First of all my heartfelt THANKS to each and everyone who answered questions in the last post! You guys totally rock! Your answers were quite eye-opening, therapeutic and so full of wisdom. Amazing bunch you are!
And now this is for some of you who didn't quite understand the reason behind that post. Yesterday when I put up that post, I wasn't judging anyone as much as I didn't expect to be judged. Those questions are common to most of us and it wasn't a post to point fingers at others, neither was it a loud cry of my WANTs in life, neither was it to say that Im depressed and about to commit suicide! I didn't ask why am I single, why can't I have more shoes, why is my dad dead, why am I not rich, why can't I have a Ferrari etc etc, did I? So it definitely wasn't about my WANTs. And I wasn't trying to say that I was perfect either...hell I'm not perfect. Infact I'm the most imperfect blogger as far as I can see...cos most people here seem to have this perfect view of the world, you know 'don't worry be happy' kinda life. To be honest, I don't have that kinda life, neither am I going to pretend that life is so beautiful (well it can be at times but not always), and ask everyone else to dance along too. I hate over-positiveness. I believe it can be as damaging as over-negativeness can be. Being blind to reality and always avoiding it under a 'I'm Happy' umbrella is total cowardice to me. So I'd rather live through my own experiences than some other's. And neither am I gonna expect everyone else to understand my life or to live by my motto. Simply said, to each his own. And I really don't want an ear full of advice on how to be happy either...NO THANKS!
The questions in that post portrayed a common paradigm of life, that didn't exclude me (please note!). I'm very much a part of it too. But some people forgot to see that and started to question my credibility and values...as if I said that I'm perfect and others are all imperfect?? Some even thought that I'm asking for too much in life, when I wasn't even asking for anything to happen - they were mere questions, not requests. Although I can't understand why that post was interpreted that way by some of you here, I'm totally gobsmacked. Just like everyone else, I'm very much a Taker as much as I'm a Giver. That post did not intend to put you in the naughty corner and beat you with the 'perfect' stick. That post did not intend to question your worth against mine. That post did not intend to test your understanding of life against mine. It was merely a learning process for me as much as it may have been for some of you. But yesterday it felt like it was 'my' Judgement Day...I wonder why. Just cos of a simple set of questions, some people felt like they just got busted..maybe they did. But it isn't my fault so I aint gonna cop any of that either. Sort it out with yourselves please.
As I have stated before, I blog to give a voice to my feelings, to learn from you, to grow as a person and to make connections. I don't blog to play God. Neither am I here to be the Judge and the Jury.
And now, for those who answered some questions and for those who didn't see it as a finger-pointing post, I THANK you for your understanding, intergrity and knowledge. You know who you are. I really learnt alot from ALL your answers like I never did before. However, I won't be 'choosing' any winners as I said I would, I'm really sorry! *for reasons I'd like to keep mum about* So I'll keep that for another post, on another day. TC and once again, Thank You for taking part and teaching me so much about life! You guys are like a field of flowers that I never wanna return home from. This song is especially for you (and me)...for us who know that life is about both pleasure and pain. MWAH!
Current Music: Pleasure And Pain By Divinyls