While driving: Swt Hrt look at that speed cameras, see what it is saying to you...speed and get caught, likewise shall we get married and get wasted?

In the mall: Things are way too expensive these days, I'd rather get married and share the costs, so what do you think honey?

In the Laundry: Sending a txt msg...'I really don't like wasting my time here anymore and would like someone else to do all this for me - Will You Marry Me my sweet baby washing machine'?

On the dance floor: You move real good, that makes me wonder if we should 'move' in together?

At the Doctor's surgery: I feel terribly sick today and I guess it's a suitable state to pop that sick question...Will you marry me Suga?

At the supermarket: I need someone to clean my fridge before I buy anymore stuff...hmmmm...marry me pleeeeeeeeeze and let me shop again, I mean live again?

While flying: Darling we are so high above the ground that I feel this is where we should make that big decision...cos if you say No, then I could ask that cute air-hostess out.

While having Dinner: As she finishes eating she realises the plate reads 'Will you cook for me for life?'.

At a funeral: This funeral is freaking me out. I could be dead anytime and I don't wanna die not knowing what it is to have a clueless man in my life. Wanna be that man?

At a Christmas party: Sweet Heart, another year has passed by, we are getting older and my brain feels quite dead. Hence we should start getting wrinkled together, what say?

After being told NO so many times before, the guy asks again: Marry me Bitch or I'll stalk you all your life with this rotten question!

Do you know of any weird ways/places that people proposed at? And how will YOU pop the question? :)

Current Music: I Just Called To Say I Love You by Stevie Wonder

The SEXth Sense

Imagine having no clue about sex and that you are about to experience your first sexual encounter. That would be really tough ha? Here are some funnies (well some pretty bad ones) from Keshi's imagination.

The girl asks the boy to take off his clothes. And he says 'Ok darl I will be back in 2mins' and he goes to the bathroom to take em off. (She books him in for a Cranium re-fill)

Girl moves slowly towards the guy to kiss him and he moves away from her. She asks why to which he says 'Kind of nervous to ask you this but are you ready for kids'. (She looks around for a gun)

Guy tries to unbutton girl's shirt and she goes 'What the hell are you doing cos my momma always told me to unbutton my shirt myself, so keep off Mr.Whoeva-u-r!'. (He wishes for a sudden death)

Girl awaits half-naked for the guy to approach her and give her a kiss. Lo and behold he's reading Readers' Digest. (Ladies, now is he needed in this world at all?)

Girl and guy sits on the bed wanting something to happen but nothing happens. The girl says 'Kiss me creep'...and he says 'You called me a creep, I'm telling on you'. (o that Kindy charm!)

Girl slowly runs her fingers on the guy's back and he starts running around the room saying how ticklish he is and laughing like a maniac. (She dials the Mortuary)

Guy touches girl's waist and she faints in shock. (Hope she stays fainted forever)

Girl and guy kisses passionately and then the guy suddenly says 'OMG I CAN do it like they do it in the movies! And the next step would be to romp the bed yes yes yesss!'. (Would there be a next step?)

The girl says that they need to practise 'safe' sex to which the guy says 'I know...don't worry swt hrt, there's tight security in this block'. (oh ok then!)

Girl comes out in sexy lingerie and he goes 'wow are you on your way to work or something?'. (No idiot, I'm about to hang you)

Guy says 'I like talking dirty so can you say something dirty' to which she goes 'you do stink real bad, is that a good start to this dirty game?'. (She couldn't get any dirtier could she now?)

Girl reveals to the guy about her food fetish. So he waits for her at the supermaket's Pasta aisle with a blanket and a romantic CD. (hey George you can wait there forever)

Girl wants to role-play waitress and customer. He says 'why don't we go to the restaurant down the street and watch the waiters there?'. (He can go there but please don't come back)

Guy blindfolds girl and she goes 'Don't be shy honey you can undress in front of me'. (He blindfolds himself and leaves).

Girl gives the guy a whip and he goes 'I don't wanna hurt ya, cos I might get in trouble with the Police??'. (She whips him to death).

Guy kisses girl all over and she goes 'OMG I might be pregnant already!'. (He cries)

Girl tells the guy to make her feel good and he goes and plays the song 'I feel good'. (lame I know, lol!)

The girl is waiting for the guy to arrive and he comes quite late with a huge copy of Kama Sutra. (She kills him with the book).

Guy says to the girl 'I've been waiting a very long time for this moment, are you ready for this suga?'. And she goes 'I practised it alot but he wasn't so good, I hope you're better'....
(uh oh!)



So how good is your SEXth sense? btw you too can create your own funnies and add to this post. Looking forward to reading em :).

Current Music: I Wanna Hold Your Hand by The Beatles

Humanity Is Better

Some people think the world revolves around them. Some think that the race and country they were born into are superior than the rest. Some people are so narrow-minded that they glorify their own blood and demean others'. Some people mock others just cos they grew up different. Some people try to control others and make them into something that they are not. Some people imagine that they know everything about another person when in real they don't have a clue. Some people take another's Right into their hands. Some people diss others just cos they don't know what respect and indivduality are. Some people are evidently racist without even realising that themselves. Some people claim they know what Love and Peace are when they can't even see past the differences in their own friends. Some people think that they are the best thing that ever happened to this world that that thought itself proves they are not. Love of your country and your race should lead to accepting everyone else in this world as equal. Else you are not respecting your own soil. Don't let too much Patriotism blind you from being human.

Have a good weekend guys!

Current Music: Civil War by Guns N Roses

Just An Item

Here's a fun post guys. Ready? ok. If you were a household item, what would you be and why? Now I know it's a silly question LOL, but c'mon let's just have some fun ok. You can be any item in the house, be it a fridge, door, cake-maker, curtain, blow-dryer, bed etc etc. So think think think and tell me the reason why too. Here's my answer:

I will be the Stereo. I love music and dancing. Basically I cannot live without it. So I'd love to be able to give music to others and I wanna see people dancing/relaxing/thinking/kissing/smiling because of what I provide - sweet sounds of music. And you can turn me on whenever you want oh oh oh oh :). And now the biggest reason why I wanna be the Stereo? Cos then I can have Robbie Williams playing all over me ooo lala ;-). gawwwd I love that guy.

Ok crank it up guys!


Current Music: Radio by Robbie Williams

Current Music Update 1: Living Next Door To Alice by Smokie

Current Music Update 2: Atomic by Blondie

Ooops I Did It Again!

I guess by now all of you would have seen Britney Spears' heavily public (I'm glad I spelt that word right jeeez!) private parts that's all over the net (sorry I cant put those pics up here - I'm not that crazy damnit!). Isnt it just shockingly disgusting how low some people can stoop to just for fame/money? I don't know if Britney did that deliberately but it's really sad that her momma didn't teach her to wear undies. I'm not a fan of Britney but she did have some self-respect left in her before she met that LOSER (epitome of crap there ever was) Kevin Federline. Just what kind of utter rubbish is that guy! I mean how can he father kids when he himself hasn't got a brain older than just 2months perhaps? Where do girls find men like this? At the tip? Yeah I know Britney is no brainiac either but she surely could have done better than that?? And they made a sex tape together? LMAO! What do they do all this for? Just in case they forgot how they did it the last time? Some people are born to make an ass of themselves.

TomKat. At the beginning I found them cute but later that feeling died cos they were way too public it was claustrophobic. And what's with their secret wedding that almost looked like a funeral in the rain? And if they spent few millions on the wedding, couldn't Katie have done her hair atleast? It looked like she was just at home baking a cake. Apparently her under-garments for the wedding cost some thousands of dollars. What for? Does Tom want to see dollars all over her body? And I think Tom is seriously losing it with all that Scientology crap (pardon my ignorance, that is if you think so) cos apparently Scientology 'wedding' vows include promising never to go to bed without talking about any differences. So did they talk about it before they went to bed and before they made their baby, and that was way before the 'wedding' HELLO! And I thought he jumped around only on Oprah's Couch (rolling eyes...) anyways you think I'm surprised!

Nicole and Keith...ok there's true love there perhaps. But what's with these pre-nups? If there's love why are these celebrities so in doubt that they have to sign pre-nups with dollars written all over? Is that what love is about or is that what usual business is like in Tinsel Town? It's expecting disaster so being ready for it, and that's ok...but that preparation is all based on assets and by signing off a pre-nup, why? Is that what it all amounts to? Then why spend so much money and have a wedding at all? Just for showing-off? I see no point. As much as I like Nicole, I hate to say that I think she was desperate and was competing with Tom for love. Love is not written in some pre-nup and hell na it's not a competition. btw Keith is already in rehab I hear.


Anna Nicole Smith. Just her name will do.


Brangelina...not a bad couple at all. I like them cos they are truly doing some good by adopting kids and all that jazz. If there's that kinda money then why not ha. And don't be surprised, I don't have a crush on Brad at all. I don't find him that attractive so Angelina you have nothing to worry about hun ;-).


Jessica Simpson and Nick Lachey. I knew that they were heading for disaster when they made their married life public through that TV show Newly Weds. Who in the right mind will show their private life on TV? How shallow and stupid is that. Is it just cos they were celebrities and they could easily get air-time? How cheap. I just think Jessica is a spoilt-brat with alot of time on her hand, and I really don't think her boots were made for walking...rather crawling, especially with her not-so-original music anyways. Atleast Nick's making some good music.


Paris Hilton. A serial offender. I think this girl needs serious mental health care. She's pretty and rich, and hell na I'm not jealous. Cos that's not what it takes to make it. I don't know if she really did sleep with that many men but where will it all end? The amount of cat-fights, driving offenses, sleazy men etc that she's linked with makes me wanna puke. If a girl can have that many BFs, is there anything left in her to share with the man she'll truly fall in love with some day (if she knows what Love is that is)? Can a girl be that stupid? I picture her in her 50s looking 95 and running behind plastic surgeons to keep her sane. Does she have parents at all? And WTH is she doing to that burger, as if she ever eats!


Sir Paul McCartney and Heather Mills McCartney. WTF is wrong with that bickering female cat? Pardon my language but if you don't like the man, just get the divorce and leave. Why talk crap about him in public? Some women think that as they get out of a marraige that it's best to leave after ruining a man's image. But who's degrading who here? Heather is doing that to her own self! Cos if she is a woman with some self-respect and grace, she'd just leave than talk crap about the man she lived with for so long and had a child with. After all they did share some love before didn't they. If she was physically abused by him why did she wait for a divorce to realise that it's not right and to make it public? Some women are so desperate for attention!

Pamela Anderson and Kid Rock. Filed for divorce after 4 months. Irreconcilable differences? And they are? Dolly-kinda boobs must have gotten claustrophobic after 4months of just KID-ding around.


Current Music: Fame by Irene Cara

LOVE km/h

Have you loved someone so much that that love has no boundaries? Would you do anything for someone you love? Or what would be your limit? Have you felt that very love fill in all the empty spaces between you 2, no matter how far apart you may be from each other? You may be away from each other just during work hours, may be you 2 are in different cities, different countries or may be that person you love so much is not in this world anymore. But have you felt that love bridging the distance, the gap? That love is so strong that no hours, kilometers or even death can separate you from the other person? That all you have to do is close your eyes and think of them and they are right there with you. I have felt that love and I feel blessed for feeling it. My dad is worlds away from me but he's right next to me when I need him. The love he left with me builds me an instant stairway to heaven and he's already with me. And you bloggers are physically so far away from me but I can just feel your love and you're all right next to me...it's just amazing! I don't need to fly over to your places to see you, cos you're already with me, keeping me warm night and day. Isn't that the best thing you could ever feel. And guys I don't even have to speed ;-) Now who do you share that kind of amazing bond with? That kind of love that don't require a car/aeroplane to get you close to that person?

Current Music: When I Need You by Leo Sayer

Unopened Gifts

Tis the season for joy, fun and love. Today is the 1st Of December and Christmas is around the corner. We put the tree up at home 2 weeks ago. I love Christmas cos I grew up with it both at school and at home. Though I come from a Hindu and Buddhist family, Christmas was, is and will always be a big part of my life. I went to a Methodist school and my parents loved every bit about this season. So all that and my undying love for Christmas contributed to this early post about Christmas songs and gifts. I sang/sing in many choirs both in school and at prayer centres as part of the annual Christmas functions. (Yes Keshi can sing hehe and sometimes I sing in public all by myself too ooo lala!). Here are my favorite Christmas songs/carols:


White Christmas by Bing Crosby
Last Christmas by WHAM
Have Yourself A Merry Little Christmas by Judy Garland
Blue Christmas by Elvis Presley
Jingle Bell Rock by Brenda Lee
Mary's Boy Child by BoneyM
O Holy Night by Mariah Carey
Silent Night by Frank Sinatra
Winter Wonderland by Tony Bennett
All I Want For Christmas Is You by Mariah Carey
Do They Know It's Christmas by Band Aid


And many more beautiful songs. Right now the shopping centres are decorated with Xmas trees and all that glitter. And the songs played fills my heart with joy. I think this is the only season that gets the whole world together. That's why I love Christmas so much. It's also about giving and caring. It reminds us about Love and laughter. The spirit of the season is to fill your heart with joy...not only in December, but always. I donate clothes and gifts to The Smith Family and The Salvation Army every year. Not to satisfy my soul. But to put a smile on someone else's face during this season. There are so many kids around the world who don't have a Christmas tree with presents underneath it at their homes. There are some others who are in hospices awaiting death. Reminds me of my Christmas Day mission 2yrs ago to a hospice with gifts for Cancer patients who were waiting, yeah waiting to die (read my post Glass Daffodils if interested). I will never forget those faces. This year I'm hoping to go to Westmead Children's Hospital (hoping and praying I'd get this marvellous experience in life again). Let the kids realise that Santa could be a girl too hehe. There are so many unopened gifts in all of us that need to be opened and shared. The gifts of love and compassion. The ability to see beyond ourselves and our families. That's the real Christmas gift one can ever have, give and receive. Tap in to your souls and find those unopened gifts this year.

So people, this Christmas will it be different? Apart from giving gifts to each other in your family, how about giving the gift of love to someone who really needs it? Grasp the beauty of reaching out to someone who truly needs the blessing of Christmas more than you and I do. We give little gifts to each other but all some people need is the gift of a smile, a touch and maybe even the gift of life. And they don't have to be strangers...maybe someone in your own family needs your love more than you know. So go out there and light up someone else's lonely Christmas this year. That'll be the best Christmas you'd ever know.

I'd like to know your favorite Christmas songs (/carols) too. So please don't forget to list them down :). And oh I nearly forgot...Shahrukh Khan is in Sydney fliming 'Chak De'...so I might hop into the Olympic Park stadium sometime before the end of the weekend just to get a glance of the guy who mesmerised me with all his charm and all that great acting ;-). I hope he looks my way LOL! If I get to go there, I'll take photos for sure. Have a good one guys!


Current Music: O Holy Night by Mariah Carey