Thursday, November 1

Six Months' Notice


~~RIP Keshi~~
Born to yak...died yakking too.




Ghee tagged me today (I know I have 75 other tags to do before this one, but I just had to do this first cos I like the depth of the question and I have certain very close associations with this question). And the question she asked me was:

***What would be the 5 major things you would do if you were told by your physician that your life would only last another six months??

Interesting and profound question right? And this is not just a tag question, it's a real question that many people out there have to find answers for. Disease and death happens quite often now than it used to happen before. I have seen people who are close to me just fading away right infront of my eyes...I have woken up one morning to find my dad lying dead next to me...I have held the hand of someone about to cross over...I have heard one of my closest friends heart-breaking account of dealing with Cancer at a tender age...I have seen the anguish in the eyes of 50 Cancer patients waiting to die at a Hospice, both young and old...I have spoken to them and gotten to know their last wishes...I have felt their anxiety and pain of having to prepare for something that no one wants to even imagine about...and that is Death that booked an appointment with them without their consent. I myself have seen death staring me in the face. Hence I can answer this question quite confidently and genuinely. So here are my 5 major things-to-do if I only had 6 more months to live:


1. First of all, I'd resign from work...not cos I don't wanna work but cos I wanna spend more time with my mum and sis. Every single second would count then right? I'd go places with them, eat as much as I like (all the high-calorie food), dance till I pass out and enjoy every moment to the fullest. Basically I'd have a 6-month long Going-away party hehe. I'd make my last days the happiest 'for them'. Also, I'd prepare them for it and make them realise that life isn't forever anyways.


2.
I'd choose my favorite memories/photos from childhood to now (which would be like a million btw LOL!) and make a video out of them for my mum...cos she wouldn't know how to do it, so I'd have to do it myself for her hehe. I'd also add some recorded messages in it, for her to see only after I'm gone. It would tell her why I'd never have known what Love is if not for her.


3. Sell my car? Maybe not :). If I can, I'd love to take my car with me to heaven (wonder if heaven has a street directory), but since it's not possible hehe, I'd give away my car to someone who doesn't have one...I'd give it free ofcourse. I'd give it to my uncle in NZ who's having a real tough time right now. I want him to be happy and not be dependent on his relatives anymore. How about my Music collection? OMG I don't think I can find anyone safe to leave it behind with :(...that'd be my biggest dilemma btw. ok I'd give it away to a work-mate I know who loves the same kind of music and would cherish it.


4. Write my Will. I'm not a rich person and I don't have much assets that I'd leave behind. But the little bit I have, I'd like to give to my sister. I'm sure she doesn't need my money, but it would help her to buy her first home...I know that's her biggest dream, to buy her own house. So it would make me happy if I could help her to achieve that dream, even if I wont be around to see it. And I know she'd look after my mum pretty well...no doubt about that. And I'd also donate a big part to Cancer Kids charity. In my Will, I'd also mention that my ashes be thrown into the sea cos that's where I often escape to.


5. I'd write a 'Hello From Heaven' post to my favorite bunch in this whole wide world and that is YOU - kind souls who stood by me through thick and thin. (I'd also write a letter each, to my close friends who are overseas right now). I'd give my password to a friend here and ask him to publish that post after I'm gone, and I'd like this current song to be played as my last song here as a message from me to you. Then you can read the post, listen to the song and comment as if I'm still around - no guarantees in comment-replies though ;-). I might be busy hunk-watching over there too, considering the fact that both John F. Kennedy Junior and Kurt Cobain are dead. Besides I have my dad, granma, Janice and Dan to catch up with woohoo! Although I'd miss you all like crazy....would God allow me to blog?


So there you go Ghee, and the 6 months would just fly ha. Thanks for giving me this great opportunity to think deeply and take stock of life. It made me realise what's really important in life...good times, memories, charity, being happy for and helping others reach their goals and not forgetting those who stuck around in my lowest moments...and that's YOU guys. HUGGGGGGGGGGZ! We can't take anything with us when we die...but we can leave behind alot...and if that's good memories, alot of love and support to others, then we have lived a great life no matter how short it may be. So would you know my name, if I saw you in heaven?



Current Music: Tears In Heaven by Eric Clapton

181 Cranium Signets:

Southpaw unplugged said...

Ahaaa, everythings' well planned...:)

J said...

Heaven.. i'm not sure, but if by mistake you come to hell, you sure will find me. We'll have our drinks on the rocks then ;)

ghee said...

OMG..the background music and your writing caused goosebumps all over me,right now,Keshi..

there you are!satisfaction is in me right now,words cant express how much you moved me,and I`ve waited for your answer :)

This post,as well as your former posts,are "art".

I do agree with your plan,and i admire you for giving away your car to someone in need,hehe.

Luv yah,Keshi!!and thanks for doing this tag :)

muahhhh!
ghee

Iceman said...

**So would you know my name, if I see you in heaven?

HEAVEN???????

Why would I even wanna go there! ewwwww!

And what really makes u think, u'd b goin there!

ROTFLMAO!

tulipspeaks said...

geeeeeezz!! u r a good planner - seriously. if anyone asked me the same ques, i will be staring back blank. :)


ammu.

La vida Loca said...

awwww.thats really touching ~~ got tears in my eyes :)
For a nice chica like u...god would let u blog from haven.

AakASH!!! said...

I'd know your name, anywhere i see you.

Actually, i'd know your name, even if i dont see you.

Love.

homo escapeons said...

If the Doctor told me that I only had 6 months to live..
I'd tell him that I wouldn't be able to pay him for atleast a year...
that way he'd give me another 6 months.

ba da bing ba da boom!

desperado said...

HUGGGGGGGGGGZ!!!
you will definitely turn into an angel...and tht too smokin hot ;)

Thinking aloud said...

awww...why is everyone writing about death these days...The song is so apt...the writing is so right...take care...S

Cazzie!!! said...

whats going on?

Jeevan said...

"We can't take anything with us when we die...but we can leave behind alot..." I was touched dear. This remembers my uncle whom lived and left many, good, bad, pain... that made our life in quality.

Really you were so cool to write a post like this keshi! I too was put on thinking about this 6 month now. I wish and pray to die before my loved ones leave this world.

mutleythedog said...

Oh dear! Your post is brilliant and reflects your brilliant nature.. I am surprised that you did not include fly to the UK and meet MTD though...*winks*

lemonade said...

that was beautiful kesh!!
and you picked the perfect song too! :)

Peter said...

So, now you have thought it all over; some kind of a "will"! With a few years more than you, perhaps I should also, but I prefer not to. Maybe when you get a bit closer to the final date, maybe you wish to think less about it? Or, maybe it's just me? Anyhow, liked to read your wonderfully nice thoughts - your gateway to heaven seems to be wide open!

Jac said...

Brilliant !!

But during the last couple of years you promised many things to your readers for answering questions, quizes etc etc here in this blog...that includes me.
Make sure that you clear all debts before you leave to hell or heaven.LOL

As far as I know 'debt collection service' doesn't have an office in both the locations.

KP said...

keshi u dont need to sell ur car...they`ll give u special ride....lol

George said...

Interesting choices Keshi because they were all about giving and not selfish like visitng places, wild sex with dozens of partners, doing things you wanted to do.

You are very selfless in this regard and that is absolutely beautiful.

I am glad you haven't really been given that news though.

Asha said...

Got busy yesterday Keshi, Trisha needed to get driving permit, took a quite a long time there!

Interesting question! Google for Nostradamus's "Doom's day" date and year! You will be surprised how near it is!
I wouldn't change anything or may be I will go for a World tour if I knew when exactly I am going to go belly up!;D
Hope you had a great Halloween fun, hugs!:)

Sam said...

a neat palnner now aren't you? i liked the one about the video the most and in fact set me thinking too.... wot if it really were to happen with me?? jeez... der r so many things!!

vishesh said...

oh!keshi...i always believe that death is next to me...i always think of death as a girl...whom i will be able to kiss one day ;)....i doubt it i will ever bother passing out fo this physical dimension...and i will be in the memory of everyone whom i ever knew....for THE LIGHT SHINES THE BRIGHTEST!

tc....keep enjoying life ! :)

Nanditha Prabhu said...

TAGS can really be food for thought !seems like it has prompted you to stop and think

priya said...

75 more tags ghosh Keshi, but you can still rock it with your own secret time.

Loved this and the memoried/ of photos of childhood is precious isn't it.

Hell and Heaven are same Keshi coz its the same humans ther yakking.

Jim said...

Psssttt
is SOUTHY around?

I will soon be RIP
if Southy gets hold of me

Trinnie said...

Keshi, sorry to say this and i don't mean to offend you, but reading all those 5 things i felt like you were really preparing for a farewell... it was that thoughtful and convincing...things that you'd do before you go.

:) i guess i would pretty much do the same things too, apart from watching tonnes of movies and also maybe making lots of love if i have a special someone *wink*

I'd love to have your music collection ;-) LOL! you do have a good taste in music...

isn't Dan the same friend of yours who suffered from depression? i don't quite remember reading about Janice...

take care Keshi,
you will be around here with us for a long time to come, i know! :)

Jay said...

Well, I guess that's a pretty good plan. You probably should already have a will though. I mean, you never know, right?

Helen said...

So sweet of you to think of so many others, Keshi. I would have said a whirl-wind world tour even if it meant selling everything I own and closing every account to pay for it (but I'd visit you in Australia) ; )

Vidya said...

Cool, makes me think :)

The Grunt said...

I'd eat more Cap'n Crunch for sure.

niki yokota said...

i thought keshi is ur real name, isnt it???
and i dont have anything to give my sis if i die lol
oh wait. didnt u say u will be my sister?
so plz gimme me some of ur asset, keshi-chan.
very nice music!!

Ps said...

Well thought out!
Memories are indeed precious.Have you read 'Tuesdays with Morrie'? Worth reading.

AmitL said...

Hi,Keshi..that's a lovely set of 'things to do'..but,tell me, what stops you from implementing them every now and then?

For eg. take a surprise day off from work to be with the family.

Make part one of the 'as you're ageing'(Ducks at the use of that phrase)album/video,and, admire how you've grown,too..:)

Write a 'Hello from Earth' post to us..*eagerly waiting.haha*.

Have a great day..I see I missed one more post..so,off I go to read.
(Been a very taxing,tiring week this week)

Ghost Particle said...

Keshi! We seriously need to separate good tags from stupid ones..and this is a great tag.

And you really did not make it sad at all..just d Keshi that we know...hemm so you want us the be happily chatting the 'the funeral? :p

//eat as much as I like (all the high-calorie food)// ---. excuses hahahaha! ...come to think of it, ill be eating all the sweets in the world!

Today we can only leave our materials behind, because only materials can help people to live on. Sad but true, even if it makes the tinniest difference, leaving behind something is much more helpful than passing away just like that...might sound selfish, but just think of it.

Love what you want to leave for ur sister, wish I had a sis. But you are the best in the world Keshi.

For 6 months, family and friends...and the finally God. What will you ask him?

...and will you be spying on us mate? :p

So if I you see me in heaven, I'll be there waiting for you in the arrival hall with a big card with the words 'Kindred Soul - Keshi' written on it...coz you are me and am you and I will go before you. Hugs!

Vest said...

The niceties always emerge from a person confronted with the inevitable. Winding up ones affairs amicably and leaving behind a pleasing memory of yourself to those you love in this world would bring comfort to yourself during one's final moments.

Great post Keshi, xxx

Kind words can be short and easy to speak, but their echoes are truly endless.

Autumn Storm said...

Big lump in my throat hearing that song, always the same reaction.
It made me realise what's really important in life...good times, memories, charity, being happy for and helping others reach their goals and not forgetting those who stuck around in my lowest moments...
Very nicely done, very well said.

N said...

Thanks Keshi! We love you!

This post got me thinking. Although you didn't tag me, I plan to fill this out too. Its really something everybody should plan out.

Coco said...

blogging from heaven?!
i love it!!

you have a kind and generous heart.
you are also a "good" daughter...
thinking of your mum : )

have a wonderful weekend!!

blessings,
coco

Brian in Oxford said...

I'm glad you're at least getting 6 months of SUMMER. Otherwise you'd need to plan a trip to the northern hemisphere :)

Sameera said...

I don't know why,but I cried reading this...HUGSSSSS

BUMBLE!!! said...

Is that you?!! Just curious... I'm nosey like that.

See, I had this really cool forward, and it was too big to post online, and I didn't want to break it up, so I had to find it online to paste here for bloggy types that might enjoy it because I didn't want to post its hugeness, and I didn't have emails, so here...

Trust me, it's worth it.

Nostalgia is a crazy thing.
http://15minutelunch.blogspot.com/2007/10/strap-in-shut-up-and-hold-on-were-going.html

krystyna said...

OMG!I was touched. Keshi, this post is so emotional and beautifully written.
Thanks so much!
Hugsss!

fi/WP2007 said...

Hi Keshi

I would rob a bank, murder someone, pose nude, buy a hearse for my last ride, and point toward the sky and say, "Here I come."


WOW! I'm nuts! LOL

Bev

Jim said...

; And now, the end is near;
And so I face the final curtain.
My friend, Ill say it clear,
Ill state my case, of which Im certain.

Ive lived a life thats full.
Ive traveled each and evry highway;
And more, much more than this,
I did it my way.

Regrets, Ive had a few;
But then again, too few to mention.
I did what I had to do
And saw it through without exemption.

I planned each charted course;
Each careful step along the byway,
But more, much more than this,
I did it my way.

Yes, there were times, Im sure you knew
When I bit off more than I could chew.
But through it all, when there was doubt,
I ate it up and spit it out.
I faced it all and I stood tall;
And did it my way.

Ive loved, Ive laughed and cried.
Ive had my fill; my share of losing.
And now, as tears subside,
I find it all so amusing.

To think I did all that;
And may I say - not in a shy way,
No, oh no not me,
I did it my way.

For what is a man, what has he got?
If not himself, then he has naught.
To say the things he truly feels;
And not the words of one who kneels.
The record shows I took the blows -
And did it my way!

Jim said...

i wud tell Jesus thank u for taking me now
i did all i had to do
all i wanted to do

my body i wud donate to science
so that there will be no funeral expenses

my blog wud go to my girl
my money?
i have none Niki Chan

my girl i will give to SOUTHY
she only had me

every woman fantasizes of making it with a hunk





i wud not say good bye
i will tell no one

i will just disappear
i hate tears and funerals

Jim said...

my going is not the end for me
i believe heaven waits for me

and an angel named Janice
the dumb mangy
that i loved before i met my girl

OH Yes
my porn collection wud go to Krys

to Keshi
my blessings that she marries and has a dozen kids

all girls
all keshi look alikes

Orikinla Osinachi. said...

Sweet Keshi,

I wish you longer life and more prosperity.

"Nkiruka!"
The future is greater.
Overcome today and welcome tomorrow.

Life goes on.

Cheers and God bless.

KAYLEE said...

AWWW WHAT!!!!!!!!! was that about the first part anyway?


I AM GOING HAOME TOMORROW :)

KAYLEE said...

YOU KNOW I LOVE THIS TAG BECAUSE I HAVE BEEN TOLD THAT before.......:)

luckily it was longer but.......:-)

Zhu said...

Good answers ! But don't worry Keshi, you're young and have a really really long life ahead of you ;)

Keshi said...

Southy I need to...


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hehe Jono if u dun make it to heaven, u'll find me in hell for sure LOL!



Keshi.

Keshi said...

MWAH Ghee!

TY for giving me this opp to chillax and see the bigger picture in life...it really made me think alot.

***HUGS***


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ROFL Iceman!

U know wut makes me think I'd be going to Heaven? LOL! Cos I know Hell will be overcrowdedwhen I get there and God wud move some ppl temporarily to heaven haha!



Keshi.

Keshi said...

Ammu dun think too much abt life n death...nothing is our's to keep...not even ourselves...thats why Death doesnt make me scared...ofcourse I fear it sometimes, but if I were to die today, Im ok with it..cos alot of others, even younger than me n who deserve to live more than me, hv gone way before me...


HUGGGGGGGGGZ!


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aww LaVida tnxx for the assurance there :) HUGGGGGGGGGZ!



Keshi.

Keshi said...

awww Aakash that really touched my heart. ty n HUGGGGGGGGGGGZ!

So when u see me in Heaven, u'd go thats Keshi the big fat chatterbox right? LOL!

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HAHAHAHA HE good one!




Keshi.

Keshi said...

Dhruv me a HOT angel wearing halter neck tops LOL!

ty n HUGGGGGGGGGZ!


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TA hey tnxx!

:)




Keshi.

Keshi said...

Caz Im thinking abt priorities in life :)

**HUGS**


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hey Jeevan I rem that uncle of ur's...he's in a better place now..and look how much LOVE he left behind.



** I wish and pray to die before my loved ones leave this world.


aww dun say that....I wish u a LONG n HEALTHY life Jeevan!



Keshi.

Keshi said...

hey Mutz!

** I am surprised that you did not include fly to the UK and meet MTD though

o cmon I'd hv visited u by now havent I? ;-)



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ty Lemonade!


**HUGS**


Keshi.

Keshi said...

aww Peter tnxx!


** Maybe when you get a bit closer to the final date, maybe you wish to think less about it?

mebbe...but I know for sure wut I'd be thinking...exactly wut I wrote in this post :)

Im not scared to die...for whats life w.o. death.


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HAHAHAHA Jac!


ok I did promise but no one won the competitions...so I dun owe anyone anything LOL!



Keshi.

Ashes said...

thats kinda funny..i wrote about death too.in my usual morbid way ofcourse.aren't you facinated by the "other side"

Keshi said...

hey KP!


**keshi u dont need to sell ur car...they`ll give u special ride

I dun get it??? :)


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heyya George!


** they were all about giving and not selfish like visitng places, wild sex with dozens of partners, doing things you wanted to do

tnxx :) Actually I never really think abt going ard the world or anything like that b4 death. Cos I really am lucky to hv ALL of u from all over the world right here in my blog on a daily-basis. That is my WORLD trip :)


HUGGGGGGGGGGGZ!



Keshi.

Keshi said...

Hey Asha hope Trisha's matter was solved.


**I wouldn't change anything or may be I will go for a World tour if I knew when exactly I am going to go belly up!

so wud u come see me then? awww...HUGGGGGGGGGGGZ!


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hey Sam :)


**wot if it really were to happen with me?

yeah...sometimes we've got to think ahead of time...cos last week a bery rich Aussie guy, who's just 42yrs old, collapsed during his morning walk...died just like that...leaving a $300 million estate, a wife and 2 young kids. He wasnt even ill before. It was so shocking cos the whole of Aus saw a TV program of his success the very nite b4 he died!



Keshi.

Keshi said...

Vish hey hows u?

** always think of death as a girl...whom i will be able to kiss one day

thats a very interesting thought...wow!


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yes Nanditha, tnxx!

But I hv also thought abt Death alot of times b4...cos alot of my loved-ones died too soon...




Keshi.

Keshi said...

hey Priya tnxx!

Heaven/Hell I really dun care as long as I dun hv to work, pay taxes and then die again :):)



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~~RIP Jim~~
Lived yakking...murdered by Southpaw.




Keshi.

Jim said...

To my best friend
(u know its u)



Of all the things which wisdom provides to make us entirely happy, much the greatest is the possession of friendship.
More quotes from Epicurus

Jim said...

shit
i did a rong ting
by bequeathing my girl to him

NOW i will be dead sooner

Jim said...

there is nothing in life u can be sure of


except death and taxes
and vengeance

Menchie said...

interesting question keshi.

I would probably do the same.

- leave work and spend all my remaining time with my family
- make lots of videos for my kids so they will remember me when they grow up.

twilight said...

"We can't take anything with us when we die...but we can leave behind alot...and if that's good memories, a lot of love and support to others, then we have lived a great life no matter how short it may be..."

couldn't have said it better myself :)

Keshi said...

hey Trinnie!

** i felt like you were really preparing for a farewell

heyy yIm not offended at all Sweetz...infact I feel honored :) It means I know what my priorities r...



** apart from watching tonnes of movies and also maybe making lots of love if i have a special someone *wink*

hahaha not bad at all Trinnie ;-)


ok then I'd mail my music collection to u Trinnie! I swear.


**isn't Dan the same friend of yours who suffered from depression?

yes! u remembered well. he committed suicide at just 24. If u talked to him u'd never imagine he'd kill himself...



**i don't quite remember reading about Janice...

Janice was a dear friend I met in Blogville...I hv written abt her a couple of times b4. Read here:

http://keshigirl.blogspot.com/2006/03/looking-for-janice.html


ty Trinnie HUGGGGGGGGGZ!


Keshi.

Keshi said...

Jay ur right...we all should hv a Will written...Im actually in the process of doing it :)

d u hv ur's?

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Big HUGS Helen!


** I would have said a whirl-wind world tour even if it meant selling everything I own and closing every account to pay for it

So AUS is the first stop? WOW I love ya!


Keshi.

Keshi said...

allooo allooo Vidya :) HUGGGGGGGGGGZ!


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heyya Grunty HUGGGGGGGGZ!


**Cap'n Crunch

sounds yummy but I dunno wut that is...




Keshi.

Keshi said...

Niki HUGGGGGGGGGGZ!


**i thought keshi is ur real name, isnt it???

wonder why u asked that? :)

here r my assets Niki:

big boobs
big ass
big eyes
big heart

LOL which one d u want?


btw leave ur sis some LOVE...MWAH!


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hello PS well-said!


**'Tuesdays with Morrie'?

nope...now I will. tnxx! :)




Keshi.

Keshi said...

hey Amit ty!


**but,tell me, what stops you from implementing them every now and then?

I hv done, am doing and will be doing those things all the time. Funny how I'd spend my last 6 months the same way ha :):)



**For eg. take a surprise day off from work to be with the family.

I've done that many times LOL!



**Make part one of the 'as you're ageing'(Ducks at the use of that phrase)album/video,and, admire how you've grown,too..:)

no need to duck cos ur in that video too LOL! btw I hv done that kinda video already...with pics only so far..


**Write a 'Hello from Earth' post to us..*eagerly waiting.haha*.

haha aint all my posts from Heaven anyways? ;-)


ty Amit HUGGGGGGGGGGGZ!

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heyy Ghosty!


**Today we can only leave our materials behind, because only materials can help people to live on

I so agree. alot of ppl r materialistic including u n me...we need 'things' no matter what.


**wut will u ask God?

'now what sir?' :)



**and will you be spying on us mate?

if I can, I'd gate-crash ur wedding LOL!



** 'Kindred Soul - Keshi' written on it...

aww..like how ppl stand with name tags at the airport? :):)


**coz you are me and am you and I will go before you

na na na na ITS ME B4 U!



Keshi.
aww li

Keshi said...

ty Vesty!


**Kind words can be short and easy to speak, but their echoes are truly endless.

so true...HUGGGGGGGGGGGGZ!


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HUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGZ Autumn!





Keshi.

Jim said...

THANKS for the offer
u can keep your eyes and heart

Keshi said...

Hey Nic isnt this a very neat tag. I'd love to read ur's.


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aww u too Coco HUGGGGGGGGGZ n ty!




Keshi.

Keshi said...

heyya Brian good thinking :):)



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Sameera awwwww HUGGGGGGGGGGGGZ! Dun cry...Im still here ok...and u too :) MWAH!




Keshi.

Keshi said...

Hey Bumble yep thats me :)

ok tnxx I'll check out the link as soon as I can.


**strap-in-shut-up-and-hold-on-were-going

LOL sounds like a good one!



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ty Krys HUGGGGGGGGGGGZ!





Keshi.

Keshi said...

Bev u crazy girl I dun want u to do any of that LOL!

HUGGGGGGGGGGGZ!


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Thats one of my fav songs Jim...




Keshi.

Keshi said...

hey Jim ur giving away ur girl in ur WILL? u sick man.


**all girls
all keshi look alikes


o cmon u know thats not gonna happen :)



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hey Ori HUGGGGGGGGGGZ n ty!


**Nkiruka

wow nice one...really felt exotic reading that. TY!




Keshi.

Keshi said...

Kaylz ur gonna die only when ur a very old granma surrounded by many lovely grandkids..MWAHHHHHHH!



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gee tnxx Zhu MWAH!





Keshi.

Keshi said...

hey Jim!

**much the greatest is the possession of friendship.

agreed 100%



**death, taxes n vengeance

LOL true!



**u can keep your eyes and heart


the offer wasnt for u...twas for Niki u mofo! :)



Keshi.

Keshi said...

Menchie HUGGGGGGGGGZ!

**- leave work and spend all my remaining time with my family
- make lots of videos for my kids so they will remember me when they grow up.


definitely!

but u'll hv a long life Menchie! MWAHHHHHHHH!

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ty Twilight :)




Keshi.

Trée said...

Hello Keshi. :-)

Keshi said...

ASH!


ooops I nearly missed out on replying to Ashes there! Sorry mate.



**aren't you facinated by the "other side"


I am! I wanna know wuts on the other side..and I wanna know if my dad is waiting for me...



Keshi.

Jim said...

whatsa matter?
why hasnt he arrived yet?


i want truce
the guy has my address
my fone no

hope he forgives me

Jim said...

the other side?



i been put into general anaesthesia many times

as i feel the anaethesia take effect

i try to fight it
i wonder will i come back

then i say Jesus watch over me
and i let go

coming back is a joyous moment
but then if i dont come back
it dont matter
does it?

coz u have let go
u have no consciousness


dying is a lott similiar
if u can let go
u will die peacefully

for dying peacefully
there must be no unfinished agenda
no desires
no wants

Jim said...

and when u r in pain
unbearable pain

u seek the release of death
or comatose

Sweetstickychewy said...

This post reminds me of a movie I watched a long time ago. About a lady who wrote a list she is gonna do in 10 days before her final breath in life.

I would remember your name Keshi. In heaven everyone knows who each and every person is.

And that was some good planning there sweets.

Your precious. *Hugz*

Jim said...

My mother taught me how to act, some really sweet expressions. But what's most important, she has given me my present philosophy of life. She has taught me that nothing is permanent, including herself. So, enjoy what you have this moment, for it can be taken away from you the next. Everything is transient. That is why I don't give a damn to anything. It's a very macho way of putting it. But the whole rationale is that if she could be taken away from me, then everything else can be taken away also. If I can leave with her absence then I can live with the absence of stardom, money or anything. And that is the closest you can come to being contended, you die. People say the only cure for life is death. May be at that moment, that one second, when all thoughts of worry leave your mind, you die.


I kept giving my mother a lot of worry, so she couldn't die. I kept pleading, "please don't go".

Jim said...

http://www.bollywoodblitz.com/stars/SRK/biography.shtml

Ashes said...

I dont reckon we'd meet earthlings on the other side.for me,i've seen too much of 'em.I feel we would see colors--bright beautiful colors there.That would make us happy.and we would feel silence there.

Jim you know you're right in a way.but death i'm sure is qualitatively very different from unconsciousness.it's closer to being on acid,without any ghostly snakelike images which attacks one whos on acid.death is beautiful.and complex.like a poetry.not many people like poetry you see.

Southpaw unplugged said...

U need to?

DJ said...

this is called a life with contentment... no extravagant showoffs, no bla-bla-blu-blu...

most ppl would pour out their dissatisfactions in measures of gallons when posed with such a question... but i liked the way u wrote it...

and yes, anyone would know u if they see u in heaven :)

btw, its one of my most fav songs...

tc...

Keshi said...

Hello my bridge mate Tre HUGGGGGGGGGGZ! howdy?


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hey Jim i hv passed out...and thats the closest to death I've ever gotten in terms of physical awareness...it doesnt seem so scary...actually it seems peaceful :)



**and when u r in pain
unbearable pain
u seek the release of death
or comatose

so does that mean suicide is justifiable in an extremely painful situation? just asking.


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aww Amy I can never FORGET u too...HUGGGGGGGGGGGGZ!

Hope we can do smokey eye experiments in heaven too LOL!



Keshi.

Keshi said...

I've read abt SRK's mum Jim...


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hey Ash :)


**and complex.like a poetry.not many people like poetry you see.


wow u said it so beautifully. I hope death is wut u explained wut it must be...it sure sounds very peaceful..with no beings and just silence...



Keshi.

Keshi said...

Southy yes :)


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ty so much DJ!


**most ppl would pour out their dissatisfactions in measures of gallons when posed with such a question... but i liked the way u wrote it...


tnxx! to be honest I didnt even think twice abt this post...as soon as Ghee tagged me yday, I wrote it within abt 15mins. So whats in this post is straight from my heart. Im not bragging abt it..just saying that this is how I really wud spend my last days.

:) hv a good one DJ!



Keshi.

Keshi said...

And DJ one more thing...


**and yes, anyone would know u if they see u in heaven

LOL Im not Paris Hilton rite?



Keshi.

The Phosgene Kid said...

I'd go on a shooting spree. If I go I am taking a bunch with me.

Keshi said...

heyy Phos wut wud u shop for? :)

Keshi.

anits said...

well planned wish u all the best in achieving it dear! tcare

AakASH!!! said...

Au contraire, i'll think, that finally here i get to see, the hottest woman i've (n)ever known!

You are simply awesome, and you know that.

Trinnie said...

hey keshi! that was a lovely reply to my comment. i did read your post on janice and even went to janice's blog. she seems so damn friendly... :)
it's as if she's talking to u personally... i can guess how down to earth she must have been or still is... but keshi, did you get a confirmation she's no longer? u mentioned in ur post that you don't believe she's gone...

it' sad to even think abt it even though i never knew her..

take care
*HUGS*

DJ said...

lol...
paris is famous just for being famous, while u have such a nice blog..... :))

so i guess only the ones from blogger-ville who land up in heaven would be knowing u.. this is based on the condition that bloggers would be able to make it there :))

tc...

general_boy said...

I'm interested in your "list" Keshi, because it's actually very practical. Someone who's into psychoanalysis would no doubt make much more of that than I would. ;)

I mean wouldn't you want to do any stupidly dangerous things? Or stupidly embarassing things? Wouldn't you want to stand on a city corner dressed in a bear suit, singing Karoke, and handing out $50 notes to strangers?

I reckon I would!

RamaG said...

I dont think anyone could come up with something better than these answers.

Take care and there's still a long way to go before you RIP. :-)))

Hugs.

-Ram.

P.S: I absolutely adore the song.

Jeya Anand said...

Hey Keshi...How are you?..hope u doing well...That was a great post...I think I just need a six second notice....;)

Chriz said...

100th comment from me... i wud like to take this tag...

Pijush said...

Waoww.. very honest and smart choices. Nice to know that you love your sis and mom so much, its really praise worthy.
and the most interesting one is to blog from heaven. Hope God will allow you. This post has triggered something in my mind and soon going to tag you :-) I found one of my victims.

Ashu said...

Ok mine cud be the 100th one on here. Blame it to my crap blogroll, many blogs incl yours dont appear updated to me. Gonna shut it down, anyways.

The 6 months notice is a great writeup and very scary too. You write so well honey.

I m just getting exhausted and bit of burn out has gripped me . Running out of the steam in the blogging. so mite go off.

You excel in the art of writing big time!!!!!

Aditi said...

i'd paint the town red and do all the things i wouldnt normally for fear of consequences

Prats said...

aaaw...thats some detailed planning you've been doing.
Its so heartening to note that you are so sincere in giving out.
I wish you lots of health and a happy life...

Jim said...

SUICIDE is an extreme act of DESPAIR
when u see no HOPE

if u believe GOD loves u
u will not suicide
u r denying the existence of a loving God

and GOD hurts

Jim said...

today November 2 is ALL SOULS DAY





Google search for ALL SOULS DAY to know more

Jim said...

Into your hands, O Lord, I commend my spirit.





.
AMEN

Jim said...

1 I've wandered far away from God,
Now I'm coming home;
The paths of sin too long I've trod,
Lord, I'm coming home.


Coming home, coming home,
Nevermore to roam;
Open wide Thine arms of love;
Lord, I'm coming home.


2 I've wasted many precious years,
Now I'm coming home;
I now repent with bitter tears,
Lord, I'm coming home.


3 I'm tired of sin and straying, Lord,
Now I'm coming home;
I'll trust Thy love, believe Thy word;
Lord, I'm coming home.


4 My soul is sick, my heart is sore,
Now I'm coming home;
My strength renew, my hope restore:
Lord, I'm coming home.


5 My only hope, my only plea,
Now I'm coming home;
That Jesus died, and died for me;
Lord, I'm coming home.


6 I need His cleansing blood, I know,
Now I'm coming home;
O wash me whiter than the snow;
Lord, I'm coming home.

Jim said...

Nearer, my God, to Thee, nearer to Thee!
E’en though it be a cross that raiseth me,
Still all my song shall be, nearer, my God, to Thee.



Nearer, my God, to Thee,
Nearer to Thee!

Though like the wanderer, the sun gone down,
Darkness be over me, my rest a stone.
Yet in my dreams I’d be nearer, my God to Thee.


There let the way appear, steps unto Heav’n;
All that Thou sendest me, in mercy given;
Angels to beckon me nearer, my God, to Thee.



Then, with my waking thoughts bright with Thy praise,
Out of my stony griefs Bethel I’ll raise;
So by my woes to be nearer, my God, to Thee.



Or, if on joyful wing cleaving the sky,
Sun, moon, and stars forgot, upward I’ll fly,
Still all my song shall be, nearer, my God, to Thee.


There in my Father’s home, safe and at rest,
There in my Savior’s love, perfectly blest;
Age after age to be, nearer my God to Thee.

Jim said...

The Hymn Nearer My God to Thee has often been suggested as the last tune played by the Musicians on the Titanic.





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Jim said...

i went to my mothers grave to pray

I prayed for my mom
for my dad
for my sister
for my father in law

for a kind old anglo lady who always wished me good morning
with a bright smile
she died alone


and i heard a voice
Dont forget me grandpa




FUCK
it was Janice

Fish said...

All I have to say is, you're not going anywhere! Where would that leave me?!

EBEZP said...

That post nearly had me in tears Keshi.....Wonderful answers and of course Clapton in the background.

Oh my top thing would be to come and hug you Keshi!

Maybe a bit late but have a great weekend love!

anuj said...

now tht is not fair keshi :X
u shud have sneaked in a line sayin, 'I would sure have a cuppa with anuj before I leave'. Or was there an invisible line already. U can't miss out on this awesome chance of seeing d event manager and ur 'supposedly' future roomie .. :D

well, as per this post since ur abt to die .. I forgive ya ;) ..hehe

newyz ..gud goin keshi
cheers

Still searching said...

Thats a pretty awesome list! I think I'd do all of those things too! :))

Sameera said...

No dearie,not cause of fear of something happening to you.God willing,you will live to blog for another century :)

I cried thinking about all the pain you have undergone in life.Having had a good share of it myself,I know how it must have been.God Bless You always.Love ya!

david santos said...

Keshi, Please!

Send an email to the Brazil embassj your country and repor the injustice that the brazilian courts are making with this girl
Release on Flavia’s accident and status of the process.

The resignation is to stop the evolution. (David Santos in times without end)

Thank you

Jim said...

All Souls' Day
The commemoration of all the faithful departed is celebrated by the Church on 2 November,

The Office of the Dead must be recited by the clergy and all the Masses are to be of Requiem, except one of the current feast, where this is of obligation.

The theological basis for the feast is the doctrine that the souls which, on departing from the body, are not perfectly cleansed from venial sins, or have not fully atoned for past transgressions, are debarred from the Beatific Vision, and that the faithful on earth can help them by prayers, alms deeds and especially by the sacrifice of the Mass. (See PURGATORY.)

In the early days of Christianity the names of the departed brethren were entered in the diptychs. Later, in the sixth century, it was customary in Benedictine monasteries to hold a commemoration of the deceased members at Whitsuntide.

In Spain there was such a day on Saturday before Sexagesima or before Pentecost, at the time of St. Isidore (d. 636).

In Germany there existed (according to the testimony of Widukind, Abbot of Corvey, c. 980) a time-honoured ceremony of praying to the dead on 1 October.

This was accepted and sanctified by the Church. St. Odilo of Cluny (d. 1048) ordered the commemoration of all the faithful departed to he held annually in the monasteries of his congregation. Thence it spread among the other congregations of the Benedictines and among the Carthusians.

Of the dioceses, Liège was the first to adopt it under Bishop Notger (d. 1008). It is then found in the martyrology of St. Protadius of Besançon (1053-66). Bishop Otricus (1120-25) introduced it into Milan for the 15 October.

In Spain, Portugal, and Latin America, priests on this day say three Masses.

A similar concession for the entire world was asked of Pope Leo XIII. He would not grant the favour but ordered a special Requiem on Sunday, 30 September, 1888.

In the Greek Rite this commemoration is held on the eve of Sexagesima Sunday, or on the eve of Pentecost. The Armenians celebrate the passover of the dead on the day after Easter.

Steph said...

Kesh, I'm worried bout that dude Jim. Is he off his meds or what?

Stalker!!!

Jeya Anand said...

HEy I am doodling again;)

Dalicia said...

i would like to take a nice vacation before i die.

the rest of my things..i'll burn it...

curryegg said...

That is a meaningful tag. Now I know that you love your mother and sister so much. Glad to hear that keshi!

ghee said...

and you`re absolutely a great thinker,you have a very creative mind :)

you look awesome in that pic,too,Keshi!!

BTW,pls read my update HERE if you have time.Thanx and Have a great weekend!!

Ghee

The Anonymous said...

Everyone should see this.. http://www.project71.com/readme Enjoyy!

The Phosgene Kid said...

Happy weekend Keshi!

Jim said...

Krys turned down my porn collection
and is mad as hell

she is really a sweet Polish girl
and sweet Polihed girls
dont read porn

it goes to STEPH now

Jim said...

From 1875–1878 Tolstoy experienced a period of increasing depression and psychological crisis that was to alter both his philosophy and his art.

In A Confession, an autobiographical account of his life and moral struggle written after the crisis, Tolstoy writes that the principal cause of his depression was his inability to find an acceptable meaning in human life. The inevitability of death overwhelmed him, and all formulations of life's meaning appeared to him shallow and valueless.

Neither the great philosophers of the past nor his contemporaries could provide him with satisfying answers. Desperate, he turned to the Russian people. Tolstoy found that the uneducated peasants possessed a definite conception of the meaning of a life, a comfort and security derived from "irrational knowledge," from faith in a creator God.

This faith rescued them from despair and suffering and infused their life with meaning. Confronted with the choice of irrational faith or meaningless despair, Tolstoy chose faith.

At first attempting to renew contact with the church of his childhood, Tolstoy eventually resolved to develop his own system of belief. And devoting the four years after his crisis (1878–1882) to that purpose,

Tolstoy published a series of four works elaborating upon and explaining his unique religious philosophy, works that Tolstoy regarded as his most important achievement as a writer.

It is not insignificant that The Death of Ivan Ilych, written in 1886, was the first major fictional work published by Tolstoy after his crisis and conversion. Tolstoy's religious philosophy serves as a background to the understanding of the novel.

Brotherly love, mutual support, and Christian charity, values that became essential to Tolstoy in the second half of his life, emerge as the dominant moral principles in The Death of Ivan Ilych.

And just as Tolstoy's discovery of the true meaning of life led him to fulfillment and an acceptance of death, so too, Ivan Ilych's awakening exposes him to the light of a meaningful life and assuages his fear of dying.

Thus, The Death of Ivan Ilych can be seen as a reflection and an elaboration of Tolstoy's post- conversion philosophical concerns. The novel is a fictional answer to the questions that plagued Tolstoy during the mid 1870s.

From the time of his conversion to his death, Tolstoy remained actively engaged in publicizing his religious beliefs. He wrote various pieces on social, political, and economic topics ranging from vegetarianism to capital punishment. In hopeless opposition to the government, nearly all of his writings were censored or banned.

Tolstoy died in 1910 after nearly a decade of continuing ill health.

http://www.sparknotes.com/lit/ivanilych/context.html

posted by Jim on DEATH WHERE IS THY STING

Jim said...

of death, fear of the unknown

" ... Men, believing in myths, will always fear something terrible, everlasting punishment as certain or probable

... Men base all these fears not on mature opinions, but on irrational fancies, so that they are more disturbed by fear of the unknown than by facing facts. Peace of mind lies in being delivered from all these fears. "

-Epicurus (Greeley)

Jim said...

wat a wonderful way to die ...
i wanna die in your arms baby
in a last kiss





dat sucks my last breath away



guys die in diff ways
my pal Georgie, a bachelor
was a bewda like me

he wud go to the pub evry evening after work
he wud return on the shoulders of his drinking mates

who wud dump him on his couch to sleep away
his mom wud thank dem for bringing him home

one day he was brought home the usual way
he didnt wake up

they buried him the next day
on returning home alone after the usual drink
he slipped and fell and his head hit a stone

his pals found him lying on the street
and took him home
not knowing wat had happened

there was no wound
his mom didnt no either

he went to the pearly gates all sozzled
sometimes i hear him at nights

'hey saby come on out
lets have a drink'

i loved the guy, and
i tink he loved me too

Jim said...

death where is thy sting

"Everyone wants to be foremost in this future-and yet death and the stillness of death are the only things certain and common to all in this future!

How strange that this sole thing that is certain and common to all, exercises almost no influence on men, and that they are the furthest from regarding themselves as the brotherhood of death! \

It makes me happy to see that men do not want to think at all of the idea of death!" - Friedrich Nietzsche

Akshay said...

Hey Keshi.. I would also probably do most of the things that you have written except for a couple, i dont have a car yet and i have a huge movie collection, dont know what will happen after i go.

Btw, I am finally back and more or less will be regular in the blogging world, unless work finds me again.

Paul Champagne said...

I would max out the credit cards and spend my last days seeing all the things I always wanted to.

I guess I'm a little bit selfish.

Bla said...

Planning is good, yet tricky. :)

Celestine said...

i like how your photo has flowers flying all around... how do you do that? hehe :)

Jim said...

when does a guy really die ? ...

i tink the guy dies when he is not loved anymore by family and friendz

my mom was being shuttled from brother to brother
coz the wives cudnt bear dis mom-in-law

dont blame dem
she was terrible

when she died
evrybody heaved a sigh of relief, me too

coz i tink, she already died
we were tinking of putting her in an old age home
coz none of the wives cud bear to wipe her ass

she was shitting in bed
and we cudnt afford a full-time nurse

am glad she died in my brother's house
wid the daughter-in-law who is a gem
and my brother too

these guys also supported me
when i was devastated during my depression days

she wud give money and food and presents to my children
widout making it look like charity


she was from a poor family
and she never forgets her roots
though today she drives a HONDA CITY

she means the world to me
wish i had married her

am not saying my wife is bad
just dat she is more of an angel
than anyone i have ever known

yrautca said...

Dude you have so many comments.

Like your song selection.

Jim said...

Hi there Keshi,
We need u

You are chosen to represent your views in the first international blog
WUB (World United Bloggers)

The aim of this blog is to prove to the world that differences in language, religion,race and nationality do not make us hate each other and we can make this world better if we express our opinions with respect to others.

If you agree to join us please send e-mail with your nick name , age , country and your blog address to sharm_lover@... where you will be sent an activation mail which makes you entitled to contribute in WUB, your name as one of the contributor will automatically be updated.Please read the rules before you start any posting in WUB where you will also find the aims of this WUB.

Thanks
Jim
Moderator for Indian Continent


www.worldub.blogspot.com



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Deepak Gopi said...

:)Exlnt pic
I have returned

Vidya said...

Hmm...Looks like you have put some thought and some heart into this.
:D
I totally love all that you have said. It is tags like that kinda makes you think, right?

Vidya

Shionge said...

I wish we'll all get to meet in heaven too ;)

Beach Bum said...

A fantastic post. And like someone else already wrote complete selfless. What would I do in a situation like that? I must admit that if I did not have kids I would want to fly off to someplace exotic and mysterious and live out the rest of my days there. But since I have kids I would want to spend every moment I had left with them.

niki yokota said...

big boobs
big ass
big eyes
big heart
i want all except big ass lololol
cute keshi-chan! thanx and hugzzz

Pri said...

heyy nice tag...and u couldent have completed it better :)
quite a planner i must say!!!
the song u would want to dedicate is one of my favs ...:) and guess what have often got tht "get a post published after im gone" idea and have even spoken to a close friend about it...and all this while i wasent even tagged...lol!!
once again a very cute list :)

twistedtruth said...

Don't even cry tonight.

http://youtube.com/watch?v=_Ns59Bmqpms

:P fuzzbox said...

I'm afraid that at least 3 of the 5 major things that I would do if I only had six months to live are to perverted to list on your comment section.

mutleythedog said...

I shall be in Australia in the next few weeks...

Jim said...

If you agree to join us please send e-mail with your nick name , age , country and your blog address to sabydasouza@yahoo.com




u will be linked to WUB
WUB has a google page rank of 4

Blessed said...

What a deep subject to ponder.
I wonder what I would do if I had 6 months........
1) Probably freak out a bit. This means crying, feeling sorry for myself, being angry, and then I hope I would come to acceptance becuz without it I could not live out my months as I would hope.
2) I would have to spend time at the beach. Since I live about 8 hours away from the closest beach I would have to spend some time there....I would hope to expire there.
3) I, too, would have to go out and eat all my favorite foods.
4) Write letters to all my loved ones and to ALL who have touched my life in a positive way. I hope that I don't feel the need to write to those who haven't touched me positively, I have this bad urge to write them a guilt trip letter. I hope I would rise above that naughty temptation.
5) Strengthen my faith. I hope to be as close to God and Jesus as I possibly can before I hope to finally meet them in person.
6) Tie up loose ends. Make sure that I got rid of as much debt so my husband wouldn't be left with it. So I definitely couldn't quit my job. I would also sell alot of my frivilous material goods that I have. Some of course, I would give away to loved ones and other things I would donate.
7) I would want to plan out my funeral service. I would want to see what all my priest was going to say about me. I would pick out the music, my casket, my plot, my outfit. I probably would write a letter to be read at my funeral.

KAYLEE said...

how are you? I am not doing too well :(

KAYLEE said...

how are you? I am not doing too well :(

Jim said...

BLESSED
i completely forgot about u in my will

sending u something soon
i will introduce u to all my friends at wUB

u will love Sharm Lover
(if u r straight)
and NOUSHY otherwise

SaffronSaris said...

Argh! This topic is too morbid :(

Keshi said...

ty each n everyone of u! I read all ur comments...Blessed ur comment touched me HUGGGGGGGGGZ! Beach_bum ur's too.

All of u seem to know WHAT to do if that situation arrives. I hope it never arrives for u tho :)

and WB Akshay :)

General_Boy its not like I dun do anything outrageous anyways LOL!


HUGGGGGGGGGGZ n ty ALL!



Keshi.

Keshi said...

Jim I dun think I hv time to be in 3 blogs :( Im already in BUF as well...cant they come n read this blog of mine?

tnxx anyways!
Keshi.

Keshi said...

Kayls Im good...wuts wrong?


Keshi.

Jim said...

well...cant they come n read this blog of mine?


u r vain Keshi

Jim said...

what u post here is your personal stuff

its about me, me and me



u r missing the wider picture
u need to get involved in making the world a better place

for me and for u and the entire human race

u blasted Michael Jackson
but he is a better man than u or me

u r not even a man Keshi


LOVE and PEACE
WUB

Keshi said...

Jim r u that dumb? That was a reply for ur request for me to join WUB. I dun hv time to blog here as well as in WUB. I do hv a life outside my blog as well, plus I hv a job too. Its not being vain, its the truth. I dun hv the time to blog 24/7. Thats why I said to u if they want me to write posts, they can come n read my blog here. Nothing vain abt that!


Keshi.

Keshi said...

So then get MJ to join WUB. Sorry I dun hv time and yeah Im not MJ or even any better than him. Im only human.

Keshi.

Jim said...

u owe this to MJ
let the world hear this
,
I am a Michael Jackson fan. I have no qualms about it. I love his music, I love his dancing. Hell, I even love those gold, glittery shin guards he's so taken with wearing for special occasions.
,

Jim said...

But I am a young fan -- by the time I knew who Michael Jackson was, it was the late eighties. He'd already been pegged as bizarre by the world press so virtually nothing that's gone on with him since then has shocked me.

A lot of people born in the '80s grew up embracing that Michael Jackson, the one who has come to be synonymous with virtually everything stigmatizing and lurid.

However strange, even that Michael Jackson was acceptable -- at least until the child-molestation accusations started coming out.

When the first scandal broke, it gave people a legitimate reason to dislike Michael Jackson, one a little meatier than weirdness.

It gave an excuse to question his once unquestionable talent, though it's somewhat ludicrous to think that an immense talent like his would conveniently cease to exist exactly when public opinion shifted.

The case in 1993 where he was sued for -- but never charged with -- sexually abusing a 13-year-old boy apparently gave the public permission to view him less as a human being and more like a lemming they delighted in watching hurl itself off a cliff.

Michael Jackson's detractors say he has brought this derision on himself, but it was the media who chose to let the allegations define Michael Jackson, not his work. Michael Jackson didn't suddenly become irrelevant musically when accused.

Despite the fact his post Thriller albums were large sellers and met with general critical acclaim at the time, received opinion today tends to extol the virtues of only Off the Wall and Thriller, crediting Quincy Jones's magic for their appeal. (Never mind that Jones was also involved in 1987's Bad.)

What may have been the real catalyst for Jackson's "downfall" began to take shape in 1986, when Jackson acquired the ATV catalog, including the publishing rights to more than 150 Beatles songs, for a reported $47.5 million. Later he merged ATV with Sony's publishing catalog, creating a music-publishing business worth close to $1 billion.

With these moves, Jackson became more than just a simple song-and-dance man. He became one of the most powerful men in the music industry.

Criticism was immediate. He "stole" the catalog from Paul McCartney. He desecrated the Beatles' precious songs by licensing them for commercials.

Around this time, the epithet "Wacko Jacko" emerged. Were those same critics all over Sir Paul when he purchased the music-publishing rights of other artists? No, he was praised for his business acumen.

But Michael Jackson's purchase of the ATV catalog marked one of the first times a black person (since Jackson's own mentor, Motown's Berry Gordy) became a force to be reckoned with in the music industry and, consequently, the business world.

And indeed, the catalog remains the crux of much speculation, with hopeful detractors constructing elaborate stories with Jackson teetering on the brink of bankruptcy, the loss of the precious catalog imminent: He borrowed $200 million from a Saudi prince to pay off his debts. He's going to lose the catalog. No, wait, he borrowed the $200 million from Sony. Wait -- they're denying it? Well, then, he borrowed it from Bank of America. Any day now, I swear to you, he'll lose the catalog. Sources? Of course I have my sources. Jackson's maid's former neighbor's uncle's cousin's second husband told me so.

Well, it's been eighteen years and Jackson still owns the catalog and yet this unfounded speculation persists. Does McCartney face the same speculation, even though the catalogs he owns include the work of many black artists? Of course not. McCartney lives lavishly without a raised eyebrow or a snicker about his financial savvy. But because Michael Jackson bought the Beatles, he has all the snickering Sams in their efficiency apartments eager for his financial ruin.

Why such different treatment of the two artists? Arguably, race comes into play. Jackson has been accused of playing the race card during this current situation, as well as during his very public falling out with former Sony Music chair, Tommy Mottola. It could be argued that those who scrutinize Jackson's business practices more exactingly than those of comparable whites, feel the need to undermine this particular defense. Media pundits and commentators -- everybody from the ladies of The View to Bill O'Reilly to Rolling Stone's resident "voice of all things black", Toure, tried to strip him of his professional accomplishments, and now they're attempting to strip him of his race. (though admittedly "Black Man" is now written prominently on his now famous mug shot).

If the media derision Jackson faces had no racial component, one would expect him to still earn his critical due from the mainstream, much the way other alleged pedophile Roman Polanski has been able to do. If it wasn't about race, Jackson's bail wouldn't have been set at $3 million while accused murderer Phil Spector's was set at a comparably paltry $1 million. Apologists for Santa Barbara County argue that bail was set in accordance to Jackson's wealth, to ensure that a significant proportion of his money would be at risk if he skipped town. But, wait -- isn't he supposed to be going broke? Make up your minds, already!

The fact is Michael Jackson's persona will always be inextricably connected to America's feelings about race: at best, color-blind transcendence, at worst, self-loathing. Because Jackson has been a star since childhood, society seems to believe that they own him, and when he overstepped the bounds of what society thought he should be in terms of power, they felt it was their duty to cut him back to size. The man who integrated MTV was loved when he merely sang and danced as society wanted him to, when he posed no threat, when he looked the way any non-threatening black man "should" look. In 1993, Michael Jackson was arguably the biggest international star in the world, reaching people of every color and creed, crushing sales records on a global level left and right with his hugely successful Dangerous tour and his internationally televised record-breaking interview with Oprah Winfrey and his philanthropic effort, the Heal the World foundation. But he was also markedly different looking than he was when the beloved Thriller album came out, and he was coming off the heels of signing his near-billion-dollar deal with Sony.

And then the first molestation allegations came out. But is the eerie loneliness demonstrated in "Stranger in Moscow" (from 1995's HIStory album) any less beautiful because it came after the first allegations? Are the intricately orchestrated minor-key strings and driving rhythm line in "Who Is It" (from 1991's Dangerous) not compelling and gut-wrenching because the song was recorded after Jackson's "descent into madness?" Is the funky deliciousness of "You Rock My World" (on 2001's Invincible) lost because the Michael who sang it bore only a slight physical resemblance to the man on the cover of Thriller? I, for one, can't buy that, but most of the public apparently has, since all of Jackson's musical efforts seem to be derided and ridiculed regardless of merit.

It may be that the idea of a black man, especially one who refuses to conform to virtually any societal norms and expectations, having such a profound effect is profoundly scary to some. In his 1997 song, "Is It Scary" Jackson promises "If you want to see eccentric oddities, I'll be grotesque before your eyes" and indeed, in that simple line Jackson made an important social comment -- in terms of public perception, he is whatever people want him to be. Perhaps subconsciously, Jackson's eccentricities were a way of saying "f--- you" to those he felt were boxing him into what the polite society deemed acceptable for a black man. But in destroying the restraints put upon him, these deviations from the norm -- his business ventures, his plastic-surgery transformations, his marriages to famous daughters of deceased pop icons -- also made the atmosphere ripe for anyone to believe just about anything about him. This in turn allowed the child molestation allegations (both past and present) to serve so readily as ammunition to destroy the dynasty that he began creating back when he was just a little boy in Gary, Indiana.

Now, following a grand jury indictment, Michael Jackson readies himself to stand trial on several counts of child molestation, administering an intoxicating agent, and conspiracy. It begins a process in which the whole world will find out more about Michael Jackson than it ever thought it would, and it will be very surprised, I suspect, regardless of its current opinions of him. If our system of jurisprudence is effective, then and only then will any of us know this particular truth about Michael Jackson. But iother truths will remain untouched. In the meantime, I'm not going to put away my copies of Dangerous and HIStory, and I'm not going to forget all that Michael Jackson has meant to so many people, not only in terms of his enormous talent, but also his ability to give of himself to help others with his equally enormous wealth and to break down racial barriers in the entertainment and business worlds.

No matter the outcome of his journey through the judicial system -- and despite what many would have us believe -- he has always been and will always be more than just these charges.

Jim said...

THANKS Keshi
i love u

Keshi said...

wut was that TY for Jim?

btw when I hv time, I'll join WUB...

Keshi.

Jim said...

Cassius Clay was wronged too
so he became Mohamed Ali

victimization of the blacks in USA

Jim said...

lemme tell u more about WUB
WUB was started by Sharm a Dr (PhD)

the purpose
to tell the world that ISLAM is not a religion of HATE

and JEHAD is misunderstood by the western world

the christians did worse in the CRUSADES led by Pope Urban II


LOVE and PEACE (the motto of WUB)
Saby/ Jim

Jim said...

They told him don't you ever come around here
Don't wanna see your face, you better disappear
The fire's in their eyes and their words are really clear
So beat it, just beat it

You better run, you better do what you can
Don't wanna see no blood, don't be a macho man
You wanna be tough, better do what you can
So beat it, but you wanna be bad

Just beat it, beat it, beat it, beat it
No one wants to be defeated
Showin' how funky and strong is your fight
It doesn't matter who's wrong or right
Just beat it, beat it
Just beat it, beat it
Just beat it, beat it
Just beat it, beat it

They're out to get you, better leave while you can
Don't wanna be a boy, you wanna be a man
You wanna stay alive, better do what you can
So beat it, just beat it

You have to show them that you're really not scared
You're playin' with your life, this ain't no truth or dare
They'll kick you, then they beat you,
Then they'll tell you it's fair
So beat it, but you wanna be bad

Just beat it, beat it, beat it, beat it
No one wants to be defeated
Showin' how funky and strong is your fight
It doesn't matter who's wrong or right

Just beat it, beat it, beat it, beat it
No one wants to be defeated
Showin' how funky and strong is your fight
It doesn't matter who's wrong or right

Just beat it, beat it, beat it, beat it
No one wants to be defeated
Showin' how funky and strong is your fight
It doesn't matter who's wrong or right
Just beat it, beat it
Beat it, beat it, beat it

Beat it, beat it, beat it, beat it
No one wants to be defeated
Showin' how funky and strong is your fight
It doesn't matter who's wrong or who's right

Just beat it, beat it, beat it, beat it
No one wants to be defeated
Showin' how funky and strong is your fight
It doesn't matter who's wrong or right

Just beat it, beat it, beat it, beat it
No one wants to be defeated
Showin' how funky and strong is your fight
It doesn't matter who's wrong or right
Just beat it, beat it
Beat it, beat it, beat it

Beat it, beat it, beat it, beat it
No one wants to be defeated
Showin' how funky and strong is your fight
It doesn't matter who's wrong or who's right

Just beat it, beat it, beat it, beat it
No one wants to be defeated
Showin' how funky and strong is your fight
It doesn't matter who's wrong or right

Just beat it, beat it, beat it, beat it
No one wants to be defeated
Showin' how funky and strong is your fight
It doesn't matter who's wrong or right

Just beat it, beat it, beat it, beat it
No one wants to be defeated
Just beat it, beat it
Beat it, beat it, beat it

Jim said...

THANKS Keshi
i gott a new blog now

http://indefenseofmichaeljackson.blogspot.com/

Jim said...

there is no obligation to post frequently Keshi

just look at it like a mutual link exchange for now

WUB has page rank 4
u no about SEO
dont u?

Vik said...

I think I would be stunned for a few hours and then start thinking about going around the world site seeing places and things and obviously do the stuff you said as well just to leave the memories intact when i am gone... Perhaps would write a program to come and leave a comment behind in your blog periodically just to make you feel special :-) ** How abt that programmer instinct **

Then perhaps would plead, cry, follow any single girl to love me till I am gone LOL... I guess that's about it. Mabbe I would call it quit from work as well.. blah blah. you made me very pensive with that thought :-(

Keshi said...

Jim this topic is over now...lol!

I dunno much abt WUB at all....


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hey Vikz awwwwwww....dun cry..


**Perhaps would write a program to come and leave a comment behind in your blog periodically just to make you feel special


haha thats a neat thought! I mite be spooked tho...


**single girl

LOL! u poor thing. why dun u do it now and not wait for a 6month notice? :)




Keshi.

ammaro.com said...

i think everyone wants to resign from work if they could, 6 months to live or not :) it takes up our whole lives just to go to work, sit in an office/company/factory/etc all day long wasting your life away...

Keshi said...

so true Ammaro! and hey WC :)

when someone is close to death they'll realise wut life should really hv been like...


Keshi.

CM-Chap said...

Ho Babe... 6 months not eough for our Kissing Keshi prj itslef. Then from where u will do all this...

Keshi said...

lol Chap!

Keshi.