Tuesday, July 15

Finding Serenity

In life, we all lean on something(s) to survive. No one is independent of that. So what/who are the pillars in your life? It may be someone you love...it may be your own self...it may be your financial security...it may even be your education, friends, blogville, assets, insurance bonds etc. Pillars are something/someone you can depend and lean on anytime. You have great trust on them and you know they'll hold you up when you're falling...you know they'll come to your rescue when times are harsh...you know they'll allow you to lean on them when you can't stand alone. Pillars help you stand on ground...they support you and give you peace of mind when you lose your way. Cos they assure you that you'll be ok somehow.


In my life, my strongest pillar was my dad. But as some of you already know, he died all of a sudden when I was 16. Yes, even the strongest of pillars fall down. Then I thought to myself...my best pillar fell down and I couldn't help him stand back up. There are some pillars in life that die and can never be replaced or helped - and they are human pillars. But after my dad's death, I found 2 new and undying pillars in my life. My courage and my self-confidence. I owe it to my dad's memory. After his death, the tough times my mum, sis and I went through, paved the way to find my new pillars. I didn't find those pillars all that easily though. It took a very long time, a sea of tears, a great amount of hard work and alot of will power to face the demons. I was basically knocking on heaven's door, cos I couldn't take it anymore...I laid down all my gear...I was ready to leave...I nearly saw the other side...I wanted to give up...and death seemed a better option. Somehow I walked out of the rubble unscathed...bruised and battered but my courage in place. Finding my true pillars lead to finding my inner peace. I can lose anything/anyone in life but I know these 2 pillars won't be lost. I can survive with them alone. You can take everything I have but you can never take my pillars. And in them I have found true serenity. And for them to be broken down, someone would have to kill me first. Neither can they be stolen nor bought. Intangible and priceless as they are, they live in me and no one can tamper with them. From time to time, they may lose a little strength, but it's also upto me to rebuild my pillars and give them strength, as much as they gave me strength when I needed them. Death took away my best human pillar and I couldn't help him stand back up, but I know that my 2 new pillars can never be killed as long as we keep supporting each other. Our spirits shall never die.


So tell me...what are some pillars in your life? Have you lost some, have you then gained new ones? And do you become a pillar for your pillars as much as they are to you? Don't always take...give as well. We lean on others, but sometimes they may want to lean on us too. When the chips are down and if no one is around to lean on, maybe you should help your own strength and courage (and other pillars) to find their standing ground. Cos, sometimes pillars need support too, and you have to find them yourself...cos no one else can find and nurture your pillars but yourself. Happy leaning folks!


Current Music: Knocking On Heaven's Door by GNR

153 Cranium Signets:

Southpaw unplugged said...

I lost my pillar 20 years back and since then it was always that will to survive and not perish in the grind has been the pillar.
As far as me being a pillar to somebody well i really cant say, maybe the ppl who felt that i hv been a pillar to them wud be able to put the perspective into this...

Jay said...

Pretty much just family. I try not to do too much leaning though.

Margie said...

I'm so glad I took a break from all my packing and came here to see this post!
(Oh, I'm getting so excited about my trip...to see my brother again and my sister and her family....it's making me so happy!)

This post is just so full of wisdom and insight ....thank you Keshi.

I know you are very courageous and have a wonderful self-confidence.
I do believe we need self-confidence and courage to get us through life.
I know how hard it was for you to lose your dad at such a young age.
But you found your serenity and you are blessed to have self-confidence and courage.
It's makes me happy for you and proud of you!

I think I have quite a few pillars.
First and most important I have a very strong belief that life(even when things are not so great) will always give back to me what I put into it.
So, I always give my very best to each day.
I have a positive attitude and it gets me through each day....looking forward to every day.

I'm blessed to have a pillar in my wonderful husband...he supports me and I support him... we are so very fortunate to have a good marriage and are good friends as well.
There is nothing I enjoy more at night than taking a peaceful walk with him after dinner.

Then I have a pillar in my sister and my cousin( we live very far from each other but talk on the phone at least 3x's a week.
It's so wonderful to share about how our lives are going.

So many pillars in my life....many friends as pillars too....I'm truly blessed.

Thank you Keshi for making me think about all the good I have in my life.

Got to get back to my packing.
Take care Swt hrt!

HUGGGGGGGGZ!

Margie

Anu said...

Keshi,
Your human pillar, actually started the work on the other pillars in you before he passed.But Im sure he is proud,of the strong pillars you built. For me, I have to say my strongest human pillar is my hubby and similiar to him is my faith. As long as I know I will get through the day by both human and spiritual support, I know the pillars will remain strong throughout!

Urv said...

2 pillars that have always been there are Family and Friends.

What you penned down about the pillars within oneself was awesome. I too believe something similar. I think my inner pillar are my principles. Things that I believe in. The world can strip off what I have on the exterior but my principles are an integral part of me.

And not to sound goody goody, but a new pillar that I have found has been your writing. Mean it. HUGZ :D

fingers said...

I have two latex pillars.
They are excellent...

The Phosgene Kid said...

You could become a pillar of your community!!

the_thinker said...

You are an inspiring fighter. Kudos to you!!!
I will take time to identify the pillars apart from my family. I don't know which of my personal possessions are my pillars.

La vida Loca said...

my mom, dad, bro and N have been there for me consistently. And me for them. I had some friends but they dont seem to be around a lot. Blog buddies help out a lot too especially when I am doowwwnnnnnnnn.

Tarun said...

Parents and friends.
But I think they are more as route markers our guide-maps.
When it comes to self, more than anythign hope for one and then the confidence to fight it out.

But I think it could do more with a little more soul searching.

No one is at peace with himself.

I hope I be a better person "someday".

SMM said...

I too lost one of my pillars a few years back. Shattered me completely. But my mother has always been a very strong person - she is my biggest pillar, as is my Hubby.

Besides them, my other pillars would be my self - confidence and also my ego to a great extent. My ego keeps me going even when I want to give up sometimes

utopia said...

my family and all my friends.
they make a world of a difference in my life.
and within myself well i guess its the optimism that shows itself and the belief in myself that it will get better.

τ ħ€ ĐάЎđяёάmёя said...

mom n dad...

they were there from the start wid me..in case of extreme failures they were always supportive....they are my role models and my sense of security ...may god give them my life too :
Amen...

btw in childhood I had one pillar too but he flew away..he was a caterpillar :P he was my mate for three weeks..I kept it in a bottle wid leaves of money plant..and he used to eat a lot:P

jitendra said...

i think this is one of your best posts. short-n-touching.

i think people realise the pillar-ness of things/attitudes/humans when they lose them.

deepsat said...

never had one! was always on my own. i rely on myself to get up every time i fall. guess i have conquered the fear of falling.

take care!!

glad u have self-confidence. thats very important for one to move ahead in life!!

;-))

maverick said...

for human pillars...my folks..my bro...and some of my best friends..i can truely bank on them whenever reqd...

for me..i think...my confidence and the never say die attitude are my pillars...

have i lost any pillars...yes i ve lost human pillars in the form of some friends..n that void exists..but still life goes on...i found another pillar in u :)

Die Muräne said...

My pillar is my family. Also some of my very good friends. But manly the family. We are there for each other what ever happens. Feels great to be together and support each other!!

Sweetstickychewy said...

Pillars. No doubt about them. I need them and have many kinds of pillars over the years and seasons in my life.

But the two pillars that sticks by most times no matter what for me is my family and God. Cause somehow i can't deny the fact that human pillars often fades off.

A natural motion i guess.

Cheerios!

Ankur said...

Touching post!!! :)
and hope they remain wat they are n eventually u become their pillar of strength!!! :)

Well as Amy said, even my pillars have changed with times!! :)

but truly, there are few on whom i can actually depend anytime...
My Family...
God...
and my friend Narendra, anykind of trouble i am in, he is always there... i have never heard a NO from his mouth until unless i really knew he couldnt help me!!! :)
he is married now and i dont disturb him much though his wife is like another friend to me...always there!! :)

but currently for emotional support i dont count anyone in... but my blog!! this is where i scribble when i feel so restless and then i call my friend Divya coz she listens to me everytime!!!! :)

There are many other friends whom i actually cant mention here coz any space will be small for them... but i owe them a lot and they know it!! :)

Thankfully, god has been kind to gift me with friends who i can look to when i need their help... and i know i can count u in that list!!! :)

**Don't always take...give as well.
I always believe keshi that love is another name of giving... :)
Share the same thought as u!! :)

Keep Smiling Keshigirl!!!
Take Care,
Ankur

Solitaire said...

God has been kind enough to send me a fresh pillar each time I need someone to lean on. Cannot single one out. There have just been so many great angels who have come and gone.

Arv said...

well Keshi... one lotus cant be much different (though its not the same) from another. :)

After my Dad's death, I made willpower and self confidence as my pillars along with the right set of attitudes to go with it.

Come to think of it, its more cos of the fear of depending on someone else and losing them.

"Don't always take...give as well."

You are right, some people just stop trusting others and become different. Being independent does not mean one needs to be isolated. What is a life when there is no one to share it with???

Keep smiling Keshi... take care...

A hug and a kiss... Cheers..

Roo-Ba-Roo said...

Family n friends are the much needed pillars in life...they guide you, they support when you are in trouble.

But my I am totally agreed with you that Courage and my self-confidence are the pillars which you can never lose. If you have these two pillars with than you easily overcome all the
complexities of life.

Cheers
Sandy

Pinku said...

keshi...

thats a beautiful post.

Your pillar the one you say crumbled really didnt you know...he lives on in your heart and memories and creates all those others to make you feel more secure.

So does mine, as you already know.

Cheers to them...they help us live and smile with our heads held high.

Arv said...

oh... Love that GNR track... rocks me everytime... at times... brings a tear too :)

Nice one mate... Cheers...

Arv said...

Keshi... if you are on Facebook... do add me... link on my blog... Cheers

Sanchit said...

truly thought provoking...

my pillars, few of my friends and the little things in life that keep happening now and then.. if cherished these small moments of happiness or peace give a reason.. or rather many reasons to strive and keep fighting..

am i correct?

*~*{Sameera}*~* said...

Lovely post dear!

Difficult to single out one.The pillars have been different in different situations.Sometimes in the form of family,friend,love,and sometimes even a total stranger.

Apart from these external pillars,it's my will power and intuition that I rely on the most.

stony said...

Inspiring post!
God, My Stars, Honesty & Sincerity - These have been my constant pillars. I wish "Courage and Self confidence" were also among them.
I believe your attributes are your real pillars. They don't leave you when you need them.

Mystique Wanderer said...

me mom...the emotional support i can bank on
our guruji...the spiritual foundations of our family
my dreams...the reason i wait for a tomorrow

i generally try not getting senti in my wordings...but i do salute...ppl who've risen against hardships...i find myself so blessed...almost as if god was protecting us in a cocoon

Hiren said...

one thing I really do trust to provide me the necessary cushion whenver need be is the blessings of my elders ... and apart from that there have been quite a few pillars ... my mom & my granny being the prominent of them all :)

and abt me being a pillar ... well I think I am a pillar to quite a few people ... and in fact i feel obliged when they lean upon me ....

vishesh said...

i don't like to lean too much...i don't trust people that easily(well i have the habit of everything about me known,so there are very secrets0 ...and truthfully i hate humans(ya and love 'em too) ...and as for me supporting others....they are scared to for they don't understand me..

Divkiran said...

Very Touching, inspirinig and thought provoking too

Well, I had a a frind since childhood...he n me were inseparable...i lost him when we were 19 somthn...nvr been able to find it easier to survive...it was like i don care wts goin on cuz at the end of the day thrs tht one person who knows and understands me so well tht if no one else does, it doesnt matter

And then i lost him...the pain nvr went away completly...nvr been too close to my parents so thrs so much pain and hurt inside me that they don know about.

Then i fell in love, found another pillar, only to realize later that it was all hollow and the whole experience made me so hollow inside that i have changed a lot, and i wish i cud say it was for gud. Its almost as if i am lovin like a zombie!

Two people who have been with me thru evrythn are Neha n Nikhil, my closest frnds...but once each of thm got married, thy moved on too.

At the end of the day, I am all by myself...some people chose to move ahead, some god chose to take away from me and some had to move on with thr life...Its hard...its hard as helll... feel so lonely at times that it does seem easier to just die and not deal with it.

But thats not an option really, My parents have done so much for me, and if i really give it a thought, they are for sure my strongest pillars...dosn matter wt i do, thy have always always been thr unconditonally... cnt ever repay thm but don thnk i can jst die for my own selfish reasons n make thr life miserable

Keshi...your story is really inspiring...you have emerged from a situation whr ur dad was taken away...while silly ppl like me are still bothered about the matters of the heart...shll remeber u n ur stry evrytime i feel down :)

Thnks for sharin, n sorry for hoggin so much of ur space here

comfortably numb said...

this is a such an emotional post...well dun girl!!!
keep holding steadfast 2 ur pillars.
my pillars are my faith,my confidence n of course family n friends...

Cinderella. said...

Like Solitaire said..even I dont have pillars to single..there have indeed ben many...and like seasons they've come and gone....

All I can think of now is hope that I was as much a pillar of strength and support for them as much as they were for me.

Mystique Wanderer said...

a chap in my course in first year...lost his pop all of a sudden...he was all cheerful and happy go lucky before but he came back a changed person...

i have never seen nebody work so hard in my life...endless nights he would spend coding...so much so that his fourth year ended with him winning the best project competition in Pune...

from second year on he and i were roomies...and have moved on to be best friends...and everytime i see him...i see the same determination in him...matched with an equally welcoming attitude to life...

Margie said...

I forgot to mention a pillar.
My brother!
Whenever I think about him and all he's been through in his life I have courage to know there is nothing I cannot get through also.

I'll be seeing my brother this weekend...joy! JOY! JOY!

luv ya Keshi
Off to work very shortly.

Margie:)

mayz said...

my family has always been there...n have made sure i trouble my parents a lot wid my constant demands :P

but if u talk otherwise i dont remember leanin on anyone for support...i always wanted a shoulder...but somehow cud neva find...

there is a fren...but i dont like to trouble him a lot either :)

Jeevan said...

Yes u r true, those pillars are merged with you, it saves each time u down.

My pillar are my parent’s first, and for our entire family the pillar is my uncle who is no more. So we all survive with the balance left by him in memories.
Other pillars are my courage given by others and created inner self, and the positive thoughts.

HOBO said...

Every sunset stores a New Sunrise
I wish & pray to have good number of people around me and huge amount of strength, love, money to help the same...
Amen !

Paul said...

The pillars of my life finally turned out not to be the pillars of "my" life.

That's why I wrote the book.

But alas for my online and offline friends, marketing turns out to be a pillar of what you have to do after writing a book...

rayshma said...

pillars...? don't know... i have absolute faith in guardian angels though... and have a few of my own angels too... who just seem to know when things are really bad...
i think if i had to pick, i'd say "faith" was my biggest pillar. the faith that life sorts itself...that things do work out no matter what.

u put ur heart & soul into ur posts. love it.

Alok said...

Death might have taken your dad away, but his spirit lives on through you. You have survived, and found the spirit within your own self and hence that pillar hasn't yet crumbled, has it?

My pillar, it's everywhere, but most importantly, it's in myself. The air, my campus, people, nature. Yes, my pillar in the time of extreme personal turmoil was nature, and it is this spirit of nature that my parents, my friends remind me of. It is this love for hard work, life and nature that we share.

And it is apparent that you share it too, right, Keshi?

Keep happy man! You are a strong soul, and strong souls keep the world alive. Keep strong, and remember, pain is either because you are restricting yourself from getting what you want, or because you haven't found contention within yourself. Pain is there just to remind us of happiness.

Aneesh said...

What you said is true. it's bad experiences that teach us a lot than good experiences. I too had to suffer a lot, but don't know how, I'm still here, Never though I would be here. You can call it whatever you want- self confidence Yah, hard work-of course I did a lot. But, what I want to believe is fate.

'N about pillars my pillar was God, I prayed daily. Now, I stopped it. 'coz my own experiences showed me whatever is about to happen will happen, no matter what.

Outdoorsy Girl said...

My pillars are my parents for sure. I also depend on a couple of my friends quite a bit.

They all offer something I need to keep me strong.

AmitL said...

Hi,Keshi-very frankly,now I'm my own pillar.Relying on someone else to be one's pillar just doesn't work out for me.

And,yes,I am a pillar for some people...at least,I always like to feel so.Including some nice people in blogworld.It's always better to give than to receive,I feel.

Harry said...

Keshi,
My family is a pillar for me. I stay away from my parents. But I regularly make a phone call to my parents and trust me, a conversation with them make me feel happy.

I have also noticed that pillars keep changing from situation to situation.
One thing which has always been with me is my self-confidence and optimism.

"I found 2 new and undying pillars in my life. My courage and my self-confidence. I owe it to my dad's memory"

All the Best Keshi!!

May God bless you

tkcre..
harry

mutleythedog said...

You are great Big Hug!

Personally I rely on alcohol and tranquilizers to get by.....

Ne said...

My strength comes from Yeshua! I could not even explain the comfort that I have been given from him!

Every time I feel a pillar falling down around me... Yeshua sends another, so yes I agree with Cinderella and Soli!

Even when I was ready to call it quits on life.. He lifted up a mighty pillar before me and that was His Scriptures!!

Dang Keshi! lol You made me cry! hahaha!! You, your strength, insight and your wisdom, is a pillar for me!! along with my enduring spirit!!!

Ne.

Princess Mia said...

My strongest pillars have been my family n my close friends....they have stood up for me every single time unconditonally......sometimes i feel like i havent done anything for em yet.....I what have been what I am today without em.... I owe it all to em.

Keshi said...

ty Southy!

I know u lost ur dad when u were lil, just like me....HUGZ!


**it was always that will to survive and not perish in the grind has been the pillar.


yes! It's somehow still orevalent in me..I hope it dun die...


Southy Im sure u hv been pillar to many ppl, tho they dun say it. Some dun even realise it!


Keshi.

Keshi said...

Me too Jay. I know my Family will always be there for me to lean on. But I try not to lean on human pillars all that much. Not cos, I dun trust em, but Im scared that I'll get hurt again.


But my mum is my rock! If not for her, I dunno where I'd be.


Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty Margie MWAHHHHHHHHH! I know u really do u'stand what Im saying...and what I've been thru. Ur an angel in my life. And ofcourse, a beautiful PILLAR!


ur husband must be a great man..cos he married YOU Margie! And Im so happy that u 2 support each other so wonderfully. Its lovely to see such genuine LOVE.


And ur sis and cuz..great to know that they r pillars to u. And they r lucky to hv someone like u in their lives.


HUGZ hv a good one, Im gonna miss ya!


Keshi.

Keshi said...

aww ty Anu!

** For me, I have to say my strongest human pillar is my hubby and similiar to him is my faith.

Thats great!

w.o. Faith we hv nothing.


*HUGZ*

Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty Urv!

Family n friends r a must. w.o. em life wud be so empty.


**I think my inner pillar are my principles.

excellent! No one will be able to steal em away from u...thats a real pillar Urv.


And abt my Writing being a pillar too...that was such a heart-warming thing to hear. ty so much n HUGZ!


I find pillars in every one of my blog mates...they all hv unique qualities abt em that I learn from. Its amazing!


Keshi.

Keshi said...

hey Fingers!


**I have two latex pillars.

So it's ur brain and a certain sexual organ of ur's? LOL!


Keshi.

Keshi said...

yes u cud Phoso!

Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty Thinker!


** I don't know which of my personal possessions are my pillars.

yes its not that easy to identify em. It takes a very long time or a very strong experience for em to really surface to the top.


Keep exploring!


Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty Lavida!

yes Family is one pillar that wont let u down...most of the time.


Yes, Friends r a must.Blogville has helped me alot to stand up and keep walking straight, even when I hv fallen. I'll never underestimate the power of blog mates. You guys hv often been my rock!

*HUGZ*



Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty Tarun!

**No one is at peace with himself.

Its hard to define what Inner peace is for everyone. Each person finds a different meaning for that. What's peace for me, may not be peace for u. :)


But I can honestly say, my courage and self-confidence is my SERENITY. I hvnt told my blog mates abt some very harsh experiences in my life...I dun tell everything. If u knew, u'd say Im standing still in the middle of a storm. And tnxx to my courage and self-confidence!


Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty SMM!

Im sorry to hear abt the pillar u lost..Im assuming it's ur dad? *HUGZ*


My mum is my rock! I cant live w.o. her. She's more than a pillar..she's my life.



**my self - confidence and also my ego to a great extent

wow good one! I like how u said that ur Ego keeps u going, even when u dun wanna. Way to be!


Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty Utopia!

yes Family n friends r strongest human pillars.


**its the optimism that shows itself and the belief in myself


Good one. LOVED IT. Keep believing!


Keshi.

Keshi said...

aww Bro I know u luv ur parents very much! Im so glad to see u love n respect em so much. Its refreshing!


**....they are my role models and my sense of security ...may god give them my life too :


u made me cry there dumbass! :*(


My mum is my life..actually more than my life. I dunno if it's such a healthy thing to place so much love on someone tho. Cos I dunno wut wud happen to me if I lose my mum...



*Caterpillar

hahahaha sooooo cute! HUGGGGGGGGGZ!

:)

Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty Jitterz :)


**i think people realise the pillar-ness of things/attitudes/humans when they lose them.


I agree...its when u LOSE something/someone, that u realise the true worth of em.


Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty Deepz!


** guess i have conquered the fear of falling.


good on ya! Fearless and empowered :)


Keshi

Keshi said...

aww ty Mav!

I seriously feel I hv found a pillar in u too! ur such a great mate...a genuine one who I can count on anytime.


**my confidence and the never say die attitude are my pillars

Way to go!


Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty Murane!

Yes, that kind of supoort n dedication can only come from Family. Lovely!

Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty Amy!


**But the two pillars that sticks by most times no matter what for me is my family and God. Cause somehow i can't deny the fact that human pillars often fades off.


Very true! Human pillars, tho we depend on em alot, dun last forever...sadly...:(


God...I used to lean on...Im not sure if I can anymore Amy...


Keshi.

Keshi said...

aww ty Ankur!

Im glad u hv such a strong pillar in ur life...ur mate Nerendra. :)



**but currently for emotional support i dont count anyone in... but my blog

I agree. Blogville is a great blessing in my life! When I need some advice, when I need a friend who dun judge me, I always hv em here in my blog. Life is great cos of friends like u Ankur!


*HUGZ*


Keshi.

Keshi said...

Wonderful Sol!

but who/what r ur long-term pillars? I believe real pillars dun disappear after a while?

Keshi.

Keshi said...

awwwww ty Arv :)


**I made willpower and self confidence as my pillars along with the right set of attitudes to go with it.


Wonderful!


Yes..there's a fear of losing human pillars...so u dun wanna depend too much on em.



** Being independent does not mean one needs to be isolated

I agree totally! Some ppl fear too much and shun human pillars. But I say its HUMAN to lean on HUMANS when u need to!


*HUGZ* Arv!


Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty Roo!

And ur right...Famil n friends r a must. If not life wud be so empty.


**If you have these two pillars with than you easily overcome all the complexities of life

its not easy tho...having courage and self-confidence gives u serenity in the middle of a deadly storm. u will get battered n bruised, but u'll hv peace in ur mind somehow..


Keshi.

Keshi said...

HUGZ Pinku!


**he lives on in your heart and memories and creates all those others to make you feel more secure.


yes definitely! Pillars that no longer exist can still inspire and support u like they did b4.



Keshi.

Keshi said...

hey Arv yes GNR is so close to my heart, I hv chosen Nov Rain as my funeral song :)


Nah I dun do FB...but I'll come n check ur's soon. tnxx!

Keshi.

Keshi said...

hey Sanchit ty!


**if cherished these small moments of happiness or peace give a reason.

so true! And so beautifully stated. U identified some very neat pillars in life that give us true support to go on. Well done!


Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty Sameera HUGZ!


**Sometimes in the form of family,friend,love,and sometimes even a total stranger.

well-said!



**it's my will power and intuition that I rely on the most.

lovely! Intuition/Instincts really guide us thru life and help us stand on our own feet.


Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty Stony!

**God, My Stars, Honesty & Sincerity

Wonderful! Honesty will never let u down. I so know that. Well said Stony!


Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty Mystique :)


**me mom...the emotional support i can bank on
our guruji...the spiritual foundations of our family
my dreams...the reason i wait for a tomorrow


Nice to know that u hv a very deep 'spiritual' side to ya...it's imp.


*HUGZ*


Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty Hiren!


**my mom & my granny

awww...


Im sure ur a pillar to many ppl. Ur a wonderful mate and a very caring person.


Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty Vish!


**i don't like to lean too much...i don't trust people that easily


d u trust urself? if so, u can trust some other humans too. Give it a try Vish :)


Keshi.

Keshi said...

hey Divkiran ty for sharing ur experiences with me. Lovely to know abt em!

Ur comment made me realise that from time to time we find different pillars in our lives...not all of em last either. But the ones who stay with us for good r those who matter...and they r ur parents.


**feel so lonely at times that it does seem easier to just die and not deal with it.


yes! I've been there too sweetie. I've been at the brink of death..it felt so much more easier and sensible to die than to put up with all this. And then a voice in me told me that the challenge is to fight it..not to give up.


*HUGZ* I luv ya!


Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty CN!

**my faith,my confidence n of course family n friends...

wonderful! Keep the faith. :)


*HUGZ*

Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty Cindy!

yes there can be many pillars that come n go. But the solid ones STAY.

*HUGZ*


Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty Mystique!

**i see the same determination in him...matched with an equally welcoming attitude to life...


good on him! I think his pillars r Determination and Attitude.

We can learn alot from watching others.


Keshi.

Keshi said...

awwwwww Margie, a tear trickled down on my face as I read that comment from u. HUGGGGGGGGGGGZ!


**My brother!
Whenever I think about him and all he's been through in his life I have courage to know there is nothing I cannot get through also


I agree. Watching someone going thru such a tough time, makes us realise how fortunate we r and how much strength we all hv inside...to fight.


*HUGZ* to ur bro n u! Plz give him my love when u see him.


Keshi.

Keshi said...

Mayz tnxx!


**but if u talk otherwise i dont remember leanin on anyone for support...i always wanted a shoulder...but somehow cud neva find...


really? not even for 10mins? not even in urself?




**there is a fren...but i dont like to trouble him a lot either


o well, 'leaning' in this post isnt abt 'troubling' someone. If it's seen as 'troubling', then it isnt 'relying' that we r talking abt.


:)

Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty Jeevan!

Its so great to know that find true pillars in so many ppl in ur life.


**My pillar are my parent’s first, and for our entire family the pillar is my uncle who is no more

Wonderful!

Ur uncle's beautiful memory is the guiding light in ur life.


*HUGZ*

Keshi.

Keshi said...

WC Hobo!

And thats an honest and beautiful wish.


Keshi.

Keshi said...

hey Paul tnxx!


**The pillars of my life finally turned out not to be the pillars of "my" life.


On a spiritual perspective, thats so true.


*HUGZ*


Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty Rayshma!


** i have absolute faith in guardian angels though...

I believe in em too!



**Faith

Definitely! If not for Faith, we hv nothing to look forward to in life.


*HUGZ*


Keshi.

Keshi said...

aww ty Alok HUGZ!


**Yes, my pillar in the time of extreme personal turmoil was nature, and it is this spirit of nature that my parents, my friends remind me of


Just beautful! I love the way u put it. U identified ur true pillar very well. Im proud of ya man.


Pain is a big part of me yes..it reminds me how joyful my other half is :)


*MWAH*


Keshi.

Keshi said...

Aneesh hey tnxx mate!


*Fate

somehow I believe in Destiny, yes...



**'coz my own experiences showed me whatever is about to happen will happen, no matter what.


so true...same here!


I used to believe in a God and asked Him to protect me too. But later on, I realised that whats gonna happen will happen somehow.


*HUGZ*

Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty Outdoorsy!


Yeah parents n friends r a must. My mum is my rock!


Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty AmitL!


**Relying on someone else to be one's pillar just doesn't work out for me.

Good to be self-made :)



**And,yes,I am a pillar for some people...

Im sure u r! And ur a great pillar to me too.


I agree...there's so much more Joy in Giving than in Receiving.

*HUGZ*


Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty Harry!

Lovely to know u value ur parents so much.


**One thing which has always been with me is my self-confidence and optimism.

Well-said! W.o. em we cant look forward to life..


*HUGZ* n ty!


Keshi.

Keshi said...

haha Mutley :) HUGS!


**Personally I rely on alcohol and tranquilizers to get by.....

really? aww..but I can u'stand why some ppl rely on alcohol n drugs to get by. Some things in life can be so painful that u find solace in alcohol.


*MWAH* u can lean on me mate. :)


Keshi.

Keshi said...

Ne I luv ya too hun! U r my pillar too...definitely! I so look forward to u EVERYDAY.



**Even when I was ready to call it quits on life.. He lifted up a mighty pillar before me and that was His Scriptures!!


HUGGGGGGGGGGZ! I know how u felt, cos I've been there sweetie. And Im glad u hv Faith in God. That faith keeps u alive.


lol I made u cry na? awww...I hope u dun stop reading my blog cos I seem to make u cry alot. LOL!


*MWAH* TC and plz know u can lean on me anytime hunny! As long as Im alive, u hv a pillar in me. :)


Keshi.

Anindita said...

I'm sorry about your dad.. My biggest pillars are my family and my friends.. My writing is bigger but I keep most of it to myself.. It is too personal to let people know..

Margie said...

Me again Keshi
I just came by to read this post of yours again.
It is truly a wonderful one...it touched me soooo much!....you touch so many people!

AWWWWWW.....when I told you about my brother being a pillar to me....you had tears.
Keshi, dear, everytime I think about my brother I shed tears as he's been thru so much and he still has a smile everyday for other people.
I know I have been a pillar in his life and it gives me such joy to be there for him.

Hun, you are a pillar to so many people here on this blog...you are a very special person!

An angel and a pillar to me....you are that, Keshi!
Thank you hun!

I'm all done packing.
Just 2 more sleepovers here and then I'll be in Nova Scotia....I'm getting so excited!

MWAHHHHHHHHH!

Margie
P.S And I surely will give my brother your love....he will be touched...I'll tell him a beautiful and caring swt hrt from Australia thinks about him and wishes him well and sends her love!
Thanxxxx Keshi!

Shionge said...

Through these you found strength and built a stronger sense of character within you and that's so wonderful.

Indeed my hubby is my pillar of strength but I know I have to be strong when this 'pillar' is gone.

Mystique Wanderer said...

yeah spirituality is important to me...coz other than worrying about being able to shoot good serves on the court...the muted sound of children on the road keep reminding me to wake up...

Keshi said...

true Mia..sometimes I feel that way too. That I hvnt been as great a pillar as they r to me. But...u never know how they feel :)

*HUGZ*

Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty Anindita!

**My writing is bigger but I keep most of it to myself

I never realised my Writing as my pillar until I read ur comment. WOW that was a nice one n TY!


Keshi.

Mystique Wanderer said...

i always wanted a dog...still do...but as they say...u dont choose ure pet...ure pet chooses u...so waiting for one to come by here

Keshi said...

aww Margie Im touched...deeply touched by ur appreciation and love for me. MWAH! Im really lucky to hv u in my life. too lucky :)


**he still has a smile everyday for other people.

thats the kind of strength we need to REALISE. It makes us open our eyes...


Im sure ur bro will be really happy to see ya. Wish I cud go with ya too :)


I got ur emails...tnxx! will reply soon.

*HUGZ* angel!

Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty Shionge!

Im glad u know how not to fall apart even if/when ur pillar is gone. I hope that doesnt happen for a very long time to come tho. HUGGGGGGGGGGGGGZ!

Keshi.

Keshi said...

I agree Mystique. We may think we hv everything but if we cant FEEL for a total stranger, then I think we hv NOTHING.

Good on ya!

Keshi.

Keshi said...

yeah rite Mystique, u expect a pooch to walk by ur house and ask if ur ready for pet committment? LOL!

Keshi.

Arv said...

November Rain is on my funeral playlist too... LOL... Must be one kewl concert... I should write about the playlist sometime...

:)

Keshi said...

haha we both wanna GO in rockstar style ha ;-)

Keshi.

Mystique Wanderer said...

i wud prefer a hound dog...an alsatian, shepherd, lab or something..maybe a himalyan dog...

but yeah...i do believe in serendipity

Keshi said...

Alsations and German Shepherds were wut we had before as pets. My dad was an avid dog lover.

:)

Keshi.

Keshi said...

**serendipity

wut if u came across a mini poodle?

Keshi.

Mystique Wanderer said...

wud duly gift it to a girl who wud take nice care of it... :D

i ain't that nice and accomodating a guy u know :P

Keshi said...

Mystique I think u just wanna pose as a not-so-nice guy? But u r nice :)

Keshi.

Mystique Wanderer said...

if u so insist... :P

not when it comes to blindfolds and other games though...then neither am i nice...nor do i like nice ppl ;)

Mystique Wanderer said...

i do detest yapping pomerians though...in all honesty...they jst keep yapping and are scared little iffies....

anits said...

hi keshi..i would say my family and all my trusted n true friends

beautiful post dear! tcare

mayz said...

**not even in urself?

me neva!!! i dont trust myself at all...hehe

Chakoli said...

Nice Post keshi:))

Pillars... be it u...or be it someone fr u:))

They are real necessity of life:0)


my Pillars alswys have been my parents...frds and GOD:-))


leaning on there side...and reasting... its like... all pleasrs of life with u:))

Keshi said...

Mystique being blindfolded is no time to be NICE :)

Keshi.

Keshi said...

**i do detest yapping pomerians though

hahaha!

I find em so darn cute!

Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty Anits n thats lovely!

*HUGZ*

Keshi.

Keshi said...

Mayz u may not trust urself at all, but u do rely on urself sometimes, dun u?

Keshi.

Mystique Wanderer said...

yeah thats one of many reasons i wish australia was a tad bit closer ;)

Keshi said...

ty Chakoli!

**my Pillars alswys have been my parents...frds and GOD


lovely!


*HUGZ*


Keshi.

Keshi said...

Mystique Aus cant be the only place where girls who dun wanna be NICE sometimes exist, right?

Wut abt India? ;-)

Keshi.

Mystique Wanderer said...

serendipity my dear lady serendipity...maybe i'll someday land on her blog too :P

i think a post on online flirtations is warranted...

Tarun said...

*I hvnt told my blog mates abt some very harsh experiences in my life...I dun tell everything*

I have yet to come across any blogger who dares to bares it out in words.

It something hard to do, atleast I havent been able to do so all this while.I think I have poured my heart out just couple on my blogs.

Blog remains a medium to find empathy.
I dont mind drawing some flak for saying that I remains a trap door/escape route.
It may or may not help depends upon each person.
But one things for sure, its a whole new experience and personally for me each post (including cricket posts) is a new adventure and gives me a joy.

Keshi said...

haha Mystique good one :)

will think abt it...

Keshi.

Keshi said...

I agree Tarun...blogs give so much joy cos we express ourselves here and we get a sense of being heard and appreciated as well.

Cricket or not, I like ur blog :)

Keshi.

Tarun said...

Yes it gives joy and money too for some bloggers.
You know I am k\jealous of blogger who earn well exclusively thorugh means of blogs.
I have thought of getting my own domain.
But wont think I would want to earn though blogs.
Yeah I consider blogging as a positive habit of mine.
I know u like my blogs.You are hte only one commenting, even on the cricket posts.
ROFL

Keshi said...

Like u, I dun wanna EARN money from my blog. I've earned something much more valuable than that. Connections and Wisdom :)


Keshi.

Tarun said...

Connection, Wisdom and creativity too ... isnt it.
Writting is creativity through words, what say?

Keshi said...

Definitely Tarun!

If not for blogs, I wudnt hv known how CREATIVE I could get :)

Keshi.

Tarun said...

Yep, thats why I keep changing the blog template of mine.
I dream of doing my own blog template never mind I have to learn a computer language for that.
I hope u remember other wise I am a computer illeterate when it come to syntaxes and errors. :P

Keshi said...

haha Tarun no ur not!

Keshi.

SaffronSaris said...

Poppy doll-pearl, I read that post you indicated on my blog at the airport, but stupid airport computer hanged on moi!!! Argh :(

Most heart-breaking, no words can adequately describe the pain for them and the good fortune that somehow, I'm born into a different environment.

Tarun said...

All rite then it (my computer literacy) be a secret between you and me. :P

the stygian sailor said...

nice post

Scribblers Inc said...

I have lost count of the pillars in my life...maybe I am just a lil blessed...

Scribblers Inc.

badshah khan said...

I dont know but I guess.... should be my family.

SMM said...

Hey Keshi...nope its not my dad. he does not keep very well, but he's still around. The pillar I referred to was my elder brother who died in an accident when I was 16. In fact most of my friends don't even know that I had a brother, they all think that I am only child

Anindita said...

:)

Thats nice! See, now you have a bigger reason to keep writing! :)

Take care.

Anindita. ^^

Keshi said...

ty Saffy!

So u were on ur way to Manila then? :)

Keshi.

Keshi said...

hehehe Tarun no worries ;-)

Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty Stygian!

Keshi.

Keshi said...

Good for ya matey @Scribblers!

Keshi.

Keshi said...

yes, ty Badshah!

Keshi.

Keshi said...

SMM Im so v sorry to hear abt ur bro! *HUGZ* Must be v hard to cope with that.

So u and I hv something in common...we both faced a heart-breaking tragedy when we were 16.


Keshi.

Keshi said...

yes Anindita, tnxx to that first comment from u. HUGS!

Keshi.

Satish Bolla said...

my strongest pillars have been my two childhood friends. they've been with me through-out my ups n downs and they'll always be. it was not just them being pillars to me, but me to them too.
my next pillar is my self-confidence, which often crumbles down. but soon, i rebuild it with renewed energy. there r some more like these, but the only pillars i care are the above three.

Keshi said...

great to know abt em Satish!

Keshi.

Macadamia The Nut said...

I'm my own freaking pillar
But now... I dunno
:D