Monday, August 27

Somebody Somesoul

Is there somebody to love
Somebody who feels
Who loves truly...
Is there somebody to listen
And not just hear
Who understands...
Is there somebody to feel
To ease this pain
And be there always...
Is there somebody to trust
Somebody who'd believe
Who wouldn't look away...
Is there somebody to care
To reach out to me
Who'd always be there...
Is there somebody to love
A genuine smile
Somebody Somesoul...

I wrote that wondering about my life...my destiny...what it was...what I thought it would be....what it has become...what I think it will be...what it really will be. I believe it's all in God's hands. Cos my life has been very little of what I imagined it to be...the family, education and career bit that is. The rest remains a dream and I know they will be that way forever. Sometimes we want somethings in life so much that fate comes and kicks your ass and laughs at your folly. It puts us to test with totally the opposite of what we want our lives to be. Sometimes I wonder if this is the way it has to be, for me to be me. Maybe it is. Cos if I had a different life, maybe I'll be someone else then...not the Keshi you all know right now. Then maybe you'd never have known me. So I believe what's supposed to be, will be...it's all in God's hands...and with tears and smiles I accept whatever it may be...
though most of the time it's tears...





Current Music: In God's Hands by Nelly Furtado

129 Cranium Signets:

Nora said...

Maybe you should write a book... Just a thought. :)

Pri said...

u read my thoughts out exactly at times...
all i gotta say to u is "que sera sera" :)

tk care

WP2007 said...

Hi Keshi

Wow!! Beautiful post!!

Yes, we are who we are.

Keshi is Keshi and don't you ever think you are not reaching your potential. You write one of the most popular blogs. Your readers span the globe. Very few private blogs have this reputation.

I like your blog because you kick ass. You write for yourself and not for your readers. Even though you care about your readers, you keep true to yourself. Girl, that is what it's all about.

Good show!

Bev

curryegg said...

I believe what you say is true. God has the power to our life. But we have the power too. We choose our destiny and God decide it.

And I believe there is someone for you too in the future.. All the best..
;)

Sweetstickychewy said...

Beautiful post Keshi as always..:D

Its ironic. I just wrote a post somewhere along the lines though not exactly about us being different.:)

***Sometimes I wonder if this is the way it has to be, for me to be me. Maybe it is. Cos if I had a different life, maybe I'll be someone else then...not the Keshi you all know right now.

I am glad you are who you are Keshi. cause that makes you extra ordinary.;)

Thanks for sharing sweets.;)Mwah!

curryegg said...

Keshi! I didn't know that there is Hainan Chicken Rice in India.. Haha... How does it taste? Nice?

Jeevan said...

That's Lovely dear! Many imagine and dreams lack to exist, we can't order them not to disappoint with unsuccessful.

I Love the keshi on this pic :)

jitendra said...

from nudity to deep philosophy = what a transition! ;)
i hope u didnt join any meditation ashram over the weekend..:)

Iceman said...

hmmm....

if there ain't somebody, then make sure u r that somebody, some soul...

never give up on urself... make sure.. u stand right by urself all the time...

Dunno.. I have a weird belief that we r here for the big guy's timepass... Its fun for him to watch us in the different situations he puts us.

But, he laughs with us, cries with us.. applauds us when we get the better of the challenges he poses 2 us, he gives us hope in some form when we fail in some challenges...

So... Its just a test... In the end... what matters is you took the test.. u faced the test with courage & spirit... Thats what is important... nothing else matters...

Know what... its a whole new way of lookin at life... what if u also become a mere spectator of ur own life... Just like the big guy... who passes his time watching over u!

smrtnhuggble said...

its really beautiful.. totally connected with it.
i often ask my self the same Q's -- and you put it very nicely.
"Is there somebody to trust
Somebody who'd believe
Who wouldn't look away...
Is there somebody to care
To reach out to me
Who'd always be there..."

i think that hit home for me.

lastly, ive always thought what if i grew up in ireland or in egypt or in spain -- would i BE ME, or would i be someone else??
i think i'd still be ME -- perhaps some red hair and an irish accent, or something like that -- but i'd be ME. you are you, no matter where you are. yes your environment and family and friends shape you reactions, but THEY ARE YOUR reactions..
im glad i know u, even if it thru blogs and comments =).

Cazzie!!! said...

I love it that we have met here, I wish it could be in person some day Keshi :)

vishesh said...

lol keshi,saw this coming :)

Keshi said...

tnxx Nora :) I think I'll just stick to blogging hehe...


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Pri ty sweetz!

thats one of mum's fav songs...

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Bevster HUGGGGGGGGGZ n ty!

**readers. Even though you care about your readers, you keep true to yourself.

aww...u too sweetie.

Im glad I hv friends like u, no matter wut my life is like.

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Hey Curryegg ty!

I tried Hainan chicken here in Aus :)


**But we have the power too. We choose our destiny and God decide it.

I used to believe that we HAD the power...but considering the things that have happened in my life, I dun believe in that anymore...even if we do have some power, its what we r supposed to have...

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Amy ur post was something out of the extraordinary too! It was BRILLIANT.

HUGGGGGGGGZ n ty!



Keshi.

Keshi said...

true Jeevan...ty so much! :)


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Nopez Jitters this is reality..reality of my life.


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ty Iceman ur comments mean alot to me!


**what if u also become a mere spectator of ur own life

I believe in that...cos lately I have become a spectator of my own life..just watching it burning out...

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tnxx Choco HUGGGGGGGZ!


**perhaps some red hair and an irish accent, or something like that -- but i'd be ME. you are you, no matter where you are

Spot on!

yeah ppl n experiences shape us but its still YOUR REACTIONS...very well said girl!


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ty Caz that means ALOT to me HUGGGGGGGGGGGZ!



Keshi.

Keshi said...

hey Vish!

**lol keshi,saw this coming

knew wut was coming?


Keshi.

Shionge said...

If you are not Keshi I wouldnt be here right??? I'm here coz it was meant to be that I embraced true friendship with Keshi baby :D

Luv you for who you are and yep, whatever will be will be :)

desperado said...

is there somebody to love.....yes there is its just he is playing hard to get :)

Remember this
I love this Keshi and you better not change anything about her cause if you do..to hell with fate..i'll be the one who will kick your ass

So keep kicking ass buddy....you rock

anits said...

hi keshi...u r what r u thinking... dream dream n dream and put into action so that the dreams come through!
God bless you! tcare n success always dear

Keshi said...

aww Shionge I LUV U too!

**If you are not Keshi I wouldnt be here right???

and if u were not Shionge, I wudnt be Keshi either...rem that :)

HUGGGGGGGGGGGZ!

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Ouch Dhruv! hehehehe..:) ty so much!


**is there somebody to love.....yes there is its just he is playing hard to get

well I didnt mean it only in a BF manner...I meant it for most ppl in my life...I mean I hv alot of LOVE here in the blog world...and my mum loves me alot...and very few friends out there. But the rest I hv been put to deal with dun seem to know what LOVE is...it really is hard to find LOVE in the real world...dun u think?

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aww ty Anits n same to ya, HUGGGGGGGGGZ!



Keshi.

annie said...

Oh dear….we all wonder this all the time in our lives. Whether we have everything or not..The human atavistic tendency is to believe that whatever will happen, will be for good. But that makes me ask is whether bad has to always happen before any good does. Good things happen to good people but that doesn’t make us bad..rito?

Keshi said...

hey Annie tnxx!

**Good things happen to good people but that doesn’t make us bad

I dun believe that Good things always happen to Good ppl. Cos Im living proof for it :). Im not saying Im such a GOOD person but Im confident Im a BETTER person than many cruel ppl out there.


Keshi.

Keshi said...

and most cruel ppl seem to hv great lives...blessed with it all...

Keshi.

vishesh said...

i meant this post...lol:) something told the way your pervious posts were written this will happen :)

Keshi said...

like how Vish? Plz explain further. tnxx! :)

keshi.

wacko said...

kesh..nice song..i lauvvv nelly

and why are you so low suddenly? is everything alite kesh?
cheer up and let me know if anything might be bothering you..you have me email address dont you?

tc now!

jitendra said...

hmm

Nicholas said...

most of the time it's tears...you're right.
it's all in God's hands!
Beautiful post!

Jeya Anand said...

Its life..Enough said and pondered over the topic:)
But we don't stop..do we?..NO!!

Life is not the boat we sail in..its the media we live in..(I know I am talking non-sense here..but just cope with me and my insanity:D:D)

We tend to expect a lot from life...and when we expect, we set a standard for our life..when its not met, we face disappointment..Thats the thing...Expect less and u become a winner..the logic might not be good...but it works..I live by that...And I am sure I am in God's hand...I can feel and associate everything with God's involvement in it...

Where did I come from?? From the extreme...Where do I go?? To peace of mind..Where am I Now?I am buried alive...(well I have let out some of my upcoming post here!)

Finally Cry out..only then u will be able to smile again:))

Kulpreet said...

Hi Keshi,
There can be no tears for beautiful girls like you... who are so talented, so thoughtful...

Things will happen. They always do.

Great poem. I got a feeing you lost somthing. Was it recent? Was it just an expectation? Or more.

Ps said...

Nice picture.For some reason after reading this post, these lines (from a famous poem)just came to my mind
"Life is queer,
With its twists and turns
AS every one of us,
Sometime learns,
So stick to the fight
When you are hardest hit,
Its when things seems worst,
You must not quit"

Jeya Anand said...

is there not somebody or somesoul for u...there are so many here out in the vast universe...Just look out..open ur eyes:)) Though many may not be there, u will get ur somebody very soon:)..I wish and pray for that..:)

and forgot the important thing...HUGzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...and wipe ur tears off!!:))more smiles on ur face...be blessed...

Peter said...

I would like to say how much I agree to the comments by "WP 2007".

A lot may depend on chance and "destiny", but what you do about things yourself is the most important! I'm sure you are a person who does not just "wait".

Silvara said...

Ahhh Kesh...I love how u have faith in things...knowing that life sometimes gives u tears instead of smiles. That's optimism for ya :)

I definitely think if I had a differnt life I'd be someone different but the things that make me ME - I don't think would ever change. And what makes you YOU - is your good heart. THAT would never change.

Keep smiling chica :)

xoxo

Łóòň Ġãĺ said...

Thats sweet Keshi :) One of those reflective moods is it? :)

And i love wht uve done with your pic ... and did i say .. the pic is very pretty too! I mean you! lol

Poo said...

"" A BIG TIGHT HUG""" my sexyroo

i amnot gng to say that you need to wait for thr right time ...Mr right will knock ur door!!!!

I am gonna tell all the angels to visit you ...n make you feel so happy n shower so many gifts ...Mine too which is lost some wr... n tickle you. Dont feel sad Keshi

Cmon Beautiful Cheer up:)) N i love this picture ..you looking very gorgeous :))I am not saying this just to cheer u up . But thats true

*****hugzzzz****

anuj said...

keshi firstly,
you look real Graceful in that pic.

second, let the loneliness fade .. shut it aside ..
fuck ..i lack words rite now ..

jus keep good keshi .. lets have some fun at NSC ..rite?

THATS AN AWESOME SONG .. I love NELLY .. n her songs ,..

stay put keshi .. things wud happen soon .. let life take its course .. sure there's someone n somesoul .. ;)

a warmish (kinkish) hug comin ur way .. :) .. u wan a kiss to? .. lol

take care
might nt b arnd .. goin home ..
cya ..
take care .

Bla said...

Those are eternal questions...

Pankaj Gupta said...

hi keshi-,
hey why are you putting Pressure on your head buddy!! just chill(whether with Laughs or Crys)..ha ha..really Awesome Thoughts!!i am wondering that Keshi is such a Sentimental gul?..oh la la!!ha ha!!
well GOD made us all and what he does --is done for good !i LOVE you..i mean i Love YOU 'GOD'...ha ha!take care!

Pijush said...

Dear, destiny is unavoidable, so Jio Bindas, no more tears.

Jim said...

,there's always me ,


i qualify in all departments
and u didnt mention age
and marital status

Helen said...

Keshi, I like what the iceman said...if there's not somebody, then make sure you're that somebody. I was kind of thinking along those lines, too.

Jim said...

Yes Pri

"que sera sera"
our life our destiny is controlled by the man in the sky

i fell madly in love with a blonde
but it is not to be
she broke it off

lets be buddies, she said

Jim said...

FUCK

this post made me all teary eyed
i wasnt thinking of u though

i was thinking of me

Jim said...

mebbe its Karma
the sins of our father's father

Asha said...

Great sentiments expressed in that poem Keshi!:)
I had wondered about the unfairness of life too when I was young, how bad ppl get everything they want and I get punished for my innocence! But I got over it(feeling sorry for myself didn't help either!) quickly,now take life a day at a time.
Same advise to you too, don't over think about life,take one day at a time!Hugs:))

Rahul Rad said...

A lot of existential angst creeping into your blog, Keshi! I do hope you cope well... The upside though, of late, are some endearing snaps :-)

Brian in Oxford said...

I could definitely see you getting a good inspirational book out of some of your entries!

Reeta Skeeter said...

whoa! lovely post :) We are what we are meant to be... Cheers!

gautmi said...

There is time and place for everything. It will happen when it is willed.

Just believe in yourself.

BTW, write poetry more often.

Alok said...

Well Keshi what supposed to be will be ... we are all so fated into the dance of destiny that we are mute spectator of our own life ...

I used to think some years back if given a chance would I have lived my life differently, would I have been able to collect the pieces that somewhere was still a jigsaw puzzle ... it still is, niether have I been able to lead a different life nor have I been able to able to solve the jigsaw puzzle .... today the crude fact of the fate is I have accepted it, perhaps thts wht was required ... as u said life has gone well when I see the education, the career, the way life has moved but wht abt the other things that were equally imp ..... but again perhaps we are destined not to be able to eat the apple in full ...

Only if Adam had not started eating that apple in the first place :)

btw: I loved ur poem ... the longing is very evident

u take care

alok

AmitL said...

Hi,Keshi...answer to the poem?Yes,there is..just keep an eye open...re wondering what life holds for you,I totally agree that it's all in God's hands..BUT(And,here's where I differ)- He keeps sending opportunities your way,hoping you'll grab them..if you don't,well,I guess He just sighs and waits a while before sending the next one...and,believe me,sometimes,the most difficult challenges,turn out to be the best opportunities.:)(Whew-did I write all that?Grin grin).

AmitL said...

So,keep up the good work u're doing,home wise,blogwise,etc..and,keep an eye open.;)(That emoticon is deliberate..hehe)

captain corky said...

Very beautiful post Keshi.

It will turn around for you when you least expect it and it will be amazing.

Trust me, I'm an authority on this subject. And hey, it only took me 15 years or so. ;)

Vik said...

Interesting observation. I think we are a creature of habit. I am me today is because I was brought up in a certain way; who knows what I would be if I were to be born again in a Muslim dominated country - a terrorist maybe, else where would be a business man or sportsman who knows.

And likewise, I don't know who I would become in 10 years from now. I may cease to exist then or may even become the prime minister of some country.

But one thing is quite sure, we may not have control on our past and future but it is the present that matters and we adapt ourself quite well with whatever the destiny or fate has to tell us but eventually we react well to take that in our stride. Glad to have met a girl like you and appreciate it much.

Jenny! said...

Your a great writer!

AVIANA said...

hey there...

whats going on....hmm

first...i'll be updating later on tonite on sunday's events..

now...yea i wonder those same thoughts too...i wonder if there is someone out there for me...do i think it's in God's hands...well i'm not sure....

i believe we do have some control to our destiny but love is a tricky thing...because we don't have control of our hearts...they control us for the most part until logic comes in...

we don't control who we love or who loves us...and that is the most frustrating part...we don't know...we can't promise we'll love someone forever but we can promise that we'll honor and respect them...

yes..if you were born elsewhere, or went to a different elementary school, or met prince charming a long time ago...or wore a a conservative outfit instead of that hot number on your last outing..you would be a different Keshi..

i strongly believe that every choice we make, doesn't matter how minute it is...it changes our life course in a way..i know its odd...but we are who we are today due to our choices...

who knows, if you took the train that came 2 minutes later after the one you originally took this morning, maybe you would have met the greatest man alive and you would not be blogging about this post right now, or you could have met an asshole...and you would be even more skeptical about guys...and then it could have caused you to write a book on how awful men are and become famous and have awful sex forever with the guy who gives you coffee in the morning....

i don't know chicki...

we're here..we breathe..we walk...we love..we eat chocolate...we laugh....we cry about how small his penis is and debate whether we should fake orgasms...

i don't know...but things will work out chica....

it has to for the both of us...it has to cuz i have to meet you when i stop in australia on my world tour :)

Muaaahhh!

EBEZP said...

Wow Keshi! That writing is tremendous.
For what its worth, I'm glad that I've met you the Keshi that needs loving and caring for. The Keshi we know through her words and her feelings.
Don't change. You are fantastic!!
No really you are!

mystery said...

Totally loved ur poem...and yes fate does play a big role in everyones life..
the same thoughts keet running in my head...everything happens for a reason...and if didnt happen as its supposed to ..then thats for good too..
and btw i love how you express everything rite from the bottom of your heart..
cheers

Jay said...

I think we all have an idea of what we think our life should be but that doesn't mean that it will work out that way. Maybe it's all pre-ordained and we're just following the path set out for us?

I think that our past does influence who we are to a certain extent but basically we're all just gonna be who we're gonna be.

diyadear said...

hey.. i too used to have these thoughts.. guess all gals have.. n guess till when.. till u realise that u gotts face ur life laine lol.. hey thats not on a negative note ok.. but we were born alone, we will die alone.. n in a way though we have friends, family, spouse i think on a broad sense we r alone..so we beetr be prepared to facee life bravely alone!!

general_boy said...

Keshi I hope it's not all tears?

I guess these days I try to adopt more of an active approach - I'm not so prepared to accept every aspect of my life is in the hands of some force beyond my control ( be that spiritual, governmental, whatever ).

Sure... there are things that do and will happen I could never predict... some tragic and horrible... others absolutely wonderful.

The wonderful ones keep me going. I hope they keep you going too Keshi. :)

RAFFI said...

first, i love your poem and your hot pic. second, i love nelly furtado. third, you're right where you're supposed to be, kesh ;)

kaylee said...

beautiful

Crazy Me said...

You are exactly where you are supposed to be and who you are supposed to be. Life experiences mold us and shape us ... even if they suck sometimes.

Keshi said...

Anonymous said:


Keshi

Everyone's aware you are a BITCH !! To receive attention/comments for your nonsense blog you put dead child's picture,,,, SHAME ON YOU BITCH!!!

SHAME ON READERS AND COMMENT LEAVERS WHO HAD GIVEN ATTENTION TO THIS SEEKING BITCH !!!

Keshi,, if you delete this comment you would be proven loser who can do anything for their publicity!!!

You understood????

Keshi said...

Wacko Im ok tnxx...was just wondering...u know, how life can b very cruel sometimes...

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hey Jitterz!


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ty Nicholas!


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hey Jeya!

**We tend to expect a lot from life

nah I didnt expect much at all..I dun hv major dreams like some ppl do...

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hey Kulz!

**I got a feeing you lost somthing. Was it recent? Was it just an expectation? Or more.


it wasnt mine to begin with...never had it...never owned it...it was lost from the start...



Keshi.

Keshi said...

aww PS that was lovely...very encouraging. TY!

btw now I've got an Anony loser trying to get my attention..lol..did u read his comment? I've published it in the COLOR OF TEARS post and copied it here as well for all to see. Hv a read.


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aww Jeya I dun think there's anyone for me...Im not sad abt it...but its just weird...and sometimes I feel deprived...thats all.


Keshi.

Keshi said...

hey Peter!

** I'm sure you are a person who does not just "wait".

well yeah..I dun just wait for things to happen...but sometimes we wait w.o. realising it...even when we try not to wait...even as we move, we r waiting...for someone, something to be in sync with us..and sometimes it never happens...so we r waiting forever...



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Silvara I love the YOU that has been born from all ur experiences. I know u hv been thru alot..but u hv come out as this wonderful strong young woman and I LOVE YA!



Keshi.

Trundling Grunt said...

Good track btw.

No, you're right - we all have a plan but it gets knocked off course pretty much as soon as we're born. Somewhere maybe there's another you who did all those things and made all those decisions - but it isn't you and I'm sure she isn't as nice.

Keshi said...

aww ty Cheesy MWAHHHHHHH! :)

Its raining on my face ha...


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hey Poo hows u?

**Mr right will knock ur door

well then he must be knocking on some other door..hehehehe...

I could do with some angels for sure...I need em right now and Im calling all of em - and u hv arrived. HUGGGGGGGGGZ!


ty Poo dun worry..Im ok.

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Anuj the Robinhood...HUGGGGGGGGGZ n MWAHHHHHHHHHZ! aww u r so sweet. ty for being such a great friend to me. U r truly a warm friend.


**jus keep good keshi .. lets have some fun at NSC ..rite?

LOL! u somehow manage to make me giggle :) tnxx!


btw did u read the Anony comment that I reproduced here...wonder who's son/daughter she/he is...so sad that this world has ppl like them. ppl who r disturbed by happy ppl.



Keshi.

Keshi said...

Bla ty! they sure r eternal qns...


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hey Pankaj :) ty so much..and I love u too! That means alot to me u know. HUGGGGGGGGGGGZ!



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hey Pijush!


**destiny is unavoidable

I believe in that too...tnxx!

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Jim r u the anony guy? :)



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tnxx Helen!


**...if there's not somebody, then make sure you're that somebody

yeah that was a nice one...but for how long can someone do that?




Keshi.

SaffronSaris said...

Cheer up poppy doll-pearl! Like I always say, it's our experiences, be there good or bad, that will make us a better person. (Like I keep telling myself now, this is a very good opportunity for me to learn how to work with a person with terrible EQ. How they manage to survive, I have no idea....)

Keshi said...

Jim ur right...karma...mebbe...


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Asha ty sweetie....


**Same advise to you too, don't over think about life,take one day at a time

oyeah thats what I've been doing for ages now :)

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hehehe Rahul...always see the bright side ha ;-)


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aww Brian Im not a great writer...these r just my heartprints...it may mean nothing to some u see...


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Reeta WC n ty!



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hey Gautmi WC n ty!


**There is time and place for everything. It will happen when it is willed.

I believe in that too...and whats NOT HAPPENED, is also supposed to be that way.



Keshi.

Jim said...
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Jim said...

i am hurt keshi
how cud u think its me

Keshi said...

Alok tnxx mate!

**but again perhaps we are destined not to be able to eat the apple in full ...


I truly believe in that..whats happened and not happened, its all in destiny.

The longing is fading tho...

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aww ty Amit ur sweet.


**He keeps sending opportunities your way,hoping you'll grab them..if you don't,well,I guess He just sighs and waits a while before sending the next one.

yeah but something tells me even our motivation is destined...


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hehehe Corky ty! :)



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hey Vik tnxx!


**But one thing is quite sure, we may not have control on our past and future but it is the present that matters

thats so true...and thats why I now live one day at a time.


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u too Jen.


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hey Lisa HUGGGGGGGGZ! Im ok :) dun worry...


**because we don't have control of our hearts...they control us for the most part until logic comes in...

thats right...and it suxx sometimes...


**...but we are who we are today due to our choices...

I agree...



**and then it could have caused you to write a book on how awful men are and become famous and have awful sex forever with the guy who gives you coffee in the morning....

hehe I like how u wrote that...seemed like the movie 'Sliding Doors'. hv u seen it?


It has to work out..I know..but sometimes it seems that it doesnt always work out even for good ppl...

anyways here's hoping it will. HUGGGGGGGGGZ! And oyeah when is ur world tour??????? :)


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aww ty Ebezp HUGGGGGGGGGGGZ!



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Mystery WC n ty!


**...and if didnt happen as its supposed to ..then thats for good too..

so true...


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I think so too Jay...it seems like everything is pre-destined n we think we hv control when we dun...


**I think that our past does influence who we are to a certain extent but basically we're all just gonna be who we're gonna be.

so true!



Keshi.

Keshi said...

Diya ty sweetie!

**but we were born alone, we will die alone

Spot on! I always say that...no matter we all carry our crosses alone...all throughout life.


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ty Boy!


** I'm not so prepared to accept every aspect of my life is in the hands of some force beyond my control

well I used to be like that...but some things happen and then u think there's no way u cud hv prevented that...no way! if we humans hv total control of our lives, then we hv to be able to do anything right?


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ty Raffi :)


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Kaylee ty!


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Crazy_Me I totally agree. tnxx!




Keshi.

Keshi said...

aww Trundz ty n HUGGGGGGGGGGGGGZ!

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ty Saffy...ur spot on!

:)


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Jim no u see what happens when u just always abused me in the past...u become one of the suspects hehe.


Anyways I hv traced the IP...


Keshi.

Vidya said...

Hi Keshi,

Why do I think that this is actually a sad post?

Vidya

Keshi said...

hey Vidya!

**Why do I think that this is actually a sad post?

:) mebbe cos of the rain drops on my pic? or perhaps cos Im really sad right now...


Keshi.

Jim said...

atta boy Keshi girl

u r now ready to remove comment moderator

Jim said...

u r beautiful

there is beauty in your smile
there is beauty in your mona lisa smile too

Aidan said...

I think it is just our age group, trying to work out who we are, why we are here, i guess eventually we just accept we are here.

Leaving life in the hands of God, I would like to think i have more controll over my life. Recently as you may know i moved from determinism to existentialism, I found i used determinism as an excuse for things not going my way.

To quote Terminator 2:
There is no fate but what we make

Jim said...

Mona lisa, mona lisa, men have named you
Youre so like the lady with the mystic smile
Is it only cause youre lonely they have blamed you?
For that mona lisa strangeness in your smile?

Do you smile to tempt a lover, mona lisa?
Or is this your way to hide a broken heart?
Many dreams have been brought to your doorstep
They just lie there and they die there
Are you warm, are you real, mona lisa?
Or just a cold and lonely lovely work of art?



Do you smile to tempt a lover, mona lisa?
Or is this your way to hide a broken heart?
Many dreams have been brought to your doorstep
They just lie there and they die there
Are you warm, are you real, mona lisa?
Or just a cold and lonely lovely work of art?

Mona lisa, mona lisa

Vest said...

Hi sweetness X: Your tears of joy will always out-weigh your tears of unhappiness, there is not a need for change, one cannot improve the soul and beauty of a Rose.X

Keshi said...

hey Jim!

**u r now ready to remove comment moderator

no. :) its not abt being READY..its abt keeping my blog SHIT-free.


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Hi again Jim...u calling me Mona Lisa or just saying that?



Keshi.

Keshi said...

hey Aidan ty!

** moved from determinism to existentialism, I found i used determinism as an excuse for things not going my way.

well u cud say that too...but what abt the things that happen just like that...with no input from us at all? we didnt make that happen did we?


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aww Vesty thats just too much :) HUGGGGGGGGGGGZ!



Keshi.

Jim said...

Shitty comments provide a balance
and they can be etertaining too

i have had up to 100 shitty comments per post

i did not delete
now these guys are my pals
some even apologized

one of these was VEST and his gang
now we are the best of pals

Mumbai Guy said...

Cmon Keshi. This post looks like you are down. Cheer up. Life is beautiful. And best realized when we can compare with other not-so-fortunate folks who has tears all along thier life.

Think positive coz that is only thing that will help in life.

Jim said...

I admire Andrew the asshole
a totally free blog

AVIANA said...

i saw the first 10 minutes of the movie got bored and slept....

oh..this song is about nelly's breakup with her ex boyfriend, who is her baby's father....

i love this song! My favorite artist hands down!

Keshi said...

Jimmy...


**Shitty comments provide a balance
and they can be etertaining too

I dun need that to balance my life...I already hv enough on my plate..just cos ur no aware of em, that doesnt mean I live a rosy life.



**i have had up to 100 shitty comments per post

thats all u get anyways...


**i did not delete
now these guys are my pals
some even apologized

I dun need their sucky-arse SORRY. I dun expect anything from such low lives.


**one of these was VEST and his gang
now we are the best of pals

U annoyed Vesty in the first place...I rem. So naturally he abused ya.

In my case, this anony loser has no reason but pure JEALOUSY. Just cos he/she dun hv this many friends and a popular blog and hv no life, it isnt my fault is it? I dun hv to deal with such retards.

I publised that comment cos I wanted to show the world how evil some ppl can be..and that too for no fault of mine!



Keshi.

Keshi said...

aww ty MG!

** And best realized when we can compare with other not-so-fortunate folks who has tears all along thier life.

I know..alot of ppl hv it worse than I do...but there r alot of things u dun abt my life either MG...:(


Keshi.

Keshi said...

Jim..

**I admire Andrew the asshole
a totally free blog

k then hang ard his blog more often that here.


And I dun hv to live upto ur preferences Jim.


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Lisa I agree..Nelly is one of the best artists EVER!

She has a baby? I didnt even know.



Keshi.

Silvara said...

What the-?? What kind of moron would even THINK that?? If they had ever bothered to read any of your posts - they would know that everything you write is your own thoughts, your own experiences. NOT a cheap shot to get popularity.

I think he is jealous that so many people out there feel the same and therefore respond to you through their comments.

IGNORE!!!!!!!!!!!!

Keshi said...

Silvara tnxx hun!

I ignore such ppl...only cos I feel sorry for em LOL!

And the thought of being 'anonymous' on the net and cloning ppl and abusing them just freaks me out! I mean how LOW d u hv to be to do that sort of thing!

It shows that such ppl hv no profile of their own to be proud of...something that they can call THEMSELVES. How sad ha.


Keshi.

lee said...

It is both a blessing and a curse to be a female and have this kind of sensitivy. I wish for you the kindest and sweetest of men to come and steal your heart away.

Jim said...

There is so much good in the worst of us,

And so much bad in the best of us,
That it ill behooves any of us,
To say anything about the rest of us.

-Anon.

Jim said...

Silvara

why do u think he is a he?
it cud be a she too

women can be nasty too

in keshis case
i am almost certain it is a she
the hate goes back to IT chat days

Jim said...

women dont forget easy
memory of an elephant

my wife is that way too

Keshi said...

aww Lee ty n HUGGGGGGGGZ!

Wut u said is true..my sensitivity is often a curse to me.


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Jim he/she all I know is that is A LOSER in caps. :)


Keshi.

vishesh said...

well keshi

its tough to explain,but lets say i sensed it...

anyone can sense what another person is feeling through the way they write...or infact by seeing the world...
tell me what do you see out of your window??

Keshi said...

Vish heyy!

I just asked that cos u said that from my last posts u sensed this was coming. My last posts was abt Nakedness...so I was trying to find out what relation they had on this post?

wut do I see outside my window? Alot of cars n sunshine :)

Keshi.

The Phosgene Kid said...

That was nice Keshi, I am smiling at you right now!!

mystic rose said...

keshi,
looks like Ive missed a lot here,(the previous posts, audacious!!) :)

Love your poem. So from the heart.
There are times we all go through this, sometimes we are really alone and sometimes no matter how many people we have in life, some of us are alone.
Are you talking about THE special person of your life? cos, friends you have plenty!
That takes time and patience and a half(or even a full) doesnt complete a half , only yourslef can do that. ANd dont worry you will find THE ONE. love and hugs.

Silvara said...

LOL Jim - it could be either - it's not important. I did start off by writing THEY as not to discriminate but the "he" slipped out at the end.

Same diff really.

Kalyan said...

Just wonderful thoughts Keshi...You have really put us in the thinking table once again....a very lovely poem to go along with it. Life is one mystery which perhaps everyone tries to solve but it just remains a mystery. The most beautiful things that happen in our life are the ones which we don't think of and the one's we most expect are the one's that mostly never happen...and so at the end of the day we all leave it to the almighty....Nice post!

Keshi said...

:) Phos.


Keshi.

Keshi said...

hey Rose tnxx!

**Are you talking about THE special person of your life?

not only him...its abt everyone/everything in general...

HUGGGGGGGGGZ Rose!


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Silvara ignore Jim's comments...he always supports the anony losers. cos he gets some sort of cheap thrill from hearing abuse abt me. Funny ha.



Keshi.

Keshi said...

ty Kalyan!

**and the one's we most expect are the one's that mostly never happen...

true...in my life, some deep expectations never happened.


Keshi.

vishesh said...

see keshi thats what i saw..your comment on my post too....

don't worry about anything remember that nothing can get to you...you are as free as anyone and you are loved...it just doesn't matter what a few people can tell...

what you are doing is right..trying to discover your self...getting close to your self is right...


er..or am i totally off??

niki yokota said...

rain drops keep falling on ur face...
sooooo beautifuul!!
i mean the post & ur face. both!

Menchie said...

You always wonder. I don't think it ever really goes away.

eduardo waghorn said...

Nice post...warm greetings from Chile, visit e if you want:)

Within Without said...

See, Keshi, that's the point. It's NOT in God's hands, it's in yours.

It's not about what you say on your blog or what people say in response to what you say.

It's what YOU do.

So if you decide that you're just going to be a little seed that's blown wherever "God" blows you, then that's what you will be.

I don't get why you let yourself be that little seed that gets blown all over the place, as if by happenstance.

If you let yourself be blown about despite your beauty and intelligence that are weighty things, then you will be blown every which way and you will never find a place to land and take to seed and grow the way you want to.

Nonetheless, I hug you close.

Keshi said...

k Vish tnxx! no worries.

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aww ty Niki!



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aha Menchie thats so right...u always wonder...till the last breath u take...


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Hola Eduardo, cómo estás?


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hey WW tnxx n HUGGGGGGGGGGZ!

I understand what ur saying...but its not that I dun let myself love somebody...I hv done that few times b4 and hv lost faith in ppl..and this post wasnt only abt a lover...it's also abt ppl I ='ve met in my life...all sorts of ppl...friends, family etc....


**I don't get why you let yourself be that little seed that gets blown all over the place, as if by happenstance.

nah I dun let that happen to myself WW. tnxx so much! U r so very sweet n caring mate.

I LUV YA!


Keshi.

Fleiger said...

Well, dreams are nice to have, even though we can't achieve them.

Keshi said...

true Fleiger...they kinda make u look forward to something...even if some of them wont come true..

Keshi.

Autumn Storm said...

Keshi, this is such a beautiful poem and the writing is equally so. I would say you never know what is around the next corner but more than that I want to remind you that there are always people to be loved by, and to love, they just may not be everyone you wished it would be. I hope you find a special somebody, and meanwhile and beyond I know that you will remember to bathe in the warmth of all those who do love you.

Sam said...

You wish it were different, but wud u really have it different? if you'd have it different can u really say where things would have led? nopes!!
frankly, everything happens for a purpose... so go along with the flow. you don't want it.. fight it out... whatever the result... you tried... and I blv dats what is mroe important.. to try till success arrives.. to be a fighter!!
and wen you want something badly, you'll face obstacles which really kick your ass... feel like giving up?? go ahead be my guest, but if you do, den you do not deserve what you want!! I blv dat.... and thus i am always at peace with myself.... let the devil care abt who isn't with me!! not me....
so, keshi isn't dat you i'm talking abt?? or was it me all along?? wot say?

Neers said...

heyy kesh! nice write! :)

Top cat said...

it's not time for you to share your life with your soulmate yet.
Your love is like a butterfly in the cocoon. I know it's hard to believe that but it's true.
One day it will all fall into place and you'll go.."ahh so that's why I had to wait"
hugs
tc

priya said...

To feel, love, listen and trust speak to ur inner heart what you need. Love happens only when you feel for it in your entire body which can make or go that feeling comes from the person you like Keshi.

Other than that, friends and fmaily do love with heart and can only give or share few things.

Reaching out is only when you feel your mind is free and who can believe you.

Keshi said...

Autumn HUGGGGGGGGZ n ty!

**there are always people to be loved by, and to love, they just may not be everyone you wished it would be

aww thats so very true!


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Sam ty that was good!


**frankly, everything happens for a purpose

u think so? then why do innocents die everyday?


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ty Neers!

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hehe u r so sweet Rick...ty n HUGGGGGGGZ!


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true Priya, ty!


** friends and fmaily do love with heart and can only give or share few things.

aha...but even some famil n friends dunno to love...


Keshi.

DJ said...

everyone is what they are meant to be...
if you are not failing at anything, that means you are not even trying anything new and good... failures indicate that you were trying something different and better than others...
"The gem cannot be polished without friction, not man perfected without trials."

not to worry... something better than your loss awaits u... :)
tc...

Keshi said...

aww that was beautifully said DJ...tnxxx!

Keshi.

Trenting said...

You are a compelling writer, I am enjoying your blog..

Keshi said...

ty Trenting!

Keshi.

Dawn....सेहर said...

Nice pics ....very nice :)