Ever felt like a freshly baked muffin? Well right now I feel like one :). Fresh, warm, aromatic and delicious. There are days when you feel like dirty rotten fridge fungi. But there are amazing days when you feel so brandnew...like a newborn. It's one of those days and I want to enjoy it...cos they don't always come by. Life is uncanny...you don't always have incredible days, just like how you don't always have questionable days either. So what does that mean? That means Life is like a powerpoint slideshow with happy and sad slides, one after the other. Do you want to wait till the end of the slideshow to see how it finishes or do you want to hit Escape key halfway through? I prefer to wait and see what's instore. But there are times when I do feel like shutting it all down. Not cos the slideshow is full of messy slides (trust me I should be able to cope with ANYTHING by now!), but I just get bored with the knowledge that it's all going to end anyways. And that's not good. Cos, so what if it's all going to end? So does everything else in life. Every feeling, every moment, every phase straight or crooked, every opportunity, every relationship, every kiss, every touch, every smile, every tear...they all end somehow. Nothing lasts forever. The scars, memories and the love will remain...but sooner or later, every tangible thing has to end. We often choose to dwell on the sadness but not on the happiness. Why? Are we scared that that happy moment will end soon? So what...let it end. But lets enjoy it while it lasts can we. Cos in life you can choose whatever you want to be...a dancer or a plumber...a happy person or a sad one. And they all last only for a while anyway.
My point is, when you feel as spanking new as freshly made lemonade or as immaculate as a newly bloomed flower, just revel in it...when you are lighting up the night like a bright candle, burn to the fullest...when you have your moment of joy, live it to the max. Don't doubt, don't procrastinate, don't hesitate...just grab it and shine full on. Cos it's not gonna last...just like how the flower would wither away...and just like how the freshly baked muffins wouldn't last long either...the moments shall pass too good or bad. I wanna feel this freshness fully before it dies...I'm the NEW kid in town...and I'm only here for a while.
UPDATE: Alright let me tell you how I feel about some people who visit my blog. While a great many of you truly appreciate my existence here in Blogville, I know a few are just bluffing. I really don't care what you think about me, but if you don't feel a certain way about me, then go ahead be honest instead of coochi cooing me with sweet nothings. I wholeheartedly despise liars and fakers. After my PASHionate Stories post, I realised alot of male bloggers here either chose to keep quiet about it or dropped out of my blog altogether. Some are even snobbing me around. WHY? Are you jealous? I can't understand that. This is Blogville and I'm single...no one has the right to be jealous about who I kiss and what I choose to do. Besides, that post was done all in the name of FUN. For goddsakes don't you guys know how to have fun without getting personal? And for some others who thought I was a slut, FUCK OFF! Do I care what you think about me? NO. So you can shutup. If people can't get past a kiss without feeling so paranoid, judgemental and irritated and that too on the net, then it's not my problem...it's YOUR problem. Don't come here telling me that I'm beautiful blah blah blah if you truly don't feel that way about me. If you think I'm a needy whore, so be it. I know who I am, so nothing you say is going to change me. The true colors of some people were very evident after that Kiss post, and I'm glad that I posted it. Now I know who my real friends here are and who wears a pretty mask just to yak bullshit.
I started blogging to get away from my demons in real life. I wanted to be alone, I wanted to be ME without being judged, I wanted to stop the tears atleast for a while. And what do I find in Blogville? The same old frikkin shit. I'm really tired of some messed up mentalities. So those who made me feel this way after showing me false affection and friendship, a big THANK YOU for nothing!
See the first half of this post...I thought I was having a good day, only to find out that it was just a stupid joke, cos some people live to steal the good days out of others' lives. Who am I kidding ha..Keshi should never have a good day cmon! See how quickly the 'good' feeling died. Please don't come here and comment if you don't like who Keshi is... I'm outta here folks!
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