Friday, August 3

Face Of Hurt


Have you ever put a face to your emotions? I have. I have a face each for Love, Anger, Fear, Affection, Beauty etc etc. And this is the face of Hurt. I think this face describes my mood right now. It's so easy for people to say I'm reacting too much to Sharon's way of life (read last post) and that if it suits her that I should leave her alone etc. But who said I have a problem with her way of life? I don't. The truth is she seems to have a problem with my way of life! Cos she's the one who's avoiding me right? I have always been the Keshi she knew from day 1. But she's not the Sharon I used to know. I can accept that people change but I can't accept someone leaving their friends cos of their faith. I never judge people based on their beliefs/faith/color etc. If I did that, I should have left her long time ago. I only seek the purity of the heart. Sharon had it all...now her heart seems to be confused. She's the one who's pushing me away based on her beliefs. So please don't say that I'm the shallow one here. I'm pretty good at apologising for my faults, but in this case I won't. Cos I firmly believe I'm not the one at fault here. How would you feel if a close friend of your's or a loved-one abandoned you cos of their new-found faith? It's so hard for me to get that across to you through a blog post, but it sure does hurt.


The face of my Hurt is staring at you. What does it's features tell you?


Current Music: What Happened To Us by Hoobastank

123 Cranium Signets:

lemonade said...

i see sadness...guess that just goes hand in hand with hurt..

don't worry kesh..u'll get over it..

Sweetstickychewy said...
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Niv said...

Hang in there. you'll get over it..Time heals.
*hugs*

CM-Chap said...

Keshi.. I know how u feel.. I have gone through this.. But ultimately realized..u have to accept it nothg else u can do.

Poo said...

hi sweet heart how are you ?.

awwwwww my sweetie pie is sad .... coomon chottu everybody has there own perception about looking at a relation ..... so do what you feel is right ...dont be sad ....if you be sad you wil spoil ur weekend !!!!

coomon my ladoo smile now.... i know its hard ... but common see i am tickling you :))

Love you sweets ...plssss take care of urself.

Poo

Poo said...

*****BIG BEAR CUDDLY AND PUDDLY HUGZZZZZ*****

Cazzie!!! said...

It says I need a hug and some love.

Ghost Particle said...

that is the saddest image i have ever seen...such emotions at very young age.

Who said u were overacting kesi, its ur right to do what you want. the hell with them...you must live your own life, you have all the rights to make your own decisions and say it out LOUD keshi style!

Hugs. The Show must Go On.

Sweetstickychewy said...

Keshi..*Hugs*

Have a beautiful weekend sweets.

Die Muräne said...

Ah, it looks sad.

But if you look in these eyes and try to think/pretend from deep in your heart 'I like you. thats why I let you go. just know I'll be here, be avaiable'... then all of a sudden you'll see the face becoming so much lighter ;-)

(at least it worked for me...)

It's hard to see a friend going away. Wish you peace.

Sweetstickychewy said...

I love the picture you posted. Speaks. OUCH!

***How would you feel if a close friend of your's or a loved-one abandoned you cos of their new-found faith?

Hurt, Sad and probbies angry.

***The face of my Hurt is staring at you. What does it's features tell you?

Its a beautiful face. And its features is saying, "How Could U Hurt Me?"

*Huggiz*

Aditi said...

aww hun i dont know what the response to my comment yesterday was will have to go chk..
i didnt mean to imply in any fashion that this is your fault or u're not doing enough..
you care obviously that is y u were trying

Nora said...

Keshi, I'm sorry if you were upset by the comments. I hope mine wasn't one of them.

Of course you're hurt. I understand. But sometimes, you have to move on... x

Poo said...

aaj meri gaadi mein baitha ja
aaj meri gaadi mein baitha ja

Long drive jayenge full speed jayenge
kahin rukenge na hum

gana bajana ...khana peena gaddi mein hoga sanam

:)) Cheer up ladoo

Princess said...

ho keshi,

dun be sad..
The feelings towards ur friend is what any1 at ur place would get..

dun be sad deary keshi..
-Aiz

Peter said...

I believe I can only confirm what I, you and others said on the previous post... and that you have no reason to blame yourself! I guess you have so often proved that you CARE!

Tys on Ice said...

In living, the biggest sin, according to me is expectation and exclusion. The point here I understand is not about religion but about how it is managing to effect a life long relationship : that to me is a tragedy. Keshi, friend ship is one relation which is of your choosing, hence its the only purest, unconditional relationship - let her go with your understanding. But please dont ever believe or let anyone tell you that they are better than you because of a collective thought or an ideal or their religion or color ...

choose happiness...

Pri said...

hmm i can understand what ur goin thru keshi...it hurts whn a loved one goes away like tht with no fault of ours n no reason...but guess thts life!
keep goin! if she's a true friend, she'll understand and get bak to u.:)

lotsa smiles,
pri...

Sam said...

I won't say what I can see... nopes!! it's there in the open....
I'll tell you what I cannot see...

A girl, who is feeling miserable... who despite knowing that she was being trampled upon and taken for granted, finally stood up for it... now feels that may be she should have takena nother chance... wants to cry out... is doing her work like any other day, but really is not concentrating on it... wants to rush back to her friend grab her and shake her to her senses, all the while knowing that it won't happen.... wants to cry out loud... wants to understand so many things.... wants answers to so many "questions"... and a lot mroe which evn I can't write or say but can definitely feel!!

The show must go on Keshi... move on!! Want someone to help you take the first step?? I hope not.. i know you as a strong girl!! Go ahead.... keep going!! What you did was right... your hurt justified... but then the irrational things do happen... it's sad but true!!

Andrew said...

Move on. Sad, but onwards and upwards and no regrets.

Menchie said...

Oh sweetie, I hope you feel better soon. It's not nice to start a weekend sad.

You are entitled to your feelings -- you certainly cannot

Alok said...

u know how i feel abt this ... ya ... i wld have been suprised if u were not upset ... and the pic says it all ....

dont worry things have a cunning way of falling in place ... have a good weekend and u will feel better... go for the bollywood thing .... it will make u feel nice ...

take care

alok

Helen said...

There's a lot of people who have been right where you are, Keshi, so few of us have said to get over it quickly. It will take time, you have changed, too (now you've been exposed to that type of hurt/rejection). It's like mourning, only time will heal it. I'm so sorry.

Madhu said...

hey keshi cheer up girl!! Life goes on....u dont stop living do u?

As for ur friend just wish her all the best in life, and hope whatever she does she's happy doing it!

Huggz..

Poo said...

Love you sweetie .... Miss u BIG Time...Hope the weekend heals ur pain .. dont be upset!!!

***Sexyroo*** dsnt look good when she is sad she looks beautiful when she is chirpy and smiling:))

sorry cunt answer ur call my manager was just next to me whn you call so disconnected it.

Love you loads :)) Will try to call u over the weekend..... i have to just buy a calling card.

Miss you and happy weekend.

homo escapeons said...

Try to view your friend as someone who has been brainwashed and is now too terrified to try and re-enter the world of logic and reason. This way you can blame whoever did this to her and not her...because I can almost guarantee that there is a part of her old self way down there somewhere who would RUN back if she wasn't worried about spending eternity in hell.

Destroy the message,
not the messenger. She is in there somewhere...try and figure out WHY? What made her take such drastic action? Who hurt her that badly?

Remember those people are cornered, desperate, and fighting for their lives because they are scared to death of dying! They aren't operating out of LOVE they drive on FEAR.

Asha said...

Keshi,you cannot help everybody! I know you would like to help,you are good soul but she is not ready for it.All you can do now is to wait and support her when she needs it or if she needs it.She has made her choice and it's not your fault girl!!No need to apologize to anyone!!
I read the link. Just 11% of Kerala and everything else is from the North(DNA,I mean!).Good to know.I will make a post on Sri Lanka one day!:)
Have a great weekend,don't worry, smile and see you on Monday.Hugs to you Kesh:)

wacko said...

keshi...aww m already crying baby!
who says tis ur fault ya??
ur posts can make me feel how badly u miss her..and dats enough an indication of how true your soul is..just like i commented before..tis just dat she's got too much involved with her religion or perhaps dat somethin might hv caused some sorta impact on her dat she's tryin to avoid u which is quite evident..

according to me, u shouldnt feel guilty..see u did wht u cud do..infact i wudnt hv done dis much if i were u..u deserve love keshi..and dat is wht we all are here for :)

tc keshi

Diesel said...

All I had to do is scroll down and read "Jehovah's Witnesses" to know you're in the right. Here's hoping she comes around.

Mónica. said...

Hi, I'm from Uruguay.
I nice to meet you.
I wait for you to may blog.
Kisses from Uruguay.

Perspective Inc said...

I see hurt, pain and the betrayal that comes from being let down. But I also see innate strength to get through it all! Just hang in there Keshi, as trite as it sounds, it really does get better with time!

Jay said...

I knew that's what you meant by the last post.

It's hard because even though THEY are the one's judging YOU, if you say anything they turn it around as an attack on their religion. It's a no-win situation.

AVIANA said...

hey sweetie,

wow...i am so sorry on what you are going through right now....you're not shallow...you're hurt

i always wonder why we are hurt when someone leaves us....in this case your friend

why does it hurt so bad...

it's the feeling of rejection....and if you are genuine with your thoughts, your feelings, your emotions...when someone rejects them from you it cuts so deep...it cuts even deeper when that person was a happy recipient of your gifts....

you start thinking, "wow...even though I was genuine without even thinking about it, this person doesn't want me anymore....what happened...what turned the tables...was i never really seen also as a true friend by this person cuz if i was seen as a true friend this person wouldn't do this to me." (these are my thoughts about J too...fyi)

maybe this is a rough patch right now...because friendship is a lifetime i believe...you know at the end who your true friends were....

it could be you guys don't talk for years but in about 5,10,20 years from now...you pick right back up...

maybe she won't be your EVERYDAY FRIEND like before but she will be your FRIEND at a time when you most need it.....that, to me, is when you know who your friends are...to me those who are there when shit hits the fan are your true friends unconditionally.... maybe you don't talk to them everyday but do you really need to hang out with your friends all the time....

some friends are the ones you hang out with and gossip and tell your thoughts with (EVERYDAY FRIENDS) ...some may know you deeply but you don't hang out with..but they are there when it matters most....these are your FRIENDS

chicki....wait and see....she may still be your friend but a different type of friend that may be even more valuable....when you realize it then....you won't be as hurt that she won't go to the bollywood cruise....

smile :)

toby said...

I respect people who search for knowledge, who are kind, who care about the welfare of others, who encourage others to reach their full potential, who stand against injustice, who try to make the world a better place.
I have zero respect for people who think they are superior human beings en route to eternal paradise, while the rest of us are damned to hell.
Your friend has joined a religion which cares nothing for humanity and you cannot reason with such people. One day she may come back to you but for now it's best to let her go. Remember the good times and move on.

diyadear said...

watever faith she is following i can say she is not doing it sincerely. cos otherwise she wudnn't have avoided u.. im sure even if she had some valid reason u wud have forgiven her n ur friendship stayed beautiful.. but u said it keshi. she is confused n in the dark. may god help her..

EBEZP said...

It says hurt Keshi, but it will lessen honestly.

In the short term though it means a real lovey hug because they do work ok!

susan said...

I'm so sorry for your pain. Hopefully, in a while she'll come back to you and you can renew your friendship.

This sounds like it has nothing at all to do with you. Just her...searching for...whatever.

(((Keshi)))

Anonymous said...

arrrghhhhhhh

Anonymous said...

i wont leave, but love yourself first

Mizrepresent said...

Hi my first vist! Wow, i would be pretty upset, like you if my friend deserted me for their religion. I have a very good friend, bestfriend, who is far more religious than i, and we have remained good friends through it all. I know we can't kick it like we used to, and we both accept that our worlds are a little different, but we are still the same. Maybe it will take your friend some time to realize this and in the mean time you have to try and understand her walk, and what she may be going through. take care and believe that things will work out for the best.

Fleiger said...

Hey, that image is creepy...

Anyways, hard though it is, it's better to make a clean cut and let go than hanging on.

Sujit said...

it really hurts to lose a closest friend!.. and changing friendship for belief is very bad thing. Just stay there keshi...

StandbyMind said...

It is SAd..ver very Sad...

I hope it goes away....away forever!

jitendra said...

;)

Dawn....सेहर said...

I am with you for all this....as I had similar experience of loosing a good friend...whom I always thought nothing will part us...I thought we are so good at understanding and yet...this friend says he has lost the warmth of friendship coz I dont call him ...I always try to be in touch with other modes...emails, sms...but due to time difference or me being busy with things...doesnt allow me to call...and this is what he says! Its sad!
I totally understand what you are saying and going through!
Lets give a hugggz to eachother....may be they dont deserve our friendship
Cheers dear
be happy

Southpaw unplugged said...

It tells me why did u do this???
A tight hug to u!!!!

niki yokota said...

awww i hope u are feeling better today, keshichan!!

anuj said...

no keshi u cant be sad again .. u were sad jus dyz ago rite ? .. u cant do that regularly .. ohk .. so get over it ;)

If people screw up thats not ur fault ohk .. so u dnt have to b sad jus bcause someone have turned his/her way from you ..

so jump up and be happy :)
and about my friend .. hehe .. u will come to know somtime .. it was sort of a break up .. so u can guess a bit i think ..

newyz .. cheer up keshi ..
here's a HUGGGGE HUG for you all the way frm India :P

take care sweety :)
say cheeeeeeeeese !!

George said...

Religion and its inherent beliefs are one of the biggest reasons for hate, war, violence .. than anything else ever on the face of the earth. When you believe, for whatever reason, at whatever time of your life, you immerse yourself so completely in that particular way of life that you no longer see the world the way you once did.

You are looking at everything, at everyone through your new religious influenced glasses and what you see is very often what is real.

I believe your friend will remain this way until she "snaps" out of it, if she ever does.

You are hurt because she was a best friend who fell in love with a different way of life, with different friends and very different ideas.

It was not your fault, you have nothing to blame yourself about. You can neither blame her because when you are as weak as your friend you are easy pickings for the religious minded to convert. And they convert whole heartedly

You be you Keshi .... perhaps one day your friend will be back, but don't hold any bad feelings towards her or any grudges ... I don't believe it is her fault

AmitL said...

Hi,Keshi*sad smile at the face of hurt*-well,I truly understand that it's your friend at fault,and friendship cannot be linked to faith.After all,that's the least you can expect from best friends-and,if she's decided to move away,good luck to her...the world's full of such cruel surprises,you know.(Heaven knows, I've had more than enough of them-LOL,even with friends-now,yes,I can think and laugh-then,the hurt was as much or more as you feel). Again,as I said,remember'The lesson here is,the one person who can truly ensure your happiness,is YOU.All else and all others are secondary.'Accept that slowly and steadily,and,you won't have to have a Hurt face anytime in the future.Have a Grrrrt weekend.Cheer up!

AmitL said...

Ohhh.yes,the Face of your Hurt says' Give me an icecream and I "might" feel better'-So,here...*gives a chocobar*.:)

Vikas said...

i think no one has the right to hurt us. No matter that person is close to you. I know you are emotional and sensitive person just like me.....
but no one has right to hurt us without any reason ...

Take Care
Vikas{V}

The Grunt said...

I love your tribute to hurt because I know you are all about healing it, Keshi.

Jim said...

Shucks Keshi

u sure have a problem
2 posts for this !

or mebbe u r running short of ideas for your poats

Tys on Ice said...

hey! where u gone woman? Get yourself down here this minute and blog ( read this with an image of a big momma in ur mind and yes, with one finger waving at you and the other on my hip)

Jeevan said...

I felt of the relations that disturbed by new think that come across our or others life. The relation comes under the love and humanity is only true. I don’t want u to be on that face dear.

Hugsss...

Anonymous said...

HOW TO STOP PEOPLE FROM BUGGING YOU ABOUT GETTING MARRIED
Old aunts used to come up to me at weddings, poking me in the ribs and
cackling, telling me, "You're next."

They stopped after I started doing the same thing to them at funerals.

captain corky said...

I can relate to you because it's happened to me. I had a friend who became a born again Christian and a minister. Yet he pushed me out of his life when I probably needed a friend the most.

The hardest part about life is when we lose... Sorry you're going through this.

Steph said...

Sweetheart, all you can do is let her know that you're her friend, that you miss her and will always be there for her. The rest is up to her.

I know that sounds harsh, but there is nothing more you can do. You have to accept that. ((big hugs))

Julia Scissor said...

The face pic reminded me of the 'current mood' posts I do.

No faith preaches that friendship be given up. Just cheer up. Hugs.

Nanditha Prabhu said...

hugs.....
u'll get over it !
time heals!

PoisOn CoAtEd ELiXir said...

its more important to understand right now that she is "dealing" with her own life right now. dont take blame upon yourself, dont blame her.
give her time.
im sure thet either her new found faith will bring u 2 closer-eventually or she'll recognise the drawbacks of her faith and let it go.

homo escapeons said...

Here are a few more songs for ya;
If I Could Go Back In Time by I 94
Suck It Up Princess or Old Habits Die Hard by Ten Second Epic
(from AB's Hometown!)
Patience by Take That
You Get What You Give by New Radicals
Blurry by Puddle Of Mudd

or one of my old standbys if you can find it?
Stop Lookin' Back by Grand Funk Railroad. I need to stop because I have about 1500 songs that deal with losing someone...aren't half of all songs about that? The other half are about finding someone new.

Chin up Keshtar.

Jeya Anand said...

comon KESHI..i have never seen u like that ..all i know abt KESHI is she is a bubbly and humorous gal..i admit everyone has their own things..i just say take care of urself and ur surroundings...cheer up..:-)

Raghav said...

well wont judge since its between the two of u
but i dont believe that ppl change overnite, its just a silent streak which lies dormant for some years and then chooses a time and opportunity to raise its head.
doesnt mean that the person has changed, only that there was something about them that you didnt know earlier.
and now uve come face to face with it.
as friends no matter how ugly it seems, you should embrace it.
and she should embrace you, ugly side and beautiful.

Dan said...

Keshi, Sweetie, you need a nice hug right now. So here goes ...

{{{{ HUG }}}}

I think you're terrific.

Little Miss Muffet said...

oh keshi..i have just been cathcing up on ur posts and read about the incident with sharon..i think i understand how u feel..in every relationship, there is some give and take..and there is nothing wrong with u feeling that ur not getting anything back...maybe u needed each other for that period of time and now it's time to move on since both of u have drifted apart..nothing to be done about it, just let it go...i know it must hurt terribly to let go of a good friend..

smrtnhuggble said...

aww keshi im sorry..
it does suck when you loose friends, and well if not anyone, i know the FEELLING :( ..
ive lost one too many friends because not because their "faith" changed but cause their "status" changed to ENGAGED. soo annoyingggggg.. and its not like i have changed a bittt... its them that have changed. i hate it when people tell me that im JEALOUS cause theyre engaged..
noooooooooooo im not jealous, its that they're just now too busy to hang out. so yea .. im competely understand.

javagirl1111 said...

I'm so sorry sweetie... hope you're doing OK. I agree with you... I am very strongly involved in my faith, but don't see that it's any reason to ostracize others...But maybe she feels weak, and that's why she must take it out on others... I'm sorry Keshi girl!

Hugz!

Vik said...

Life is bigger than this ain't it? So I think after a brief moment of "feeling lost", the time is to move on. So I guess you would be alright soon from now. Besides each perceive what the rules of friendship are differently. So I guess you should not be so peeved. Get over it and morrow is another day and another mountain to climb.

Good day :)

Jocelyn said...

The face shows me betrayal--that loss of faith in others and friends. But, really, your friend is no longer the same person..she's someone else now.

me...? said...

friends are like bums...
no matter how much shit passes between them..
they always stay together...
but then
somethings are ass ripping..!!

Kavi said...

You are such a fine individual and a great support !

You will get over this well & truly so ! All the very best. We are with you..

curryegg said...

I hate this kind of feeling.. being left behind no matter it's friends, love one or family. It's hurt!

Anyway, I know we can face it well, am I right keshi?

And there is a small award for you in my blog. Take a look ya? ;)

tulipspeaks said...

hey sweetheart, why r u hurting when all of us are here - when i am here?

hugss!


ammu.

twistedttruth said...

Belief intrinsically is a form of depresson. Assertion of a belief is a form of fear. Disbelief is a form of cynicism. Non-belief is an empty vessal. Has potential to make noise, but no further damage.

Alok said...

Happy Friendship Day Keshi!

Hope u had a gr8 weekend

alok

Pankaj Gupta said...

hi Keshi,
well what is this buddy! i think YOU should just Go to the Mirror and see WHAT TYPE of THIS FACE SHOWS ..

Have you FORGET to SMILE ?
Have YOU FORGET to Cheer?
Have you FORGET to PARTy'ng?
Have you FORGET to .......wt should i say...just REMEMBER the Nice'st, Sweetest,Caring,Loving,Humble..Friends of YOURS, who are alwys there FOR YOU, WITH YOU!!

"";I have always been the Keshi she knew from day:""

Yaar , we know that YOU are alwys that KESHI, a cute, nice, caring,admiring,sweet..KESHI--just dont Loose your Charm and Effectiveness on Such Friends who just FORGET us 'cos they have Changed their FAITHS..!!
(oh!,i am gettng Serious now..ha ha?)

well i just wish to say that as a blogger friend of yours, i know my limits, but i dnt see my FRiends(specially so good and who live their LIFE to fullest), in Trouble for Wrong Cause.

If YOU believe inYOURSELF, YOU will Have a LIFE!
BUT if YOU dnt Believe inYOURSELF, There is NO LIFE!

YOU Trust Your MOVES,BE there!
enjoy!!

good sunday!!
take care!
keep on watchng and Partyng at bollywod Party's , it mks a perception in me that you are a INDO-AUS-SRILANKAN!!ha ha.

Cuckoo said...

Awww all these things are part of one's life. yes, sometimes we DO get hurt by some ppl's remarks but the best way is to wipe off your tears and move on. :)

You need a warm hug. :)

Jenny! said...

What a crappy situation! Things will work out the way they are supposed to! Everything happens for a reason!

Ps said...

I just read the last post and this one.It does feel terrible when CLOSE friends whom you depended on let you down.
I'd written a post about it once--it said "When friends walk away"
Keshi--we have to remember that everyone comes into our lives for a reason, season or lifetime..hey--let me send you the whole thing --here it is.
Hope it helped.
*HUGS*

Dalicia said...

when i'm hurt...i'm angry...angry at myself and angry about everything

~*. D E E P A .* ~ said...

ahem .... there really aint anything u can do ...

people never remain who they are .. they always change .. and the best u can do to urself is to make urself immune to these kinda changes .. .seriously

Coco said...

Be a "friend"...and let her be.

Yes, it hurts, but you are NOT alone!! You still have your family, and friends who love you dearly.

I'm sure that this friend still loves you, but "Life" has taken a different direction for her.

May this change bring her many blessings...

Hugs to you Keshi!!
Keep an open mind, and a big heart...life is too short!!
Chin up!! : )

Wishing you much love and happiness- blessings.

Poison said...

raw sadness

Aidan said...

HEy Keshi, sorry i had read the other post but had not had a chance to post..... Life is, as always chaotic at best.
People move and change, sometimes in our own perception, this is not always for the best.

You have to accept sometimes people will drift apart, its not your fault, i dont think you can even blame a religion.

Be happy for your friend if this is what is making her happy.

Keshi said...

ty Lemonade MWAH!

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HUGGGGGZ Niv!


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Chap I wish it wud be easier to accept...I think in time I will. tnxxx!


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HUGGGGGGGGGGGZ Poo ty sweetie!

:) Hows u?


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Caz u said it the best! ty n HUGGGGGGGGZ!



Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty Ghosty ur so sweet.

And yeah...the show must go on!


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aww ty Amy HUGGGGGGGGZ!


**"How Could U Hurt Me?"

it does doesnt it!

Hope u had abeautiful weekend too.

ty so much Amy!

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Murane u always say the NICEST n the DEEPEST things. ty!

**'I like you. thats why I let you go. just know I'll be here, be avaiable'.

yes...deep inside I still feel that way!

HUGGGGGGGGZ!


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hehe Aditi it wasnt u at all. MWAHHHHHHHHH! Ur comment was fine sweetie.

I like all sorts of opinions. After all, it wont be right if everyone agreed with me all the time right? :)

And trust me, it wasnt u at all. HUGGGGGGZ!



Keshi.

KAYLEE said...

HOPW ARE YOU KESHI? I am in pain but hanging in there great post!

Keshi said...

Nora nah it wasnt u either hun MWAHHHHHH!

Just some other comment made by a friend in a different blog...abt this. :)


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Great Poo cos I cant u'stand anything LOL! Except aaja means come :) aww HUGGGGGGGGGZ!


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ty Aish!


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aww tnxx Peter!


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Tys ty!


**In living, the biggest sin, according to me is expectation and exclusion

I truly believe in that too. Well-said.

Yes I choose HAPPINESS :) tnxx a ton!


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Very true Pri..ty n HUGGGGGGGGZ!



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Sam ty so much!

**doing her work like any other day, but really is not concentrating on it... wants to rush back to her friend grab her and shake her to her senses, all the while knowing that it won't happen


Spot on! U guessed it all so accurately.

I agree..the show must go on.

ty soooo very much!


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hey Andrew!

**but onwards and upwards and no regrets

Well-said! ty.


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Menchie u r so sweet. tnxx hun n HUGGGGGGGGGZ!



Keshi.

Keshi said...

Alok ty so much!

yes Im going to the Bollywood cruise...I hv even bought the tickets :) Going with some other friends.

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hey Helen HUGGGGGGGGZ!

** It will take time, you have changed, too (now you've been exposed to that type of hurt/rejection).


definitely! It's a big step towards moving on.

ty sweetie!

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ty Madhu!


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Poo hey Im sorry if i disturbed ya at work. Next time I'll email u b4 I call u ok? :)

MWAHHHHHHHHH!


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HE ur soooo right abt this! She's operating on FEAR indeeds. I can see that. She's even afraid of answering some very 'logical' questions I asked her. She's refusing to reply. I guess thats cos she knows that she's not operating on LOGIC anymore.


**and is now too terrified to try and re-enter the world of logic and reason

so true!


However I dun hv the right to interfere in her faith and tell her that she's not making sense. She might feel Im coming on too strong. Let her take her own time...I can wait until Im alive...



Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty Asha u make good sense. I cant help those who dun wish to be helped.

MWAHHHHHHH!

Hey that WIKI link is so interesting right :)


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OMG Wacko ur comment was a tear-jerker :) HUGGGGGGGGGGGGGZ n TY for being there for me!


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:) ty Diesel!


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Monica hey ty and here's some Kisses all the way from Austraaalia! :)

MWAHHHHHHHHH!



Keshi.

Mumbai Guy said...

I guess, most of us have been through this situation. Happened to me during my school days. Just unbeleivable.

Keshi said...

hey Perspective!

**But I also see innate strength to get through it all

ty for having faith in me MWAHHHHHH!

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Jya ur sooo right!


**THEY are the one's judging YOU,

so true.


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ty Lisa hun MWAHHHHHHHHH!


**she may still be your friend but a different type of friend that may be even more valuable

I agree...mebbe thats what TIME and EXPERIENCES have made her to be...I can accept that.

D u feel the same way abt J?


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Toby ty very much and I totally agree with u.

**I have zero respect for people who think they are superior human beings en route to eternal paradise, while the rest of us are damned to hell.

true...I cant stand such beliefs!


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Diya hows u?


**watever faith she is following i can say she is not doing it sincerely. cos otherwise she wudnn't have avoided u

Exactly my point. Which great faith wud teach u to dump ur friends just cos they r not exactly like u?



Keshi.

Keshi said...

Ebezp that was such a CUTE hug. TY n HUGGGGGGGGGGZ right bak at ya! :)

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Susan ur spot on. ty n HUGGGGGGGGGZ!

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Anony ty!


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WC Mizrepresent!

** I know we can't kick it like we used to, and we both accept that our worlds are a little different, but we are still the same

I wish Sharon sees it that way too.

ty so much!


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I agree Fleiger...she cant leave me hanging...


the pic is a lil creepy...I agree :) HURT can be creepy u know...


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ty so much Sujit!


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Standbymind ty!


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:) Jitterbug!





Keshi.

Keshi said...

hey Dawny HUGGGGGGGGGZ!

**...this friend says he has lost the warmth of friendship coz I dont call him ...

huh? just like that? I believe good friends, I mean real friends, dun even need to keep in touch...they can just pick up from where they left last even after many many years. Sharon and I were like that...now she doesnt even wanna talk to me.

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Southy aww...ty n HUGGGGGGGGGGZ!


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Niki babez Im ok..ty sweetie. HUGGGGGGGGGZ!



Keshi.

Blessed said...

Hey Keshi!
You know it would be break my heart if my friend stopped being my friend becuz of her faith.

I want to tell you something that happened in my life.
When I became Catholic, I found myself torn between my beliefs of what I thought was a good and right life for me. I kept thinking how I shouldn't do certain things and hang out with certain people becuz I felt that they weren't influencing me in the most good, right and positive way.
Then I thought would I want my friends to abandon me over their faith? No. So I went about certain situations and functions with a different mind set--and that is
I am the ONLY one who has control over me. I don't have to do what they are doing (as in drinking to darn much and party, party, party, cussing, etc) I can be with them and love them for who they are, who they are to me and be a good moral, faithful person just the same.
If only Sharon could see that.
Maybe since you are living life with such zest it just is too hard for her to bare due to her choices.

I wish you the best Miss Keshi!
You rock! And you go on LIVING! I could see how painful this must be but you must, with time, heal.

Keshi said...

Anuj ur a darling...ty n HUGGGGGGGGGGGGZ!

Hope all is well with u over there...


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George u make good sense. It's really not fault her either...I realise that now...it's a result of all the pain she's been through...anyone who had been thru what she's been thru wud turn to something new...

ty so much for enlightening me!


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hehe Amit u r so sweet. tnxx alot n HUGGGGGGGGGGZ! n ty for the choco bar ;-)

Wut u said is true...very true.


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Vikas thats right. ty!


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Grunty HUGGGGGGGGGGGZ!




Keshi.

Jim said...

u think u have problems?


my girl told me
we can only be buddies

and i have the hottz for her

Keshi said...

Jim :)


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lolz Tys that was cute! I can just picture ya!


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aww ty Jeevan!

**The relation comes under the love and humanity is only true

so darn true! thats all that really matters.


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hehe Anony ty!


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hey Captain!

**Yet he pushed me out of his life when I probably needed a friend the most.

Im so sorry that happened to ya. It hurts big time...I know the feeling...cos it happened to me with few others in my life. They all ran away when I needed em the most.

but I learnt to depend on myself...and it was the BEST lesson I've ever learnt.


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Stepher ur a beautiful soul!

ty n HUGGGGGGGGGGZ!



Keshi.

Keshi said...

Julia ty!

**No faith preaches that friendship be given up

very well-said!


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Hugggggggggz Nanditha!


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Poison u r right. ty so much!


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HE ty so much! Music always makes me HAPPY. :)


**If I Could Go Back In Time by I 94

love it :)


**Suck It Up Princess or Old Habits Die Hard by Ten Second Epic
(from AB's Hometown!)

dunno that one...


**Patience by Take That

love it!


**You Get What You Give by New Radicals
Blurry by Puddle Of Mudd

awww...


**Stop Lookin' Back by Grand Funk Railroad.

dunno that one...


**I need to stop because I have about 1500 songs that deal with losing someone...

LOL!


**aren't half of all songs about that? The other half are about finding someone new.

so true :)

ty so much HE u know how to make me bounce bak into LIFE!



Keshi.

Keshi said...

aww Jeya ty so much! Im ok today :) HUGGGGGGGGGZ!

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Raghav I agree..

**doesnt mean that the person has changed, only that there was something about them that you didnt know earlier.

that was beautifully states. SO true.

Im ready to embrace her even in her new 'state'...but she isnt ready to do the same with me.

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aww Dan I felt ur HUG across the many miles...HUGGGGGGGGGGGGGZ n ty for being the VERY sweet guy that u r!


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ty so much Miss.Muffet HUGGGGGGGGGZ!


**...maybe u needed each other for that period of time and now it's time to move on since both of u have drifted apart

true...thats what my mum said too...exactly the same thing!


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Choco HUGGGGGGGGZ dahlin!


**but cause their "status" changed to ENGAGED.

eeeeeeeks who does that kinda thing? OMG they r so not worth ur time n love then. forget such ppl. they arent friends...just opportunists!


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Javagirl HUGGGGGGGGZ n ty!

** I am very strongly involved in my faith, but don't see that it's any reason to ostracize others

exactly...I mean I come from a Hindu and Buddhist background, but other religions dun affect my conscience! Wut I wanna check out is the HEART of a person. Nothing else.

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true Vikz...ty n HUGGGGGGGGGGGGZ!



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Jocelyn u said it right...she's a different person now!

**The face shows me betrayal--that loss of faith in others and friends

aww how accurate...



Keshi.

Keshi said...

Me heyy!

**friends are like bums...
no matter how much shit passes between them..
they always stay together...

lol that was a very cute one!


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awww ty Kavi n heyy WB!


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Curryegg ty so much n HUGGGGGGGZ my dear!

ok I will visit ya soon...cant wait :)


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Ammu I missed ya! Where hv u been? :(


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hey TT!

**Belief intrinsically is a form of depresson. Assertion of a belief is a form of fear. Disbelief is a form of cynicism. Non-belief is an empty vessal

I love what u wrote! SO TRUE. I think fear n depression is whats ruling her head right now.


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aww Alok same to ya mate..n tnxxx!


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Panka u make me feel so very special, even tho I dun deserve all that :) ty so much n HUGGGGGGGGGGGZ!

Ur the special person here...not me...cos u see so much beauty in others. Cos u 'choose' to do so. LOVELY!

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ty Cuckoo!


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ty Jen!



Keshi.

Keshi said...

PS ty n HUGGGGGGGGGGZ!

**we have to remember that everyone comes into our lives for a reason, season or lifetime.

so true! I believe in that.

k I'll go read that. ty so much!


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me too Dalicia..I get so pissed with myself n I dunno why...


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Deepa WB n HUGGGGGGGGGGZ! Missed u so much.

**people never remain who they are .. they always change

so true...


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HUGGGGGGGGGGZ Coco n ty!


**I'm sure that this friend still loves you, but "Life" has taken a different direction for her.

true...thats what it is.


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Posion yes the face says it all...


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Aidan hey no worries mate.


**You have to accept sometimes people will drift apart, its not your fault, i dont think you can even blame a religion.

ur so right here...we cant really blame anyone/anything...mebbe its just the way it's supposed to be.

ty so much!



Keshi.

Silvara said...

Even when ur hurting ur face is so cute :P

Time will heal everything babe - just keep smiling and realise u did all u could for ur friendship. now it is up to her to make the moves

Keshi said...

Kaylee Im very well ty sweetie!

TC I'll be there soon. MWAHHHHHHH!


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MG ty!

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awww ty Blessed n HUGGGGGGGGGZ!

**Then I thought would I want my friends to abandon me over their faith? No.

Thats a very wise decision u made. I wish Sharon cud see that too.

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Jim :)




Keshi.

Keshi said...

aww ty Silvara!

**Even when ur hurting ur face is so cute

hehe someone said that that face is CREEPY lol! mebbe I am :)


Keshi.

Anonymous said...

I didn't mean to treat you so bad
You shouldn't take it so personal
I didn't mean to make you so sad
You just happened to be there, that's all

When i saw you say "goodbye" to your friend and smile
I thought that it was well understood
That you'd be comin' back in a little while
I didn't know that you were sayin' "goodbye" for good

But, sooner or later, one of us must know
You just did what you're supposed to do
Sooner or later, one of us must know
That i really did try to get close to you

I couldn't see what you could show me
Your scarf had kept your mouth well hid
I couldn't see how you could know me
But you said you knew me and i believed you did
When you whispered in my ear
And asked me if i was leavin' with you or her
I didn't realize just what i did hear
I didn't realize how young you were

But, sooner or later, one of us must know
You just did what you're supposed to do
Sooner or later, one of us must know
That i really did try to get close to you

I couldn't see when it started snowin'
Your voice was all that i heard
I couldn't see where we were goin'
But you said you knew an' i took your word
And then you told me later, as i apologized
That you were just kiddin' me, you weren't really from the farm
An' i told you, as you clawed out my eyes
That i never really meant to do you any harm

But, sooner or later, one of us must know
You just did what you're supposed to do
Sooner or later, one of us must know
That i really did try to get close to you

Jim said...

we both have broken hearts
(was it a les relationship?)

i had to sing this song for us
as we hug each other and cry



everything must change
nothing stays the same
everyone will change
no one, no one stays the same

the young become the old
and mysteries do unfold
for that's the way of time
no one, and nothing goes unchanged

there are not many things in life one can be sure of
except rain comes from the clouds
sun lights up the sky
hummingbirds fly

winter turns to spring
a wounded heart will heal
oh but never much too soon
no one, and nothing goes unchanged

The young become the old
and mysteries do unfold
for that's the way of time
no one, and nothing stays unchanged

there are not many things in life one can be sure of
except rain comes from the clouds
sun lights up the sky
hummingbirds fly

rain comes from the clouds
sun lights up the sky
hummingbirds fly

rain comes from the clouds
sun lights up the sky
hummingbirds fly

everything must change

Keshi said...

ty Anony that was lovely!


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Jim was my heart ever unbroken?


Keshi.

Drama Div@ said...

Keshi, some friends come and quickly go from our lives, some stay. that's life. Hang in there, though. everything will fade over time, if you let it.

Jim said...

Now that we have had our cry
lets move on

i see 2 new lovely girls on the horizon
one for me and
one for u

Keshi said...

true Diva sweetie...ty n HUGGGGGGGZ!


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**i see 2 new lovely girls on the horizon
one for me and
one for u

Jim how d u mean?



Keshi.

Aditi said...

oh phew
ok good
=)

Keshi said...

Aditi :)

Keshi.

pria said...

Its always the anger which comes first. But its sad when ppl' hurt and go. If they need you, they will comeback with true heart.

Keshi said...

thats right Priya. TY!

Keshi.

White Forest said...

i know it hurts like helll!

Keshi said...

ty Foresty!

Keshi.

mathew said...

You dont have to feel sad for no mistake of yours..But then if she has changed for some reason dont let that change 'change' your perceptions..Realisation happens sometime or the other!!

Keshi said...

well-said Matty ty!

Keshi.

uttara said...

keshi i pray she realises her mistake.. and she gets back to u..

but at ur sheer discresion :)

hugggz

Keshi said...

Uttsy I dun think she will come bak...she spoke to me 2 days ago...I'll tell u later on.

tnxx hun!


Keshi.